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A/N-Thank you to everyone who has read and reviewed this story. I have written another chapter that has the lemony freshness but due to the ruling of ff.net I can't post it here so once my site is up I will post it there and leave the address here.
A Reason for Love
Chapter 11: Lust or Love
~At night it is said that ghosts are free to roam the world when the inhabitants are sleeping. Legend say that ghost only appear to people that need them, for good reasons or bad.
Aoshi knew what each of his ghosts looked like, having seen them on more than one occasion. They would roam around him, trying to reach inside his spirit to reassure him that he should return to his life and live. But they only succeeded in making him feel like he was caught in between the living and the dead. He knew in his heart that he had to let go of his fallen comrades but his guilt had chained him to a past he couldn't forget.
Finding it easier to be led by Soujiro, Aoshi allowed the young man to control his actions. For all Aoshi's life he could never remember a time when someone else had made his decisions. This was a new experience for him. Giving him a feeling of freedom, of peace like floating on air. And lying with Soujiro's warm body wrapped around him, listening to the sweet sound of Soujiro's deep even breathing, he felt safe and complete.
Then memories of the men who had died saving him invaded his thoughts, prompting Aoshi to decide that once Soujiro was out of danger, he would disappear. Believing that he was making the right choice, Aoshi relaxed allowing the fog of sleep to overcome him, when he heard it.
"Leader"
The word, spoken as if formed by a whiff of wind, was an invisible foe, a painful reminder. Aoshi froze, no, he thought. A few moments passed, then.
"Leader"
Again the word accosted Aoshi, making him shiver. "No," Aoshi whispered, clenching his hands. Quivering slightly, he waited, daring to hope that there would be no more, but that wasn't to be.
"Leader"
Once again, Aoshi heard the lone word, setting him adrift on a sea of mixed emotions, in a vessel that was sinking. Aoshi desperately tried swimming to keep from sinking, but someone was holding his arms, making it impossible for him to move.
"Live for me."
The voice was different this time, calming him. Soujiro? He quit fighting when he heard a low moan. Opening his eyes, he focused on the panels of the ceiling. His mind cleared as he became aware of soft lips kissing his neck, sending tiny threads of light in every direction.
Soujiro had waited until Aoshi relaxed before letting himself drift off to sleep, certain that they could overcome this setback with a fresh start in the morning. He was descending into the soft comforting world of sleep when something abruptly pulled him out to the surface, alerting him to Aoshi's agitated condition. His first though was that Aoshi was having a nightmare, having had many him self, he could sympathize with the hopeless feeling.
When Aoshi started to shiver and quake, Soujiro became scared. Doing the only thing that made sense to him, he held him tightly, burying his face in Aoshi's neck. But in the position he was in, a part of his body respond to Aoshi's movements.
"Live for me." Soujiro whispered in Aoshi's ear, hoping that Aoshi had not resumed his death wish.
Soujiro moaned, causing Aoshi to stop fighting, and then he started kissing Aoshi's neck. Putting his knees on either side of Aoshi, he pushed himself up, needing to see Aoshi's face.
"Aoshi?" Soujiro whispered. With the waning candlelight, he could see Aoshi, staring intently on the ceiling. Fear gripped his insides, knotting everything into a tight ball.
"Nn," came back his familiar answer.
Soujiro sighed in relief, a small smile gracing his face, his eyes never strayed from their target.
Aoshi slowly closed his eyes, prompting Soujiro to ask, "Are you all right?"
At the question, Aoshi reopened his eyes, and looking directly at Soujiro, he said, "Yes, I am all right."
Soujiro let himself fall, snuggling into Aoshi's chest.
Aoshi raised his arms up around Soujiro, holding him in a tight embrace. Slowly Aoshi let one of his arms fall enough so that he could push himself up and still hold the young man.
Soujiro resisted but when he realized what Aoshi wanted, he gave in, wrapping his arms around Aoshi's chest.
I am nothing more than a debacle, a complete failure, Aoshi thought, looking down into the sweet innocent face of the angel sitting in his lap.
"Love me tonight, even if you have to pretend," Soujiro begged, holding onto Aoshi. He waited in the silence that followed, his head pressed against Aoshi's chest, listening to the soft rhythmic beat of Aoshi's heart. "Please," he added.
"What is not for me to love about you?" Aoshi asked softly, "But I still have ghosts from my past that haunt me. They won't let me forget how I have failed them and then..."
Putting his fingers to Aoshi's lips, Soujiro hushed him. "I know all about your past, remember? I was there. But... I have these feelings in my body... that I don't know what..." Soujiro whispered unable to complete the sentence. Letting his hand fall to Aoshi's chest, he followed it down with his eyes.
Enfolding him in his arms, Aoshi rested his head on top of Soujiro's before saying, "For tonight, I will love you." Picking up the fallen hand, Aoshi started kissing the palm, working his way down to the tender spot on the inside of Soujiro's wrist.
Soujiro closed his eyes, taking in the feelings that Aoshi's soft kisses had sent through his arm and into his body, eliciting a low moan from deep within his throat.
The two lovers spent the rest of the night exploring each other delving into depths that only two people who are intimate with each other can find.
To be continued.
Don't forget to review.
A/N-Thank you to everyone who has read and reviewed this story. I have written another chapter that has the lemony freshness but due to the ruling of ff.net I can't post it here so once my site is up I will post it there and leave the address here.
A Reason for Love
Chapter 11: Lust or Love
~At night it is said that ghosts are free to roam the world when the inhabitants are sleeping. Legend say that ghost only appear to people that need them, for good reasons or bad.
Aoshi knew what each of his ghosts looked like, having seen them on more than one occasion. They would roam around him, trying to reach inside his spirit to reassure him that he should return to his life and live. But they only succeeded in making him feel like he was caught in between the living and the dead. He knew in his heart that he had to let go of his fallen comrades but his guilt had chained him to a past he couldn't forget.
Finding it easier to be led by Soujiro, Aoshi allowed the young man to control his actions. For all Aoshi's life he could never remember a time when someone else had made his decisions. This was a new experience for him. Giving him a feeling of freedom, of peace like floating on air. And lying with Soujiro's warm body wrapped around him, listening to the sweet sound of Soujiro's deep even breathing, he felt safe and complete.
Then memories of the men who had died saving him invaded his thoughts, prompting Aoshi to decide that once Soujiro was out of danger, he would disappear. Believing that he was making the right choice, Aoshi relaxed allowing the fog of sleep to overcome him, when he heard it.
"Leader"
The word, spoken as if formed by a whiff of wind, was an invisible foe, a painful reminder. Aoshi froze, no, he thought. A few moments passed, then.
"Leader"
Again the word accosted Aoshi, making him shiver. "No," Aoshi whispered, clenching his hands. Quivering slightly, he waited, daring to hope that there would be no more, but that wasn't to be.
"Leader"
Once again, Aoshi heard the lone word, setting him adrift on a sea of mixed emotions, in a vessel that was sinking. Aoshi desperately tried swimming to keep from sinking, but someone was holding his arms, making it impossible for him to move.
"Live for me."
The voice was different this time, calming him. Soujiro? He quit fighting when he heard a low moan. Opening his eyes, he focused on the panels of the ceiling. His mind cleared as he became aware of soft lips kissing his neck, sending tiny threads of light in every direction.
Soujiro had waited until Aoshi relaxed before letting himself drift off to sleep, certain that they could overcome this setback with a fresh start in the morning. He was descending into the soft comforting world of sleep when something abruptly pulled him out to the surface, alerting him to Aoshi's agitated condition. His first though was that Aoshi was having a nightmare, having had many him self, he could sympathize with the hopeless feeling.
When Aoshi started to shiver and quake, Soujiro became scared. Doing the only thing that made sense to him, he held him tightly, burying his face in Aoshi's neck. But in the position he was in, a part of his body respond to Aoshi's movements.
"Live for me." Soujiro whispered in Aoshi's ear, hoping that Aoshi had not resumed his death wish.
Soujiro moaned, causing Aoshi to stop fighting, and then he started kissing Aoshi's neck. Putting his knees on either side of Aoshi, he pushed himself up, needing to see Aoshi's face.
"Aoshi?" Soujiro whispered. With the waning candlelight, he could see Aoshi, staring intently on the ceiling. Fear gripped his insides, knotting everything into a tight ball.
"Nn," came back his familiar answer.
Soujiro sighed in relief, a small smile gracing his face, his eyes never strayed from their target.
Aoshi slowly closed his eyes, prompting Soujiro to ask, "Are you all right?"
At the question, Aoshi reopened his eyes, and looking directly at Soujiro, he said, "Yes, I am all right."
Soujiro let himself fall, snuggling into Aoshi's chest.
Aoshi raised his arms up around Soujiro, holding him in a tight embrace. Slowly Aoshi let one of his arms fall enough so that he could push himself up and still hold the young man.
Soujiro resisted but when he realized what Aoshi wanted, he gave in, wrapping his arms around Aoshi's chest.
I am nothing more than a debacle, a complete failure, Aoshi thought, looking down into the sweet innocent face of the angel sitting in his lap.
"Love me tonight, even if you have to pretend," Soujiro begged, holding onto Aoshi. He waited in the silence that followed, his head pressed against Aoshi's chest, listening to the soft rhythmic beat of Aoshi's heart. "Please," he added.
"What is not for me to love about you?" Aoshi asked softly, "But I still have ghosts from my past that haunt me. They won't let me forget how I have failed them and then..."
Putting his fingers to Aoshi's lips, Soujiro hushed him. "I know all about your past, remember? I was there. But... I have these feelings in my body... that I don't know what..." Soujiro whispered unable to complete the sentence. Letting his hand fall to Aoshi's chest, he followed it down with his eyes.
Enfolding him in his arms, Aoshi rested his head on top of Soujiro's before saying, "For tonight, I will love you." Picking up the fallen hand, Aoshi started kissing the palm, working his way down to the tender spot on the inside of Soujiro's wrist.
Soujiro closed his eyes, taking in the feelings that Aoshi's soft kisses had sent through his arm and into his body, eliciting a low moan from deep within his throat.
The two lovers spent the rest of the night exploring each other delving into depths that only two people who are intimate with each other can find.
To be continued.
Don't forget to review.
