Have you ever dreamed about something and then found or remembered that it had actually happened. In some cases, it could be something good, like if you had just won the lottery. But in other cases, it could just be damn terrible. Something you had wished was only a dream and had not really happened.

A dream can be hidden, locked up in your mind for no one to find out. Dreams can remain a secret, especially those of a pleasure. Everyone's allowed to have a guilty pleasure, like, for example, Amy's was chocolate. She even knew that Matt had a thing for Jennifer Love Hewitt, even though he didn't know she knew. She didn't worry about it though, because she knew Matt was only with her. In reality some pleasures can't be hidden or forgotten. It comes with a guilty conscience constantly clouding your mind with no way of escaping it. And then it's hard to keep a secret.

Amy felt like she was dreaming. The kiss she had had with Eddie, feeling his lips, feeling his breath on her felt like a dream. It felt so sensual and soft and sweet. A wonderful dream that was to be kept a dream, that was to be kept hidden in her mind. But then she woke up and faced reality. It wasn't a dream. She had actually kissed Eddie while going out with Matt. And that she couldn't keep hidden.

What had gone on between Amy and Eddie was no dream, although she wished it were. She wished it had never even happened. But it had and she had to live with it. She couldn't stop thinking about it and how she had deceived Matt. What was she going to do?

There was no time to figure anything out at the moment because just then the locker room door opened. In came Jeff followed by Matt who both greeted her with smiles. Amy couldn't help but feel a pang of guilt. She tried to remain calm.

Hey Aimes," Jeff said squeezing her shoulder, before sitting on the bench.

"Hi baby. How are you?" Matt said giving Amy a kiss. She didn't exactly return the kiss. It didn't feel right and she couldn't fake it. Luckily, he didn't notice. He just smiled and went to pack his stuff.

"So how long you been here?" Jeff asked Amy.

Amy shifted. "Uh… for a while, I guess."

"What were you doing all that time?"

Amy froze. Did they suspect something, and they were trying to get it out of her? Frantically and quickly she said, "Nothing. Why would you think I was doing anything? If you're trying to interrogate me…" She stopped all shaken and uneasy.

"Whoa, whoa. Calm down. I didn't mean anything by it," Jeff said calmly putting his hands on her shoulders, looking at her, "I was just asking."

"Oh. Right. Sorry," Amy looked away at her feet. So much for staying calm. If anything she had blown her cover and they had become suspicious.

There was on odd silence in the room now. She could still feel Jeff looking at her, his eyes boring into her like she was being interrogated by the police. Matt was looking at her too, wondering about her sudden outburst. Trying to enlighten the mood of the room, Jeff told a joke. While he was laughing hysterically and Matt was chuckling, Amy let out a little laugh to at least steer herself away from being the odd one out.

"Why don't we go? Everyone ready?" Matt said, once Jeff stopped laughing, glancing at Amy. They nodded and left the room.

As they were walking down the hall to the exit, Matt put his arm around Amy. Her muscles tensed and he could feel some resistance to his touch.

"Is everything ok?" Matt questioned looking at Amy, studying her face.

Amy became nervous again. Why'd he have to be asking that? She pretended to be fine.

"Yes. Nothing's wrong," Amy lied. She hated lying to him. It didn't feel good. "Why do you ask?"

Matt was caught off guard. "Oh, I don't know. No reason. It's nothing really." He looked away, but moments later said, "We and some of the guys are going out tonight. You wanna come?"

Amy shook her head after thinking for a few minutes. She couldn't go out after what had happened earlier. She couldn't push it aside and have fun. And it would be hard being there with Matt.

"Are you sure everything's ok?" Matt asked concerned. Amy didn't seem ok. She was acting differently. Not like her old cheery, bubbly self he admired about her, who would have loved to go out. In her place was a quiet, tense stranger, almost.

"Yes. I'm just tired, that's all," Amy lied again. She forced out a small smile for Matt.

"Ok, if you're sure," Matt said uncertainly.

They got to the car and drove to the hotel they were staying at. The car ride was pretty silent except for some small talk here and there.

Mat wondered what was up with Amy. She hadn't spoken a word in the car, which rarely happened. He noticed she was keeping a little distance from him. Maybe she was tired, like she said. Matt couldn't help but think otherwise. Something had happened that she wasn't telling him.

***

It was 10:30 p.m. and they were at the hotel. Matt was in the bathroom getting ready to go out. Amy was lying on the bed watching t.v. but not really paying attention to what was on. She had a lot on her mind.

Matt came out and Amy looked up for the first time since they had left the arena. He looked cute. He was wearing a red shirt unbuttoned at the collar with a chain around his neck. Added to that was a pair of black jeans and his hair was put in a ponytail.

"You look good," Amy said.

Matt grinned. "Thanks. So do you."

Amy blushed. She was wearing simple sweats as pajamas and her red hair was out flowing over her shoulders.

Matt sat on the bed next to her and looked at her. She was beautiful, yet she seemed different that night. Her eyes for one thing weren't glowing as they usually did. They looked sad and almost guilty. But why? She was also distant, keeping to herself.

"Are you sure you don't want to come?" Matt asked, "There's still time."

"No, I'm sure. I'm not up to going out right now," Amy said.

"Maybe I should stay. You don't look too well," Matt said He started up to go change.

Amy pulled his arm making him sit again. "No, no. I'm fine. Go. Have some fun," Amy assured. She wanted to be alone.

"Ok… but it won't be fun without you," Matt said kissing her.

Amy smiled sadly. Matt got up and went to the door, opening it. He started to go, then turned back.

"Amy?"

"Yah?"

"Did something happen. Something you aren't telling me about. Cause you know you can tell me anything. I'll always be with you and by your side."

Amy looked at him and told a painful lie, trying to control her voice. "No, nothing happened. I'm fine, really,"

"Ok…" he said with doubt. "Well I'll see you later, honey. Bye." And he walked towards the elevator, the door shutting behind him, leaving his wallet on the table in the hotel room.

Amy stared at the door for what seemed like hours, but was only minutes. Finally she put her face in her hands and started crying. All the emotions were finally breaking her. She loved Matt, but she liked Eddie, and who knew, could lead to love. She had to tell Matt that she had kissed Eddie. It wasn't fair to Matt. She didn't want to hurt him, but lying to him was hurting him more. It would hurt her too and it already was. "I don't deserve him," she thought. He would never lie to her and he would never even touch another girl.

A knock sounded at the door. Amy lifted her head and stared at the door. "Who could that be," she thought knowing Matt would have just come in. He got off the bed and looked at herself in the mirror. She was a complete mess. She went to the bathroom to clean herself off and then went to the door. It was Eddie.

"Come I come in?" he asked.

Amy opened the door and he walked in. He took out a rose from behind his back and offered it to Amy. She took it and put it on the table.

"Eddie, we really have to talk," Amy said sitting on the bed. Eddie sat beside her.

"About what happened earlier… I need to know, was what we had real?"

"Amy, I like you. I have for a long time now," Eddie said truthfully taking her hand.

"I like you too. A lot." She suddenly had the desire to feel his lips on her again. "But I'm really confused right now."

***

"Hey, where's Amy?" Jay asked Matt. They were in the lobby with some of the other guys waiting for some to still come.

"Oh, she's not coming," Matt told him.

"Why not? She always comes."

"She's probably tired of all you guys. Doesn't want to be around you juniors anymore," Chris (J) joked slapping a hand on Jay's shoulder.

"Well, she did say she was tired, but she seemed different. I'm a little worried," Matt said.

"Don't worry bro," Jeff said from behind Matt, "she said she was tired, so that's probably what it is. It was a hard day today"

"Yah, I guess you're right," Matt said. He put his hand in his pocket and realized he had forgotten his wallet. "Shit, I forgot my wallet," he grumbled under his breath.

"Then, dude, get it. We're going soon," Adam said.

"Right," and Matt went to the elevator.

***

"You know I'm with Matt and I love him. I love being with him. But, I do like you too. When we talked in the locker room, I felt connected to you. I was really interested in what you were saying. The kiss was really nice too and now I know it was for real. But I need time right now, to sort out my feelings."

"I understand. I will wait, even though it's killing me right now. Just remember that I really like you and that this is where I stand," Eddie said moving closer to Amy until their lips touched.

Time seemed to slow down during that kiss. Amy felt so many feelings going through her. Although she was surprised at first, she didn't pull away. She deepened it, her hands running through his hair, his hands running through hers. It felt so nice just like the first one.

Then as quickly as time stopped, it started up again. The door to the room opened and there stood Matt not believing what he was seeing. Because there, right in front of him, was his girlfriend kissing Eddie. He gasped. Amy and Eddie broke apart and saw Matt standing there. He was horrified, filled with hurt, and was frozen to the floor. Amy looked at him wide eyed, her heart stopped, terrified. She tried to find something to say, but her brain wasn't working. Nothing would make this situation any better. Matt then ran out of the room.

Amy jumped off the bed, running to the door.

"Matt, wait!"……..