Life's Sometimes Funny that Way
Author's Note: Heh, long time no see eh? Well I'm here to appologize for my tardiness in getting this chatper out, but I have perfectly logical explanations. I went to Holland for my March break(1week) and that's why I haven't written anything for awhile. So there ya go! Oh and you have to go to Europe, it's the most beautiful place, I swear! Anyways here's the last bit of the previous chapter and then on to the new one we go! PS. Thank you so much for all your support guys! And anyone living in Southern Ontario, yay to us!!! Snow day!!
Chapter 11~ Jenrya stood up and walked towards the window, thoughtlessly, he threw open the window-pane and shuddered as the chilly air shocked his warm tan skin.
Ruki's lowered eyes snapped open instantly, "What-what're you doing Jenrya?!"
"Ever wonder what it's like to leap from a twelve story building?" Jenrya yelled, to drown out the loud wind.
Ruki pulled her covers up to her chin and yelled back to Jenrya, "What's it matter?"
"Well, it's just that I've always been really curious about dying you know, I can hardly remember what being in a coma was like, being I was barely conscious."
"I'm also curious to find out if there's any reaction to my sudden suicide," Jenrya said bitterly, finally losing everything he'd felt he'd grasped. He reasoned with himself that his life couldn't be worth living if this is all he had to come back to.
Ruki's eyes widened again and she threw the covers off urgently, flew off the bed and ran, limping towards Jenrya's retreating form onto the window's ledge.
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She tripped over her feet as she jumped towards Jenrya, and managed to reach his ankle before he could leap over the edge. Breathing hard, she ignored the cold seeping into her bones, and grasped Jenrya's ankle tightly. He hadn't gone quite over the edge yet, but he was slipping.
In a flurry of scattered thoughts, Ruki shouted, "Jen! Grab onto the side of the wall and pull yourself up! I won't let go."
Jenrya desperately flung himself over to grasp onto the ledge of the window and Ruki let his ankle go and held his hands tightly. Jenrya tightly held on for his life, but caught a hard gaze Ruki stared into his eyes as she pulled him into the window. They looked away in an uncomfortable silence and breathed heavily for a few moments.
Suddenly, Ruki stood up in a rage and screamed, "What is wrong with you?! You know you could have gotten yourself killed!!!! What in the hell came over you that you felt you had to leap from a sixty storey building-or however tall this giant thing is?!!!!
She kneeled down and placed her hands on his shoulders as he looked up at her wide-eyed. She shook her head at his naivety and wondered just what had happened to his wise intelligence, did it somehow disappear during his coma? Perhaps it did, she realized, after all he lost part of himself.
Ruki, still grasping his shoulders, dropped her chin to her chest and breathed in a sigh. Shaking her head, she began to shake, overwhelming emotion overtook her and she began to weep silently. Sniffling a little, she kept her head down, she was angry at herself for showing weakness in front of anyone, especially the one who meant so much to her it hurt. Not only was she angry at herself, but she was angry at him, nobody, even someone who was a little mixed up, should avoid problems in life by killing themselves. It was a weakness.
Jenrya seemed to have come out of his shock and back to his senses, as he pulled Ruki into an embrace and held her for a long time, occasionally stroking her soft hair. She shook against his chest, weeping still, attempting to swallow her soul-wrenching sobs. Jenrya murmured words of comfort into her ear, and slowly she calmed. They stayed like that for a while, Ruki listening to his heart beating and Jenrya stroking her hair.
Ruki was almost asleep, she was slipping into the most relaxing sleep she had since she left Jenrya. There was something soothing about him that assured her that everything would turn out alright. She smiled a little, content that it was just her and Jenrya, completely oblivious to the world around them, they were stuck in a moment.
But the peacefulness would not last, it never had. That was one of the reasons Ruki left in the first place. As soon as she would get comfortable with Jenrya, something changed, things would be tense for a while and then she'd stir things up even more by picking a fight with her object of affection.
Suddenly there were a dozen nurses in the room, they separated the pair and checked over each of them about five times before they were assured that everything was all right. They wanted to take Jenrya in for questioning, they went to phone the police. But Ruki stopped them and insisted that it was her fault too, she was angry and she said some things that made Jenrya go to the window to commit suicide, but that they'd worked it out. The nurses, shocked, were a little nervous to let Jenrya stay with Ruki, but she insisted. Closing the window, the nurses stumbled out of the room, keeping a watchful glance on Ruki, presently sitting up in her bed and Jenrya, sitting in the chair a few feet away from the bed.
Ruki sighed and wondered how long this peace would last for. Jenrya wondered exactly why Ruki tried to save him, he'd guessed she'd had feelings for him but didn't think they were this intense. Apparently Ruki had never wanted any affection from anyone, at least that's what Juri and Takato had said, she was a loner and very independent. This confused Jenrya. On top of that, Jenrya was questioning his own sanity, he had feelings for Ruki! Perhaps he could tell her that, but not until Ruki said something first, though she was very stubborn.
"Why did you stop me?"
Ruki shrugged, "I don't really know, I guess maybe to repay a kindness."
Jenrya nodded, but sensed there was more, "Is that all? Why should you care if I lived or died? You're just going to get on with your own life afterall."
Ruki's smile vanished and she glared at him, "What?! Is that all you think I am?! Why do you assume so much? You don't know anything! You don't know anything.nothing about me."
Jenrya felt he could have been a little more sentimental, and he regretted using such a harsh assuming tone towards her.
After a moment, "I'm sorry.you're right."
Unwilling to 'fess up her own guilt, she said nothing and didn't turn to look at Jenrya.
With an irritated sigh, Jenrya decided to say something, "Well? Aren't you going to say that it's your fault too? I mean, you haven't exactly been the friendliest, yet you certainly didn't object to me holding you a few minutes ago."
Shocked, she retorted, "I am not going to say it's my fault because it's not! You were the stupid one and I saved you, so great for me. I get to put up with your ungrateful attitude until the next time you attempt suicide! You are just so..agrrr!"
"Well maybe next time I won't consider letting you help me next time I attempt suicide, which by the way I will achieve, not just merely attempt. So therefore you won't have to put up with my so-called ungrateful attitude and I won't have to put up with your loner persona and annoying stubborness!" he said in irritation.
"Well at least I'd have the guts to actually kill myself, and if I were to kill myself I wouldn't let someone like me who- as you say- is a loner and stubborn, stop me! And then, everyone would be happy singing about my death and celebrating that they won't have to put up with someone like me. Afterall, wouldn't you be happy if you could just forget about me!"
Jenrya shocked, deciding to post-pone the argument about his death, and said instead, "Actually I wouldn't want you to kill yourself. You may be a bit of a loner and very stubborn a lot of times, but well, I'm just getting to know you again. How am I supposed to get to know you if you've died?"
Ruki felt her feelings do a 180 on her and responded with some humour, "Well you know, you could always buy a Ouiji board and contact me from the dead. As for the loner-stubborn comment, you're not perfect yourself so don't you start on me with that."
Jenrya's expressive mouth curved into a small smile as he responded, "I don't know, where do they sell Ouiji boards nowadays? Plus communicating with the dead isn't something I'm best at, at least I don't think so and I would only be able to read messages from you. Knowing how stubborn you are makes me wonder if you'd even answer all the questions I'd ask you."
Ruki was on the edge of laughing, "Well I guess I won't go kill myself for a while then, I'll let you get to know me then I'll decide if I want to kill myself still. Oh and for your information, you are good at communicating with the dead. We used to play with this Ouji board I had all the time, and you would be the one who led the little cerimony, we had a lot of fun times."
Depression flooded him once again and he turned regretfully, "It sounds like we did enjoy each other's company, but it feels like you're talking about someone else's memories. I wish I could remember."
Nodding slightly, she felt angry at what fate had done to them and wished desperately that there was something she could do, and a thought came to her.
"How about, after I'm out of the hospital, that you and I spend some time together, maybe it would trigger some memories."
Jenrya managed a small smile, as he glanced up to Ruki's hope-filled eyes. He nodded, "I think there's a chance Ruki, I really think there is."
Ruki forced out a small smile, but wondered if they're second attempt at forming the kind of relationship she'd hoped for was really possible. She dreaded having to tell him that their last relationship was a bit of a wreck, it was mostly her fault, but now that she was a little older, she could be a little more patient. Perhaps fate was really giving them another chance.
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A/n: Finito! Yay! What did you think guys? Depressing enough? Lol, okay even I didn't think it was that depressing, maybe I'm losing my touch. Ah well! So tell me your thoughts, and have no worries I believe an 'Afterward' willing be coming up soon. I have some loose ends to tie up with Jen's little sis', the Matsuki-Katou family and the stars of the story.
Author's Note: Heh, long time no see eh? Well I'm here to appologize for my tardiness in getting this chatper out, but I have perfectly logical explanations. I went to Holland for my March break(1week) and that's why I haven't written anything for awhile. So there ya go! Oh and you have to go to Europe, it's the most beautiful place, I swear! Anyways here's the last bit of the previous chapter and then on to the new one we go! PS. Thank you so much for all your support guys! And anyone living in Southern Ontario, yay to us!!! Snow day!!
Chapter 11~ Jenrya stood up and walked towards the window, thoughtlessly, he threw open the window-pane and shuddered as the chilly air shocked his warm tan skin.
Ruki's lowered eyes snapped open instantly, "What-what're you doing Jenrya?!"
"Ever wonder what it's like to leap from a twelve story building?" Jenrya yelled, to drown out the loud wind.
Ruki pulled her covers up to her chin and yelled back to Jenrya, "What's it matter?"
"Well, it's just that I've always been really curious about dying you know, I can hardly remember what being in a coma was like, being I was barely conscious."
"I'm also curious to find out if there's any reaction to my sudden suicide," Jenrya said bitterly, finally losing everything he'd felt he'd grasped. He reasoned with himself that his life couldn't be worth living if this is all he had to come back to.
Ruki's eyes widened again and she threw the covers off urgently, flew off the bed and ran, limping towards Jenrya's retreating form onto the window's ledge.
~*~*~*~*
She tripped over her feet as she jumped towards Jenrya, and managed to reach his ankle before he could leap over the edge. Breathing hard, she ignored the cold seeping into her bones, and grasped Jenrya's ankle tightly. He hadn't gone quite over the edge yet, but he was slipping.
In a flurry of scattered thoughts, Ruki shouted, "Jen! Grab onto the side of the wall and pull yourself up! I won't let go."
Jenrya desperately flung himself over to grasp onto the ledge of the window and Ruki let his ankle go and held his hands tightly. Jenrya tightly held on for his life, but caught a hard gaze Ruki stared into his eyes as she pulled him into the window. They looked away in an uncomfortable silence and breathed heavily for a few moments.
Suddenly, Ruki stood up in a rage and screamed, "What is wrong with you?! You know you could have gotten yourself killed!!!! What in the hell came over you that you felt you had to leap from a sixty storey building-or however tall this giant thing is?!!!!
She kneeled down and placed her hands on his shoulders as he looked up at her wide-eyed. She shook her head at his naivety and wondered just what had happened to his wise intelligence, did it somehow disappear during his coma? Perhaps it did, she realized, after all he lost part of himself.
Ruki, still grasping his shoulders, dropped her chin to her chest and breathed in a sigh. Shaking her head, she began to shake, overwhelming emotion overtook her and she began to weep silently. Sniffling a little, she kept her head down, she was angry at herself for showing weakness in front of anyone, especially the one who meant so much to her it hurt. Not only was she angry at herself, but she was angry at him, nobody, even someone who was a little mixed up, should avoid problems in life by killing themselves. It was a weakness.
Jenrya seemed to have come out of his shock and back to his senses, as he pulled Ruki into an embrace and held her for a long time, occasionally stroking her soft hair. She shook against his chest, weeping still, attempting to swallow her soul-wrenching sobs. Jenrya murmured words of comfort into her ear, and slowly she calmed. They stayed like that for a while, Ruki listening to his heart beating and Jenrya stroking her hair.
Ruki was almost asleep, she was slipping into the most relaxing sleep she had since she left Jenrya. There was something soothing about him that assured her that everything would turn out alright. She smiled a little, content that it was just her and Jenrya, completely oblivious to the world around them, they were stuck in a moment.
But the peacefulness would not last, it never had. That was one of the reasons Ruki left in the first place. As soon as she would get comfortable with Jenrya, something changed, things would be tense for a while and then she'd stir things up even more by picking a fight with her object of affection.
Suddenly there were a dozen nurses in the room, they separated the pair and checked over each of them about five times before they were assured that everything was all right. They wanted to take Jenrya in for questioning, they went to phone the police. But Ruki stopped them and insisted that it was her fault too, she was angry and she said some things that made Jenrya go to the window to commit suicide, but that they'd worked it out. The nurses, shocked, were a little nervous to let Jenrya stay with Ruki, but she insisted. Closing the window, the nurses stumbled out of the room, keeping a watchful glance on Ruki, presently sitting up in her bed and Jenrya, sitting in the chair a few feet away from the bed.
Ruki sighed and wondered how long this peace would last for. Jenrya wondered exactly why Ruki tried to save him, he'd guessed she'd had feelings for him but didn't think they were this intense. Apparently Ruki had never wanted any affection from anyone, at least that's what Juri and Takato had said, she was a loner and very independent. This confused Jenrya. On top of that, Jenrya was questioning his own sanity, he had feelings for Ruki! Perhaps he could tell her that, but not until Ruki said something first, though she was very stubborn.
"Why did you stop me?"
Ruki shrugged, "I don't really know, I guess maybe to repay a kindness."
Jenrya nodded, but sensed there was more, "Is that all? Why should you care if I lived or died? You're just going to get on with your own life afterall."
Ruki's smile vanished and she glared at him, "What?! Is that all you think I am?! Why do you assume so much? You don't know anything! You don't know anything.nothing about me."
Jenrya felt he could have been a little more sentimental, and he regretted using such a harsh assuming tone towards her.
After a moment, "I'm sorry.you're right."
Unwilling to 'fess up her own guilt, she said nothing and didn't turn to look at Jenrya.
With an irritated sigh, Jenrya decided to say something, "Well? Aren't you going to say that it's your fault too? I mean, you haven't exactly been the friendliest, yet you certainly didn't object to me holding you a few minutes ago."
Shocked, she retorted, "I am not going to say it's my fault because it's not! You were the stupid one and I saved you, so great for me. I get to put up with your ungrateful attitude until the next time you attempt suicide! You are just so..agrrr!"
"Well maybe next time I won't consider letting you help me next time I attempt suicide, which by the way I will achieve, not just merely attempt. So therefore you won't have to put up with my so-called ungrateful attitude and I won't have to put up with your loner persona and annoying stubborness!" he said in irritation.
"Well at least I'd have the guts to actually kill myself, and if I were to kill myself I wouldn't let someone like me who- as you say- is a loner and stubborn, stop me! And then, everyone would be happy singing about my death and celebrating that they won't have to put up with someone like me. Afterall, wouldn't you be happy if you could just forget about me!"
Jenrya shocked, deciding to post-pone the argument about his death, and said instead, "Actually I wouldn't want you to kill yourself. You may be a bit of a loner and very stubborn a lot of times, but well, I'm just getting to know you again. How am I supposed to get to know you if you've died?"
Ruki felt her feelings do a 180 on her and responded with some humour, "Well you know, you could always buy a Ouiji board and contact me from the dead. As for the loner-stubborn comment, you're not perfect yourself so don't you start on me with that."
Jenrya's expressive mouth curved into a small smile as he responded, "I don't know, where do they sell Ouiji boards nowadays? Plus communicating with the dead isn't something I'm best at, at least I don't think so and I would only be able to read messages from you. Knowing how stubborn you are makes me wonder if you'd even answer all the questions I'd ask you."
Ruki was on the edge of laughing, "Well I guess I won't go kill myself for a while then, I'll let you get to know me then I'll decide if I want to kill myself still. Oh and for your information, you are good at communicating with the dead. We used to play with this Ouji board I had all the time, and you would be the one who led the little cerimony, we had a lot of fun times."
Depression flooded him once again and he turned regretfully, "It sounds like we did enjoy each other's company, but it feels like you're talking about someone else's memories. I wish I could remember."
Nodding slightly, she felt angry at what fate had done to them and wished desperately that there was something she could do, and a thought came to her.
"How about, after I'm out of the hospital, that you and I spend some time together, maybe it would trigger some memories."
Jenrya managed a small smile, as he glanced up to Ruki's hope-filled eyes. He nodded, "I think there's a chance Ruki, I really think there is."
Ruki forced out a small smile, but wondered if they're second attempt at forming the kind of relationship she'd hoped for was really possible. She dreaded having to tell him that their last relationship was a bit of a wreck, it was mostly her fault, but now that she was a little older, she could be a little more patient. Perhaps fate was really giving them another chance.
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A/n: Finito! Yay! What did you think guys? Depressing enough? Lol, okay even I didn't think it was that depressing, maybe I'm losing my touch. Ah well! So tell me your thoughts, and have no worries I believe an 'Afterward' willing be coming up soon. I have some loose ends to tie up with Jen's little sis', the Matsuki-Katou family and the stars of the story.