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Chapter 5: But if you try sometimes, you might find, you get what you need.

Chloe leaned into the kiss before all the warning bells in her head went off. She tried to ignore them. This, this kiss, it just felt so right. So why was her head trying to overrule her heart? She pulled back and out of his reach.

"Lex, what the hell?" she stammered out.

"You, you don't know, Chloe, I've been looking for you forever. I never gave up hope, I had to get you back."

"Get me back? Lex, you never had me. The extent of our conversations included banter and that was it. I never once spent time with you alone. Earlier you said you loved me then. Why? Why not tell me when you had the chance?"

Lex felt the breath he was holding inside burst out. "Chloe, there were so many reasons for us to not be together. We completely clashed."

Chloe looked up at him for the first time since he kissed her. "You need to leave."

"I'm not going anywhere Chloe..."

"IVY! My name is Ivy, stop calling me Chloe."

Lex looked at her stunned. Shocked into silence he had never felt before. It dawned upon him that she didn't want to be found. She had ran away with the intentions of disappearing forever. "Chl...Ivy, you can't run away forever."

"I didn't run away Lex, I walked. And to me, walking away from my life was the only choice I had. It was the only choice because your father..."

"But, he's dead. You can come out now. Come home with me."

Chloe absently shook her head 'no'. "I can't, there are still people out there that want me dead. Just because your father's gone doesn't mean I'm in the clear."

"Let me protect you, then. You don't have to be here. New Haven is not you, Ivy is not you." he motioned with his hands at the surroundings, "This, all of this Chloe, is not you."

Her eyes teared up feircely. "What do you now about me, huh, Lex? Tell me one thing you know about me personally. Oh, that's right, you can't. You never took the time to get to know 'me'. You took the time to get to know Chloe Sullivan the high school reporter, best friend to Clark. You know nothing about me, so stop pretending that you do."

She threw down the napkin she had been wringing in her hands and walked to the back room. Marco trotted up behind her lovingly. She reached down and pet him.

Lex barged into the back of the cafe swinging the doors hard behind him. "Maybe I didn't get to know you because I knew I'd fall in love with you. Luthors don't fucking love, Chloe. We aren't programmed for that. I knew I was falling in love with you, so yeah, I used Lana. I mean, why not? She was everything I could want in a woman. She was only missing one thing though, Chloe, she wasn't you. I pick you. I don't care if you need or want me Chloe but I want you. I want to be with you. Start fresh." his voice calmed down and he leaned back against the refrigerator door. he took her hand in his and rubbed it lightly with his thumb. "I want you Chloe."

She pulled her hand out of his. Her voice raised an octave with every other word. "Well, Lex, news flash. You can't always get what you want!"

He looked at her face, she was staring at the black dots on the tiled floor. "GODDAMMIT CHLOE! Do you know how long I've been looking for you? I'm not letting you go this time."

Chloe shook her head, red strands of hair fell in her face and she blew them away with her mouth. "Leave, Lex. Before you embarass yourself any further."

He stared at her in disbelief. The one woman he had truly loved since his mother had shot him down. He grabbed her face with his hand and jerked it up to look at him, "This is it, Chloe, I walk out that door and I'm gone."

She stared at him, her eyes challenging him to go, her heart calling out for him to stop and come back to her. He let go of her face and regained his composure as she saw through the tiny serving window seperating the back room from the counter as he walked out the door.

"What the fuck did I just do?" she asked herself aloud.