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(:A.N:) Wow, I got like four reviews in one day for my first chapter of this story! Thanks so much you guys! Well, here's chapter two!
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Chapter Two : Matsuri
By : Feng Shui Goddess
I slowly trudged over to my window where Inu Yasha was impatiently sitting, and opened it slowly. He jumped through and landed gracefully on my floor. "About time you let me in, wench," he said, crossing his arms in a pouting style. I sighed, "Just shut up. I'm not in the mood for your crap Inu Yasha." He seemed taken aback by this statement, and I saw a bit of worry in his eyes, "Kagome, are you alright? You don't seem like yourself today." I walked over to my bed and sat on it, "Yeah, I'm fine. Sorry for snapping back like that. I guess I'm just stressed." He nodded, "I guess I can understand." I laughed a little. Was Inu Yasha actually being sympathedic? I sighed, figuring that I was just imagining things. I grabbed my wrist with the cut on it, unaware that I was doing so. "What's that from?" Inu Yasha asked, grabbing my arm and examing the bandaid that was covering it. "Nothing!" I snapped back, trying to pry my arm from his seemingly iron grip. He pulled back the bandaid and looked at my wound. "This wound is fresh, I can tell. It's from last night," he declaired. I managed to pull my arm from his grasp, "How dare you, Inu Yasha. Just leave me the hell alone!" I ran into my bathroom and slammed the door, locking it. I leaned up against the back of the door and slumped down to the ground, starting to cry. I curled up into a little ball and rocked back and forth, letting my tears fall freely. 'Why are you crying, Kagome? You're being to childish," I scolded myself. "I shouldin't of done it! I shouldin't have done what I did last night, it was wrong. I was wrong. But, I enjoyed doing it. I'd like to do it again,' I thought to myself. Inu Yasha knocked on the door, "Kagome, come on out. I'm sorry, it's none of my buisiness where it came from. Please don't cry, come out," he cooed. 'Damn hanyo sences, he would tell I was crying,' I thought. I stood up, and looked at myself in the mirror. I wiped the tears from my eyes and splashed my face with cold water. I walked back over to the door and unlocked it, stepping back into my room. Inu Yasha smiled, "I'm glad you're okay, Kagome." I ran over to him and leaped into his arms, sobbing. "I'm sorry Inu Yasha! I shouldin't have yelled like that!" I said between sobs. "Kagome... I..." Inu Yasha said, sounding shocked by my behavior. "Can I stay home for a few more days? Please?" I asked, clutching the cloth of his kimono. "Only if I can stay with you," he said, sounding serious. "Why do you want to stay with me?" I asked, sounding surprised. "Because, I'm worried about you." I was shocked... Inu Yasha worrying about me? "Of course you can, you're always welcome here," I said, hugging him. "Promise me you'll stop crying," he said. I nodded, "Okay."
Later that day, I was unpacking my bag, figuring I wasn't going to go back to the feudal era for a few days. Inu Yasha was sitting on my bed, legs and arms crossed, leaning against my bed post. I found my razor in my bag, and quickly returned it to it's proper place in my bathroom. I sighed, figuring that I would have to go to school tomorrow, unless some miracle happened to cancel school. I removed my books from my backpack and placed them in a neat pile on my desk. I smiled, continuing to put some clothes back into my closet. "Why such a good mood, Kagome?" Inu Yasha asked. "I'm just glad that you're here," I said. "Y-you are?" Inu Yasha said as his face turned a bright shade of red. I nodded, "Of course. Why wouldin't I be happy?" He turned even brighter red, and shrugged, "I donno." After all the contents of my backpack were put back in their proper places, I hung the bag on a hook in my closet, and sat down at my desk. "It's boring just sitting around like this. Can't we do something more exciting?" Inu Yasha complained, sighing. "Like what?" I asked. "I don't know. What's fun to do in your world?" I thought hard, "Well, there's lots of things to do. There's a big festival not far from here, maybe we could go to that, unless you don't want to." He stood up and stretched. "What kind of festival?" he asked. "Just a normal one with games and rides. There's no real holiday any time soon, so it's just a fun festival." He yawned, "Well, I guess we can go. Anything is better than sitting around and doing nothing." I laughed, "You're so fidgety, like a child." He snorted, "Sure, whatever you say. I'm much more mature than you are." I crossed my arms, "Sure, Kodomo Chan." Our stupid little 'arguement' continued for several minutes, until I finally gave up and allowed him to win. "Really, Kagome. I thought girls were s'posed to be ambitious." I laughed, "Well, some of us are. Some girls, like me, are just lazy." Inu Yasha shook his head, "You're not lazy, you've just got a lot on your mind all the time, with all that homework and shit like that." I nodded, "You're being awfully nice today Inu Yasha." He snorted, "Don't take it too personally, I just don't want you cryin' all over the place is all." I laughed, "Sure. You won't admit it but I know you like me." Inu Yasha turned bright red, "WHAT the hell did you just say?!" I laughed harder, "You. Like. Me." Inu Yasha folded his arms, "Yeah right. How could I ever like someone as stupid as you?" I sighed, "You're right... How could you...?"
I stood up and walked into my bathroom, sorrow overwhelming me. He didn't like me, he never like me. He liked Kikyo, and only Kikyo. I was just Kikyo's reincarnate, I was her soul. I was just another Kikyo to him, not Kagome. I slammed the door and locked it, pulling the curtain back from my shower. I took my razor in my shaky hands and held it up to my wrist, pressing it hard against my skin and moved it horizontally, cutting into my skin deeper than the last time. I smiled slightly, and licked up the blood once again. I found a wrist band laying on my floor that I had bought at a Western-style punk-goth store and put it over my wrist, hoping nobody would question the band. "Kagome, what the hell are you doing? I smell blood..." Inu Yasha yelled frantically. I refused to respond, and sat down on the edge of my sink, brushing my hair. I was sinking into a deeper and deeper depression day by day. I knew what I was doing was wrong, very wrong. I knew that I would have to stop before someone found out, and I could have horrible things done to me. I'd heard stories at school about kids like me being put into a hospital, or even worse. I cringed at the thought, and buried my face in my hands, silently cursing to myself. 'Why'd you do it with Inu Yasha in the other room? You knew that he would be able to smell the blood,' I yelled at myself, 'but maybe he'll just think that I'm in heat or something... Hopefully.' I stood up, looking at my reflection in the mirror. I put my hand on my reflection's face, smiling. 'It's gonna be all right, Kagome,' I assured myself, 'You can overcome this all by yourself. Hitorijime shitai.'
I walked out of the bathroom staring at the floor with a newborn interest. "Kagome... I'm worried about you. You've been acting so different lately, Miroku and Sango are worried as well," Inu Yasha said. I walked over to my bed and layed down, sinking my face into my pillow. "I don't need anyone to worry," I mumbeled, my voice quieted by the pillow. I rolled over and looked up at my ceiling, sighing. "What's that arm band for, Kagome?" Inu Yasha asked, pointing at my arm. "It's a style from America, everyone wears them there," I said, making up my lame excuse. What was I supposed to say? Should I have said, 'Well, you see Inu Yasha, I've sort of lost my mind and enjoy cutting my wrists out of stress'? Did they even cut their wrists in Sengoku Jidai? God, I hoped not. That time had enough worries as it was, they definately didn't need people running around killing themselves. Killing themselves... Was that what I was doing? Sure, cutting yourself could easily kill you, but only if you did it in a certain spot on your wrist, a spot that I sut far away from. "Inu Yasha... Am I just Kikyo's replacement?" I asked. I knew that he had told me I wasn't many times before, but I still felt that I was. "No, of course not. Don't say shit like that, Kagome, it's not true," he said in a solemn voice. "Are you sure? Are you sure you don't comapare me to Kikyo in your mind?" He shook his head, "Of course not. You may look like her, but you're not her at all. You're more loving, kind, and compassionate than she ever was." I sat up, "And prettier?" Inu Yasha laughed, "You never change."
A little while later, my mom called Inu Yasha and I downstairs for lunch. She had made several variations of sushi and a soup. Inu Yasha and I sat next to eachother at the table, with Souta across from us and Mom and Grandpa on both of our sides. "So, Inu Yasha, Kagome says that you're going to stay with us for a few days. Is that true?" my mom asked, shoving a piece of salmon sushi in her mouth. Inu Yasha nodded slowly, afraid that my mom would be mad, "If that's all right with you, Higurashi San." My mother smiled, "Of course it is, you're always kind to our Kagome here and protect her, so we owe it to you. It's also good because she can catch up with her school work." Inu Yasha sighed silently in relief, glad that my mother did not object to him staying at our house. "So, what are you two going to do today?" my mom asked. "Well, I figure we can go over to the festival at the park for a little while later, or something like that," I said. "That's a good idea, I hope you two have fun," she said, smiling. "I wanna come, too, Kagome!" Souta whined. "Now, now, Souta. We should let them have fun by themselves," my mom said, smiling. 'By ourselves?' What was she getting at? That Inu Yasha and I were an item or something? If she thought that, she was gravely mistaken... of course I wouldin't mind it if Inu Yasha and I were together... I shook those thoughts from my mind right away, not wanting to to think about it. "Well, that was good. Thanks for the lunch," I said, standing up, "I think I'm going to go get ready to go to the festival. Inu Yasha, you can stay down here and play video games with Souta or something." Inu Yasha sighed, but agreed, not wanting to anger me, "Okay, but hurry up."
I ran upstairs into my room, and surveyed the clothes in my closet. It was a casual festival, so I didn't have to wear traditional clothes, which made me relieved. I rummaged through a huge pile of unfolded clothes (lol we all have one of those around the house) and finally found what I was looking for, a dark blue jean skirt that rose a bit above my knees. I threw the skirt on my bed and went to find a shirt. I finally found a cute form fitting green top, and threw that on my bed as well. I got dressed quickly, and went into my bathroom and brushed my hair. I pulled it back with two clips on the side and put on a little bit of makeup, not wanting to overdo it. After I was satisfied with how I looked, I threw on a pair of cute black heels, picked up my purse, and headed downstairs. Inu Yasha was sitting on the floor next to Souta, absorbed in a violent round of Mortal Combat. "Kagome, this game kicks ass!" he shouted loudly. "Don't use language like that in front of my family!" I yelled just as loud as he did. "Kagome, Inu Yasha is pretty good. Did you train him or anything?" Souta asked, looking up from the game for a second, only to be clobbered by Inu Yasha. I shook my head, "Nope, this is his first time. Pretty good, isn't he?" I walked up behind Inu Yasha and pulled on his collar, "C'mon, you have to get dressed in those normal clothes I bought you last time you were here, and then we have to go." He sighed, "Oh, alright. We'll continue later, okay Souta?" Souta nodded enthusiastically, "Okay, sure thing!"
After Inu Yasha was dresses in 'normal clothes', (loose baggy jeans, a leather belt, a loose tee shirt and a black hat) he and I headed for the bus stop, waving good bye to my family. "I'm glad you're here, Inu Yasha. It's fun to have you around," I said, smiling. "Uh, yeah..." Inu Yasha said, tencing up. I laughed at his shyness, and continued walking, garbbing his arm to make him walk faster. He didn't pull back from my grasp, which surpirised me. After we finally reached the bus stop which was about five blocks away from my house, we joined with the group of people who were already waiting for the bus. "I guess we didn't have a very origional idea going to the festival tonight," I said, pointing at the mob of people. Inu Yasha sighed, "It's okay, we don't have anything better to do." He was acting to kind to me lately, and I liked it. Maybe it was because he liked me, or maybe it was because he knew that I had cut myself. Or maybe it was because of both. Nevertheless, I was glad. The bus finally pulled up to the stop, and the people piled in. I paid for the both of us and we got a seat in the back of the bus, squished because of how packed it was. When we finally reached the festival, Inu Yasha marveled at all the people and lights. "See?," I started, "This is gonna be fun."
(:A.N:) That's it for chapter two! That was a pretty long chapter I think ^ ^. Well, anyways, review, cause if I get four more, I'll post the next chapter! Thanks for reading and PLEASE REVIEW!
(:A.N:) Wow, I got like four reviews in one day for my first chapter of this story! Thanks so much you guys! Well, here's chapter two!
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Chapter Two : Matsuri
By : Feng Shui Goddess
I slowly trudged over to my window where Inu Yasha was impatiently sitting, and opened it slowly. He jumped through and landed gracefully on my floor. "About time you let me in, wench," he said, crossing his arms in a pouting style. I sighed, "Just shut up. I'm not in the mood for your crap Inu Yasha." He seemed taken aback by this statement, and I saw a bit of worry in his eyes, "Kagome, are you alright? You don't seem like yourself today." I walked over to my bed and sat on it, "Yeah, I'm fine. Sorry for snapping back like that. I guess I'm just stressed." He nodded, "I guess I can understand." I laughed a little. Was Inu Yasha actually being sympathedic? I sighed, figuring that I was just imagining things. I grabbed my wrist with the cut on it, unaware that I was doing so. "What's that from?" Inu Yasha asked, grabbing my arm and examing the bandaid that was covering it. "Nothing!" I snapped back, trying to pry my arm from his seemingly iron grip. He pulled back the bandaid and looked at my wound. "This wound is fresh, I can tell. It's from last night," he declaired. I managed to pull my arm from his grasp, "How dare you, Inu Yasha. Just leave me the hell alone!" I ran into my bathroom and slammed the door, locking it. I leaned up against the back of the door and slumped down to the ground, starting to cry. I curled up into a little ball and rocked back and forth, letting my tears fall freely. 'Why are you crying, Kagome? You're being to childish," I scolded myself. "I shouldin't of done it! I shouldin't have done what I did last night, it was wrong. I was wrong. But, I enjoyed doing it. I'd like to do it again,' I thought to myself. Inu Yasha knocked on the door, "Kagome, come on out. I'm sorry, it's none of my buisiness where it came from. Please don't cry, come out," he cooed. 'Damn hanyo sences, he would tell I was crying,' I thought. I stood up, and looked at myself in the mirror. I wiped the tears from my eyes and splashed my face with cold water. I walked back over to the door and unlocked it, stepping back into my room. Inu Yasha smiled, "I'm glad you're okay, Kagome." I ran over to him and leaped into his arms, sobbing. "I'm sorry Inu Yasha! I shouldin't have yelled like that!" I said between sobs. "Kagome... I..." Inu Yasha said, sounding shocked by my behavior. "Can I stay home for a few more days? Please?" I asked, clutching the cloth of his kimono. "Only if I can stay with you," he said, sounding serious. "Why do you want to stay with me?" I asked, sounding surprised. "Because, I'm worried about you." I was shocked... Inu Yasha worrying about me? "Of course you can, you're always welcome here," I said, hugging him. "Promise me you'll stop crying," he said. I nodded, "Okay."
Later that day, I was unpacking my bag, figuring I wasn't going to go back to the feudal era for a few days. Inu Yasha was sitting on my bed, legs and arms crossed, leaning against my bed post. I found my razor in my bag, and quickly returned it to it's proper place in my bathroom. I sighed, figuring that I would have to go to school tomorrow, unless some miracle happened to cancel school. I removed my books from my backpack and placed them in a neat pile on my desk. I smiled, continuing to put some clothes back into my closet. "Why such a good mood, Kagome?" Inu Yasha asked. "I'm just glad that you're here," I said. "Y-you are?" Inu Yasha said as his face turned a bright shade of red. I nodded, "Of course. Why wouldin't I be happy?" He turned even brighter red, and shrugged, "I donno." After all the contents of my backpack were put back in their proper places, I hung the bag on a hook in my closet, and sat down at my desk. "It's boring just sitting around like this. Can't we do something more exciting?" Inu Yasha complained, sighing. "Like what?" I asked. "I don't know. What's fun to do in your world?" I thought hard, "Well, there's lots of things to do. There's a big festival not far from here, maybe we could go to that, unless you don't want to." He stood up and stretched. "What kind of festival?" he asked. "Just a normal one with games and rides. There's no real holiday any time soon, so it's just a fun festival." He yawned, "Well, I guess we can go. Anything is better than sitting around and doing nothing." I laughed, "You're so fidgety, like a child." He snorted, "Sure, whatever you say. I'm much more mature than you are." I crossed my arms, "Sure, Kodomo Chan." Our stupid little 'arguement' continued for several minutes, until I finally gave up and allowed him to win. "Really, Kagome. I thought girls were s'posed to be ambitious." I laughed, "Well, some of us are. Some girls, like me, are just lazy." Inu Yasha shook his head, "You're not lazy, you've just got a lot on your mind all the time, with all that homework and shit like that." I nodded, "You're being awfully nice today Inu Yasha." He snorted, "Don't take it too personally, I just don't want you cryin' all over the place is all." I laughed, "Sure. You won't admit it but I know you like me." Inu Yasha turned bright red, "WHAT the hell did you just say?!" I laughed harder, "You. Like. Me." Inu Yasha folded his arms, "Yeah right. How could I ever like someone as stupid as you?" I sighed, "You're right... How could you...?"
I stood up and walked into my bathroom, sorrow overwhelming me. He didn't like me, he never like me. He liked Kikyo, and only Kikyo. I was just Kikyo's reincarnate, I was her soul. I was just another Kikyo to him, not Kagome. I slammed the door and locked it, pulling the curtain back from my shower. I took my razor in my shaky hands and held it up to my wrist, pressing it hard against my skin and moved it horizontally, cutting into my skin deeper than the last time. I smiled slightly, and licked up the blood once again. I found a wrist band laying on my floor that I had bought at a Western-style punk-goth store and put it over my wrist, hoping nobody would question the band. "Kagome, what the hell are you doing? I smell blood..." Inu Yasha yelled frantically. I refused to respond, and sat down on the edge of my sink, brushing my hair. I was sinking into a deeper and deeper depression day by day. I knew what I was doing was wrong, very wrong. I knew that I would have to stop before someone found out, and I could have horrible things done to me. I'd heard stories at school about kids like me being put into a hospital, or even worse. I cringed at the thought, and buried my face in my hands, silently cursing to myself. 'Why'd you do it with Inu Yasha in the other room? You knew that he would be able to smell the blood,' I yelled at myself, 'but maybe he'll just think that I'm in heat or something... Hopefully.' I stood up, looking at my reflection in the mirror. I put my hand on my reflection's face, smiling. 'It's gonna be all right, Kagome,' I assured myself, 'You can overcome this all by yourself. Hitorijime shitai.'
I walked out of the bathroom staring at the floor with a newborn interest. "Kagome... I'm worried about you. You've been acting so different lately, Miroku and Sango are worried as well," Inu Yasha said. I walked over to my bed and layed down, sinking my face into my pillow. "I don't need anyone to worry," I mumbeled, my voice quieted by the pillow. I rolled over and looked up at my ceiling, sighing. "What's that arm band for, Kagome?" Inu Yasha asked, pointing at my arm. "It's a style from America, everyone wears them there," I said, making up my lame excuse. What was I supposed to say? Should I have said, 'Well, you see Inu Yasha, I've sort of lost my mind and enjoy cutting my wrists out of stress'? Did they even cut their wrists in Sengoku Jidai? God, I hoped not. That time had enough worries as it was, they definately didn't need people running around killing themselves. Killing themselves... Was that what I was doing? Sure, cutting yourself could easily kill you, but only if you did it in a certain spot on your wrist, a spot that I sut far away from. "Inu Yasha... Am I just Kikyo's replacement?" I asked. I knew that he had told me I wasn't many times before, but I still felt that I was. "No, of course not. Don't say shit like that, Kagome, it's not true," he said in a solemn voice. "Are you sure? Are you sure you don't comapare me to Kikyo in your mind?" He shook his head, "Of course not. You may look like her, but you're not her at all. You're more loving, kind, and compassionate than she ever was." I sat up, "And prettier?" Inu Yasha laughed, "You never change."
A little while later, my mom called Inu Yasha and I downstairs for lunch. She had made several variations of sushi and a soup. Inu Yasha and I sat next to eachother at the table, with Souta across from us and Mom and Grandpa on both of our sides. "So, Inu Yasha, Kagome says that you're going to stay with us for a few days. Is that true?" my mom asked, shoving a piece of salmon sushi in her mouth. Inu Yasha nodded slowly, afraid that my mom would be mad, "If that's all right with you, Higurashi San." My mother smiled, "Of course it is, you're always kind to our Kagome here and protect her, so we owe it to you. It's also good because she can catch up with her school work." Inu Yasha sighed silently in relief, glad that my mother did not object to him staying at our house. "So, what are you two going to do today?" my mom asked. "Well, I figure we can go over to the festival at the park for a little while later, or something like that," I said. "That's a good idea, I hope you two have fun," she said, smiling. "I wanna come, too, Kagome!" Souta whined. "Now, now, Souta. We should let them have fun by themselves," my mom said, smiling. 'By ourselves?' What was she getting at? That Inu Yasha and I were an item or something? If she thought that, she was gravely mistaken... of course I wouldin't mind it if Inu Yasha and I were together... I shook those thoughts from my mind right away, not wanting to to think about it. "Well, that was good. Thanks for the lunch," I said, standing up, "I think I'm going to go get ready to go to the festival. Inu Yasha, you can stay down here and play video games with Souta or something." Inu Yasha sighed, but agreed, not wanting to anger me, "Okay, but hurry up."
I ran upstairs into my room, and surveyed the clothes in my closet. It was a casual festival, so I didn't have to wear traditional clothes, which made me relieved. I rummaged through a huge pile of unfolded clothes (lol we all have one of those around the house) and finally found what I was looking for, a dark blue jean skirt that rose a bit above my knees. I threw the skirt on my bed and went to find a shirt. I finally found a cute form fitting green top, and threw that on my bed as well. I got dressed quickly, and went into my bathroom and brushed my hair. I pulled it back with two clips on the side and put on a little bit of makeup, not wanting to overdo it. After I was satisfied with how I looked, I threw on a pair of cute black heels, picked up my purse, and headed downstairs. Inu Yasha was sitting on the floor next to Souta, absorbed in a violent round of Mortal Combat. "Kagome, this game kicks ass!" he shouted loudly. "Don't use language like that in front of my family!" I yelled just as loud as he did. "Kagome, Inu Yasha is pretty good. Did you train him or anything?" Souta asked, looking up from the game for a second, only to be clobbered by Inu Yasha. I shook my head, "Nope, this is his first time. Pretty good, isn't he?" I walked up behind Inu Yasha and pulled on his collar, "C'mon, you have to get dressed in those normal clothes I bought you last time you were here, and then we have to go." He sighed, "Oh, alright. We'll continue later, okay Souta?" Souta nodded enthusiastically, "Okay, sure thing!"
After Inu Yasha was dresses in 'normal clothes', (loose baggy jeans, a leather belt, a loose tee shirt and a black hat) he and I headed for the bus stop, waving good bye to my family. "I'm glad you're here, Inu Yasha. It's fun to have you around," I said, smiling. "Uh, yeah..." Inu Yasha said, tencing up. I laughed at his shyness, and continued walking, garbbing his arm to make him walk faster. He didn't pull back from my grasp, which surpirised me. After we finally reached the bus stop which was about five blocks away from my house, we joined with the group of people who were already waiting for the bus. "I guess we didn't have a very origional idea going to the festival tonight," I said, pointing at the mob of people. Inu Yasha sighed, "It's okay, we don't have anything better to do." He was acting to kind to me lately, and I liked it. Maybe it was because he liked me, or maybe it was because he knew that I had cut myself. Or maybe it was because of both. Nevertheless, I was glad. The bus finally pulled up to the stop, and the people piled in. I paid for the both of us and we got a seat in the back of the bus, squished because of how packed it was. When we finally reached the festival, Inu Yasha marveled at all the people and lights. "See?," I started, "This is gonna be fun."
(:A.N:) That's it for chapter two! That was a pretty long chapter I think ^ ^. Well, anyways, review, cause if I get four more, I'll post the next chapter! Thanks for reading and PLEASE REVIEW!