To Steal Your Love epilogue
A/N: **hangs head in shame** I know I left it with out conclusion for a long time, I knew what I was going to do, then I got writers block when I tried to write it, then I forgot the idea but I know what I'm gonna do now, even got up early on a weekend to do it, so here we go.
Oh, before I start, a warning: this chapter is a little angsty and I promise no happy endings, my muse doesn't seem to know what those are, but I'll do what I can and try not to make it to sad. maybe I can try for the happy ending thing in a sequel.
Disclaimer: as stated in previous chapters.
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~An excerpt from the journal of Tsukiyono Omi~
Today's the day. It's been exactly one year today since our big argument/conspiracy/whatever you want to call it ended. We're all alive still; I suppose that's good, though there have been days when I wish I wasn't. The others don't know that though, I'm back to genki Omi again to them, can't have them knowing what I really feel now can I?
I don't want them to know how I really feel, they'll be happier if they don't know how much they hurt me every time I see them kiss, every time I see them touch, every time they walk out the door together, and he'll be happier if he thinks that I'm happy, he wont hurt if he doesn't know where my true feelings lie.
Kind of ironic that I'm sitting here writing in my journal about how sad I am on a day that's supposed to be great for me. Besides being the anniversary of the day we all stopped fighting over relationships, it's also OUR six-month anniversary. He's determined to celebrate it too. I think it's silly to celebrate six months, but I'll humor him. Can't have any one getting suspicious of my feelings now can I?
The poor guy, he really thinks I love him, and the truth is I do, just not the way he loves me. When he asked me to date him, shortly after I turned eighteen, I couldn't say no. I felt bad for him, and he was a close friend and I did really care for him, so I agreed. I knew he'd already been through one really painful rejection recently, I'd been through one too, the same one even. How could I say no? It'd break his heart all over again. I must admit though, my reasoning wasn't entirely unselfish. I was lonely and hurting, he was a distraction. Some one to care about and some one to care about me, the way I wanted to be cared about. And I do care about him, even love him, and not like a brother or anything either, it's more then that. He's a really good friend and I'd give my life for him with out a second thought, he's good looking too, I just. I don't love him the way he loves me.
I guess you never know though. Just because I care about him doesn't mean he doesn't drive me crazy. Always smoking and teasing and flirting, that's Yohji, but. he kind of grows on you.
I remember when he first came to Weiß, he drove Ken and I up the walls with all his crazy habits, but after a few months we got used to it. It became normal, and we became friends, the same way it happened with Ken and I when he first showed up, and the same as with Aya. Now, if one of us left, it wouldn't be the same, and we'd miss all the silly little quirks we each have.
So I guess you really never know, I may yet grow to love him the way he loves me. I don't think I'll ever love him like I do Ken though. but for now, I'll just pretend to be happy for them and happy for him and maybe if I pretend enough, someday I wont have to pretend any more. Maybe someday I wont be lying when I say I love him or when I smile and say congratulations to them on their anniversary or when I tell my self this is all for the three of them. Maybe someday. just not today.
~Owarii~
A/N: Ok, it's finished. Finally. I have officially completed my first story. It's done!
Okay, I want to say thank you to every one who reviewed, especially futagoakuma-tenshi01 for reviewing the other day and reminding me that I hadn't finished this yet (weather you did so intentionally or not.) and locura, who kept me going on this as long as I did. I'm really grateful to every one else too but I don't have time to write thanks to every one and if I did, do you know how bad that would make this chapter look? The list would be longer then the chapter! But thank you all! I love you all! Cookies and pocky for every one! You've made me very happy and a much more confident writer! And I'll love you all even more if you hit the review button one last time and tell me what you think of the whole thing. Sankyuu!
A/N: **hangs head in shame** I know I left it with out conclusion for a long time, I knew what I was going to do, then I got writers block when I tried to write it, then I forgot the idea but I know what I'm gonna do now, even got up early on a weekend to do it, so here we go.
Oh, before I start, a warning: this chapter is a little angsty and I promise no happy endings, my muse doesn't seem to know what those are, but I'll do what I can and try not to make it to sad. maybe I can try for the happy ending thing in a sequel.
Disclaimer: as stated in previous chapters.
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~An excerpt from the journal of Tsukiyono Omi~
Today's the day. It's been exactly one year today since our big argument/conspiracy/whatever you want to call it ended. We're all alive still; I suppose that's good, though there have been days when I wish I wasn't. The others don't know that though, I'm back to genki Omi again to them, can't have them knowing what I really feel now can I?
I don't want them to know how I really feel, they'll be happier if they don't know how much they hurt me every time I see them kiss, every time I see them touch, every time they walk out the door together, and he'll be happier if he thinks that I'm happy, he wont hurt if he doesn't know where my true feelings lie.
Kind of ironic that I'm sitting here writing in my journal about how sad I am on a day that's supposed to be great for me. Besides being the anniversary of the day we all stopped fighting over relationships, it's also OUR six-month anniversary. He's determined to celebrate it too. I think it's silly to celebrate six months, but I'll humor him. Can't have any one getting suspicious of my feelings now can I?
The poor guy, he really thinks I love him, and the truth is I do, just not the way he loves me. When he asked me to date him, shortly after I turned eighteen, I couldn't say no. I felt bad for him, and he was a close friend and I did really care for him, so I agreed. I knew he'd already been through one really painful rejection recently, I'd been through one too, the same one even. How could I say no? It'd break his heart all over again. I must admit though, my reasoning wasn't entirely unselfish. I was lonely and hurting, he was a distraction. Some one to care about and some one to care about me, the way I wanted to be cared about. And I do care about him, even love him, and not like a brother or anything either, it's more then that. He's a really good friend and I'd give my life for him with out a second thought, he's good looking too, I just. I don't love him the way he loves me.
I guess you never know though. Just because I care about him doesn't mean he doesn't drive me crazy. Always smoking and teasing and flirting, that's Yohji, but. he kind of grows on you.
I remember when he first came to Weiß, he drove Ken and I up the walls with all his crazy habits, but after a few months we got used to it. It became normal, and we became friends, the same way it happened with Ken and I when he first showed up, and the same as with Aya. Now, if one of us left, it wouldn't be the same, and we'd miss all the silly little quirks we each have.
So I guess you really never know, I may yet grow to love him the way he loves me. I don't think I'll ever love him like I do Ken though. but for now, I'll just pretend to be happy for them and happy for him and maybe if I pretend enough, someday I wont have to pretend any more. Maybe someday I wont be lying when I say I love him or when I smile and say congratulations to them on their anniversary or when I tell my self this is all for the three of them. Maybe someday. just not today.
~Owarii~
A/N: Ok, it's finished. Finally. I have officially completed my first story. It's done!
Okay, I want to say thank you to every one who reviewed, especially futagoakuma-tenshi01 for reviewing the other day and reminding me that I hadn't finished this yet (weather you did so intentionally or not.) and locura, who kept me going on this as long as I did. I'm really grateful to every one else too but I don't have time to write thanks to every one and if I did, do you know how bad that would make this chapter look? The list would be longer then the chapter! But thank you all! I love you all! Cookies and pocky for every one! You've made me very happy and a much more confident writer! And I'll love you all even more if you hit the review button one last time and tell me what you think of the whole thing. Sankyuu!