Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. The characters in this story are
borrowed from the TV show "7th Heaven". I own no characters except for
Halo, Madison and Dr. Welsh. No money is being made from this story. Any
resemblance of a character in this story to any real person living or dead
is purely coincidental. Likewise, any resemblance between an organisation
depicted in this story and any such actual organisation is purely
coincidental.
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Chapter 24:
It was a week after the overdose that Simon returned home. Every one was edgy around him. Even Robbie wasn't his usual self. Everyone tried to make him happy, and tried to convince him to talk. Nothing worked though. He spent most of his time sleeping or when he did wake, it was only to eat. He didn't talk, he didn't do anything. Matt blamed himself. He should have taken better care of him, been a better big brother. But everyone blamed themselves, even Ruthy.
"Mom, Dad, we need to talk. I need to tell you the truth about everything or else I'll never be happy." Simon said. His parents were shocked, as it was the first time in weeks that he had talked. "Can you sit down?" He didn't want to have to tell them, but he felt he had too.
As Annie, Eric and Matt gathered in the living room, Robbie, Lucy and Ruthy sat at the stairs listening to every word they could hear. "OK. Where do I start?" Simon said, brushing his hair off his face. He seemed nervous, and Annie and Eric looked worried. They knew more then Simon thought they did but for Simon to just come out like this, they were worried there was more. They weren't sure they wanted to hear it.
"Take your time sweetie. We realise this is hard for you." Annie said in her soothing voice.
"OK. Here I go. I think Matt knows most of the story. About 10 months ago now, Madison and I fell pregnant." He tensed as he watched his parents shocked reaction. "She had an abortion. I didn't want her to, I told her we could raise the baby together or she could put it up for adoption. She didn't listen though. She just kept going on about how her parents are going to kill her.
"Anyway, I didn't handle it to well. I thought I was a murderer. I couldn't cope. I was really depressed. Not only did I have that going on but also I was in the middle of exams at school. I knew some guys at school who were into weed and I thought I might try it. They had offered me freebies before but I never took them. Then one day I decided to take them up on their offer. They said it would help me feel better. It did. I knew what I did was wrong but I couldn't help it.
"I started taking pot regularly and going to raves. I told you I was babysitting. I was really out smoking dope and having... having sex with girls. I began to question my feelings for girls. For a while I had been thinking about Morris in a new light and well... I'm gay. I didn't handle that to well either. I should have seen a psychiatrist but I was too stubborn. I thought about how sick I was, I mean, you're always preaching against homosexuality in church dad. I... I couldn't handle it.
"I started thinking weed wasn't enough. So I started taking stronger stuff like coke and E. I loved it. I felt happy. I hadn't felt happy in almost a year. Madison and I had broken up by this stage and I didn't like that. Madison was my lifeline. She was gone. She was with Morris. I felt so angry at that. I loved him and she was with him.
"Anyway, I met Halo at one of these raves. He was amazing. He gave me freebies and eventually I fell out of love with Morris and in love with Halo. I knew he was bisexual He had often flirted with me. I never took him up at one of the raves." Simon's parents were listening to their son with no expression they couldn't believe the words they were hearing. Sex? Drugs? Alcohol? Homosexuality? Abortion? It was too much. They were no longer listening to the story because they wanted to. They were now listening because they had to.
"Anyway, one day. I couldn't take it anymore living here. Everyone was so happy. I was cutting myself and thinking about suicide." Simon's eyes were full with tears as he told this part of the story. "I ran away. I went to Halo's. I moved in. Halo and I became an item. I started cutting myself more frequently because I felt like I was betraying you." Simon wiped his eyes. "I started using different drugs like prescription pills, I even shot up once. Then, I was going to the rave when I had my accident. I was speeding. I was close to 110km an hour. You know what happened then.
"I started seeing Dr. Welsh. He helped. But then Halo died. I loved him. I know you don't understand and don't approve. But I loved him. At times I didn't think I did but, he was fun and wild and carefree and he loved me. And he's dead. He made me happy." Simon got up to get some tissues as he was now crying freely. "I started taking more of the Vicodin. It numbed my pain. I felt happier and I could sleep easier and I didn't think about Halo too much. I guess one day I took too much.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to cause you all so much pain. I just...I don't know. I couldn't handle it and slowly my life spiralled out of control. I love you guys. And I am so sorry. I know I can never repair the damage and I know that you will never accept me being gay but... I want to try and get better. I'll go back to counselling and I'll go back to school and I'll even try and stay out of my room. Just please...will you give me another chance?"
Annie and Eric sat opposite Simon dumbstruck. They didn't know what to say. Did they accept him the way he is, or did they leave him in the cold for being a homosexual? Up until now, the plan had been to get him off drugs but now, they had to question their love and his sexuality. Could everything remain the same as it use to be? Could everything go back to normal?
"I'm sorry Simon." Eric said, unable to look his son in the eyes. "It's just...your mother and I..."
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Chapter 24:
It was a week after the overdose that Simon returned home. Every one was edgy around him. Even Robbie wasn't his usual self. Everyone tried to make him happy, and tried to convince him to talk. Nothing worked though. He spent most of his time sleeping or when he did wake, it was only to eat. He didn't talk, he didn't do anything. Matt blamed himself. He should have taken better care of him, been a better big brother. But everyone blamed themselves, even Ruthy.
"Mom, Dad, we need to talk. I need to tell you the truth about everything or else I'll never be happy." Simon said. His parents were shocked, as it was the first time in weeks that he had talked. "Can you sit down?" He didn't want to have to tell them, but he felt he had too.
As Annie, Eric and Matt gathered in the living room, Robbie, Lucy and Ruthy sat at the stairs listening to every word they could hear. "OK. Where do I start?" Simon said, brushing his hair off his face. He seemed nervous, and Annie and Eric looked worried. They knew more then Simon thought they did but for Simon to just come out like this, they were worried there was more. They weren't sure they wanted to hear it.
"Take your time sweetie. We realise this is hard for you." Annie said in her soothing voice.
"OK. Here I go. I think Matt knows most of the story. About 10 months ago now, Madison and I fell pregnant." He tensed as he watched his parents shocked reaction. "She had an abortion. I didn't want her to, I told her we could raise the baby together or she could put it up for adoption. She didn't listen though. She just kept going on about how her parents are going to kill her.
"Anyway, I didn't handle it to well. I thought I was a murderer. I couldn't cope. I was really depressed. Not only did I have that going on but also I was in the middle of exams at school. I knew some guys at school who were into weed and I thought I might try it. They had offered me freebies before but I never took them. Then one day I decided to take them up on their offer. They said it would help me feel better. It did. I knew what I did was wrong but I couldn't help it.
"I started taking pot regularly and going to raves. I told you I was babysitting. I was really out smoking dope and having... having sex with girls. I began to question my feelings for girls. For a while I had been thinking about Morris in a new light and well... I'm gay. I didn't handle that to well either. I should have seen a psychiatrist but I was too stubborn. I thought about how sick I was, I mean, you're always preaching against homosexuality in church dad. I... I couldn't handle it.
"I started thinking weed wasn't enough. So I started taking stronger stuff like coke and E. I loved it. I felt happy. I hadn't felt happy in almost a year. Madison and I had broken up by this stage and I didn't like that. Madison was my lifeline. She was gone. She was with Morris. I felt so angry at that. I loved him and she was with him.
"Anyway, I met Halo at one of these raves. He was amazing. He gave me freebies and eventually I fell out of love with Morris and in love with Halo. I knew he was bisexual He had often flirted with me. I never took him up at one of the raves." Simon's parents were listening to their son with no expression they couldn't believe the words they were hearing. Sex? Drugs? Alcohol? Homosexuality? Abortion? It was too much. They were no longer listening to the story because they wanted to. They were now listening because they had to.
"Anyway, one day. I couldn't take it anymore living here. Everyone was so happy. I was cutting myself and thinking about suicide." Simon's eyes were full with tears as he told this part of the story. "I ran away. I went to Halo's. I moved in. Halo and I became an item. I started cutting myself more frequently because I felt like I was betraying you." Simon wiped his eyes. "I started using different drugs like prescription pills, I even shot up once. Then, I was going to the rave when I had my accident. I was speeding. I was close to 110km an hour. You know what happened then.
"I started seeing Dr. Welsh. He helped. But then Halo died. I loved him. I know you don't understand and don't approve. But I loved him. At times I didn't think I did but, he was fun and wild and carefree and he loved me. And he's dead. He made me happy." Simon got up to get some tissues as he was now crying freely. "I started taking more of the Vicodin. It numbed my pain. I felt happier and I could sleep easier and I didn't think about Halo too much. I guess one day I took too much.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to cause you all so much pain. I just...I don't know. I couldn't handle it and slowly my life spiralled out of control. I love you guys. And I am so sorry. I know I can never repair the damage and I know that you will never accept me being gay but... I want to try and get better. I'll go back to counselling and I'll go back to school and I'll even try and stay out of my room. Just please...will you give me another chance?"
Annie and Eric sat opposite Simon dumbstruck. They didn't know what to say. Did they accept him the way he is, or did they leave him in the cold for being a homosexual? Up until now, the plan had been to get him off drugs but now, they had to question their love and his sexuality. Could everything remain the same as it use to be? Could everything go back to normal?
"I'm sorry Simon." Eric said, unable to look his son in the eyes. "It's just...your mother and I..."
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