Entry six
I now know what Duo is actually going through. I never actually thought that doing something like what I had done, would actually let me see all the things that Duo saw on the night I found him on the floor. I guess I can't say that I've been through everything that they went through...that would be lying. As of know, I've only been through most of the things that they went through...the killing, endless fighting, doubting our cause.
Perhaps I should explain about what I mean. The other night, I asked that God (if you want to call it that) to show me the things that Duo saw in his nightmare. I thought that being a soldier, would allow me to understand what Duo was actually going through. I was wrong...for once. I was so off base, and at the time I didn't realize what I was in for.
The dream- I only call it that now, because it would be safer if I did. To call it a nightmare, would not be justified- begins in a barren battlefield; obviously one of the many battlefield that we had all seen. Only this battlefield had been merge with every battlefield Duo had ever been on. So there were the battlefields of Earth, and Space merged into one. On top of that, this battlefield was strangely 'real'. The smoke rose from the demented mobile suits, and the sheer stench was nerve wracking. I could feel the hair on my body stand, and the shivers down my spine, as my subconcsious eyes stared out at the world which had been laied before me.
As I stood there, on the smoking plain, everything seemed to be fine- for lack of a better word. Other than the horrendious smell, and the ever smoking demented mobile suits, everything was fine. I remember looking into the sky of this merged world and seeing that it was blood red. Weather it was ment to torrment Duo for the blood that he had split or the blood that he had shed, I would never know; nor, do I want to know.
As I stared into the blood red sky, I began to see images in the dark clouds...from my past, no doubt. I saw my father, being killed for the second time, my sister's sorrowful tears...I saw everything that a soldier is never meant to see twice in his lifetime...and that was death. Weather seeing it first hand, dealing it out, watching helplessly, or otherwise...a soldier was never meant to see it twice, never.
Suddenly, the ground under me began to shake violently. I removed my gaze from the sky to the smokey merged plain surrounding me. The demented mobile suits were moving...raising from the ashes if you will. As the smoke cleared, it was obvious that the demented mobile suits were also merged into many mobile suits. They looked basically the same, but either the colors or their abilities varried. I now knew why Duo was screaming...I would too, if I just saw a demented mobile suit rise from the ashes and chase me in a world that I know nothing of.
I remember looking over my shoulder as the demented mobile suits approched behind me at an alarming speed. Suddenly I was knocked to my feet, and the voices of the dead haunted my ears and their deaths were shown to me in the blood red sky above. I tried to move; however, I was tied to the ground by an unseen rope. The demented mobile suits were drawing ever closer; but, now a demise by them, seemed more welcoming, then a demise from mental torture.
I was shaken awake. I found myself on the floor, wrapped in my sheets, and Duo sitting in front of me. The look in his eyes told me that he knew what I had dreamt of. Duo pulled me onto the bed and began to stroke my sweat drenched hair, whispering softly. I don't remember the words that he whispered to me; but, I know that they soothed my aching heart.
I now know what Duo is actually going through. I never actually thought that doing something like what I had done, would actually let me see all the things that Duo saw on the night I found him on the floor. I guess I can't say that I've been through everything that they went through...that would be lying. As of know, I've only been through most of the things that they went through...the killing, endless fighting, doubting our cause.
Perhaps I should explain about what I mean. The other night, I asked that God (if you want to call it that) to show me the things that Duo saw in his nightmare. I thought that being a soldier, would allow me to understand what Duo was actually going through. I was wrong...for once. I was so off base, and at the time I didn't realize what I was in for.
The dream- I only call it that now, because it would be safer if I did. To call it a nightmare, would not be justified- begins in a barren battlefield; obviously one of the many battlefield that we had all seen. Only this battlefield had been merge with every battlefield Duo had ever been on. So there were the battlefields of Earth, and Space merged into one. On top of that, this battlefield was strangely 'real'. The smoke rose from the demented mobile suits, and the sheer stench was nerve wracking. I could feel the hair on my body stand, and the shivers down my spine, as my subconcsious eyes stared out at the world which had been laied before me.
As I stood there, on the smoking plain, everything seemed to be fine- for lack of a better word. Other than the horrendious smell, and the ever smoking demented mobile suits, everything was fine. I remember looking into the sky of this merged world and seeing that it was blood red. Weather it was ment to torrment Duo for the blood that he had split or the blood that he had shed, I would never know; nor, do I want to know.
As I stared into the blood red sky, I began to see images in the dark clouds...from my past, no doubt. I saw my father, being killed for the second time, my sister's sorrowful tears...I saw everything that a soldier is never meant to see twice in his lifetime...and that was death. Weather seeing it first hand, dealing it out, watching helplessly, or otherwise...a soldier was never meant to see it twice, never.
Suddenly, the ground under me began to shake violently. I removed my gaze from the sky to the smokey merged plain surrounding me. The demented mobile suits were moving...raising from the ashes if you will. As the smoke cleared, it was obvious that the demented mobile suits were also merged into many mobile suits. They looked basically the same, but either the colors or their abilities varried. I now knew why Duo was screaming...I would too, if I just saw a demented mobile suit rise from the ashes and chase me in a world that I know nothing of.
I remember looking over my shoulder as the demented mobile suits approched behind me at an alarming speed. Suddenly I was knocked to my feet, and the voices of the dead haunted my ears and their deaths were shown to me in the blood red sky above. I tried to move; however, I was tied to the ground by an unseen rope. The demented mobile suits were drawing ever closer; but, now a demise by them, seemed more welcoming, then a demise from mental torture.
I was shaken awake. I found myself on the floor, wrapped in my sheets, and Duo sitting in front of me. The look in his eyes told me that he knew what I had dreamt of. Duo pulled me onto the bed and began to stroke my sweat drenched hair, whispering softly. I don't remember the words that he whispered to me; but, I know that they soothed my aching heart.
