Chapter 4
Hello folks- it's been a while- Spring Break and all- sorry about the wait. It also doesn't help when you have three other stories to update :( Kate's not too smart- she tries to do tooooooo many things at once- even the best multi-tasker can't handle that and school.
All standard disclaimers apply!
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The sun was breaking over the horizon. Relena awoke with the rays dancing over her face. She quickly got out of her bed and threw on a robe. She had dreamt of him all through the night. And she needed to know he hadn't left in the night. For if he did she knew her, heart would break once again. It did every time he left her.
She practically sprinted, in her nightgown and robe, barefoot to the room where he had been placed. She quietly opened the door and entered. Looking straight for the bed she gasped. A tear ran down her cheek- it was empty. She felt crushed. More tears fell as she walked closer to the unmade bed. She felt the sheets- to her surprise they were still warm…
"Heero…" She whispered almost wishing he hadn't left.
Suddenly two strong arms wrapped around her waist. They were like phantoms from a dream- they came out of nowhere. A body pressed against hers. She didn't scream- she felt as if she knew this touch- even if he were a phantom she would never run from him.
"Relena…" Came a whisper as a pair of lips pressed so tenderly at her neck. The bristle of hair tickled her cheek and shoulder.
"You didn't leave." She sighed. The kiss ended and the warmth stopped as he pulled away.
"I should…" Was his response.
Relena quickly turned and met a pair of weary eyes.
"No, don't…. please stay." She implored as she jumped into his arms.
"I'm only putting you in danger- by being here- Relena…"
"No I want you here!" She pleaded.
"Relena. I'll…I'll only hurt you- I don't want to kill you."
"I f you left again, it would kill me…" Heero felt weak. Relena felt his muscles give. She quickly pulled him down on the bed, before he fell.
"You're too weak to leave- besides where would you go? Please Heero…"
But before she could get an answer Heero fell asleep.
His eyes looked so troubled and hurt before- there was no way she was letting him go ever again. Not without a fight. And she was ready to fight for his love.
After breakfast, Trowa and Wufei arrived accompanied by Catherine and Sally.
Heero had been up only a few times that day. He was exhausted by the strain of fighting off his demons.
Everyone was settled in, the guys were discussing security options to better ensure that no one would get to Heero. Sally, Catherine and Hilde all went shopping; Relena declined and instead spent time just sitting next to Heero. Well, not just sitting. She was determined to help him- while the others were off doing their own thing, Relena began trying to get into the discs Heero had for his computer. Each none had some security device that blocked access to anyone without a code.
"Lokt code? What is that?" She asked aloud. She was getting frustrated. She had tried every different could possible- but she was denied every time. "Lokt…Lokt." She thought. As a reflex, she began to let her fingers play with the locket Heero had left for her.
"Locket?" Her eyes went wide. "That's it" She took it off and opened it up. She typed in the engraved letters and hit enter.
"Success!" She smiled as the computer loaded. There were several files to choose from, but suddenly a program booted up.
It was a recorded message from Heero. On the screen came a video file of Heero- he was in a dark room. His eyes already showed the signs of exhaustion. His calm voice shook her from her thoughts.
"Relena." The recording started. "I see you kept the locket, if you're listening to this message. That means I am more than likely dead or gone… I don't know the reasons or even what these feelings are that I have, but… I just know that losing them is not an option anymore. I'd rather die than be broken back into what I was- I guess if there was a reason I left you all of this- it was to answer some of your questions and to thank you- Thank you Relena for… loving me…" Heero's voice wavered and Relena could have sworn she saw tears running down his cheeks.
"I… I wished things could have been different- but you deserve better than anything I could manage. Please don't… don't love me… a demon doesn't deserve an angel's compassion. But know you were the one who saved me- I thank you… and…" There seemed to be an internal struggle going on in his mind. It showed clearly on his face. He sighed and closed his eyes. "I love you…Relena…. Good bye." The recoding ended. Leaving a screen with multiple files on it.
Of all the things she thought he would say- that wasn't one of them.
The next thing that opened was a file labeled 'Me.'
Relena read the articles and reports that revealed to her the horrors of his childhood.
'Subject: Ryo Strife
Age at time of Introduction: 3
Parents: Father: unknown Status: unknown
Mother: Patricia Strife Status: unknown- presumed dead' She read from the screen.
The tale of his acquisition and introduction into the Perfect Soldier project was a sad one. He was rescued from a fire by Dr J, his mother presumably died in the flames. The small child was then trained almost immediately to be a killing machine.
Relena couldn't help how cute and small Heero had been when he first entered the perfect soldier project. On his face was a large smile and eyes that sparkled. But as the reports and documents went on the smile drastically died, along with the life in his eyes. Burses and wounds were common placed in the photos and charts. Just a few of the horrors for his 'training.' After reading the file, she wanted to cry. She now understood why he was the way he was. She felt as if e was letting her see into his soul.
'The poor child.' She thought as she kept reading. His first mission was at the age of eight. He had killed two on that mission. From then on he had been sent on scores of missions- every one of them a success- all but one that is. A red 'Mission Failed' marker covered part of a photo- but Relena could still recognize it was a picture of herself. Of all the missions, he had to fail- why was she the only one. But he didn't hate her- no he had said he loved her….
Again, he felt the coldness. One would think that walking in the hell would have made things hot. But it wasn't. It was colder than the artic climates he had weathered some time ago. He had dreamt that he was in a safe place- a little earlier. Relena was there even.
Somehow she made things better, but that was just a dream… right? He couldn't remember… everything seemed so fake.
Would he really leave the perfect soldier project and Doctor J? Had he returned to Earth? Living with Duo, of all people, he must have been dreaming!
But the memory or dream of holding Relena again brought the slightest warmth to his freezing body. He shook violently when the warmth suddenly left. It was as if he was trapped under a blanket of coldness- he kicked and screamed- but there was no way out. He felt something wet soaking the part of his skin as he was met with more cold. Then suddenly he felt himself falling- falling into a darkness and then he crashed with a thud. The pain surged and he cried out.
Relena was awoken by a crash of thunder in the early morning hours. She found herself in her own bed- she hadn't changed out of her cloths that she was wearing the day before.
'I must have fallen asleep. And Duo probably brought me back here.' She thought. It was still dark out- the clock on her wall said it was three in the morning. Relena quickly changed into a clean set of cloths and quietly walked down the hall of the sleeping mansion. She wanted to see Heero- she was so worried about him-
He had known he was sick, dieing maybe, that would be hard to handle for anyone, especially if you felt alone.
She opened the door to Heero's room and was instantly met with a rush of cold air. Her eyes went to the large glass patio doors that lead to the balcony. One was broken- she gasped as she saw the shattered glass of the door; the rain came pouring in. She then immediately ran towards the bed where Heero was the last time she saw him. The sheets were strewn about- it looked like a fight had taken place. She followed the discarded sheets as they went towards the balcony. She was instantly soaked as she stepped out onto the balcony.
'Heero- where are you? Please… They can't have taken you already.' She pleaded as she searched the balcony for any sign of him or anything at all.
She found a soaked be sheet near the edge of the balcony. It was a pink color- 'Blood,' she thought.
Immediately she was afraid to go near the ledge. She didn't know what she would find over the ledge on the ground. But she forced herself to slowly move- she held her breath as she meekly looked over the ledge,
"NO!" She screamed as she looked upon the still body of the gundam pilot.
Hello folks- it's been a while- Spring Break and all- sorry about the wait. It also doesn't help when you have three other stories to update :( Kate's not too smart- she tries to do tooooooo many things at once- even the best multi-tasker can't handle that and school.
All standard disclaimers apply!
-
The sun was breaking over the horizon. Relena awoke with the rays dancing over her face. She quickly got out of her bed and threw on a robe. She had dreamt of him all through the night. And she needed to know he hadn't left in the night. For if he did she knew her, heart would break once again. It did every time he left her.
She practically sprinted, in her nightgown and robe, barefoot to the room where he had been placed. She quietly opened the door and entered. Looking straight for the bed she gasped. A tear ran down her cheek- it was empty. She felt crushed. More tears fell as she walked closer to the unmade bed. She felt the sheets- to her surprise they were still warm…
"Heero…" She whispered almost wishing he hadn't left.
Suddenly two strong arms wrapped around her waist. They were like phantoms from a dream- they came out of nowhere. A body pressed against hers. She didn't scream- she felt as if she knew this touch- even if he were a phantom she would never run from him.
"Relena…" Came a whisper as a pair of lips pressed so tenderly at her neck. The bristle of hair tickled her cheek and shoulder.
"You didn't leave." She sighed. The kiss ended and the warmth stopped as he pulled away.
"I should…" Was his response.
Relena quickly turned and met a pair of weary eyes.
"No, don't…. please stay." She implored as she jumped into his arms.
"I'm only putting you in danger- by being here- Relena…"
"No I want you here!" She pleaded.
"Relena. I'll…I'll only hurt you- I don't want to kill you."
"I f you left again, it would kill me…" Heero felt weak. Relena felt his muscles give. She quickly pulled him down on the bed, before he fell.
"You're too weak to leave- besides where would you go? Please Heero…"
But before she could get an answer Heero fell asleep.
His eyes looked so troubled and hurt before- there was no way she was letting him go ever again. Not without a fight. And she was ready to fight for his love.
After breakfast, Trowa and Wufei arrived accompanied by Catherine and Sally.
Heero had been up only a few times that day. He was exhausted by the strain of fighting off his demons.
Everyone was settled in, the guys were discussing security options to better ensure that no one would get to Heero. Sally, Catherine and Hilde all went shopping; Relena declined and instead spent time just sitting next to Heero. Well, not just sitting. She was determined to help him- while the others were off doing their own thing, Relena began trying to get into the discs Heero had for his computer. Each none had some security device that blocked access to anyone without a code.
"Lokt code? What is that?" She asked aloud. She was getting frustrated. She had tried every different could possible- but she was denied every time. "Lokt…Lokt." She thought. As a reflex, she began to let her fingers play with the locket Heero had left for her.
"Locket?" Her eyes went wide. "That's it" She took it off and opened it up. She typed in the engraved letters and hit enter.
"Success!" She smiled as the computer loaded. There were several files to choose from, but suddenly a program booted up.
It was a recorded message from Heero. On the screen came a video file of Heero- he was in a dark room. His eyes already showed the signs of exhaustion. His calm voice shook her from her thoughts.
"Relena." The recording started. "I see you kept the locket, if you're listening to this message. That means I am more than likely dead or gone… I don't know the reasons or even what these feelings are that I have, but… I just know that losing them is not an option anymore. I'd rather die than be broken back into what I was- I guess if there was a reason I left you all of this- it was to answer some of your questions and to thank you- Thank you Relena for… loving me…" Heero's voice wavered and Relena could have sworn she saw tears running down his cheeks.
"I… I wished things could have been different- but you deserve better than anything I could manage. Please don't… don't love me… a demon doesn't deserve an angel's compassion. But know you were the one who saved me- I thank you… and…" There seemed to be an internal struggle going on in his mind. It showed clearly on his face. He sighed and closed his eyes. "I love you…Relena…. Good bye." The recoding ended. Leaving a screen with multiple files on it.
Of all the things she thought he would say- that wasn't one of them.
The next thing that opened was a file labeled 'Me.'
Relena read the articles and reports that revealed to her the horrors of his childhood.
'Subject: Ryo Strife
Age at time of Introduction: 3
Parents: Father: unknown Status: unknown
Mother: Patricia Strife Status: unknown- presumed dead' She read from the screen.
The tale of his acquisition and introduction into the Perfect Soldier project was a sad one. He was rescued from a fire by Dr J, his mother presumably died in the flames. The small child was then trained almost immediately to be a killing machine.
Relena couldn't help how cute and small Heero had been when he first entered the perfect soldier project. On his face was a large smile and eyes that sparkled. But as the reports and documents went on the smile drastically died, along with the life in his eyes. Burses and wounds were common placed in the photos and charts. Just a few of the horrors for his 'training.' After reading the file, she wanted to cry. She now understood why he was the way he was. She felt as if e was letting her see into his soul.
'The poor child.' She thought as she kept reading. His first mission was at the age of eight. He had killed two on that mission. From then on he had been sent on scores of missions- every one of them a success- all but one that is. A red 'Mission Failed' marker covered part of a photo- but Relena could still recognize it was a picture of herself. Of all the missions, he had to fail- why was she the only one. But he didn't hate her- no he had said he loved her….
Again, he felt the coldness. One would think that walking in the hell would have made things hot. But it wasn't. It was colder than the artic climates he had weathered some time ago. He had dreamt that he was in a safe place- a little earlier. Relena was there even.
Somehow she made things better, but that was just a dream… right? He couldn't remember… everything seemed so fake.
Would he really leave the perfect soldier project and Doctor J? Had he returned to Earth? Living with Duo, of all people, he must have been dreaming!
But the memory or dream of holding Relena again brought the slightest warmth to his freezing body. He shook violently when the warmth suddenly left. It was as if he was trapped under a blanket of coldness- he kicked and screamed- but there was no way out. He felt something wet soaking the part of his skin as he was met with more cold. Then suddenly he felt himself falling- falling into a darkness and then he crashed with a thud. The pain surged and he cried out.
Relena was awoken by a crash of thunder in the early morning hours. She found herself in her own bed- she hadn't changed out of her cloths that she was wearing the day before.
'I must have fallen asleep. And Duo probably brought me back here.' She thought. It was still dark out- the clock on her wall said it was three in the morning. Relena quickly changed into a clean set of cloths and quietly walked down the hall of the sleeping mansion. She wanted to see Heero- she was so worried about him-
He had known he was sick, dieing maybe, that would be hard to handle for anyone, especially if you felt alone.
She opened the door to Heero's room and was instantly met with a rush of cold air. Her eyes went to the large glass patio doors that lead to the balcony. One was broken- she gasped as she saw the shattered glass of the door; the rain came pouring in. She then immediately ran towards the bed where Heero was the last time she saw him. The sheets were strewn about- it looked like a fight had taken place. She followed the discarded sheets as they went towards the balcony. She was instantly soaked as she stepped out onto the balcony.
'Heero- where are you? Please… They can't have taken you already.' She pleaded as she searched the balcony for any sign of him or anything at all.
She found a soaked be sheet near the edge of the balcony. It was a pink color- 'Blood,' she thought.
Immediately she was afraid to go near the ledge. She didn't know what she would find over the ledge on the ground. But she forced herself to slowly move- she held her breath as she meekly looked over the ledge,
"NO!" She screamed as she looked upon the still body of the gundam pilot.
