Disclaimer: I do not own Third Watch or any of the characters.

Author's Note: DON'T drink vinegar, its really really sour and it burns when it goes down.

She looks so pale, so so fragile Bobby thought watching Kim's chest rise and fall, his breathing falling into rhythm with hers, and he felt his eyes start to close the night without sleep catching up with him. No he thought groggily, gotta stay awake, stay awake until I know she's going to be OK, cause if something happened while I was sleeping, if something goes wrong, I wouldn't notice and then if they didn't find out until it was too late. I'd never forgive myself. Not that I'm going to anyway, for letting her get hurt, for letting this happen. He turned his attention back to his partner, the woman he loved, lying on the hospital bed.

"Hey Kimmy, it's Bobby I don't know if you can hear me or not but I want you to know how sorry I am for letting him do this, I lov" he broke off abruptly, she doesn't feel that way, don't go there, if she can hear you it will just upset her he told himself. Please Kim you have to live Joey needs you, I need you, please don't die. He forced back the tears that were forming in his eyes. She made it through the surgery, that's good, think positive he thought to himself, but she shouldn't even be here, wouldn't be here if it wasn't for me. Lost in guilt and anxiety about Kim, he didn't notice when he drifted off to sleep.

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Bobby woke to one of the nurses leaving the room. I'm so stiff he thought sleepily then sat bolt right up in the chair as the events of the day before came rushing back to him. He anxiously looked over at the bed, and was relieved to see Kim lying there, just as she had been the night before, the beep of the heart monitor still going as the line ran across the screen. I was sleeping, how could I do that, what if something had happened? But nothing did he told himself, she's still alive, and that's a good sign. I'm going to make myself sick he thought with all the worrying I'm doing. I can't help it though, what if she doesn't make it, it'll be all my fault, he sighed and glanced over at Kim. I wish she'd wake up or at least give me some sign that she's going to be fine he thought wistfully. He sighed again and shifted his position on the chair, how did I manage to fall asleep on of these? they're so damn hard. I wonder if they caught him yet, if they hurt him, Paulie why did you have to shot her, she was just there cause I was, and I was trying to help you, some job I did huh? Got my partner shot and now one of my best friend is wanted by the police, I'm gonna call Doc, ask if they did. He got up from the chair and walked off, glancing over his shoulder at Kim, come on Kim be OK.