Listen as the wind blows

from across the great divide,

Voices trapped in yearning,

memories trapped in time,

The night is my companion

and solitude my guide,

Would I spend forever here

and not be satisfied,

And I would be the one

to hold you down,

kiss you so hard,

I'll take your breath away

and after I'd wipe away the tears,

Just close your eyes dear

Through this world I've stumbled

so many times betrayed,

Trying to find an honest word,

to find the truth enslaved,

Oh you speak to me in riddles and

you speak to me in rhymes

My body aches to breathe your breath,

you words keep me alive,

And I would be the one

to hold you down,

kiss you so hard,

I'll take your breath away

and after I'd wipe away the tears,

Just close your eyes dear

Into this night I wander,

it's morning that I dread,

Another day of knowing of

the path I fear to tread,

Oh into the sea of waking dreams

I follow without pride,

Nothing stands between us here

and I won't be denied,

And I would be the one

to hold you down,

kiss you so hard,

I'll take your breath away

and after I'd wipe away the tears,

Just close your eyes dear...

Song: Possession By Sarah McLachlan

I can feel it. It makes me feel so cold. I feel as my heart slowly looses it's feelings and I am forced to create the illusion that everything is all right. I am slowly yet surely changing I do not know what yet but I am. I am turning into something to be feared.

Demons love to drink human blood and the blood of a virgin priestess is among the most prized. The one that no youkai has ever tasted is the blood of a miko, virgin or other, given freely. When one would taste my blood it is filled with a worldly taint that is slowly turning my blood to a cold darkness.

Sometimes I feel as though I knew what Kikyo felt when she was the barer of the Shikon no Tama. But yet I can't help but notice that there was a distinction in our relationship to the Jewel.

I have felt the jewel and I realized a long time ago that the four spirits trapped inside had departed when Kikyo had been burned and released all that is left of the fabled jewel of four souls is the magic. Magic that has accumulated from the hands of its bearers and of the users.

It has gained much knowledge and power, as the search for the shattered pieces slowly becomes a race to see who can gather more first Naraku or us.

I once thought fleetingly yet constantly that I did not belong in the world in which I live. Now with the change of times, going from the present to the past it has changed. Going through the well used to be a pleasant experience, yet now it is as though I enter the true meaning of peace when I leave the future. The trip that leads me back is as though razors are running me through. Destroyed from the inside out, leaving that, which is where I truly belong.

I have to wonder what is it that senses my desire to forever stay in the Sengoku Jidai. I have long ago seen the look in my mother's eyes. She has the look of knowing and longing. She longs for me to stay each time I go through the well but she also knows what I feel, and she would never take my happiness away from me.

Am I selfish to want to stay in one place that I was not born in? Is it foolish to hope for the dream of forever remaining? I cry a thousand tears and shed a thousand skins, all that remains are questions with no answers.

Is it the fact that I was pulled into the well when my powers were slowly awakening on my fourteenth birthday? Was it coincidence that I left the modern day to come to this world? Am I destined to forever walk the land, alone and in pain because the darkness inside is slowly taking over?

Damn you Naraku you are the one to do this. You know the secret of Miko's. The closely guarded secret that has never before been discovered protected for centuries beyond knowing. I am becoming such and there is no stop for the terrible plunge into the icy cold that my heart has taken. You will feel the wrath of this Miko when I transform. I am the strongest that has come and no other will ever be like me again.

Why Inuyasha? Why did you turn your back to me? I love you. But it is never good enough. Never enough to give all when all they want is to bed you. As all males are want to do. I am nothing but a bitch and he reminds me of it constantly. I know what it is he craves. Soon I will be what it is that he wants. Then I will be the one to wipe away his tears.

Their he goes once more. His scent gives him away and his companion that smells of clay and bones. Soon Inuyasha I will be different from what you never new.

You break and shatter my heart anew and soon all that will be left is the shell, the shell of what I once was. Are you that stupid Inuyasha? Don't you see the look in my eyes when you go? Do you ignore the fact that I love you or do you truly fear what I offer?

"Inuyasha." My voice was only a breathless whisper, a breathy pant that spoke of unspoken desires and heart wrenching pain.

In my heart I speak to myself. Do you here me Inuyasha, as you make love the body that houses half of my soul? Did you not know Inuyasha that her soul can never return? The four souls of the jewel took her with them when they left. You make love to the corpse that is the body of her but she has my soul.

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This is my new story. For those who like my story The World Through a Fox's Eyes I will be updating soon no fears.

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