May it Be
By Siren
Hey guys! Well, there are only a few chapters left to this story. I'll explain everything later. Anyway, Rohan is being evacuated in this chapter. Lily's visions become much more painful and deadly, and Sauron is taking advantage of it. This chapter is going to lead to some unexpected turns and determines whether or not Lily's choice was a good one. Also, from the reviewer who mentioned 'STEPS' I heard one song by them, 'One for Sorrow,' and you're right. THEY'RE TERRIBLE! (Shudders) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Disgusting. Absolutely disgusting."
Saruman was glaring at the images in the Plantir. Lily and Legolas were asleep in each other's arms, content smiles on their faces. Turning away, he focused his attention on Grima.
"You didn't split them up?"
Grima cowered under the wizard's glare. "I tried milord, I really did! But her feelings for the elf are too strong to break!"
Saruman growled and looked back at the Plantir. Lily snuggled against Legolas, who tightened his arms around her.
"Everything has a weakness. We must simply discover what it is. Despite their bond, she still has doubts. She doubts her decision as well as the elf's feelings for her. She doubts herself more than anything," he sneered.
Grima fidgeted from his place in the shadows. "When I spoke with her earlier, I could see the fear in her eyes. She fears being apart from the elf. Perhaps if we were to separate them, she would be easier to destroy."
Saruman frowned. "She has been apart from the elf before and yet she still holds true to him."
Grima smiled. "But this time we shall poison her mind, just as I did Theoden's. Theoden broke free of your spell, but she is a mortal girl. A girl with a heart that can easily be broken. You can destroy her feelings for the elf, milord. You almost destroyed her before; you could complete your task now. Use her own feelings to ruin her."
Saruman smiled wickedly. "I like the way you think, Grima Wormtongue. Fine then, I shall try again to kill her. And if I cannot, than I shall let her destroy herself." Looking back at the Plantir, he smiled. "The angel's precious soul shall be broken." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Lily snuggled up to the warm form beside her, and opened her eyes.
She saw Legolas looking down at her, his head resting on his hand. "Quel kaima?" Staring at him blankly, he smiled. "I asked if you slept well," he translated. Blinking, she smiled. "Oh." Propping herself up on her elbows, she blew the hair out of her face.
"Yes I did. Very well actually," she said with a faint smile. Legolas smirked, a brushed the hair away from her shoulder. Looking at the tattoo, he touched her shoulder blade. "Where did you get this?" he asked. Lily shivered at his touch, and smiled.
"I got it two years after the murder of my family." Legolas's eyes widened.
"Forgive me, I should not have asked," he apologized. Lily smiled and shook her head. "Don't worry about it. I'm not going to have another breakdown."
Glancing over her shoulder, she could see the beginnings of the tattoo. "Anyway, after my family was killed, I could never sleep. I was an insomniac, which is someone who can't sleep well, if at all. So I would stay up for hours, looking at the moon and the stars. The sight of the moon always comforted me a little. So one day, I got this tattoo as a reminder that even though I was alone, there was still something to bring me peace, even if only for a few hours."
Legolas's eyes softened. He had seen her eyes darken when she spoke of her family. Just the mention of them brought pain to her eyes. He knew he would never understand what she went through completely. He was immortal, and death was not a normal occurrence in his life. Lily's face fell a bit.
"Night was always the hardest time for me. I was always afraid that something was lurking in the shadows, ready to send me to my death. Although there were some times when I was praying for it."
Legolas touched her arm, noticing her jaw clench. "You would pray for death?" She nodded, not looking at him.
"I had no reason to live. I had no friends and no family. I kept praying that I would go to sleep and never wake up. And when I lived to see another day, I wasn't sure I could survive. I kept thinking, 'if it gets any harder than this, I don't think I'll make it.' And than I came here." She looked at Legolas and smiled.
Brushing the hair away from his eyes, her smile grew. "You were my salvation. You saved me," she whispered. Legolas cupped her face and kissed her forehead. "Aratoamin," he whispered. Smiling, she leaned her forehead against his. "What does that mean?" Legolas stroked her cheek. "My champion," he said softly.
Lily closed her eyes. "I'm no champion," she argued. Legolas kissed her softly. "Yes you are. Everything you have done in your life...you are a champion. You saved Boromir; you chose a mortal life to save your friends." He kissed her again. "You are my champion."
Lily was touched. No one had ever said anything like that to her before. Stroking his cheek, she kissed him fully. She moaned when he began to respond, softly yet firmly. "Aratoamin," he sighed, and kissed her.
Nothing more was said for the next few hours. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Saruman closed his eyes, and began to chant darkly.
"Lord Sauron, give me the power to destroy she who you loathe. Lend me your dark energy so that I might end her life. Please Lord Sauron, I beg you."
A cold presence filled the room, and the wizard shivered.
"I SHALL LEND YOU MY POWER, SARUMAN OF THE ISTARI. BUT DO NOT FAIL ME. IF THE MORTAL WOMAN IS NOT DESTROYED, THAN YOU SHALL FEEL MY WRATH."
"I understand, milord."
Saruman gasped as he felt the dark power enter him, flowing through his veins. His eyes flew open, revealing their new darkness. A smile pulled at his lips. Standing up, he felt a new strength. "Give me the form I need to destroy the mortal woman." Slowly, his dark eyes became a deep blue, and his pale skin became soft. His white hair became blonde, and his haggard features became handsome.
A wicked smile appeared on his lips, distorting his new face. "Yes, this will do perfectly." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Legolas awoke to hear someone knocking on the door. Putting on his clothes, he opened it to see Aragorn's grim face. "What's wrong?" he asked. Aragorn glanced inside and saw Lily's sleeping form. "We shall not speak of it here. Come," he said, and walked away. Legolas glanced back at Lily, and left.
"What's wrong, Aragorn?"
"Theoden is having his people flee to Helm's Deep."
Legolas frowned. "Why won't they fight here? They will be trapped in Helm's Deep."
Aragorn nodded. "I know, but he will not listen. He wants the women and children to hide in the caves." Lowering his voice, he added, "The Uruk- Hai are coming, Legolas. I do not think Rohan will survive the battle."
The elf shook his head. "Have faith, Aragorn. It is much too early to despair. I will wake Lily, and we will meet you by the gates." Aragorn nodded with a faint smile. "I hope she is able to wake after her previous activities."
Legolas blushed furiously and punched his arm lightly. "Silly mortal," he muttered and walked back into the room. Aragorn shook his head and left laughing. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Legolas sat down next to Lily and kissed her cheek. "Time to wake up," he cooed softly. Lily stirred in her sleep and turned away. Chuckling, he blew lightly on her ear. She squirmed and opened her eyes to see him suppressing a laugh. "So human ears are sensitive as well," he mused.
Lily smiled and swatted at his hand. "Shut up," she growled playfully. Legolas laughed and caught her hand in his. Kissing her palm he watched her smile. "You must get dressed. The people of Rohan are leaving for Helm's Deep." Lily frowned. "What's Helm's Deep?"
"It is a fortress built into a mountain. It is supposedly very strong and is a good place to retreat to during a war." Lily sat up, her eyes widening. "Are the Uruk-Hai coming?" she asked worriedly. Legolas nodded. "I'm afraid they are." Lily looked away, holding the sheet to her chest.
Seeing her begin to tremble, he pulled her into his arms. "Don't worry. I won't let them take you, Aratoamin," he assured her. Lily forced herself to stop shaking, and nodded. "I know. I trust you," she said. Kissing the top of her head, he stood up. "We're leaving in an hour. I'll meet you in the stables." She nodded, and watched him leave.
Getting to her feet, she put on a pair of leggings and a short- sleeved tunic. She grabbed her boots and slipped them on. Taking her pack, she left the room and made her way to the stables.
Saruman watched Legolas walk away from Lily's room, and smiled when one of his servants approached him. 'Now for the distraction,' he thought to himself. The servant informed him that he had seen Grima near the gates. Being the hero he is, Legolas went to go investigate the problem, leaving Lily alone.
He watched Lily leave her room, looking content. He followed her to the stables, which were empty except for the horses. Her eyes brightened at the sight of one of them. "Gideon!" she shouted, and hugged the creature's neck. The horse neighed happily and nuzzled her shoulder. He rolled his eyes at the affectionate display before him. 'Sickening.'
Having seen enough of the little show, he walked in. "Lily, there you are!" Lily turned to him, and she smiled brightly. "Legolas, look! Gideon's here!" Saruman smiled and nodded. "I see. I'm glad to see you so happy," he lied. 'My plan is working perfectly. This glamour is excellent.' Lily smiled again and walked over to him. Taking his hands in her own, she looked up at him.
"I meant what I said last night. You are my savior. And what you said about me being a champion? It really meant a lot to me. No one has ever said anything that sweet to me before."
Saruman smiled. "Well it had my desired affect on you." Lily's smile faltered a bit. "What do you mean?" Saruman leaned down a bit. "I knew I would not be able to get you to sleep with me without such kind words," he whispered in her ear.
Lily felt as though something in her shattered. She jerked away from him, eyes wide. "What are you saying?" Saruman chuckled. "Though now I'm wondering if all those sweet words were worth it." His smile grew at the look of horror on Lily's face. "Oh come now, I'm almost three thousand years old. You can't possibly think that bedding a mortal would impress me. Though your stamina was surprising."
Lily felt tears spring to her eyes. "How can you say this to me? I thought, I thought..." "You thought what? That I loved you?" he laughed. "You said it yourself. I made you false promises and got what I wanted. What made you think that I would love you?"
Lily was shocked. How could he say these things? Just a few moments ago he was holding her. She gave up her life for him, and now he was saying this. "But, but you said, you promised---" "To what? Not break your heart?" He laughed again. " 'Oh please don't break my heart Legolas! Promise me!'" he mocked. Lily turned away, unable to look at him anymore. Saruman feigned hurt.
"Oh come now, don't be like that. This morning was fun." "Is that all it was to you? Fun?" Saruman smiled. "Of course it was. What did you expect it to be? Did you expect me to pledge undying love to you? You're a mortal! You'll die one day and your corpse will rot in the ground while I am free to be with others. Why would I love you?" When Lily didn't turn around, he touched her shoulder.
She turned around and slapped his hand. "Don't touch me!" she shouted. Saruman pulled his hand back with a wicked smile. Shutting her eyes for a moment, Lily struggled to compose herself. "Do you feel anything for me at all?" she asked quietly. He smirked. "You still don't understand, do you? Foolish mortals. I'll give you time to understand this. Though, being a mortal, time is not on your side."
He turned to leave, but Lily grabbed his hand. "What?" he asked. Lily looked up at him pleadingly. "I love you," she said softly. Saruman chuckled and took his hand away. "Of course you do, little one. And once you die, someone else will too," he sneered. Smiling wickedly, he left.
Lily watched him leave, dazed. What had just happened? Only a few hours ago he had been making love to her, and now...She clutched her stomach as a wave of nausea swept over her. She suddenly felt naked and exposed. She felt disgusted with herself, and fought the urge to vomit. Feeling the tears escape her eyes, she turned away and ran. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Lily ran into the streets of Rohan, pushing past the people in front of her. The skies had darkened, and storm clouds hovered above. As the rain began to fall and thunder began to boom, she began to hyperventilate. She needed to get away. She needed to leave this place. To leave Legolas. Stumbling she skidded to the ground. She felt someone lift her up, and struggled.
"Lily?" She froze, recognizing Boromir's voice. He turned her to him, shocked to see the tear tracks on her face. "What happened?" Lily just shook her head and continued to cry. Boromir pulled her into a hug and stroked her hair. "It's alright. Come, we should get out of the rain."
I can't lose anything
So what's left is mine
And I win this time
Saruman shifted back to his original form, and looked into the Plantir. He smiled happily at the sight in front of him. Boromir was consoling Lily, but the wizard knew that nothing could heal her broken heart. He had broken her soul, and soon she would no longer pose a threat to Sauron. The look of utter betrayal on her face flashed through his mind. It was so perfect. The beautiful pain in her eyes...
Consolation day
I'll make up a way
I'll know now just what to say
Legolas arrived at the gates with Gideon and the other horses. Gideon was struggling to get away from the elf, fury blazing in his eyes. "Calm down, Gideon. What has gotten into you?"
At the sight of Lily, the horse pulled away and galloped toward her. Lily wiped her eyes and hugged the horse tightly. Boromir threw a furious glare at the elf. Lily had told him what he had said, and now he wanted nothing more than to kill him. Stroking Gideon's cheek, Lily leaned against him.
"Here Lily," Legolas said, and started to help her get onto the horse. She flinched at his touch and pulled away. "Get away from me," she hissed. Legolas's eyes widened. What had happened? "Aratoamin?" Once on Gideon's back, Lily growled at him. "Don't call me that." Legolas opened his mouth to speak, but Boromir's heavy hand on his shoulder stopped him.
"Stay away from her," the steward of Gondor growled. Getting onto his own horse, Boromir rode close to Lily. "What is going on?" the elf asked aloud.
I'll get away from you
Wait and I'll be begging
I'll pull you down
After a few hours of riding, the others were starting to get worried. Lily's eyes had darkened since they left Rohan, and her face was wiped clean of emotion. Legolas was just as confused as them. Lily had given no indication to anyone other than Boromir as to the source of her fury, but it was unnerving. Each time Legolas tried to talk to her, Boromir stepped in and stopped him.
Boromir refused to let anyone talk to her, even Gandalf. Legolas couldn't decide if Boromir was acting like an older brother, or a constant bodyguard. Considering his affection for her, it was probably both. 'What happened?' he thought with a frown.
I saw it all again
Fading memory became clear to me
I try but I can't say
That I'm your's for good
Support me as you said you would
Lily was dying inside. Everything he had said had cut her to the core. He had taken her love for her and threw it in her face. Grima was right all along. Legolas didn't love her, he never would. She was a fool to think he would. She was a fool for deciding to remain a mortal. She cursed herself and Legolas.
Slowly, she began to guard her emotions and her heart. The pain of her conversation with Legolas was almost unbearable. She would gladly welcome death at the moment. Why is it that in both this life and her past one, the one she loved the most was also the one who destroyed her? 'Never again,' she promised silently. 'Never again will I open my heart to anyone.'
I'll get away from you
Wait and I'll be begging
I'll pull you down
Awake and dreaming
I'm only sleeping
(A.N.- The lyrics belong to 'Awake and Dreaming' by Finger Eleven)
Hey guys! Well, there are only a few chapters left to this story. I'll explain everything later. Anyway, Rohan is being evacuated in this chapter. Lily's visions become much more painful and deadly, and Sauron is taking advantage of it. This chapter is going to lead to some unexpected turns and determines whether or not Lily's choice was a good one. Also, from the reviewer who mentioned 'STEPS' I heard one song by them, 'One for Sorrow,' and you're right. THEY'RE TERRIBLE! (Shudders) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Disgusting. Absolutely disgusting."
Saruman was glaring at the images in the Plantir. Lily and Legolas were asleep in each other's arms, content smiles on their faces. Turning away, he focused his attention on Grima.
"You didn't split them up?"
Grima cowered under the wizard's glare. "I tried milord, I really did! But her feelings for the elf are too strong to break!"
Saruman growled and looked back at the Plantir. Lily snuggled against Legolas, who tightened his arms around her.
"Everything has a weakness. We must simply discover what it is. Despite their bond, she still has doubts. She doubts her decision as well as the elf's feelings for her. She doubts herself more than anything," he sneered.
Grima fidgeted from his place in the shadows. "When I spoke with her earlier, I could see the fear in her eyes. She fears being apart from the elf. Perhaps if we were to separate them, she would be easier to destroy."
Saruman frowned. "She has been apart from the elf before and yet she still holds true to him."
Grima smiled. "But this time we shall poison her mind, just as I did Theoden's. Theoden broke free of your spell, but she is a mortal girl. A girl with a heart that can easily be broken. You can destroy her feelings for the elf, milord. You almost destroyed her before; you could complete your task now. Use her own feelings to ruin her."
Saruman smiled wickedly. "I like the way you think, Grima Wormtongue. Fine then, I shall try again to kill her. And if I cannot, than I shall let her destroy herself." Looking back at the Plantir, he smiled. "The angel's precious soul shall be broken." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Lily snuggled up to the warm form beside her, and opened her eyes.
She saw Legolas looking down at her, his head resting on his hand. "Quel kaima?" Staring at him blankly, he smiled. "I asked if you slept well," he translated. Blinking, she smiled. "Oh." Propping herself up on her elbows, she blew the hair out of her face.
"Yes I did. Very well actually," she said with a faint smile. Legolas smirked, a brushed the hair away from her shoulder. Looking at the tattoo, he touched her shoulder blade. "Where did you get this?" he asked. Lily shivered at his touch, and smiled.
"I got it two years after the murder of my family." Legolas's eyes widened.
"Forgive me, I should not have asked," he apologized. Lily smiled and shook her head. "Don't worry about it. I'm not going to have another breakdown."
Glancing over her shoulder, she could see the beginnings of the tattoo. "Anyway, after my family was killed, I could never sleep. I was an insomniac, which is someone who can't sleep well, if at all. So I would stay up for hours, looking at the moon and the stars. The sight of the moon always comforted me a little. So one day, I got this tattoo as a reminder that even though I was alone, there was still something to bring me peace, even if only for a few hours."
Legolas's eyes softened. He had seen her eyes darken when she spoke of her family. Just the mention of them brought pain to her eyes. He knew he would never understand what she went through completely. He was immortal, and death was not a normal occurrence in his life. Lily's face fell a bit.
"Night was always the hardest time for me. I was always afraid that something was lurking in the shadows, ready to send me to my death. Although there were some times when I was praying for it."
Legolas touched her arm, noticing her jaw clench. "You would pray for death?" She nodded, not looking at him.
"I had no reason to live. I had no friends and no family. I kept praying that I would go to sleep and never wake up. And when I lived to see another day, I wasn't sure I could survive. I kept thinking, 'if it gets any harder than this, I don't think I'll make it.' And than I came here." She looked at Legolas and smiled.
Brushing the hair away from his eyes, her smile grew. "You were my salvation. You saved me," she whispered. Legolas cupped her face and kissed her forehead. "Aratoamin," he whispered. Smiling, she leaned her forehead against his. "What does that mean?" Legolas stroked her cheek. "My champion," he said softly.
Lily closed her eyes. "I'm no champion," she argued. Legolas kissed her softly. "Yes you are. Everything you have done in your life...you are a champion. You saved Boromir; you chose a mortal life to save your friends." He kissed her again. "You are my champion."
Lily was touched. No one had ever said anything like that to her before. Stroking his cheek, she kissed him fully. She moaned when he began to respond, softly yet firmly. "Aratoamin," he sighed, and kissed her.
Nothing more was said for the next few hours. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Saruman closed his eyes, and began to chant darkly.
"Lord Sauron, give me the power to destroy she who you loathe. Lend me your dark energy so that I might end her life. Please Lord Sauron, I beg you."
A cold presence filled the room, and the wizard shivered.
"I SHALL LEND YOU MY POWER, SARUMAN OF THE ISTARI. BUT DO NOT FAIL ME. IF THE MORTAL WOMAN IS NOT DESTROYED, THAN YOU SHALL FEEL MY WRATH."
"I understand, milord."
Saruman gasped as he felt the dark power enter him, flowing through his veins. His eyes flew open, revealing their new darkness. A smile pulled at his lips. Standing up, he felt a new strength. "Give me the form I need to destroy the mortal woman." Slowly, his dark eyes became a deep blue, and his pale skin became soft. His white hair became blonde, and his haggard features became handsome.
A wicked smile appeared on his lips, distorting his new face. "Yes, this will do perfectly." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Legolas awoke to hear someone knocking on the door. Putting on his clothes, he opened it to see Aragorn's grim face. "What's wrong?" he asked. Aragorn glanced inside and saw Lily's sleeping form. "We shall not speak of it here. Come," he said, and walked away. Legolas glanced back at Lily, and left.
"What's wrong, Aragorn?"
"Theoden is having his people flee to Helm's Deep."
Legolas frowned. "Why won't they fight here? They will be trapped in Helm's Deep."
Aragorn nodded. "I know, but he will not listen. He wants the women and children to hide in the caves." Lowering his voice, he added, "The Uruk- Hai are coming, Legolas. I do not think Rohan will survive the battle."
The elf shook his head. "Have faith, Aragorn. It is much too early to despair. I will wake Lily, and we will meet you by the gates." Aragorn nodded with a faint smile. "I hope she is able to wake after her previous activities."
Legolas blushed furiously and punched his arm lightly. "Silly mortal," he muttered and walked back into the room. Aragorn shook his head and left laughing. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Legolas sat down next to Lily and kissed her cheek. "Time to wake up," he cooed softly. Lily stirred in her sleep and turned away. Chuckling, he blew lightly on her ear. She squirmed and opened her eyes to see him suppressing a laugh. "So human ears are sensitive as well," he mused.
Lily smiled and swatted at his hand. "Shut up," she growled playfully. Legolas laughed and caught her hand in his. Kissing her palm he watched her smile. "You must get dressed. The people of Rohan are leaving for Helm's Deep." Lily frowned. "What's Helm's Deep?"
"It is a fortress built into a mountain. It is supposedly very strong and is a good place to retreat to during a war." Lily sat up, her eyes widening. "Are the Uruk-Hai coming?" she asked worriedly. Legolas nodded. "I'm afraid they are." Lily looked away, holding the sheet to her chest.
Seeing her begin to tremble, he pulled her into his arms. "Don't worry. I won't let them take you, Aratoamin," he assured her. Lily forced herself to stop shaking, and nodded. "I know. I trust you," she said. Kissing the top of her head, he stood up. "We're leaving in an hour. I'll meet you in the stables." She nodded, and watched him leave.
Getting to her feet, she put on a pair of leggings and a short- sleeved tunic. She grabbed her boots and slipped them on. Taking her pack, she left the room and made her way to the stables.
Saruman watched Legolas walk away from Lily's room, and smiled when one of his servants approached him. 'Now for the distraction,' he thought to himself. The servant informed him that he had seen Grima near the gates. Being the hero he is, Legolas went to go investigate the problem, leaving Lily alone.
He watched Lily leave her room, looking content. He followed her to the stables, which were empty except for the horses. Her eyes brightened at the sight of one of them. "Gideon!" she shouted, and hugged the creature's neck. The horse neighed happily and nuzzled her shoulder. He rolled his eyes at the affectionate display before him. 'Sickening.'
Having seen enough of the little show, he walked in. "Lily, there you are!" Lily turned to him, and she smiled brightly. "Legolas, look! Gideon's here!" Saruman smiled and nodded. "I see. I'm glad to see you so happy," he lied. 'My plan is working perfectly. This glamour is excellent.' Lily smiled again and walked over to him. Taking his hands in her own, she looked up at him.
"I meant what I said last night. You are my savior. And what you said about me being a champion? It really meant a lot to me. No one has ever said anything that sweet to me before."
Saruman smiled. "Well it had my desired affect on you." Lily's smile faltered a bit. "What do you mean?" Saruman leaned down a bit. "I knew I would not be able to get you to sleep with me without such kind words," he whispered in her ear.
Lily felt as though something in her shattered. She jerked away from him, eyes wide. "What are you saying?" Saruman chuckled. "Though now I'm wondering if all those sweet words were worth it." His smile grew at the look of horror on Lily's face. "Oh come now, I'm almost three thousand years old. You can't possibly think that bedding a mortal would impress me. Though your stamina was surprising."
Lily felt tears spring to her eyes. "How can you say this to me? I thought, I thought..." "You thought what? That I loved you?" he laughed. "You said it yourself. I made you false promises and got what I wanted. What made you think that I would love you?"
Lily was shocked. How could he say these things? Just a few moments ago he was holding her. She gave up her life for him, and now he was saying this. "But, but you said, you promised---" "To what? Not break your heart?" He laughed again. " 'Oh please don't break my heart Legolas! Promise me!'" he mocked. Lily turned away, unable to look at him anymore. Saruman feigned hurt.
"Oh come now, don't be like that. This morning was fun." "Is that all it was to you? Fun?" Saruman smiled. "Of course it was. What did you expect it to be? Did you expect me to pledge undying love to you? You're a mortal! You'll die one day and your corpse will rot in the ground while I am free to be with others. Why would I love you?" When Lily didn't turn around, he touched her shoulder.
She turned around and slapped his hand. "Don't touch me!" she shouted. Saruman pulled his hand back with a wicked smile. Shutting her eyes for a moment, Lily struggled to compose herself. "Do you feel anything for me at all?" she asked quietly. He smirked. "You still don't understand, do you? Foolish mortals. I'll give you time to understand this. Though, being a mortal, time is not on your side."
He turned to leave, but Lily grabbed his hand. "What?" he asked. Lily looked up at him pleadingly. "I love you," she said softly. Saruman chuckled and took his hand away. "Of course you do, little one. And once you die, someone else will too," he sneered. Smiling wickedly, he left.
Lily watched him leave, dazed. What had just happened? Only a few hours ago he had been making love to her, and now...She clutched her stomach as a wave of nausea swept over her. She suddenly felt naked and exposed. She felt disgusted with herself, and fought the urge to vomit. Feeling the tears escape her eyes, she turned away and ran. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Lily ran into the streets of Rohan, pushing past the people in front of her. The skies had darkened, and storm clouds hovered above. As the rain began to fall and thunder began to boom, she began to hyperventilate. She needed to get away. She needed to leave this place. To leave Legolas. Stumbling she skidded to the ground. She felt someone lift her up, and struggled.
"Lily?" She froze, recognizing Boromir's voice. He turned her to him, shocked to see the tear tracks on her face. "What happened?" Lily just shook her head and continued to cry. Boromir pulled her into a hug and stroked her hair. "It's alright. Come, we should get out of the rain."
I can't lose anything
So what's left is mine
And I win this time
Saruman shifted back to his original form, and looked into the Plantir. He smiled happily at the sight in front of him. Boromir was consoling Lily, but the wizard knew that nothing could heal her broken heart. He had broken her soul, and soon she would no longer pose a threat to Sauron. The look of utter betrayal on her face flashed through his mind. It was so perfect. The beautiful pain in her eyes...
Consolation day
I'll make up a way
I'll know now just what to say
Legolas arrived at the gates with Gideon and the other horses. Gideon was struggling to get away from the elf, fury blazing in his eyes. "Calm down, Gideon. What has gotten into you?"
At the sight of Lily, the horse pulled away and galloped toward her. Lily wiped her eyes and hugged the horse tightly. Boromir threw a furious glare at the elf. Lily had told him what he had said, and now he wanted nothing more than to kill him. Stroking Gideon's cheek, Lily leaned against him.
"Here Lily," Legolas said, and started to help her get onto the horse. She flinched at his touch and pulled away. "Get away from me," she hissed. Legolas's eyes widened. What had happened? "Aratoamin?" Once on Gideon's back, Lily growled at him. "Don't call me that." Legolas opened his mouth to speak, but Boromir's heavy hand on his shoulder stopped him.
"Stay away from her," the steward of Gondor growled. Getting onto his own horse, Boromir rode close to Lily. "What is going on?" the elf asked aloud.
I'll get away from you
Wait and I'll be begging
I'll pull you down
After a few hours of riding, the others were starting to get worried. Lily's eyes had darkened since they left Rohan, and her face was wiped clean of emotion. Legolas was just as confused as them. Lily had given no indication to anyone other than Boromir as to the source of her fury, but it was unnerving. Each time Legolas tried to talk to her, Boromir stepped in and stopped him.
Boromir refused to let anyone talk to her, even Gandalf. Legolas couldn't decide if Boromir was acting like an older brother, or a constant bodyguard. Considering his affection for her, it was probably both. 'What happened?' he thought with a frown.
I saw it all again
Fading memory became clear to me
I try but I can't say
That I'm your's for good
Support me as you said you would
Lily was dying inside. Everything he had said had cut her to the core. He had taken her love for her and threw it in her face. Grima was right all along. Legolas didn't love her, he never would. She was a fool to think he would. She was a fool for deciding to remain a mortal. She cursed herself and Legolas.
Slowly, she began to guard her emotions and her heart. The pain of her conversation with Legolas was almost unbearable. She would gladly welcome death at the moment. Why is it that in both this life and her past one, the one she loved the most was also the one who destroyed her? 'Never again,' she promised silently. 'Never again will I open my heart to anyone.'
I'll get away from you
Wait and I'll be begging
I'll pull you down
Awake and dreaming
I'm only sleeping
(A.N.- The lyrics belong to 'Awake and Dreaming' by Finger Eleven)
