Chapter10
He sent me another letter, and if I didn't talk to him on the phone I would have believed that he was sincere. But this time I'm not going to forgive him. Tristan and I are history! I hate him.
~~~~~~~~~ DEAN: That had nothing to do with me? Well I must have imagined it all then. Your boyfriend's waiting.
R: He's not my boyfriend. I hate him.
DEAN: Whatever.
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No, I don't hate him. I didn't hate him then and I don't hate him now. But I can't forgive him. Why? Because.
P: Rory
Fantastic, all I needed was Paris wanting to talk to me while I'm so upset over Tristan.
R:Paris, this is not a good moment. Can we talk another time?
P: It won't take long. It's about Tristan
R:I haven't got anything to say on this topic
P:Rory, now you shut up and listen what I want to say and after you can leave and forget about it
R:Ok, I'm here listening
P:Well, I talked with Tristan yesterday and he was upset. Usually I wouldn't be worried about him but when it is about you.... Rory he is really sorry and if I didn't believe that he is sorry I would not come and ask you to forgive him. He had a though life. Now in military school the only thing which keeps him sane is the thought of you. I know he told you that he likes there. And I guess it's much better than his home but still.. Rory all I ask is that you think about giving him another chance. I guess you made mistakes with him as well. But he always came back to you.
R:Do you have anything else to say?
P:No
R:Ok. Thank you Paris for your talk, I'll think about it. I don't promise anything but I see your point. And if you came to me and defended him that means something
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TRISTAN: I gotta go. So, I might kiss you goodbye but, uh, your boyfriend's watching. Take care of yourself, Mary.
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I can't believe that Tristan was so desperate to ask Paris to intercede for him. And she is right. When I told him that I hated him I must have hurt him a lot. But he still came to Chilton to say goodbye.
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TRISTAN: Well, come on, you know that when we kiss on stage, it's gonna be pretty obvious that it's not the first time. I'm a good actor, but I can't hide that kind of passion.
RORY: Look, things are really good for me and Dean right now, and I don't want anything to mess that up. Especially not something that meant nothing at all to me and I wished had never happened in the first place.
TRISTAN: So things are going good for you too, huh?
RORY: Yeah, they are.
TRISTAN: Good, that's good.
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If he liked me so much it must have been so bad to hear that the kiss meant nothing to me. I was so bad, so wrapped up in the dream of me and Dean that I didn't notice I could have hurt him. I made a mistake back then.
Well, the truth is that I'm scared of my feelings for him. If I can get upset over a phone call how am I going to manage with more serious things? And I don't even know if I'll ever see him again. What if everything I feel for him is not real? What if I see him and I don't feel anything?
What can I do? I'll have to think a bit more about it. And I know that there is just a person who can give me the answer I need.
R: Hi Jess, can I please talk to you for a minute?
He doesn't look happy to see me. I feel so sorry. Things between us are starting really to be strange. I used to feel at easy with him. Now I can't almost stay in the same room with him.
J:Ok
R:How are you?
J:You didn't just come here to ask me that, right?
R: No
J: Good, then tell me what's the matter
R:Maybe this wasn't a good idea, sorry Jess I'm going
J: Wait Rory! Tell me what you want. I don't promise you I can be your friend but I'm trying my best
R: I know.. Thanks Jess. I just came to ask you ..
J: What?
R:Do you think you could love a person that you hardly know? I mean what if you had talked very little with this person and you didn't really get on well. But still you felt something magic, sparkle when you were around this person
J: Are you talking about Tristan?
R:Yes. I'm confused. Something happened and now I'm wondering about my feelings. Maybe I was wrong and I don't feel anything for him
J:Rory. I think that you feel something for the guy. I cannot tell you if it's love or not but it's so strong that made you break up with me. It's so strong that you broke up with him and got together with me because I reminded you of him
R:Uhm.. I think I have to go. Sorry Jess I didn't want to bother you. Take your time for the 'friendship thing'. I .. I .... I'll see you soon
After Jess's speech I knew what I had to do.
Dear Tristan,
I got your letter and I talked to Paris. I think that we both made mistakes in our 'relationship'. Sometimes I said things that may have hurt you and sometimes you did. You were right about the 'taking it easy' situation. I guess I was confused and I didn't know what to say as well.
We don't know each other well, we've been friends for a very brief time. I know that I like you but I still have to figure out if the feeling is real and if it'll last.
The only thing I can say is YES I give you another chance and I'll ask you to remember when I'll be the one who will mess things up.
When it's about us is always so complicated.
I will not say or imply anymore that I like you or that I feel any other feeling for you until I won't see you. I want to look in your eyes and I want you to look in mine.
Then I will know.
So my dear friend I hope you write me soon.
Love, Mary
He sent me another letter, and if I didn't talk to him on the phone I would have believed that he was sincere. But this time I'm not going to forgive him. Tristan and I are history! I hate him.
~~~~~~~~~ DEAN: That had nothing to do with me? Well I must have imagined it all then. Your boyfriend's waiting.
R: He's not my boyfriend. I hate him.
DEAN: Whatever.
~~~~~~~
No, I don't hate him. I didn't hate him then and I don't hate him now. But I can't forgive him. Why? Because.
P: Rory
Fantastic, all I needed was Paris wanting to talk to me while I'm so upset over Tristan.
R:Paris, this is not a good moment. Can we talk another time?
P: It won't take long. It's about Tristan
R:I haven't got anything to say on this topic
P:Rory, now you shut up and listen what I want to say and after you can leave and forget about it
R:Ok, I'm here listening
P:Well, I talked with Tristan yesterday and he was upset. Usually I wouldn't be worried about him but when it is about you.... Rory he is really sorry and if I didn't believe that he is sorry I would not come and ask you to forgive him. He had a though life. Now in military school the only thing which keeps him sane is the thought of you. I know he told you that he likes there. And I guess it's much better than his home but still.. Rory all I ask is that you think about giving him another chance. I guess you made mistakes with him as well. But he always came back to you.
R:Do you have anything else to say?
P:No
R:Ok. Thank you Paris for your talk, I'll think about it. I don't promise anything but I see your point. And if you came to me and defended him that means something
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TRISTAN: I gotta go. So, I might kiss you goodbye but, uh, your boyfriend's watching. Take care of yourself, Mary.
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I can't believe that Tristan was so desperate to ask Paris to intercede for him. And she is right. When I told him that I hated him I must have hurt him a lot. But he still came to Chilton to say goodbye.
~~~~~~~
TRISTAN: Well, come on, you know that when we kiss on stage, it's gonna be pretty obvious that it's not the first time. I'm a good actor, but I can't hide that kind of passion.
RORY: Look, things are really good for me and Dean right now, and I don't want anything to mess that up. Especially not something that meant nothing at all to me and I wished had never happened in the first place.
TRISTAN: So things are going good for you too, huh?
RORY: Yeah, they are.
TRISTAN: Good, that's good.
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If he liked me so much it must have been so bad to hear that the kiss meant nothing to me. I was so bad, so wrapped up in the dream of me and Dean that I didn't notice I could have hurt him. I made a mistake back then.
Well, the truth is that I'm scared of my feelings for him. If I can get upset over a phone call how am I going to manage with more serious things? And I don't even know if I'll ever see him again. What if everything I feel for him is not real? What if I see him and I don't feel anything?
What can I do? I'll have to think a bit more about it. And I know that there is just a person who can give me the answer I need.
R: Hi Jess, can I please talk to you for a minute?
He doesn't look happy to see me. I feel so sorry. Things between us are starting really to be strange. I used to feel at easy with him. Now I can't almost stay in the same room with him.
J:Ok
R:How are you?
J:You didn't just come here to ask me that, right?
R: No
J: Good, then tell me what's the matter
R:Maybe this wasn't a good idea, sorry Jess I'm going
J: Wait Rory! Tell me what you want. I don't promise you I can be your friend but I'm trying my best
R: I know.. Thanks Jess. I just came to ask you ..
J: What?
R:Do you think you could love a person that you hardly know? I mean what if you had talked very little with this person and you didn't really get on well. But still you felt something magic, sparkle when you were around this person
J: Are you talking about Tristan?
R:Yes. I'm confused. Something happened and now I'm wondering about my feelings. Maybe I was wrong and I don't feel anything for him
J:Rory. I think that you feel something for the guy. I cannot tell you if it's love or not but it's so strong that made you break up with me. It's so strong that you broke up with him and got together with me because I reminded you of him
R:Uhm.. I think I have to go. Sorry Jess I didn't want to bother you. Take your time for the 'friendship thing'. I .. I .... I'll see you soon
After Jess's speech I knew what I had to do.
Dear Tristan,
I got your letter and I talked to Paris. I think that we both made mistakes in our 'relationship'. Sometimes I said things that may have hurt you and sometimes you did. You were right about the 'taking it easy' situation. I guess I was confused and I didn't know what to say as well.
We don't know each other well, we've been friends for a very brief time. I know that I like you but I still have to figure out if the feeling is real and if it'll last.
The only thing I can say is YES I give you another chance and I'll ask you to remember when I'll be the one who will mess things up.
When it's about us is always so complicated.
I will not say or imply anymore that I like you or that I feel any other feeling for you until I won't see you. I want to look in your eyes and I want you to look in mine.
Then I will know.
So my dear friend I hope you write me soon.
Love, Mary