Title: Living
Author: Amberina
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Gunn/Gwen
Spoilers: "Players"
Summary: Short post-ep Gwen POV.
Disclaimer: Not mine. Though I *wish* they were.
Feedback: Please?
Distribution: SU Archive. Anyone else, please ask first.

Freak. I was always a freak. I could never be anything more. I could try to be, but it would never work out. Because when it all boiled down, I couldn't even hold the hand of someone I loved. Not that I believed anyone would love me enough to want to hold my hand anyway.

There were perks to being electro-girl, of course. The obvious ones (like being able to shock my way in to safes for example) and the less obvious ones (no need for a vibrator.) But they don't make up for the downside of it.

Gunn said that I seemed willing to die for LISA, and I said I was. And I wasn't lying. That device meant everything to me. It meant that I *could* have a life. What I was doing - it wasn't living. It was just existing. I liked being a thief. It was fun, big with adrenaline and everything, but it - I would have gladly traded it in for a hug.

That seems so lame, I know but what can I say? It's the truth.

I had never felt what most people take for granted - the simple brush of skin against skin, loving and gentle. Until Gunn. Without him I wouldn't have gotten LISA - without him I'd still just be existing instead of living.

With him I am truly alive. And I love him for that.

The End