"Complete"
by Gaiety
I was wakened by the
chilling ambiance of his room. I opened my eyes,
half-awake, groping for
the loose sheets to cover my naked body.
I felt his warm
breathing against my neck, realizing that he slept
soundly after hours of
pleasure and passion. Half naked under the
sheets, he looked
luscious even in slumber that I could not resist
running my hands down
his chest.
I prompted to sleep
again, my bare back across him. But I felt his
warm breath over my
ears and neck. His breathing became constant, and
it sent chills down my
spine.
"So how was
it?" He whispered low. "Are you happy now?"
I sighed. "Yes,
you were wonderful," I mumbled weakly. "You were so
strong,
Lukawa-kun."
"I didn't know you
were such a fragile creature," he whispered still,
running his fingers
down my bare back. "So fragile like a flower
under me. I didn't
know, until last night."
He placed a hand on my
waist as he nibbled on my neck and shoulder.
He fed on me full of
passion, draining me both of reason and
strength. As I felt his
weight crushing me, my mind went blank; he
intoxicated me as he
filled my lust-laden senses to the brim.
A spark of guilt
stunned me. I love Lukawa—but I know he cannot
reciprocate my
feelings. I know it's wrong for me to force him to do
so. The guilt slowly
overpowered my senses as I recalled the past
incidents that led
Lukawa to consent on my demand.
He was at the gym one
Friday afternoon. Being one of the avid
admirers of Lukawa, I
watched him in awe as he practiced in his
majesty. Standing near
the door, I drifted in my wildest reveries of
him while the other
girls screamed their hearts out.
"Excuse me,"
a voice called. "You're in my way."
I snapped out of my
delusions as soon as I realized it was Lukawa. I
looked around and saw
that all eyes were fixed on me; I could
distinguish looks of
jealousy from the crowd of both males and
females.
"You're in my
way," he repeated, this time, colder.
I stepped back and gave
way. I glanced at my watch—6:00 p.m. meant
the end of their
training. I looked ahead, and without thinking
twice, followed him
haphazardly.
I was facing the door
of Shohoku team's locker room when those
delusions came to my
mind again. What would it be like to get
intimate with Lukawa? To
run my hands down his chest and have his
hands wrapped around
me? I felt the urge to peek inside the locker
room. Until I could not
resist the temptation anymore, I twisted the
knob, pushed the door
slightly and peeked. Lukawa was inside.
He was taking off his
shirt and at once, my erotic delusions stirred.
I nearly fainted when
he glanced at my way—it seems like he knew I
was behind the door.
Indeed it was; he knew I was there.
"You have been
following me, right?" He snapped. "Come in, it's not
nice for you to be
standing there."
At once, I stepped
inside and shut the door behind me. I was left
standing, speechless,
astounded. I felt like saying something, but no
words came out when I
tried to speak.
"What do you
want?" He said, glancing at me as he slipped on a clean
shirt.
"I…I uh…" I
blabbered. I knew I wasn't making sense.
:"You can step out
of the room if you don't need anything. I'd be
glad to have some
privacy."
"I…I like
you."
His brows twitched.
"So, you're one of them."
"I want you."
My stomach lurched as he stared at me.
"Go home," he
said, walking past me.
"Give me one
night, Lukawa…I swear you'll be mine."
I was out of my proper
senses. What am I saying? I know he wouldn't
do anything stupid. How
could I say those words when I knew he'd turn
me down? I wasn't
thinking anymore—but I felt different; I'll do
anything it takes to
make Lukawa mine.
"Hah…you think so,
woman?" He mumbled. "And if I give in?"
He looked at me from
head to foot. I felt weak as his cold,
emotionless eyes
scrutinized my being. He seemed to undress me, a
faint smile appearing
on his face.
He twisted the doorknob
and stepped outside. I almost lost hope when
he called out,
"You coming or not?"
It was seven o' clock
already. The Friday night seemed as cold as
Lukawa. I walked behind
him, still disbelieving that he actually gave
in to my challenge. Not
doubting even for a minute, I smiled. My
carnal hunger will
finally be gratified.
We entered a cozy
apartment, his room lit with deliciously dim
lights, the bed beside
the window. He let me in first and shut the
door silently behind
him. He began taking off his clothes.
Breathlessly, I turned
behind him and faced the window.
"Take your clothes
off," he snapped. "Or do you want me to help you?"
My heart raced within
my chest. I felt his hands on my waist. A dash
of hesitation crossed
my mind. What is he doing? What are we doing?
"This is what you
want, right?" He said as he unbuttoned my blouse.
Pulling it loose,
Lukawa made me face him.
I raised the question
to myself. Is this really what I want? For a
moment, I thought, `No,
this isn't it.' But as I shifted my glance
and gazed at his eyes,
I knew this is what I really wanted; what I've
been dreaming since
thoughts of Lukawa drove me mad.
I felt his hands
slipping inside my skirt. "Yes, it is…"I whispered,
letting him undress me.
We tumbled on the cozy
bed, Lukawa feeding on me full of hunger and
passion. His strong
arms pinned me down on the cushion, savoring me
like a prey underneath
him. He drove into me over and over, hard.
Like a child he suckled
on my bosom, as moans of pleasure escaped my
lips. Yes, Lukawa…so
strong, so passionate, so luscious.
We parted, gasping for
breath, flesh warm and screaming. At once I
felt weak, overpowered
by his weight crushing down on me. After
gathering enough
strength, I climbed onto him. It was his turn to be
the prey.
"Lukawa…" I
whispered, planting kisses on his neck. I could hear him
moaning as he stroked
my bare back. I locked my lips on his, letting
his tongue slip inside
my mouth. I felt him stroking me harder. I
sucked onto his
hardened nipples, his moans now louder and
satisfying. I smiled.
True enough, for one night, he was mine.
Again, we tumbled, his
weight crushing me down deliciously. Barely
breathing against my
neck, I heard him whisper, "I'm yours…" I
stirred. I cannot
believe this—the object of my affections is
actually telling me
he's mine, consuming me in the fire I myself had
built.
I felt him drive into
me again, this time, more intense. My whole
body ached and
screamed, fatigued by the hours of bliss. "Lukawa…"I
whispered, finally
falling asleep as he mauled me with his kisses.
I opened my eyes. Tears
trickled down my cheeks. Yes, Lukawa is with
me right now. He mauled
me with his kisses and whispered he's mine.
But how long could we
stay like this? Will he ever whisper he's mine
again? I was hoping he
wouldn't notice my tears. Yes, I love him. But
I couldn't stand this
any longer.
"Lukawa…stop."
No response. He was
still nibbling at my neck, going lower and lower.
"Stop…please."
Still, no response.
"Lukawa…stop…please!"
I cried.
He went up. "What
now?"
I lied on my side,
sobbing. Reality bites and when it does, it hurts.
After this, he'll leave
me, and act as if nothing actually happened.
He will go on his way
being the star player of Shohoku High School
basketball team. And I,
a junior high student, not even his
classmate, will again
be ignored and left with the incident I will
never forget in my bane
existence.
"What now?"
He repeated. "What's the sobbing all about?"
"This is
stupidity, Lukawa. I can't even imagine what will happen
next after this. I gave
myself to you, not minding the fact that you
might leave me and
ignore me again. I cannot let you take me anymore,
Lukawa. Last night,
yes, you were mine. But now? Later? Tomorrow?
Will you still be
mine?"
I felt him lie down
beside me and slip an arm on my waist. "Ignore
you? Not now that I am
finally complete. I see you every afternoon,
standing there, waiting
for me for hours. It hurts me that I cannot
even reciprocate your
glances with a word or two. It hurts me…because
you've been on my mind
since I first saw you standing there, your
face the fairest among
the crowd before me."
I cried. I faced him
and again, he mauled with his kisses. He never
lied. He was mine, and
I was complete as well.
