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Always With Me....
Rachel sat on her bed in her room and sobbed quietly to herself. She couldn't believe what she had just done. How could she be so stupid? She looked at her forearm. Dried blood covered it and now you could only see red stains, not her beautiful skin. She looked back down and sobbed again. She held her knees close to her chest and buried her head into them. The phone rang and she jumped at the noise. Not realizing what had happened just a few minutes ago, she sat there and stared at it. It rang again. Still, she didn't move. Just let the sound ring through the air. It rang a final time, but this time the answering machine picked it up.
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"Hey it's Rachel, I can't come to the phone right now but leave me a message 'kay!" She halfway chuckled at how happy she was hearing her voice.
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"Hey Rach, it's Mon. umm you didn't show up at the coffee house today and nobody saw you so just wanted to make sure everything was alright. Well anyway I got to get going but call me back ASAP" Hearing Monica's, her best friend's, voice made her cry even more. She didn't know how to tell anyone. All she felt was emptiness, like her life was over. She went outside on her balcony and lit up a joint. For a while now she has been smoking more and more pot, loving the feeling it gave her. It reminded her that maybe there was a reason to live, or just to get high and forget all her problems. She needed help but didn't know whom to turn to. She knew if she talked to Mon, she would just get lectured. Chandler would just laugh in her face, Phoebe, well she would come up with some radical, pointless idea, and Joey, well his answer would be something along the lines of "how you doin'" That left Ross. Her ex-boyfriend. They hadn't spoken in days since they broke up. She missed that rush her gave her every time he smiled or touched her. She wanted that again. But it was never going to happen. He was with that Chloe bitch. I guess they really hit it off that night. Now Rachel was just left with herself and Ross's old things that still smelled of him. She went back into her room in Monica's old apartment. Monica had moved out a few days ago to live with her first serious beau, Jason, since Richard. Rachel was left all alone which made this even worse. She sat down on her bed and took out a journal.
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I Hey, it's me. Nothing's getting any better. Ross is still with that bitch Chloe. God I miss him so much. Why did we have to fight? We were doing so well together. I was really hoping he would propose because well all I wanted to do was spend the rest of my life with him, and now look at me. I haven't seen him or spoken to him for days. I miss him so much. My life is nothing without him, he is like everything that kept me going before and now I'm nothing. Just a lifeless body walking around. I don't even think he would consider coming back to me now. I haven't eaten in days, I've been smoking and drinking so much I smell like crap. Not only that, but now I think I'm addicted to that shit. I want him, and that's all. Why can't he see that? Love, Rach. March 16 /I
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She placed the pen on top of the book and hugged it tightly. This had been her best friend for the past couple of days since she avoided everyone else. She put the book back into her nightstand, which was filled with used tissues and pictures of Ross. She picked up one of the pictures and smiled. That rush had come to her just from a picture. She imagined what it would have been like if he was standing there, she wouldn't be able to control herself. Then she picked up another picture, this time of both her and Ross. This time she cried, knowing this would never happen again. She got up and went into the kitchen. She briefly looked through the fridge looking for something to drink. She then looked above it, and beside it. All of a sudden a rage came upon her and she tore apart the kitchen looking for liquor. She had none. She drank it all this morning and then after that slit part of her arm. She got a spine tingling chill at the thought of that. She then sighed, picked up her keys and wallet and left the apartment still dressed in her pajamas and slippers. She hadn't showered, put on makeup or tried to look decent. She looked like a complete wreck. But she went looking for something to improve her day anyway. She left her building and started to walk down the street to the local liquor store. On the way she picked up a few magazines at a corner stand and continued on. She glanced at the cover of this month's Cosmo and it read "Make him fall in love with you" Reading this made her excited. She immediately thought of Ross and how she may take a few tips from this to help their relationship move along. She read it while walking down the sidewalk and wasn't paying attention to the busy New York streets. She walked straight into someone and fell over because she was so weak. She blacked out for a moment after hitting her head on the cement.
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"Hello? Are you okay? I'm really sorry. Are you okay?" She blinked a few times before realizing whom it was that she had run into.
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"Ross?" br
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"OMG Rachel? I didn't recognize you! Are you okay?" he said surprisingly
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He helped her up, picked up her magazines and wallet. "Where you headed to?" She became startled and unsure of what to say. "Ummmm.." She began. "Well I know where you're coming now." He said. "Where?"
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They walked through the doors and saw a familiar couch. "Hey guys look who I found!" Ross said excitedly. "Who?" Monica asked, seeing no one behind Ross. "Huh?" he turned around and noticed they raggedy Rachel had run off somewhere." "Shit, she was just here." "WHO?!" They all said at once. "Oh, ha, Rachel." Various things were said like, "OMG", "Where did you find her", "Is she okay", and "So is she screwing someone right now?" "No Joey" Ross responded sternly to Joey's horny comment. He ordered a latte, and sat down on the chair. He told them the story of how he ran into Rachel walking down the street and how he had brought her here to hang out with everyone. Mixed emotions of sadness, happiness and want flowed through Ross's head after thinking about Rachel. He missed being with her so much but he didn't know what to do because he knew she was over him. Seeing this, Monica quickly tried to change the subject. br
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"Oh," Moncia began speaking to Ross, "don't forget to stop and pick up a few bottles of wine for dinner tonight. Jason is coming and well we might be having an engagement party!" She smiled and laughed giddily at the thought. Her and Jason were pretty serious and he had hinted at proposing now for a few days, and since today was their first anniversary, she was hoping it would be tonight.
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"Okay Mon. I'll stop on my way home, which I have to leave ." he looked at his watch, ". in about umm well right now." Everyone stared at him. "What?" He asked. And they all laughed and he left in a gruff. It was so easy was to piss Ross off that they do it for kicks now. He walked down the street, with his head hung low and walking very slowly towards where he and Rachel had run into each other earlier. He sighed, and then went into the liquor store. He walked up and down the aisles, like he was walking before, looking for Arbor Mist, Monica's favorite wine. He found it and the bottom shelf, and bent down to get it. All of a sudden someone had tripped over him and at least 6 bottles Bacardi Silver had smashed and broken on the ground. The woman got up.
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"I'm sorry sir. ROSS? OMG what are you doing here?"
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"Rachel?! Can I ask the same, and especially with that much vodka! Are you having a party or something tonight?"
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"Well if you call me, a few bottles and some trees a party then yes."
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"Rach, what has gotten into you? We haven't seen you for days, and now you're a druggie? What's wrong?"
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"You, that's what's wrong. You leave me for her and now I'm left with no one to care about me like you did. No one to hold me, to love me like you did." She slipped. Maybe he didn't notice that she implied she wanted him back.
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"Rach, me and Chloe, we're nothing. I haven't called her since that night and I regret doing that every day. I never wanted to lose you. You are the best thing that happened to me, and without you I'm just as miserable. I wish I had never gone to that bar, or judged you for having Mark over. I over reacted and I messed everything up. It's nothing you did it's my stupidity and sometimes I wish I had taken Love 101 instead of some stupid dinosaur class because no matter what, you will go down in history as the most beautiful and caring and sweet woman ever." They began to move closer together at this point almost touching, "I don't ever want to lose you again. And I never will if we are together. Rach, I love you." He leaned in and kissed her softly. She dropped the rest of the bottles and grabbed the back of his neck, and pulled him in so now their bodies were touching. She could feel his heartbeat through his clothes and smiled, she missed that feeling. She began to lean in for a passionate kiss, got no more than a ½ inch away from his lips and just smiled.
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"Chloe and I." They both laughed, and leaned in. The kiss reminded them both of their first at the coffee house. It sent chills down their spines and they both let out a sigh of relief knowing they had their comfort back.
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"Why have you been avoiding us so much?" Ross asked.
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"Because every time I'm around you I want to be with you and I thought that could never happen."
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"You'll always be with me."
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Ok yea that sucks lol but review it anyway thanksss & tell me if u want me to continue or not.
Always With Me....
Rachel sat on her bed in her room and sobbed quietly to herself. She couldn't believe what she had just done. How could she be so stupid? She looked at her forearm. Dried blood covered it and now you could only see red stains, not her beautiful skin. She looked back down and sobbed again. She held her knees close to her chest and buried her head into them. The phone rang and she jumped at the noise. Not realizing what had happened just a few minutes ago, she sat there and stared at it. It rang again. Still, she didn't move. Just let the sound ring through the air. It rang a final time, but this time the answering machine picked it up.
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"Hey it's Rachel, I can't come to the phone right now but leave me a message 'kay!" She halfway chuckled at how happy she was hearing her voice.
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"Hey Rach, it's Mon. umm you didn't show up at the coffee house today and nobody saw you so just wanted to make sure everything was alright. Well anyway I got to get going but call me back ASAP" Hearing Monica's, her best friend's, voice made her cry even more. She didn't know how to tell anyone. All she felt was emptiness, like her life was over. She went outside on her balcony and lit up a joint. For a while now she has been smoking more and more pot, loving the feeling it gave her. It reminded her that maybe there was a reason to live, or just to get high and forget all her problems. She needed help but didn't know whom to turn to. She knew if she talked to Mon, she would just get lectured. Chandler would just laugh in her face, Phoebe, well she would come up with some radical, pointless idea, and Joey, well his answer would be something along the lines of "how you doin'" That left Ross. Her ex-boyfriend. They hadn't spoken in days since they broke up. She missed that rush her gave her every time he smiled or touched her. She wanted that again. But it was never going to happen. He was with that Chloe bitch. I guess they really hit it off that night. Now Rachel was just left with herself and Ross's old things that still smelled of him. She went back into her room in Monica's old apartment. Monica had moved out a few days ago to live with her first serious beau, Jason, since Richard. Rachel was left all alone which made this even worse. She sat down on her bed and took out a journal.
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I Hey, it's me. Nothing's getting any better. Ross is still with that bitch Chloe. God I miss him so much. Why did we have to fight? We were doing so well together. I was really hoping he would propose because well all I wanted to do was spend the rest of my life with him, and now look at me. I haven't seen him or spoken to him for days. I miss him so much. My life is nothing without him, he is like everything that kept me going before and now I'm nothing. Just a lifeless body walking around. I don't even think he would consider coming back to me now. I haven't eaten in days, I've been smoking and drinking so much I smell like crap. Not only that, but now I think I'm addicted to that shit. I want him, and that's all. Why can't he see that? Love, Rach. March 16 /I
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She placed the pen on top of the book and hugged it tightly. This had been her best friend for the past couple of days since she avoided everyone else. She put the book back into her nightstand, which was filled with used tissues and pictures of Ross. She picked up one of the pictures and smiled. That rush had come to her just from a picture. She imagined what it would have been like if he was standing there, she wouldn't be able to control herself. Then she picked up another picture, this time of both her and Ross. This time she cried, knowing this would never happen again. She got up and went into the kitchen. She briefly looked through the fridge looking for something to drink. She then looked above it, and beside it. All of a sudden a rage came upon her and she tore apart the kitchen looking for liquor. She had none. She drank it all this morning and then after that slit part of her arm. She got a spine tingling chill at the thought of that. She then sighed, picked up her keys and wallet and left the apartment still dressed in her pajamas and slippers. She hadn't showered, put on makeup or tried to look decent. She looked like a complete wreck. But she went looking for something to improve her day anyway. She left her building and started to walk down the street to the local liquor store. On the way she picked up a few magazines at a corner stand and continued on. She glanced at the cover of this month's Cosmo and it read "Make him fall in love with you" Reading this made her excited. She immediately thought of Ross and how she may take a few tips from this to help their relationship move along. She read it while walking down the sidewalk and wasn't paying attention to the busy New York streets. She walked straight into someone and fell over because she was so weak. She blacked out for a moment after hitting her head on the cement.
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"Hello? Are you okay? I'm really sorry. Are you okay?" She blinked a few times before realizing whom it was that she had run into.
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"OMG Rachel? I didn't recognize you! Are you okay?" he said surprisingly
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He helped her up, picked up her magazines and wallet. "Where you headed to?" She became startled and unsure of what to say. "Ummmm.." She began. "Well I know where you're coming now." He said. "Where?"
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They walked through the doors and saw a familiar couch. "Hey guys look who I found!" Ross said excitedly. "Who?" Monica asked, seeing no one behind Ross. "Huh?" he turned around and noticed they raggedy Rachel had run off somewhere." "Shit, she was just here." "WHO?!" They all said at once. "Oh, ha, Rachel." Various things were said like, "OMG", "Where did you find her", "Is she okay", and "So is she screwing someone right now?" "No Joey" Ross responded sternly to Joey's horny comment. He ordered a latte, and sat down on the chair. He told them the story of how he ran into Rachel walking down the street and how he had brought her here to hang out with everyone. Mixed emotions of sadness, happiness and want flowed through Ross's head after thinking about Rachel. He missed being with her so much but he didn't know what to do because he knew she was over him. Seeing this, Monica quickly tried to change the subject. br
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"Oh," Moncia began speaking to Ross, "don't forget to stop and pick up a few bottles of wine for dinner tonight. Jason is coming and well we might be having an engagement party!" She smiled and laughed giddily at the thought. Her and Jason were pretty serious and he had hinted at proposing now for a few days, and since today was their first anniversary, she was hoping it would be tonight.
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"Okay Mon. I'll stop on my way home, which I have to leave ." he looked at his watch, ". in about umm well right now." Everyone stared at him. "What?" He asked. And they all laughed and he left in a gruff. It was so easy was to piss Ross off that they do it for kicks now. He walked down the street, with his head hung low and walking very slowly towards where he and Rachel had run into each other earlier. He sighed, and then went into the liquor store. He walked up and down the aisles, like he was walking before, looking for Arbor Mist, Monica's favorite wine. He found it and the bottom shelf, and bent down to get it. All of a sudden someone had tripped over him and at least 6 bottles Bacardi Silver had smashed and broken on the ground. The woman got up.
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"I'm sorry sir. ROSS? OMG what are you doing here?"
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"Rachel?! Can I ask the same, and especially with that much vodka! Are you having a party or something tonight?"
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"Well if you call me, a few bottles and some trees a party then yes."
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"Rach, what has gotten into you? We haven't seen you for days, and now you're a druggie? What's wrong?"
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"You, that's what's wrong. You leave me for her and now I'm left with no one to care about me like you did. No one to hold me, to love me like you did." She slipped. Maybe he didn't notice that she implied she wanted him back.
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"Rach, me and Chloe, we're nothing. I haven't called her since that night and I regret doing that every day. I never wanted to lose you. You are the best thing that happened to me, and without you I'm just as miserable. I wish I had never gone to that bar, or judged you for having Mark over. I over reacted and I messed everything up. It's nothing you did it's my stupidity and sometimes I wish I had taken Love 101 instead of some stupid dinosaur class because no matter what, you will go down in history as the most beautiful and caring and sweet woman ever." They began to move closer together at this point almost touching, "I don't ever want to lose you again. And I never will if we are together. Rach, I love you." He leaned in and kissed her softly. She dropped the rest of the bottles and grabbed the back of his neck, and pulled him in so now their bodies were touching. She could feel his heartbeat through his clothes and smiled, she missed that feeling. She began to lean in for a passionate kiss, got no more than a ½ inch away from his lips and just smiled.
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"Chloe and I." They both laughed, and leaned in. The kiss reminded them both of their first at the coffee house. It sent chills down their spines and they both let out a sigh of relief knowing they had their comfort back.
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"Why have you been avoiding us so much?" Ross asked.
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"Because every time I'm around you I want to be with you and I thought that could never happen."
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"You'll always be with me."
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Ok yea that sucks lol but review it anyway thanksss & tell me if u want me to continue or not.