Entry three

It has now been a week since I last spoke to Duo about his past. As for the others, I'm still working on them to express how they feel about their past. I don't want to force it out of them, that isn't like me. If they are going to tell me anything, I want them to do it out of their free will... at least that's what I did when I told my sisters everything about what the war had done to me.

This afternoon was much like the others... it started with food, as usual. But it was what happened after lunch that confussed me out of my wits. Heero was the next to tell me of what the war had done to him. Now I thought that he would be the last to tell me anything... he always is; but, this, and now? WOW! I must have really gotten through to him or something. But what really shocked me, was the fact that he nearly had a nervous breakdown.

All this time, I thought that Heero was the strongest out of all of us, and here, he's crying on my shoulder. He's actually just as human as I or any of us are. All of his cold-heartedness to any or all of us, was just a rouse to hide what he truely felt... and on top of that, I was the one that brought that out. I guess my sisters were right when they said that I brought out the best in everyone around me.

I remember holding Heero in my arms, and stroking his hair, or rubbing his lower back, trying my damnest just to soothe him from falling into pieces right then and their. I really have to comment on how well Heero was able to hide everything that well. And I thought that Duo was a good actor... hell, Heero beats Duo, hands down.

But there we were, in the living room, holding each other...Heero in tears, and me holding him, trying to calm him; when Wufei entered. I don't think that he knew what was going on, or why Heero was in hystraics; but, Wufei glared at Heero, muttered an silent insult to Heero and myself... something along the lines of Heero and I switching personas... then left. He couldn't have known what was going on, 'cause he didn't stick around to find out what happened... come again, neither did Heero. Heero just got up, wipped his tears and left. He never really got around to telling me what the war had done to him, that I don't already know.