May it Be By Siren

Hey guys! Thank you for your reviews! This chapter is going to get very dark as Sauron and Saruman attempt to break Lily's spirit entirely. I don't own any of the Lord of the Rings characters, only Lily. I also don't own 'Bring me to Life' by Evanescence. You can download the song or listen to it on the Daredevil soundtrack. Either way, it's an amazing song. Lily torture ahead! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Legolas.

She had to get to Legolas.

Her abdomen felt as though it were on fire. Her vision was clouded, and she could barely move. She was being held by something rough and cold. 'It's the big monster,' she thought to herself. The creature must have stumbled over something, because she was jerked roughly. She cried out, her wound opening again. Fresh blood stained her shirt, and she was on the brink of passing out.

"You insolent fool! She'll die from blood loss if you keep jerking her around like that!" She gasped when she was torn out of her captor's arms. She felt something pressed against her lips and turned her head away. "You will die if you don't drink it. Normally I wouldn't care, but Saruman wants you alive. Now drink!" Forcing the flask to her lips, she drank. She grimaced at the taste. It was hot and burned her throat.

Slowly the pain from her stomach ebbed away, leaving her exhausted. "Why did you have to cut her up? Saruman said that she was to be brought to him alive and well!" Her original captor grunted. "I was just making sure that she couldn't run. Besides, who know what sort of powers she has?" The leader grunted. "True. But you better pray that Saruman is as understanding as I am." He lifted her into his arms. "Now move out!" Lily grasped her necklace weakly, and gave it a tug.

Thankfully the chain holding it broke, and she dropped it to the ground. 'Find me.' ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"The sun is setting. We should make camp," Aragorn announced. Legolas was growing frantic. They had been tracking the Uruk-Hai for two days, and they still hadn't found them. "Lily was injured the last time I saw her! She could be dying as we speak!" the elf protested. Boromir sighed. "We will continue searching as long as we have the light to do so. But at nightfall we must stop to rest." Legolas frowned but nodded. "Fine then. Let us continue our hunt."

Aragorn searched the ground, following the tracks the Uruk-Hai left. Every so often he would find a patch of grass stained with dark blood, and felt his heart clench. Lily's wound was reopened. Looking at yet another patch of blood, he gasped. Something glittered in the grass, and he picked it up. "Legolas!" The elf rushed over to his side, and his eyes widened. He took the necklace into his hand and marveled at the sight of it.

The once clear crystal sun was now crusted with dry blood. Lily's blood. Shutting his eyes tightly, he clutched the sun in his hand. "She's alive. Thank the Valar, she's still alive!" Hope filled his heart, and tears sprung to his eyes. There was still a chance that he would find her and save her. Boromir and Gimli walked over to the ecstatic elf, their eyes falling on the pendant in his hand. "Let us make haste than. We shouldn't keep our angel waiting," the steward of Gondor said.

With renewed spirits, the four hunters continued their search. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
The Uruk-Hai finally stopped running. They were exhausted, having never stopped running except for once. Lily was dropped to the ground, and she groaned. She forced herself to open her eyes and searched for her friends. "Pippin? Merry?" She finally spotted the two hobbits and smiled. They both had small abrasions on their foreheads, but they would live. Crawling over to them, she called out their names softly. Pippin looked over at her and gasped. "Lily!"

She stopped in front of them, and forced herself into a sitting position. Pippin's eyes brimmed with tears at the sight of her wound, as did Merry's. Smiling slightly, she opened her arms and embraced them as they crawled into her lap. She stroked their hair, and hugged them. "It's alright. Everything's alright," she soothed. Merry clutched her shirt, burying his head into her chest like a child. "You're hurt," he choked out. Lily kissed his forehead. "I know, but I'm okay."

Pippin touched her stomach softly, and gasped when he felt a warm sticky substance. "You're still bleeding!" Lily nodded. "I know. Don't worry about it." Pippin pulled back a bit and ripped the hem of his shirt. "I certainly will worry about it!" he muttered indignantly. He pressed the cloth to her wound, and winced when she inhaled sharply. "Forgive me Lily, but I must stop the bleeding." He whimpered when he heard her sob a bit. Lily noticed, and hugged him tightly. "It's alright Pippin. Thank you."

She smiled when she felt Merry's even breathing. The poor hobbit had finally fallen asleep. Laying Pippin's head on her shoulder, she hummed softly. "Try to sleep Pippin," she whispered. He shook his head. "What if those monsters come over here? They'll take you away!" Lily smiled. "Don't worry so much. They won't take me away, I promise." After a few minutes, he finally closed his eyes and his breathing evened out. Sighing, Lily leaned against the tree behind her. 'Legolas, where are you?' ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Saruman watched everything from the Plantir. Every sweet, disgusting little action. He shook his head. "Such a pure little thing. It's disgusting." "SHE CANNOT BE ALLOWED TO LIVE. YOU KNOW WHAT YOU MUST DO." The wizard smiled thinly. "Of course, my lord. Should it be swift, or cruel?" Sauron chuckled. "MUST YOU ASK?" Saruman laughed. "I thought as much. As you wish, milord." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"Lily..."

Lily groaned in her sleep, and shivered. "Lily, look at your mother when she's talking to you!" Her eyes snapped open and she gasped. She knew that voice. But it was impossible. Her father was dead, he had been for years. "Rise and shine sleeping beauty!" Her eyes widened. "Daddy?" She heard someone chuckle beside her, and craned her neck to look. Her heart pounded when she saw who it was. "It can't be," she gasped. Her father smiled. "Hello sweetheart." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

The riders of Rohan saw a small campfire in the distance. "Orcs?" The leader nodded. "Why are they so close to Rohan's borders?" Eomer frowned. "It matters not. Come, let's dispose of them before they come any closer to our home." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Lily stared at him in disbelief. "It can't be you. I saw your body." Her father smiled lovingly and took her hand in his. "Because of the heroic deeds you've performed, I was allowed to come to you. I've missed you so much." Tears brimmed in Lily's eyes and she looked down at her father's hand. She could feel his rough skin, and let out a sob. He was real. She threw herself into his arms and sobbed. "I missed you so much! All these years I've felt so alone! It hurt so much!"

Her father held her and stroked her hair. "I know honey. You don't have to be alone anymore." Lily smiled. "You can stay?" Her father smiled and shook his head. "No honey. You have to leave." Her smile faltered. "W- what?" Her father stood up and pulled her to her feet. "You've been very brave, and your mother and I are very proud of you. But by coming here you've changed everything. People will die because of you." Lily stared at him with wide eyes. "But the visions...Galadriel said I could save people!"

Her father cupped her face. "Galadriel is very wise, but even the wisest cannot foresee certain events. Your friends will die if you stay. And as for your visions, you were not meant to have them. They will kill you." Lily looked away. "But I could help them. I saw Boromir's death, and I saved him. Daddy, I can save this world!" He shook his head. "No Lily, you'll destroy it. Come with me, and be with your family again." Lily frowned. "You're asking me to die?"

Her father smiled sadly. "Your punishment is over. Come with me and finally be at peace. Your mother and brother miss you dearly." Tears fell from her eyes. "Tom?" Her father nodded. "We miss you honey. Come home." Lily looked over at the hobbits. "I can't leave them. I can't leave Legolas," she whispered. Her father frowned. "You could never be with him, Lily. He's an eternal being, and you will die. You don't know what you're asking him to do, or if he'd even do it. It's just not possible."

Lily shut her eyes as more tears fell. "I'm happy here." Her father sighed and brushed the hair away from her face. "I know. But if you care about your friends like you say you do, than you must leave. It's the only way to truly save them." Lily opened her eyes. "I don't know what to do." Her father smiled. "Come with me." Her face crumpled as she cried. "I can't!" Her father grabbed her shoulders. "You have to! If you love these people than you must!"

How can you see into my eyes

Like open doors?

Leading you down into my core

Where I've become so numb

Lily looked at her father for a moment and nodded. "What do I have to do?" Her father smiled and took her hand. "Follow me." He pulled her away from the Uruk-Hai camp, and into the woods. Despite the fact that it was pitch black, her father seemed to know where he was going. Looking at the man before her, she frowned. Her father's image flickered for a moment, and was replaced by a man that slightly resembled Gandalf. But than the old man disappeared, and her father stood in his place.

They came to a ridge, where a river roared below. She looked at her father in confusion. He smiled and let her hand go. "Jump," he said softly. Lily's eyes widened. "No." Her father frowned. "Do you want to save your friends?" Lily's eyes narrowed. "Do you want me to die?" she shot back. Her father's eyes blazed with fury and he grabbed her hand. Squeezing it painfully, he tugged her towards the edge. "Jump!" he shouted. Lily stared at him in shock. "Stop it!" she screamed.

Without a soul

My spirit's sleeping somewhere cold

Until you find it there and lead it back home
Lily pulled away, but he refused to let go of her hand. "What are you doing? Stop it!" She struggled against him, and to her confusion he smiled. "You're making daddy angry," he hissed. Lily's eyes widened as his once gentle eyes became cold. "This could have been done the simple way, but no. You had to make this difficult." Lily began to tremble. "Who are you?" The man touched her hair and she flinched. "I tried to make this as painless as possible. An innocent creature like you shouldn't have to suffer like this."

He smiled coldly. "But than again, no pain," he struck her, "no gain. Isn't that what you mortals say?" Lily's eyes narrowed. "Let go of me!" He slammed his fist into her stomach and she doubled over. "You couldn't just jump, could you? Oh well, there's more than one way to kill an angel." He grabbed her arm and threw her to the edge. He stood over her, no longer wearing her father's image. She looked up at him through the spots dancing in her vision.

Wake me up inside

Wake me up inside

Call my name and save me from the dark

Bid my blood to run

Before I come undone

Save me from the nothing I've become

In place of her father stood the man she saw before. Now she noticed that he looked nothing like Gandalf. His eyes were dark and cold, and his hair was white. "Who are you?" she croaked. The man smiled. "The last being you'll ever see," he replied and picked her up. Holding her by her shoulders, he studied her face. "So young yet so ancient. If you only stayed in your world, than this wouldn't be happening." Lily struggled. "I never asked to come here!"

Saruman smiled. "But you did. Your mortal soul was crying out for salvation. For a place where you would be loved. And here you are. Happy?" He traced the wound on her stomach and sighed. "Mortality. I bet you're wishing you had never saved that one mortal all those years ago."

Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life

Taking one last look at her, Saruman threw her over the edge. Lily gasped, and stared up at the man. He simply smiled and turned to walk away. Closing her eyes, she waited for her death. Suddenly something warm enveloped her, holding her close. She opened her eyes, but all she saw was white. Such warmth...

Frozen inside without your touch
Without your love darling
Only you are the life among the dead

"Lily..." She opened her eyes to see someone hovering over her. Her mother smiled gently. Lily held up a hand and touched her mother's face. There were no bruises, no wounds, nothing. She smiled. "Mommy...?" Her mother smiled warmly and held her hand. "I'm here honey. Mommy's here," she soothed.

All of this sight
I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark
But you were there in front of me

"Am I dead?" Lily's mother laughed softly. God how she missed that laugh. "No honey. You're very much alive." Lily frowned. "That man said I had to die to save my friends." Her mother shook her head. "No Lily. You have to live." Her mother frowned. "I'm so sorry that you've been so alone." Her mother squeezed her hand. "But look at how you've grown. I always said you'd grow up to be beautiful."

Lily's mother looked up at the sound of horses galloping. "I have to go now." Lily's eyes widened. "No, you can't leave me! Don't leave me alone again, please! Mommy, please stay with me!" Her mother smiled softly. "Oh honey you're not alone. Not anymore. And I'll never truly leave you." She kissed Lily's forehead. "I love you honey." Giving her daughter's hand a squeeze, she faded away.

I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
I've got to open my eyes to everything
Without a thought
Without a voice
Without a soul

"Mommy?" Lily began to cry. "Mommy?" She heard someone kneel beside her. "Milady, are you alright?" a man asked. Lily shut her eyes tightly and cried. She was gone. Her mother disappeared from her life a second time. The man picked her up and carried her over to his horse. "Eomer, who's that?" The man shook his head. "I don't know, but she's injured." He put her in the saddle and sat behind her. Lily leaned against him and cried. "It's alright milady. You're safe now," he assured her. Lily didn't hear him.

Don't let me die here
There must be something wrong
Bring me to life

Legolas's eyes searched the plains in front of them. "There are riders approaching!" His eyes widened when he saw who was riding with them. "They have Lily!" he shouted. His heart began to race. Aragorn ran up to him. "Are you sure?" Legolas nodded. "She's asleep but injured. She's alive, Aragorn! She's alive!"

Wake me up inside
Wake me up inside
Call my name and save me from the dark
Bid my blood to run
Before I come undone
Save me from the nothing I've become