Hi chicca's, Pre here. Thought I'd better get on with the next chapter of Dear diary before my muse does something she'll regret! *Spins round in chair and glares evilly over at muse*
Muse: "Well it's not every day I'm one of the main characters in a fic!"
Pre: "Shh! Don't you dare go givin' way my plot secrets chicca!"
Muse glares back: "It was my idea not yours!"
Pre: "You won't be in it at all if you don't let me get on with it!"
Muse mumbles beneath breath but otherwise silent.
Pre nodding to herself and flexing fingers. "On with the next chapter!"
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Rogue stared down at the book in her hand as a feeling of déjà vu crept over her. "Mirage…" She whispered. "Who are ya?"
As if in answer to her question music filtered through the open window.
And when the mirror smashed
Into a thousand pieces
When there was nothing left to sayI stood and watched you suffer
Aching to be free
To take you in my arms
And ease away your pain.
Rogue frowned, standing up and placing the book onto her bed as she moved towards the window.
"Where's it comin' from?" She muttered as she stared out.
Below her an endless sea of bodies milled about. Rogue stood there, one hand clenched tightly around the curtain as she held it out of her way and the other on the windowsill. She scanned the faces below her with quick darting movements before coming to rest on four of the newer students.
Bobby, Ray, Jubilee and Jamie stopped talking abruptly as they felt eyes on them.
"It's Rogue." Bobby muttered a lovesick look coming into his eyes.
Jubes raised her eyebrows shaking her head as she glanced up at the window to the room Rogue and Kitty shared. Sure enough Rogue was watching them.
"She looks so sad." Jubes murmured as she watched the resident goth jerk away from the window a slight flush accenting her normally pale skin at having been spotted watching them.
"She was bein' funny earlier too." Jamie said causing the other three to turn and look at him.
"What you on about?" Bobby asked.
"She was scarin' me." Jamie replied shivering slightly as he thought of that voice again.
Ray laughed. "Everything scares you kid."
"It does not!" Jamie exclaimed glaring back at him his hands on his hips.
Jubes laughed reaching forward to ruffle his hair. "Looks like you made the kid mad Ray."
"He knows I'm joking." Ray grinned back punching Jamie's shoulder lightly.
Jamie flinched rubbing his shoulder as two more of him appeared on either side.
"Oh great!" Bobby moaned. "Now look what you've done."
Jubes grimaced placing a hand on Ray and Bobby's arms. "Let's leave the kid to sort himself out."
"Hey!" The middle Jamie cried. "Thought you were gonna play?"
Ray waved back over his shoulder. "With one of ya, not three!"
Bobby nodded glancing back over his own shoulder. "We'll see ya later kid!"
"This isn't fair!" The middle Jamie cried.
The other two nodded in agreement. "We wanna play!" They chorused.
Jamie grinned glancing at the other two. "Then lets play!" He cried running off.
The other two glanced at each other before shrugging. "Hey Jamie wait for us!" They cried as they raced off after him.
Rogue stood there her back to the wall nearest the window yet still hidden from view of the other students.
Rogue slid down the wall pulling her knees up under her chin as she rested her head on them.
And when the mirror smashed
Into a thousand pieces
When there was nothing left to sayI stood and watched you suffer
Aching to be free
To take you in my arms
And ease away your pain
Rogue's head jerked up as she scrambled to her feet. She was across the room and had the door open before she even realised that she'd gotten up.
"Where's it commin' from?"
Mirror, mirror
Set me free
I looked into the future
And saw you standing there
Waiting for someone
You'll never see again
Rogue hurried down the corridor following the haunting melody a feeling of nostalgia sweeping through her.
Mirror, mirrorHear my call
I looked into your depths
And saw a stranger staring back
The pain and suffering in her eyes
Like pools of obsidian jewels
Cut me to the bone
I ache to set you free
Rogue stopped as she found herself in the boy's wing.
Mirror, mirror
Why can't you see
How good enough I am for thee?
How good enough I am for thee…
Rogue pushed open the door that was slightly ajar and watched as the last words faded into silence.
She watched as the boy who sat on the floor in the middle of the room brushed the silent tears that had fallen away.
She watched as he lovingly stroked the picture clenched in his hand.
She watched as he whispered the words out loud. "Why can't you see how good enough I am for thee?"
As she watched her heart ached.
Ached for what could never be.
Ached for what it craved above all else.
And ached for someone else's pain.
Rogue sucked in a breath as though to ease the pain and the boy swung round.
"Rogue!" He exclaimed jumping to his feet and hastily shoving the picture back into his pocket.
"What are you doing here?" He asked, running a hand through his hair.
Rogue shook her head taking a step back as he stepped forward.
"Rogue?" He questioned a frown spreading across his face when she didn't answer.
Rogue's eyes widened in fear as he stepped closer and she hastily stepped back spinning round and falling to the ground as she bumped right into the person who had silently came up behind her.
"Oomph!"
"Rogue! Are you alright mein freund?" Kurt exclaimed reaching one blue three-fingered hand down to help her up.
"Ah'm fine." Rogue replied, ignoring the outstretched hand and picking herself up.
"Vhat are you doing over here?"
"Nothing, ah thought ah heard music that's ahl."
Kurt frowned. "Music?" He asked glancing behind her to the boy who still stood in the doorway. "Scott?"
"I must have left the door open. Sorry Rogue I didn't mean to disturb you."
Rogue shrugged a half smile tucking at her lips. "Ah kinda lahked it."
"You did?" Scott exclaimed startled.
Rogue nodded her usual frown once again on her face.
"I didn't think anyone here liked her music."
"Who vas it?" Kurt asked curiously.
"Egarim." Scott replied shortly.
"Vou listening to her again?" Kurt laughed.
Rogue frowned. "Egarim." She murmured to herself.
Scott nodded. "I love her music, she just seems to know exactly what you're feeling."
Kurt shrugged not understanding how anyone could like that kind of music before turning to Scott. "Logan sent me to vhet vu."
"Oh great I wonder what he wants now." Scott muttered as he took Kurt's outstretched hand. "Bye Rogue." Kurt grinned over at her waving once before they both disappeared in a puff of smoke.
Rogue frowned. "Egarim…where have ah heard that before?" She muttered to herself, glancing out of the window as she walked past.
"Oh mah god!" Rogue exclaimed stopping abruptly and staring at the window. "Egarim is Mirage backwards!"
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Sorry to leave it like this chicca's…hope you all liked it though! I got nervous with all the good reviews and wasn't sure if I could live up to your expectations. I hope I did. I've all ready started on the next chapter due to the nagging of my *to remain nameless* muse. Please review!
Luv Pre