Authors Note - Thanks to everyone who reviewed! It really made my day!!
This is part two and it starts about 48 hours after the fire. Erm..there's
a slight hint on a songfic later on so I'm sorry if u don't like them but I
heard the song this morning and I just had to put it in!
"Is she going to be alright?"
Monica felt her head lighten slightly as she struggled against the crippling force weighing down on her head. She could feel pain in every part of her body. Her whole body felt like lead. She recognised the voice as someone she knew, but she couldn't place him. Suddenly she voice entered her room at sat down beside her. She glanced up at him and saw he had been crying. At that moment her heart stopped.
"Chandler" she managed to croak, "the girls"
Chandler jumped with shock when he heard his wife's voice.
"I thought you were asleep"
"Chandler what happened? I can't feel my legs"
Chandler sighed. He has known she was going to ask, but going over it in his head was bad enough. Repeating it would make it all real.
"You were in the house remember?" he began, "a beam from the ceiling fell on you when you were carrying Georgia. It landed on your legs, the doctors don't know anything yet sweetie you just need to hang in there"
"Chandler what about Georgia?" Chandler looked at the floor and shook his head. It was the only answer Monica needed.
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Monica looked down at her legs and felt a solitary tear slide down her face. Useless that's what the doctors had said. Her legs were useless. God she couldn't stand that word. She was Monica who always won, how could she win with no legs? Only last week she was thinking how great her life was and no she was living in a hospital with a dead daughter. Her eyes began to water again as she thought of Georgia. Her little baby was gone, but she couldn't even grieve properly. She had to be strong for Ella and Chandler. She had to be.
"Mrs Bing? A letter for you"
Monica looked up at the nurse. A letter? She never got letters. Everyone visited her. Thinking it was probably from the bank she ripped it open and began to read.
Dearest Monica..it began,
I want you to know that I love you, and I cannot believe what I am about to do to you. You have to be strong for Ella and always remember that I love you.
I can't go on living like this. I can't cope with everything Mon, I was always afraid I just learnt to deal with the little things. But this isn't a little thing. This is a big thing and I can't handle big things. It was my fault Georgia died, and my fault you're in that hospital now and I can't cope with being around you. I'm so, so sorry Mon. Please forgive me, and give my love to Ella.
Yours forever Chandler
Monica dropped the letter in her hand like it was a bomb. Chandler was gone, her one lifeline was gone. Her true love, her soul mate, her best friend. Leaving her alone and disabled with a 6-year-old daughter. How could her? Monica felt the tears coming but before they had a chance.
"Mommy, where's Daddy?"
Now I know I can handle this
I'll close my mouth and clench my fist
I've lived this day in a thousand ways
But there's a flaw to add to my list
Go on squeeze a little more
If you scream I'll just ignore you
I've rehearsed this scene in a million dreams
You're getting closer to my core
I'm so damn frustrated
Losing breath and now I'm shaking
Gotta keep myself from breaking down
Someone get me out
Tear don't you fall
Eyes don't you cry
Need to get me round this corner
I can't break down, break down
Pride don't cave in
Head don't let go
While I'm open and you can read me
I can't break down, break down
I've locked it out for long enough
Got really good at playing rough now
I've been prepared
And not really cared
For being brave is getting tough
Chin now don't you quiver
Hands don't start to shiver
Gotta keep myself from breaking down
Someone get me out, someone let me out
Tear don't you fall
Eyes don't you cry
Pride don't cave in
Head don't let go
Break down, I can't break down Monica looked at her daughter and realized no matter how much she was hurting her daughter needed her more now. She gave her precious girl a small smile and beckoned her over to the bed. She pulled her tightly into a hog and embraced her true lifeline for an eternity.
"I can't break down" is © Sinead Quinn 2003
A/N - Well I hope you liked it and meeh and DrKerryWeaver I'm really really sorry for killing off Georgia but I needed a reason for Chandler to leave. Don't worry he will still be in it and this will probably be C&M in a few chapters. Thanks and pls review (but be nice I got exams comin up soon so I'm a bit hormonal at the mo!)
"Is she going to be alright?"
Monica felt her head lighten slightly as she struggled against the crippling force weighing down on her head. She could feel pain in every part of her body. Her whole body felt like lead. She recognised the voice as someone she knew, but she couldn't place him. Suddenly she voice entered her room at sat down beside her. She glanced up at him and saw he had been crying. At that moment her heart stopped.
"Chandler" she managed to croak, "the girls"
Chandler jumped with shock when he heard his wife's voice.
"I thought you were asleep"
"Chandler what happened? I can't feel my legs"
Chandler sighed. He has known she was going to ask, but going over it in his head was bad enough. Repeating it would make it all real.
"You were in the house remember?" he began, "a beam from the ceiling fell on you when you were carrying Georgia. It landed on your legs, the doctors don't know anything yet sweetie you just need to hang in there"
"Chandler what about Georgia?" Chandler looked at the floor and shook his head. It was the only answer Monica needed.
~~~~~~~
Monica looked down at her legs and felt a solitary tear slide down her face. Useless that's what the doctors had said. Her legs were useless. God she couldn't stand that word. She was Monica who always won, how could she win with no legs? Only last week she was thinking how great her life was and no she was living in a hospital with a dead daughter. Her eyes began to water again as she thought of Georgia. Her little baby was gone, but she couldn't even grieve properly. She had to be strong for Ella and Chandler. She had to be.
"Mrs Bing? A letter for you"
Monica looked up at the nurse. A letter? She never got letters. Everyone visited her. Thinking it was probably from the bank she ripped it open and began to read.
Dearest Monica..it began,
I want you to know that I love you, and I cannot believe what I am about to do to you. You have to be strong for Ella and always remember that I love you.
I can't go on living like this. I can't cope with everything Mon, I was always afraid I just learnt to deal with the little things. But this isn't a little thing. This is a big thing and I can't handle big things. It was my fault Georgia died, and my fault you're in that hospital now and I can't cope with being around you. I'm so, so sorry Mon. Please forgive me, and give my love to Ella.
Yours forever Chandler
Monica dropped the letter in her hand like it was a bomb. Chandler was gone, her one lifeline was gone. Her true love, her soul mate, her best friend. Leaving her alone and disabled with a 6-year-old daughter. How could her? Monica felt the tears coming but before they had a chance.
"Mommy, where's Daddy?"
Now I know I can handle this
I'll close my mouth and clench my fist
I've lived this day in a thousand ways
But there's a flaw to add to my list
Go on squeeze a little more
If you scream I'll just ignore you
I've rehearsed this scene in a million dreams
You're getting closer to my core
I'm so damn frustrated
Losing breath and now I'm shaking
Gotta keep myself from breaking down
Someone get me out
Tear don't you fall
Eyes don't you cry
Need to get me round this corner
I can't break down, break down
Pride don't cave in
Head don't let go
While I'm open and you can read me
I can't break down, break down
I've locked it out for long enough
Got really good at playing rough now
I've been prepared
And not really cared
For being brave is getting tough
Chin now don't you quiver
Hands don't start to shiver
Gotta keep myself from breaking down
Someone get me out, someone let me out
Tear don't you fall
Eyes don't you cry
Pride don't cave in
Head don't let go
Break down, I can't break down Monica looked at her daughter and realized no matter how much she was hurting her daughter needed her more now. She gave her precious girl a small smile and beckoned her over to the bed. She pulled her tightly into a hog and embraced her true lifeline for an eternity.
"I can't break down" is © Sinead Quinn 2003
A/N - Well I hope you liked it and meeh and DrKerryWeaver I'm really really sorry for killing off Georgia but I needed a reason for Chandler to leave. Don't worry he will still be in it and this will probably be C&M in a few chapters. Thanks and pls review (but be nice I got exams comin up soon so I'm a bit hormonal at the mo!)