Life's Sometimes Funny that Way
A/n: Voice in the back of head: "Find time to update, find time to update, find time to update." That annoying voice has finally gotten to me and forced me to up, heh suppose you're saying, thank the goddess for that annoying voice in the back of the oh-so-forgettable author's head. I'm very sorry for not updating sooner, I've had an annoying case of writers' block so please bear with me. Well anyways, first of all thanks so much for the reviews, I really appreciate getting 'em and thanks also for the kind comments you guys made, makes me happy!^_^ Okay now, I've had to go over everything and I've figured out how this is gonna go. So please R&R! Thanks all!^_^ Especially thanks to everyone who's still reading and not yet fed up with my lack of updates.
***last time:
'He's crazy,'she thought lightly, 'he could have almost any girl, he had the looks and the brains to make a wonderful, supportive boyfriend, or husband someday.'
Her cheeks flushed and her eyes widened as the thought intruded upon her mind, but she shook the silly thoughts away, she was a dreamer and that was going to get her in trouble one day.
She regarded the notion and grimaced, "Too late."
***
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Her gaze lifted as he shuffled around a little more and his eyes fluttered open suddenly. She looked the other way quickly and shoved her face into the pillows. She knew she was being childish but she felt a little embarrassed that he'd caught her staring. A moment later when she was sure he must've fallen back to sleep, though she couldn't imagine how, a gentle feeling hand took hers in his. Ruki, startled, pulled her head out of the bedding once again, and looked at Jenrya curiously. She narrowed her eyes at him and pulled her hand away when he smiled one of those irresistable smiles. She was being stubborn again and she knew it, but the way she figured it was that it was his fault she had to spill out her emotions, that had gotten her into this mess.
Jenrya studied her, feeling a little hurt by her actions, and beginning to realize she was a loner, and she kept her emotions bottled up. Jenrya went to open his mouth to say something to rid the room of its accursed silence, but he found there was nothing to say. A small sound suddenly taunted the room's silence, Jenrya realized it was his stomach, he hadn't eaten since yesterday and blushed at the action.
Ruki turned around to look at Jenrya, and with a half hearted smile she said, "Go grab something to eat, I'm, not going anywhere."
With a blushing grin, Jenrya asked, "Would you like anything? You must be hungry too."
It was Ruki's stomach to grumble for food, with a blush, she nodded. "A bagel and cream cheese sounds good I think- light please."
Jenrya nodded and got up to leave, but Ruki stopped him, "Wait!...thanks."
"Anytime Ruki," Jenrya smiled and went down to the cafeteria.
With a nod, Ruki settled back down into the comfy, warm blankets wrapped around her.
*** Jenrya retrieved the few food items he'd gone down get, and he quickly headed back towards her room again. On the way, he passed a clear-glassed room where all the infants were cared for. A smile came to his lips as one of the children caught his gaze and grinned happily. She had a powder pink blanket wrapped around her small body and donned a similar coloured hat. Presently a nurse was tending to one of the other small children when she noticed Jenrya and glanced at him suspiciously. Cautiously she walked over to the door and opened it.
"Excuse me, is there anything I can do for you?"
"Uh no.I just, I was just wondering if- You see one of my best friends just had a baby, I was just wondering if maybe their daughter would be in here or perhaps she's with her parents," Jenrya asked a little unsure.
"Well, can you give me her name?"
"It's Juri Katou, I think she kept her last name when she got married -wanted to keep the family name going or something."
"Of course, one moment please."
The woman turned and went back into the room to retrieve some papers. She glanced over the first few and then stopped at one. Studying the paper quickly she walked back to the door.
"Her daughter is with her presently, she is in her room. I'll give you the room number if you wish," said the nurse.
"Uh yeah. okay sure, that'd be great."
She gave him the number and went back into the room as he muttered a thank you. Jenrya sighed and ran over the thoughts plaguing his mind.
'My memories were such a blur before, what in the hell triggered them? And why do I get this ache in my heart whenever Ruki's around, like the empty void that's always been there is getting bigger and smaller all at the same time? I wish I knew.' With a blush he wondered why he also got a fluttering feeling in his heart whenever he got a little closer to breaking down her barriers she built around herself. The memories were few but they were coming back. He knew that a big part to his previous life had Ruki in it, so maybe if he could get her to open up she could tell him everything. Ah but Ruki was a stubborn girl, then again he felt like she'd always been that way and the reason he felt something for her-more than as a friend-was because she was a challenge. He'd never backed down from a challenge, not one. And if it involved someone getting hurt he'd change his response so that he was fighting back but so as not to harm another. He felt like he'd been like that forever. He knew he needed Ruki now, now that he knew her he needed her, and that almost scared him. How fragile he must be to need someone who he hardly knew and even more mind-boggling-someone he had a challenge getting into her mind, her thoughts-so blocked off from the world.
Keeping a note of what room number Juri was in, he headed back to Ruki's room with her breakfast which was beginning to get cold now. He sighed and took a shorter route up the stairs. Reaching the top, he strode quickly into the hall and down to her room. Knocking out of sheer politeness, he heard a faint admittance from the occupier and stepped into the room.
"Hey, did ya get lost?" Ruki asked, a light humour in her voice.
"Uh no, just took a while that's all. The uh elevator was taking too long so I took the long way up," he responded.
"Hn, you'd probably been better off to wait for the damned machine, would've taken half the time. Well whatever," Ruki said uncertainly.
He gently handed her the lightly toasted bagel spread with cream cheese and a coffee he decided he'd picked up for her as well. She smiled a little but it vanished as quickly as it'd appeared. "Thanks again."
"Anytime Ruki," Jenrya said distantly, thinking of what to do next. How was he going to get through to her when he got this nervous around her just being polite? He gulped and took a deep breath as he sat down to sip his own coffee.
"So.what're you gonna do after all this is overwith?"
"I dunno, I'm not sure this'll ever be over, I just- I don't know," he said irritated with himself.
Ruki looked at him carefully and felt a pang of guilt echo through her. She felt partially responsible, after all she was the one who left so abruptly and caused him to slip into his depression, which of course led to his accident. The comatose had been what was keeping him at bay, not knowing where his emotions towards her were coming from and if he'd ever experienced them before. He concluded that maybe he held certain feelings for her but obviously she did not return them, either that or he never told her how he felt. Neither sounded appealing but he had to do something sooner or later.
'Preferably later,' he thought.
Finally he concluded, "I think I'll just go back to university, finish all my courses and get on with life, I'm not sure exactly why I'm holding back from just doing what I've planned."
Disheartened, Ruki replied, "Yeah, I guess. I'm not sure what I'll do next."
She wondered angrily, what was holding her back from saying what she was thinking. Her cheeks heated up at the thought, wishing she could confess her true feelings to Jenrya but not having the courage to slashed into her pride. She was miserable and it was all Jenrya's fault! Or at least, she'd like to have thought so, it was easier than admitting the truth.
Wringing her hands in her lap, a violent inner battle was shredding up her soul and she sighed at the irony of it all. Jenrya was the one who was a comatose, yet she felt she was more confused and lost than he could ever be. She turned her head towards the window and a silent tear fell down her cheek.
'It's not fair,' she thought.
Jenrya stood up and walked towards the window, thoughtlessly, he threw open the window-pane and shuddered as the chilly air shocked his warm tan skin.
Ruki's lowered eyes snapped open instantly, "What-what're you doing Jenrya?!"
"Ever wonder what it's like to leap from a twelve story building?" Jenrya yelled, to drown out the loud wind.
Ruki pulled her covers up to her chin and yelled back to Jenrya, "What's it matter?"
"Well, it's just that I've always been really curious about dying you know, I can hardly remember what being in a coma was like, being I was barely conscious."
"I'm also curious to find out if there's any reaction to my sudden suicide," Jenrya said bitterly, finally losing everything he'd felt he'd grasped. He reasoned with himself that his life couldn't be worth living if this is all he had to come back to.
Ruki's eyes widened again and she threw the covers off urgently, flew off the bed and ran, limping towards Jenrya's retreating form onto the window's ledge. A/n: Hee finally! Finally posted this chapter that's been half finished, collecting dust in my file! I thought a little suspense and thrill would bring something to this story that seems pretty boring as far as I'm concerned. On top of that I needed something exciting to write, firstly because it's my birthday tomorrow (yay! I'll be 16!) and secondly, I had a sudden urge to write in the midst of my writer's block, when I listened to that song 'Name' by The Goo Goo Dolls, they're good! I'll try and get another update soon, hope you all enjoyed this one so far! Ja! *reviews would be much appreciated! Thanks! Keisan
A/n: Voice in the back of head: "Find time to update, find time to update, find time to update." That annoying voice has finally gotten to me and forced me to up, heh suppose you're saying, thank the goddess for that annoying voice in the back of the oh-so-forgettable author's head. I'm very sorry for not updating sooner, I've had an annoying case of writers' block so please bear with me. Well anyways, first of all thanks so much for the reviews, I really appreciate getting 'em and thanks also for the kind comments you guys made, makes me happy!^_^ Okay now, I've had to go over everything and I've figured out how this is gonna go. So please R&R! Thanks all!^_^ Especially thanks to everyone who's still reading and not yet fed up with my lack of updates.
***last time:
'He's crazy,'she thought lightly, 'he could have almost any girl, he had the looks and the brains to make a wonderful, supportive boyfriend, or husband someday.'
Her cheeks flushed and her eyes widened as the thought intruded upon her mind, but she shook the silly thoughts away, she was a dreamer and that was going to get her in trouble one day.
She regarded the notion and grimaced, "Too late."
***
*~*~*~*~*~*
Her gaze lifted as he shuffled around a little more and his eyes fluttered open suddenly. She looked the other way quickly and shoved her face into the pillows. She knew she was being childish but she felt a little embarrassed that he'd caught her staring. A moment later when she was sure he must've fallen back to sleep, though she couldn't imagine how, a gentle feeling hand took hers in his. Ruki, startled, pulled her head out of the bedding once again, and looked at Jenrya curiously. She narrowed her eyes at him and pulled her hand away when he smiled one of those irresistable smiles. She was being stubborn again and she knew it, but the way she figured it was that it was his fault she had to spill out her emotions, that had gotten her into this mess.
Jenrya studied her, feeling a little hurt by her actions, and beginning to realize she was a loner, and she kept her emotions bottled up. Jenrya went to open his mouth to say something to rid the room of its accursed silence, but he found there was nothing to say. A small sound suddenly taunted the room's silence, Jenrya realized it was his stomach, he hadn't eaten since yesterday and blushed at the action.
Ruki turned around to look at Jenrya, and with a half hearted smile she said, "Go grab something to eat, I'm, not going anywhere."
With a blushing grin, Jenrya asked, "Would you like anything? You must be hungry too."
It was Ruki's stomach to grumble for food, with a blush, she nodded. "A bagel and cream cheese sounds good I think- light please."
Jenrya nodded and got up to leave, but Ruki stopped him, "Wait!...thanks."
"Anytime Ruki," Jenrya smiled and went down to the cafeteria.
With a nod, Ruki settled back down into the comfy, warm blankets wrapped around her.
*** Jenrya retrieved the few food items he'd gone down get, and he quickly headed back towards her room again. On the way, he passed a clear-glassed room where all the infants were cared for. A smile came to his lips as one of the children caught his gaze and grinned happily. She had a powder pink blanket wrapped around her small body and donned a similar coloured hat. Presently a nurse was tending to one of the other small children when she noticed Jenrya and glanced at him suspiciously. Cautiously she walked over to the door and opened it.
"Excuse me, is there anything I can do for you?"
"Uh no.I just, I was just wondering if- You see one of my best friends just had a baby, I was just wondering if maybe their daughter would be in here or perhaps she's with her parents," Jenrya asked a little unsure.
"Well, can you give me her name?"
"It's Juri Katou, I think she kept her last name when she got married -wanted to keep the family name going or something."
"Of course, one moment please."
The woman turned and went back into the room to retrieve some papers. She glanced over the first few and then stopped at one. Studying the paper quickly she walked back to the door.
"Her daughter is with her presently, she is in her room. I'll give you the room number if you wish," said the nurse.
"Uh yeah. okay sure, that'd be great."
She gave him the number and went back into the room as he muttered a thank you. Jenrya sighed and ran over the thoughts plaguing his mind.
'My memories were such a blur before, what in the hell triggered them? And why do I get this ache in my heart whenever Ruki's around, like the empty void that's always been there is getting bigger and smaller all at the same time? I wish I knew.' With a blush he wondered why he also got a fluttering feeling in his heart whenever he got a little closer to breaking down her barriers she built around herself. The memories were few but they were coming back. He knew that a big part to his previous life had Ruki in it, so maybe if he could get her to open up she could tell him everything. Ah but Ruki was a stubborn girl, then again he felt like she'd always been that way and the reason he felt something for her-more than as a friend-was because she was a challenge. He'd never backed down from a challenge, not one. And if it involved someone getting hurt he'd change his response so that he was fighting back but so as not to harm another. He felt like he'd been like that forever. He knew he needed Ruki now, now that he knew her he needed her, and that almost scared him. How fragile he must be to need someone who he hardly knew and even more mind-boggling-someone he had a challenge getting into her mind, her thoughts-so blocked off from the world.
Keeping a note of what room number Juri was in, he headed back to Ruki's room with her breakfast which was beginning to get cold now. He sighed and took a shorter route up the stairs. Reaching the top, he strode quickly into the hall and down to her room. Knocking out of sheer politeness, he heard a faint admittance from the occupier and stepped into the room.
"Hey, did ya get lost?" Ruki asked, a light humour in her voice.
"Uh no, just took a while that's all. The uh elevator was taking too long so I took the long way up," he responded.
"Hn, you'd probably been better off to wait for the damned machine, would've taken half the time. Well whatever," Ruki said uncertainly.
He gently handed her the lightly toasted bagel spread with cream cheese and a coffee he decided he'd picked up for her as well. She smiled a little but it vanished as quickly as it'd appeared. "Thanks again."
"Anytime Ruki," Jenrya said distantly, thinking of what to do next. How was he going to get through to her when he got this nervous around her just being polite? He gulped and took a deep breath as he sat down to sip his own coffee.
"So.what're you gonna do after all this is overwith?"
"I dunno, I'm not sure this'll ever be over, I just- I don't know," he said irritated with himself.
Ruki looked at him carefully and felt a pang of guilt echo through her. She felt partially responsible, after all she was the one who left so abruptly and caused him to slip into his depression, which of course led to his accident. The comatose had been what was keeping him at bay, not knowing where his emotions towards her were coming from and if he'd ever experienced them before. He concluded that maybe he held certain feelings for her but obviously she did not return them, either that or he never told her how he felt. Neither sounded appealing but he had to do something sooner or later.
'Preferably later,' he thought.
Finally he concluded, "I think I'll just go back to university, finish all my courses and get on with life, I'm not sure exactly why I'm holding back from just doing what I've planned."
Disheartened, Ruki replied, "Yeah, I guess. I'm not sure what I'll do next."
She wondered angrily, what was holding her back from saying what she was thinking. Her cheeks heated up at the thought, wishing she could confess her true feelings to Jenrya but not having the courage to slashed into her pride. She was miserable and it was all Jenrya's fault! Or at least, she'd like to have thought so, it was easier than admitting the truth.
Wringing her hands in her lap, a violent inner battle was shredding up her soul and she sighed at the irony of it all. Jenrya was the one who was a comatose, yet she felt she was more confused and lost than he could ever be. She turned her head towards the window and a silent tear fell down her cheek.
'It's not fair,' she thought.
Jenrya stood up and walked towards the window, thoughtlessly, he threw open the window-pane and shuddered as the chilly air shocked his warm tan skin.
Ruki's lowered eyes snapped open instantly, "What-what're you doing Jenrya?!"
"Ever wonder what it's like to leap from a twelve story building?" Jenrya yelled, to drown out the loud wind.
Ruki pulled her covers up to her chin and yelled back to Jenrya, "What's it matter?"
"Well, it's just that I've always been really curious about dying you know, I can hardly remember what being in a coma was like, being I was barely conscious."
"I'm also curious to find out if there's any reaction to my sudden suicide," Jenrya said bitterly, finally losing everything he'd felt he'd grasped. He reasoned with himself that his life couldn't be worth living if this is all he had to come back to.
Ruki's eyes widened again and she threw the covers off urgently, flew off the bed and ran, limping towards Jenrya's retreating form onto the window's ledge. A/n: Hee finally! Finally posted this chapter that's been half finished, collecting dust in my file! I thought a little suspense and thrill would bring something to this story that seems pretty boring as far as I'm concerned. On top of that I needed something exciting to write, firstly because it's my birthday tomorrow (yay! I'll be 16!) and secondly, I had a sudden urge to write in the midst of my writer's block, when I listened to that song 'Name' by The Goo Goo Dolls, they're good! I'll try and get another update soon, hope you all enjoyed this one so far! Ja! *reviews would be much appreciated! Thanks! Keisan