Ok, so I can barely tell you how it happened. I just know that it did. Well actually I still wonder if I'm just hallucinating the whole thing! It all seems so....beyond anything I could ever have imagined possible. And I can have a wild imagination sometimes. It seems like some warped dream cause by smokin' up waaaaaay too much weed while snorting coke and popping back the pills all at once. However, I haven't EVER done any of those things. Which wouldn't surprise you if you knew what sort of friends I have. Total innocents. Which makes me one too I guess. Or I was one. Funny how life has a way of ripping you so completely out of a way of life you thought you were happy in...only to force you through a twisted rollercoaster ride of what seems like hell and confusion...to land you in a situation you never expected, of real happiness and contentment. See, I've only just realized that I wasn't happy back then, before my little ride. I was miserable. I was alone though surrounded by friends. I think that might be the worst kind of loneliness. Too be surround by happy go lucky people who give little friendship pep talks 24/7 and know that inside you feel completely empty and devoid of emotion. They would never understand so that's why I pretended everything was fine. I even convinced myself things were fine. Or I tried anyway. Eventually that feeling that nags at you that you are utterly alone starts to eat away at your insides. It starts to make you do things you wouldn't normally do. Say things you wouldn't normally say. Being someone you wouldn't normally be. But here I am. The new Joey Wheeler. Let's give a round of applause to me!

So you wanna hear what happened? Maybe I'll tell you..might as well. He's gone to a meeting so I have a few hours to kill.