Title: Hesitate
Author: NickyJean
Spoilers: Truth Takes Time
Summary: What Sark was thinking after his chance at shooting Vaughn during
"Truth Takes Time"
I took a shot I knew I couldn't miss. I knew he was wearing a vest. I knew the power of the bullet would take him down. I watched him fall. It was one of those moments I wish I could relieve over and over again. Him helpless on the ground, me with my gun aimed at his skull. I waited forever for this moment. I didn't want to just waste it in a split second. I couldn't stop the smile that crept across my face. Why should I? I win. I finally get to destroy the bane of my existence. I will finally end the pitiful life of Michael Vaughn.
I wanted to pull the trigger, really I did. But I can't, just standing over him feeling the power of ending his life is like a high I've never experienced before. It shouldn't end so quickly, it can't.
Just then the door swung open and the bullet almost hit. As I took flight, I knew my moment was lost, my chance gone. My hesitation cost me that which I want most.
That's not true really. It cost me a chance to get rid of the one thing standing in the way of what I want. But I know it won't be there forever. You can't fight fate. You can't sway destiny and someday I know I will have what I truly want. What was truly meant to be mine.
So here I sit, thinking of my mistake. Wishing I could relieve the moment. Taking a sip of the Vodka that Irina gave me for a job well done. Here I am, unable to tear myself away from the monitor. The images are those of our latest shipment from our agent. The images are those of my mistake, my hesitation. Knowing deep down inside that if I had just done what I wanted instead of being a fool, I would be in that bed right now. Holding her making love to her, not some half-assed buggard of an agent like Vaughn.
The glass shatters in my hand. I don't feel the glass slicing my skin but I do notice the blood seeping onto floor. The drops may seem silent but I notice anyway.
Sighing to myself I realize that I have to let it go, move on. I'm not a man that dwells in the past. I, I'm a man that learns from it. I don't make the same mistake twice. I won't do it again. I won't hesitate.
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I took a shot I knew I couldn't miss. I knew he was wearing a vest. I knew the power of the bullet would take him down. I watched him fall. It was one of those moments I wish I could relieve over and over again. Him helpless on the ground, me with my gun aimed at his skull. I waited forever for this moment. I didn't want to just waste it in a split second. I couldn't stop the smile that crept across my face. Why should I? I win. I finally get to destroy the bane of my existence. I will finally end the pitiful life of Michael Vaughn.
I wanted to pull the trigger, really I did. But I can't, just standing over him feeling the power of ending his life is like a high I've never experienced before. It shouldn't end so quickly, it can't.
Just then the door swung open and the bullet almost hit. As I took flight, I knew my moment was lost, my chance gone. My hesitation cost me that which I want most.
That's not true really. It cost me a chance to get rid of the one thing standing in the way of what I want. But I know it won't be there forever. You can't fight fate. You can't sway destiny and someday I know I will have what I truly want. What was truly meant to be mine.
So here I sit, thinking of my mistake. Wishing I could relieve the moment. Taking a sip of the Vodka that Irina gave me for a job well done. Here I am, unable to tear myself away from the monitor. The images are those of our latest shipment from our agent. The images are those of my mistake, my hesitation. Knowing deep down inside that if I had just done what I wanted instead of being a fool, I would be in that bed right now. Holding her making love to her, not some half-assed buggard of an agent like Vaughn.
The glass shatters in my hand. I don't feel the glass slicing my skin but I do notice the blood seeping onto floor. The drops may seem silent but I notice anyway.
Sighing to myself I realize that I have to let it go, move on. I'm not a man that dwells in the past. I, I'm a man that learns from it. I don't make the same mistake twice. I won't do it again. I won't hesitate.
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