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(:A.N:) Hello, again. Last chapter was really hard for me to write because I didn't know how long to wait before certain things in the story happed. But, now I know, and I am prepaired to continue this story with full force and inspiration. I hope you enjoy the eleventh chapter of this story. PS: I will attempt to post a link to this story's homepage again, for it didn't appear last chapter. Here's the web address:
I hope the link will work this time, or else I'll just post it on the review page. So if that site doesn't appear or work, check the review page.
Haunting Me in Dreams
Chapter Eleven : Betrayal
By : Feng Shui Goddess
"What are you doing in here, Inu Yasha?" Kikyo demanded, staring down at my pocket that held the jewel. Kikyo gasped, "I-Inu Yasha! How could you...? The jewel... I thought we were friends!" I gave the human girl an angry glare, "We are friends, but nothing will get in the way of my revenge! Not even my only friend!" Kikyo gasped, "revenge? Revenge for what?" I stood silently, not about to say anything. "Revenge for what, Inu Yasha?! Tell me! TELL ME!" I gasped, amazed at how angry the girl was getting. "I'm not going to tell you, Kikyo. It's none of your concern." Kikyo grabbed my arm, pleading, "yes I do! I worry about you! Inu Yasha, tell me! Why would you steal the Shikon no Tama from me? You're not like the other demons, Inu Yasha! You have a heart!" Guilt overwhelmed me. "Exactly. I am not like the other demons. To get revenge, I must be like the other demons." Kikyo looked terrified. "You'd turn yourself into one of them?! Into a horrible, soul less creature... Just to get revenge? Inu Yasha, if you change into a full blood demon, you'll change! You won't be yourself anymore, all you'll care about is bloodshed... You won't be able to love anymore." I knew what Kikyo said was true, but I didn't care. "I am going to get revenge, Kikyo. No matter what the cost." Kikyo started to cry, "what am I talking about? You already are one of them, Inu Yasha. Filled with nothing but hate, except for love for one person. And you know what, Inu Yasha? That one person is dead. She won't come back, now or ever..." Not being able to hold back, I slapped Kikyo across the face, growling, "shut UP!" I screamed at the now sobbing girl, as blood ran down her face. "Inu... Yasha..." she cried. I stared down at my hand, my claws dripping with blood. I closed my eyes tight, not wanting any of this to be real. I knew what would happen if I used the Shikon no Tama, I knew I would lose all the love I ever felt in my heart. I knew that all I'd do would be to hurt people, like I had just done so easily to Kikyo. I knew that I had just betrayed Kikyo, and that she probably didn't even want to be my friend any more. "Kikyo, I..." I started, "I'm sorry. But I must follow what I know is best. And, I'll be taking the Shikon no Tama. If you try to stop me, well..." I paused, because I knew how hard it would be for me to say the next words. "I'll kill you, Kikyo. If you try to stop me." As I was leaving the room Kikyo gave me a terrified look, and whispered, "demon."
I ran as fast as I could from Kikyo's home, scared of myself for what I had just done. I hated to hurt women, espicially ones that were kind to me. Kohaku spotted me running, and called after me, but I ignored her. I knew that she'd never act so kindly and motherly towards me anymore. I wasn't going to care about other people's emotions anymore, though. Not after I used the Shikon no Tama. I could imagine my half brother staring up at me with envy in his eyes as I stood more powerful than him. I could smell my father's fear that he was going to feel. The Shikon no Tama would make my life fall into place, and I would finally feel content... I hoped. Inside, I didn't care if I felt pain or not. The only thing I truly cared about was getting my revenge. Once I got my revenge, I wouldin't really care much if Kikyo showed up and tore the Shikon no Tama out of me, because I would be happy knowing that I had kept my promise of getting my revenge. I thought about how I had seen my mother's face only a week ago. I thought about how stupid it was of me to leave her side that day, with her being in such a horrible condition. I hated myself for my actions that day, wishing that I could start over again. In fact, sometimes I even wished that I was never born. That way, mother wouldin't carry the burden on her sholders of having a friendless hanyou as a son. 'What are you thinking about?' I screamed inside my head. 'Damnit, Inu Yasha! Her last words were your name. You were the only thing that kept her alive for so long! You gave her faith!' I knew that was the truth, and it made me feel a little better to think that I could do something useful for once in my life. My father often yelled at me when I was young, demanding me to do something 'more useful' with my life. He didn't like to see me spending much time with my mother, fearing that it made me seem weak to be seen around a woman - espically a human woman - all the time. I was often angered by my father and how easily he could insult Mother behind her back. He was a coward, if I had ever seen one.
Later that night, I found a forest that would be good for me to hide in during the night. I sat perched up on a branch of a tree, using the blanket that was in my bag to put behind my head. I thought about everything that had happened earlier that day with Kikyo. I remembered the girl's hurtful words : "You already are one of them, Inu Yasha. Filled with nothing but hate, except for love for one person. And you know what, Inu Yasha? That one person is dead. She won't come back, now or ever..." I sighed. I knew she wasn't coming back... But I just couldin't face the truth. I kept awaiting the day she would be sitting close to my bed when I awoke in the morning, like she used to do. She would sit next to me while I slept, smiling the whole time. She had the most beautiful smile, a smile that made you feel like you were the most important person in the world. I could almost feel her kind eyes gasing down on me as I sat, looking up at the millions of stars that graced the night sky. I reached into my pocket, and pulled out the Shikon no Tama. I looked at it, as the moon reflected on the white gem. I clasped the ball tightly in my hand, knowing that it would come into great use later on. Putting the gem back into my pocket, I let my heavy eyelids flutter shut, as I fell asleep.
~*Dream*~
I was at a hot spring in the middle of a vibrant green forest. Warm air rose off the surface of the water, making the cool night air seem warm. The moon shone down on me, reflecting it's huge picture on the surface of the spring. It was a beautiful night, millions of stars danced in the night sky. Suddenly, I noticed my mother sitting in the water, signaling for me to come in with her. Although I didn't understand the point of going into the natural boiling water, I did as I told to make Mother happy. After I slowly got in the water, my mother signed. "Isn't it wonderful?" she asked. "What are you talking about, Mother?" I asked, not sure what she was talking about. Everyone knew that women had the tendency to say things at odd times. "The water. You and I being together... Everything. Life is wonderful, isn't it, Inu Yasha?" I looked down at the shimmering surface of the water, "yeah... I guess so." Mother just smiled, and splashed me with the water. "Inu Yasha, you're too serious all the time! You're young, and have a long life ahead of you, so you should enjoy your youth as long as it lasts you." I sighed, "I suppose so." Mother reached up and scratched my ears, "I just want you to be happy, my son." While my mother wasn't looking, I splashed her. "Hey!" she shouted, ringing out her hair. "You had it coming, Okaasan." She smiled, and we continued to splash eachother for a few minutes. Suddenly, my mother started to cough. "Are you all right?" I asked, in a frantic tone. Mother nodded, continuing to cough. Her coughs got harder and harder, until I smelled the faint scent of
blood, and she stopped. I gasped, "are you alright? I smell blood!" My mother stared out across the water, sadness in her eyes. "Inu Yasha..." she started, tears forming in her eyes, "I am dying."
(A.N) I know, I know, another cliffhanger. But don't blame me, blame Inufanatic007. He told me that the only way to have a good story was to make more cliffhangers. So, kiddo, I followed your advice. Also, would you please post in your review if you're for/against me using Japanese in my stories? I speak Japanese fluently, so it takes hard concentration for me not to slip a few Japanese words in. Please review, and thank you for taking the time to read my story! -Mae-
(:A.N:) Hello, again. Last chapter was really hard for me to write because I didn't know how long to wait before certain things in the story happed. But, now I know, and I am prepaired to continue this story with full force and inspiration. I hope you enjoy the eleventh chapter of this story. PS: I will attempt to post a link to this story's homepage again, for it didn't appear last chapter. Here's the web address:
I hope the link will work this time, or else I'll just post it on the review page. So if that site doesn't appear or work, check the review page.
Haunting Me in Dreams
Chapter Eleven : Betrayal
By : Feng Shui Goddess
"What are you doing in here, Inu Yasha?" Kikyo demanded, staring down at my pocket that held the jewel. Kikyo gasped, "I-Inu Yasha! How could you...? The jewel... I thought we were friends!" I gave the human girl an angry glare, "We are friends, but nothing will get in the way of my revenge! Not even my only friend!" Kikyo gasped, "revenge? Revenge for what?" I stood silently, not about to say anything. "Revenge for what, Inu Yasha?! Tell me! TELL ME!" I gasped, amazed at how angry the girl was getting. "I'm not going to tell you, Kikyo. It's none of your concern." Kikyo grabbed my arm, pleading, "yes I do! I worry about you! Inu Yasha, tell me! Why would you steal the Shikon no Tama from me? You're not like the other demons, Inu Yasha! You have a heart!" Guilt overwhelmed me. "Exactly. I am not like the other demons. To get revenge, I must be like the other demons." Kikyo looked terrified. "You'd turn yourself into one of them?! Into a horrible, soul less creature... Just to get revenge? Inu Yasha, if you change into a full blood demon, you'll change! You won't be yourself anymore, all you'll care about is bloodshed... You won't be able to love anymore." I knew what Kikyo said was true, but I didn't care. "I am going to get revenge, Kikyo. No matter what the cost." Kikyo started to cry, "what am I talking about? You already are one of them, Inu Yasha. Filled with nothing but hate, except for love for one person. And you know what, Inu Yasha? That one person is dead. She won't come back, now or ever..." Not being able to hold back, I slapped Kikyo across the face, growling, "shut UP!" I screamed at the now sobbing girl, as blood ran down her face. "Inu... Yasha..." she cried. I stared down at my hand, my claws dripping with blood. I closed my eyes tight, not wanting any of this to be real. I knew what would happen if I used the Shikon no Tama, I knew I would lose all the love I ever felt in my heart. I knew that all I'd do would be to hurt people, like I had just done so easily to Kikyo. I knew that I had just betrayed Kikyo, and that she probably didn't even want to be my friend any more. "Kikyo, I..." I started, "I'm sorry. But I must follow what I know is best. And, I'll be taking the Shikon no Tama. If you try to stop me, well..." I paused, because I knew how hard it would be for me to say the next words. "I'll kill you, Kikyo. If you try to stop me." As I was leaving the room Kikyo gave me a terrified look, and whispered, "demon."
I ran as fast as I could from Kikyo's home, scared of myself for what I had just done. I hated to hurt women, espicially ones that were kind to me. Kohaku spotted me running, and called after me, but I ignored her. I knew that she'd never act so kindly and motherly towards me anymore. I wasn't going to care about other people's emotions anymore, though. Not after I used the Shikon no Tama. I could imagine my half brother staring up at me with envy in his eyes as I stood more powerful than him. I could smell my father's fear that he was going to feel. The Shikon no Tama would make my life fall into place, and I would finally feel content... I hoped. Inside, I didn't care if I felt pain or not. The only thing I truly cared about was getting my revenge. Once I got my revenge, I wouldin't really care much if Kikyo showed up and tore the Shikon no Tama out of me, because I would be happy knowing that I had kept my promise of getting my revenge. I thought about how I had seen my mother's face only a week ago. I thought about how stupid it was of me to leave her side that day, with her being in such a horrible condition. I hated myself for my actions that day, wishing that I could start over again. In fact, sometimes I even wished that I was never born. That way, mother wouldin't carry the burden on her sholders of having a friendless hanyou as a son. 'What are you thinking about?' I screamed inside my head. 'Damnit, Inu Yasha! Her last words were your name. You were the only thing that kept her alive for so long! You gave her faith!' I knew that was the truth, and it made me feel a little better to think that I could do something useful for once in my life. My father often yelled at me when I was young, demanding me to do something 'more useful' with my life. He didn't like to see me spending much time with my mother, fearing that it made me seem weak to be seen around a woman - espically a human woman - all the time. I was often angered by my father and how easily he could insult Mother behind her back. He was a coward, if I had ever seen one.
Later that night, I found a forest that would be good for me to hide in during the night. I sat perched up on a branch of a tree, using the blanket that was in my bag to put behind my head. I thought about everything that had happened earlier that day with Kikyo. I remembered the girl's hurtful words : "You already are one of them, Inu Yasha. Filled with nothing but hate, except for love for one person. And you know what, Inu Yasha? That one person is dead. She won't come back, now or ever..." I sighed. I knew she wasn't coming back... But I just couldin't face the truth. I kept awaiting the day she would be sitting close to my bed when I awoke in the morning, like she used to do. She would sit next to me while I slept, smiling the whole time. She had the most beautiful smile, a smile that made you feel like you were the most important person in the world. I could almost feel her kind eyes gasing down on me as I sat, looking up at the millions of stars that graced the night sky. I reached into my pocket, and pulled out the Shikon no Tama. I looked at it, as the moon reflected on the white gem. I clasped the ball tightly in my hand, knowing that it would come into great use later on. Putting the gem back into my pocket, I let my heavy eyelids flutter shut, as I fell asleep.
~*Dream*~
I was at a hot spring in the middle of a vibrant green forest. Warm air rose off the surface of the water, making the cool night air seem warm. The moon shone down on me, reflecting it's huge picture on the surface of the spring. It was a beautiful night, millions of stars danced in the night sky. Suddenly, I noticed my mother sitting in the water, signaling for me to come in with her. Although I didn't understand the point of going into the natural boiling water, I did as I told to make Mother happy. After I slowly got in the water, my mother signed. "Isn't it wonderful?" she asked. "What are you talking about, Mother?" I asked, not sure what she was talking about. Everyone knew that women had the tendency to say things at odd times. "The water. You and I being together... Everything. Life is wonderful, isn't it, Inu Yasha?" I looked down at the shimmering surface of the water, "yeah... I guess so." Mother just smiled, and splashed me with the water. "Inu Yasha, you're too serious all the time! You're young, and have a long life ahead of you, so you should enjoy your youth as long as it lasts you." I sighed, "I suppose so." Mother reached up and scratched my ears, "I just want you to be happy, my son." While my mother wasn't looking, I splashed her. "Hey!" she shouted, ringing out her hair. "You had it coming, Okaasan." She smiled, and we continued to splash eachother for a few minutes. Suddenly, my mother started to cough. "Are you all right?" I asked, in a frantic tone. Mother nodded, continuing to cough. Her coughs got harder and harder, until I smelled the faint scent of
blood, and she stopped. I gasped, "are you alright? I smell blood!" My mother stared out across the water, sadness in her eyes. "Inu Yasha..." she started, tears forming in her eyes, "I am dying."
(A.N) I know, I know, another cliffhanger. But don't blame me, blame Inufanatic007. He told me that the only way to have a good story was to make more cliffhangers. So, kiddo, I followed your advice. Also, would you please post in your review if you're for/against me using Japanese in my stories? I speak Japanese fluently, so it takes hard concentration for me not to slip a few Japanese words in. Please review, and thank you for taking the time to read my story! -Mae-