Disclaimer: Inu Yasha is owned by Rumiko Takahashi. Mou...wish I did. ;_; Song is "Somewhere I Belong," by Linkin Park (definitely got to listen to it, it kicks serious ass!!).
Author Notes: Wahhh! I know, I know! I'm supposed to be updating Breaking Point, but I'm having such writer's block on it! This was just a short burst of inspiration...I heard the song while driving home today, and thought, "Wow, this is so Kagome!" So here it is. Enjoy.
Belonging
fet. "Somewhere I Belong" by Linkin Park
The flames of the campfire danced in the darkness of the night. Silence filled the camp except for the crackling of the embers and the steady breathing of the sleeping travelers. All asleep but one.
Kagome remained awake, staring into the flames, as if she was searching for comfort from the blaze. Her grey eyes were glazed over as she stared into the dancing flames.
Finally snapping out of her insomnia-fueled trance, she sighed and reached into her pack. Pulling out her discman and her CDs, she popped one into the player before placing the remaining CDs into the bag. Standing up quietly, she put on the headphones and gave a lingering glance around at her companions.
Sango, sleeping across from her, was unconsiously holding Miroku's hand as she slept, a look of content on her face. Kirara was curled near the slayer's feet. Miroku lay near Sango, having moved closer once he was sure the slayer was asleep. Shippo was nestled in her sleeping bag, little fox feet kicking every once in a while as he gripped the material of the sleeping bag.
Lastly, her gaze fell on the hanyou residing in the tree above. He appeared to be asleep, Tetsusaiga resting across his chest as his ears twitched occasionally.
She smiled sadly, before making her way quietly out of the campsite and into the forest around them.
One amber eye opened to watch the disappearing girl.
Once Kagome was sure she was out of earshot from her companions, she hit the on button on her discman. She had downloaded the song a week ago in her time and finally decided to listen to it. The opening strains of the music drifted through the headphones as she settled down on a fallen tree that lay across the path. She dropped the emotionless mask she held before sighing slightly.
The music sped up to a louder rock/techno beat and she closed her eyes, savoring the music.
(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
'True...' She thought, opening her eyes half-way. 'At the beginning of this damn journey, I really didn't have a reason to be here...other than find the pieces of the Shikon no Tama. Is that why I feel so empty? Because I don't have a purpose here, other than being a so-called shard detector?'
(I was confused)
And I live it all out to find
That I'm not the only person with these things in mind
'Sango, Miroku, Shippo...and Inu Yasha all have a purpose. To defeat Naraku and avenge their loved ones. Sango, her village and family. Miroku, his grandfather, father...and himself. Shippo has his father to avenge. And Inu Yasha...' She shut her eyes tightly to trap the tears that stung, 'Inu Yasha has to avenge Kikyo...'
(Inside of me)
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
'What do I have? What do I have to live for? Sometimes I wonder if this is even real...I mean, who travels through time? Fights demons and guards a sacred jewel?' She let out a short, harsh laugh that reflected the hollowness inside.
'Is this real..?'
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own
'Alone...no matter who I travel with, I'll be alone. Because in the end, I'm the one who's caused all their pain. If I hadn't shattered the jewel...' She grit her teeth and slammed her fist down onto the rough bark, feeling the tree shake slightly from the impact.
'Then their problems wouldn't have occured. It's all my fault...'
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
She held her hand in front of her face, watching the dark blood run from her split knuckles. She couldn't feel any pain from the wound, even though she was sure it was there. 'It's just numb because of the pain I already have...' She winced at the sharp pain in her heart as she lowered her hand back to her side.
'Why can't this just go away...?'
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
Still feeling the warm blood trickling down to the dirt below her, she absently wiped it on her blue boxers, but the wound just filled with more of the crimson liquid.
'I guess this is real...you don't bleed in dreams...' She sighed as she felt a slight summer breeze ruffle her hair and white shirt. '...Or do you?'
And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
'I can't compare to what Kikyo was - or is - but I can't argue with Inu Yasha about it. I've told him countless times I'm not her...but he just won't see that...see me for who I am...' She thought sadly.
Looking everywhere only to find
That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
'If it was a dream...I wouldn't hurt so much because of Inu Yasha...' She held her bleeding hand against her chest, closing her eyes and breathing out another sigh. 'I can't tell him how I feel...since he already made his decision to be with Kikyo...I don't have a place with him. Not anymore.' She reopened her eyes and raised them skyward, watching the stars through the forest canopy.
'What am I to him?'
What do I have but negativity
'Cause I can't trust to find the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
'Find the way to the Shikon shards, that's the only thing I'm good for. Just as he said. Everyone relies on me to find them, so that we can face Naraku.' She let out another forced laugh, this one mixed with a choked sob. 'Either way I can't lose...I'm probably gonna die anyway...so what is there to lose?'
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own
'Dying...it doesn't seem so frightening to me anymore...and if I die, it'll probably be because of some stupid mistake on my part. It'll be my fault...just like everything else.' She stood from the tree, eyes drifting over the area she rested in. Nothing but trees and shrubs, surrounded by darkness.
'Alone...but isn't that what I wanted...?'
I will never know myself until I do this on my own
'Never know...until my purpose is fulfilled...'
And I will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed
'Will this pain in my heart ever go away? Heal like the physical wounds inflicted each day?'
I will never be anything till I break away from me
'Break away from me...is that me or Kikyo? Kikyo...is she the cause of all this mess inside...?'
I will break away and find myself today
'I'll never know...will I...'
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
She shook her head frantically, eyes squeezed shut as tears seeped through her barriers. She wiped them away furiously, starting to walk away back towards the camp. The steady dripping of blood from her knuckles went ignored as she pulled the emotionless expression back on her face.
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
'Do I belong here? Do I truly belong anywhere...?'
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong
The sky had started to lighten when Kagome finally approached the camp. The fire had gone out, and nothing but a few wisps of smoke remained. Her companions were still asleep, or so she thought.
"Oi, Kagome." She looked up at Inu Yasha, who frowned at her before landing in front of her. She forced a small smile on her face before answering, "Yeah?"
"Where were you? You left earlier this morning. Don't you know there are demons out there who would love to have you for lunch?" He growled softly. She shrugged.
"I needed some time to myself...to think things over..." She spoke, removing the headphones and placing the discman back into her pack.
"You're bleeding." She didn't look up from her pack as she replied, waving her uninjured hand. "Hmm...just cut it on some bark. It's just a scratch, nothing big."
He knelt down next to her and grabbed her injured hand. He looked it over, eyes slightly softening. She studied him, before growing impatient.
"I told you, it's nothing to worry about-" She stopped when he tore a part of his inner kimono and started wrapping her hand. When he was done, he leaned back on his haunches and looked her in the eye.
"What were you thinking about?" He asked, the softened expression still present on his normally stoic face. She smile softly, a genuine one this time.
"Oh, it's not important anymore. I think I've figured it out now..." She replied, just as the sun started to rise, signaling the morning.
Somewhere I belong
Wai! It's done! Please R/R, tell me what you think! And yes, this is a one shot. ^^v
Author Notes: Wahhh! I know, I know! I'm supposed to be updating Breaking Point, but I'm having such writer's block on it! This was just a short burst of inspiration...I heard the song while driving home today, and thought, "Wow, this is so Kagome!" So here it is. Enjoy.
fet. "Somewhere I Belong" by Linkin Park
The flames of the campfire danced in the darkness of the night. Silence filled the camp except for the crackling of the embers and the steady breathing of the sleeping travelers. All asleep but one.
Kagome remained awake, staring into the flames, as if she was searching for comfort from the blaze. Her grey eyes were glazed over as she stared into the dancing flames.
Finally snapping out of her insomnia-fueled trance, she sighed and reached into her pack. Pulling out her discman and her CDs, she popped one into the player before placing the remaining CDs into the bag. Standing up quietly, she put on the headphones and gave a lingering glance around at her companions.
Sango, sleeping across from her, was unconsiously holding Miroku's hand as she slept, a look of content on her face. Kirara was curled near the slayer's feet. Miroku lay near Sango, having moved closer once he was sure the slayer was asleep. Shippo was nestled in her sleeping bag, little fox feet kicking every once in a while as he gripped the material of the sleeping bag.
Lastly, her gaze fell on the hanyou residing in the tree above. He appeared to be asleep, Tetsusaiga resting across his chest as his ears twitched occasionally.
She smiled sadly, before making her way quietly out of the campsite and into the forest around them.
One amber eye opened to watch the disappearing girl.
Once Kagome was sure she was out of earshot from her companions, she hit the on button on her discman. She had downloaded the song a week ago in her time and finally decided to listen to it. The opening strains of the music drifted through the headphones as she settled down on a fallen tree that lay across the path. She dropped the emotionless mask she held before sighing slightly.
The music sped up to a louder rock/techno beat and she closed her eyes, savoring the music.
(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
'True...' She thought, opening her eyes half-way. 'At the beginning of this damn journey, I really didn't have a reason to be here...other than find the pieces of the Shikon no Tama. Is that why I feel so empty? Because I don't have a purpose here, other than being a so-called shard detector?'
(I was confused)
And I live it all out to find
That I'm not the only person with these things in mind
'Sango, Miroku, Shippo...and Inu Yasha all have a purpose. To defeat Naraku and avenge their loved ones. Sango, her village and family. Miroku, his grandfather, father...and himself. Shippo has his father to avenge. And Inu Yasha...' She shut her eyes tightly to trap the tears that stung, 'Inu Yasha has to avenge Kikyo...'
(Inside of me)
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
'What do I have? What do I have to live for? Sometimes I wonder if this is even real...I mean, who travels through time? Fights demons and guards a sacred jewel?' She let out a short, harsh laugh that reflected the hollowness inside.
'Is this real..?'
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own
'Alone...no matter who I travel with, I'll be alone. Because in the end, I'm the one who's caused all their pain. If I hadn't shattered the jewel...' She grit her teeth and slammed her fist down onto the rough bark, feeling the tree shake slightly from the impact.
'Then their problems wouldn't have occured. It's all my fault...'
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
She held her hand in front of her face, watching the dark blood run from her split knuckles. She couldn't feel any pain from the wound, even though she was sure it was there. 'It's just numb because of the pain I already have...' She winced at the sharp pain in her heart as she lowered her hand back to her side.
'Why can't this just go away...?'
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
Still feeling the warm blood trickling down to the dirt below her, she absently wiped it on her blue boxers, but the wound just filled with more of the crimson liquid.
'I guess this is real...you don't bleed in dreams...' She sighed as she felt a slight summer breeze ruffle her hair and white shirt. '...Or do you?'
And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
'I can't compare to what Kikyo was - or is - but I can't argue with Inu Yasha about it. I've told him countless times I'm not her...but he just won't see that...see me for who I am...' She thought sadly.
Looking everywhere only to find
That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
'If it was a dream...I wouldn't hurt so much because of Inu Yasha...' She held her bleeding hand against her chest, closing her eyes and breathing out another sigh. 'I can't tell him how I feel...since he already made his decision to be with Kikyo...I don't have a place with him. Not anymore.' She reopened her eyes and raised them skyward, watching the stars through the forest canopy.
'What am I to him?'
What do I have but negativity
'Cause I can't trust to find the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
'Find the way to the Shikon shards, that's the only thing I'm good for. Just as he said. Everyone relies on me to find them, so that we can face Naraku.' She let out another forced laugh, this one mixed with a choked sob. 'Either way I can't lose...I'm probably gonna die anyway...so what is there to lose?'
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own
'Dying...it doesn't seem so frightening to me anymore...and if I die, it'll probably be because of some stupid mistake on my part. It'll be my fault...just like everything else.' She stood from the tree, eyes drifting over the area she rested in. Nothing but trees and shrubs, surrounded by darkness.
'Alone...but isn't that what I wanted...?'
I will never know myself until I do this on my own
'Never know...until my purpose is fulfilled...'
And I will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed
'Will this pain in my heart ever go away? Heal like the physical wounds inflicted each day?'
I will never be anything till I break away from me
'Break away from me...is that me or Kikyo? Kikyo...is she the cause of all this mess inside...?'
I will break away and find myself today
'I'll never know...will I...'
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
She shook her head frantically, eyes squeezed shut as tears seeped through her barriers. She wiped them away furiously, starting to walk away back towards the camp. The steady dripping of blood from her knuckles went ignored as she pulled the emotionless expression back on her face.
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
'Do I belong here? Do I truly belong anywhere...?'
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong
The sky had started to lighten when Kagome finally approached the camp. The fire had gone out, and nothing but a few wisps of smoke remained. Her companions were still asleep, or so she thought.
"Oi, Kagome." She looked up at Inu Yasha, who frowned at her before landing in front of her. She forced a small smile on her face before answering, "Yeah?"
"Where were you? You left earlier this morning. Don't you know there are demons out there who would love to have you for lunch?" He growled softly. She shrugged.
"I needed some time to myself...to think things over..." She spoke, removing the headphones and placing the discman back into her pack.
"You're bleeding." She didn't look up from her pack as she replied, waving her uninjured hand. "Hmm...just cut it on some bark. It's just a scratch, nothing big."
He knelt down next to her and grabbed her injured hand. He looked it over, eyes slightly softening. She studied him, before growing impatient.
"I told you, it's nothing to worry about-" She stopped when he tore a part of his inner kimono and started wrapping her hand. When he was done, he leaned back on his haunches and looked her in the eye.
"What were you thinking about?" He asked, the softened expression still present on his normally stoic face. She smile softly, a genuine one this time.
"Oh, it's not important anymore. I think I've figured it out now..." She replied, just as the sun started to rise, signaling the morning.
Somewhere I belong
Wai! It's done! Please R/R, tell me what you think! And yes, this is a one shot. ^^v