First of all, I would like to thank my fans of this story who have read it
from the beginning. This is my last chapter. This was my first fan fiction
story so it holds a lot of memories for me. Anyway, thankyou;
Wisk8r -thanks. You gave me great ideas, and always gave great reviews! Thanks.
Doyles-Always
Black Mirror
Hoedogg
Cry me a river
Spit fire
Goblz
Sara Jaye
Dakota Raine
The Queen
Silver Wolf
Sophronia
Cecilia
Kathrine 1980
Beth
Cal
Mary
KayKayelle (thanks for the tip on 'despair')
Robbie42
GirlSunday
Milkyway4444 (although I think you only read like 3 chapters)
Everyone who gave me ideas like Wisk8r and Milyway4444. YOU ALL ROCK!
And all my other loyal fans who have read this story. THANKYOU. As you can probably tell, this story means alot to me. So, I hope you enjoyed it. And farewell! Oh, and sorry if I forgot anyone on the list.
DISCLAMER: This is a work of fiction. The characters in this story are borrowed from the TV show "7th Heaven". I own no characters except for Halo, Madison and Dr. Welsh. No money is being made from this story. Any resemblance of a character in this story to any real person living or dead is purely coincidental. Likewise, any resemblance between an organisation depicted in this story and any such actual organisation is purely coincidental.
"I'm sorry Simon." Eric said, unable to look his son in the eyes. "It's just...your mother and I..."
"Be careful what you say dad." Matt said, coming down from the stairs. "Think about this."
"We have Matt, we have. You shouldn't have listened in like that though. Nor should you two either." Eric said angrily, looking first at Matt then at Lucy and Ruthy. "Simon, We're sorry, you're mother and I, we didn't understand. We didn't realise. It is going to take us a long time to get to accept this and I am not guaranteeing that we will either. But, we love you. And we're proud of you to admitting all this. We're shocked to say the least, but you're a Camden, and we'll stick by you. Just as long as you obey by our rules and tell us when something is wrong." Eric said, coming over to give Simon a hug.
"We are so sorry Simon. Really. We love you so much." Annie said as she joined Simon and Eric.
"Yeah us too. We're sorry we didn't understand or realise. We'll try and be nice in future and uhh...we'll uhh...try and accept this whole gay thing." Lucy said, speaking not only for herself but also for Matt and Ruthy.
"Yeah, me to Simon. I should of picked up on something. You did drop quite a few hints. Sorry. It's good to have you back though." Robbie said, walking into the room.
Simon sat there crying, taking it all in. "Thanks. I love you guys too. I am so sorry. I made such a mess of everything. If I could turn back time... Sorry." Simon wiped his eyes on his sweater.
"It's OK Simon. It's just so good to have you back. The old you. Just one thing, have you spoken to Morris, or Madison for that matter?" Annie said as she wrapped her arms around him again. They were all standing around him now.
"No, I haven't but I am going to. In fact, I think I'll call them now." Simon said as he reached for the phone and walked toward his room. "I need some privacy."
After he shut the door to his room, he started to call Morris. "Hey, uhh, Morris. It's Simon. Simon Camden. Yeah, yeah, I'm back. Yeah, it's true. I'm uhh...gay. Yeah. You've been good? And Madison? Good. Look, theirs something I have got to speak to you about. Can you come over? I'll see you in 20." Simon hung up. He found out that Morris and Madison had broken up a few weeks ago.
20 minutes later
He heard Morris pull up out the front. He ran out to greet him.
"Hey, I'm glad you came." Simon said as Morris jumped out of the car.
"Yeah, me too. I've got to talk to you as well. But you first."
"I don't know quite how to say this. It's been a while since Halo's death. I loved him you know. But, he's gone, and he's not the only person I love. I like you Morris. I like you a lot." Simon said, shutting his eyes.
Morris remained silent for the next few minutes.
"Please say something."
"I like you to Simon. That's what I came over to tell you. I've liked you for a long time." At that moment, Morris reached forward and brought his lips to Simon's.
"Don't stop." Simon whispered in between breaths. "I love you."
"Simon, I am so sorry for the way that I hurt you. I got with Madison because I thought some how it would bring me closer to you and maybe...I was wrong. I understand about that other guy too. Halo? I know it will take a while for you to get fully over him but, I am willing to wait." Morris said, after removing his lips from a long and passionate kiss.
"It doesn't matter now. And Halo? You're right, I did love him. But, part of me didn't. Part of me wanted you the whole time. I want you now. I love you Morris." Simon leant in and kissed his new partner. He turned his head to see Matt at the window staring down. At first he appeared to be glaring, but then Simon saw his expression change. He was smiling. He was happy for Simon. And for the first time in a year, Simon was happy. He felt alive.
His parents accepted him, Morris loved him, and he accepted himself. He remembered the Christina Aguleria song he had heard one time. "Singing my song". He started singing it in his head.
I woke up this morning with a smile on my face
& Nobody's gonna bring me down today
Been feeling like nothings been going my way lately
So I decided right here and now that my outlooks gotta change
That's why I'm gonna
Say goodbye to all the tears I've cried
For every time somebody hurt my pride
Feeling like they won't let me live life
& Take the time to look at what is mine
I see every lesson completely
I thank God for what I got from above
I believe they can take anything from me
But they can't succeed in taking my inner peace
They can say all they wanna say about me
But I'm gonna carry on
Keep on singing my song
I never wanna dwell on my pain again
There's no use in reliving how I hurt back then
Remembering all of the hell I felt when I was running out of faith
Every step I vowed to take was towards a better day
Cos I'm about to
Say goodbye to every single lie
& All the fears I've held too long inside
Every time I felt I could try
All the negativity I had inside
For too long I've been struggling. I couldn't go on
But now I've found I'm feeling strong and moving on
I believe they can take anything from me
But they can't succeed in taking my inner peace
They can say all they wanna say about me
But I'm gonna carry on
I'm gonna keep on singing my song
Whoa, & every time I tried to be what they wanted from me
It never came naturally
So I ended up in misery, wasn't able to see
All the good around me
They wasted so much energy on what they thought of me
Simply just remembering to breathe
I'm human, I ain't able to please
Everyone at the same time, so now I find
My peace of mind living one day at a time
I'm human and I answer to one god
It comes down to one love
Until I get to heave above
I've made the decision
Never to give up
Til the day I die no matter what
I believe that they can do what they wanna.
Say what they wanna say
But I'm gonna keep on
I believe it
That they can take from me
But they can't take my inner peace
"Yeah, that's right. I'm gonna keep on singing my song." Simon said silently to himself as he leaned into kiss Morris again. He was going to keep on singing his song.
AUTHORS NOTE: Thanks again. THis is a long chapter! Anyway, I hope you like the ending. I might do a prologue one month soon. Tell me what you think. And as always, please review! *tear*. YOU ROCK!
Wisk8r -thanks. You gave me great ideas, and always gave great reviews! Thanks.
Doyles-Always
Black Mirror
Hoedogg
Cry me a river
Spit fire
Goblz
Sara Jaye
Dakota Raine
The Queen
Silver Wolf
Sophronia
Cecilia
Kathrine 1980
Beth
Cal
Mary
KayKayelle (thanks for the tip on 'despair')
Robbie42
GirlSunday
Milkyway4444 (although I think you only read like 3 chapters)
Everyone who gave me ideas like Wisk8r and Milyway4444. YOU ALL ROCK!
And all my other loyal fans who have read this story. THANKYOU. As you can probably tell, this story means alot to me. So, I hope you enjoyed it. And farewell! Oh, and sorry if I forgot anyone on the list.
DISCLAMER: This is a work of fiction. The characters in this story are borrowed from the TV show "7th Heaven". I own no characters except for Halo, Madison and Dr. Welsh. No money is being made from this story. Any resemblance of a character in this story to any real person living or dead is purely coincidental. Likewise, any resemblance between an organisation depicted in this story and any such actual organisation is purely coincidental.
"I'm sorry Simon." Eric said, unable to look his son in the eyes. "It's just...your mother and I..."
"Be careful what you say dad." Matt said, coming down from the stairs. "Think about this."
"We have Matt, we have. You shouldn't have listened in like that though. Nor should you two either." Eric said angrily, looking first at Matt then at Lucy and Ruthy. "Simon, We're sorry, you're mother and I, we didn't understand. We didn't realise. It is going to take us a long time to get to accept this and I am not guaranteeing that we will either. But, we love you. And we're proud of you to admitting all this. We're shocked to say the least, but you're a Camden, and we'll stick by you. Just as long as you obey by our rules and tell us when something is wrong." Eric said, coming over to give Simon a hug.
"We are so sorry Simon. Really. We love you so much." Annie said as she joined Simon and Eric.
"Yeah us too. We're sorry we didn't understand or realise. We'll try and be nice in future and uhh...we'll uhh...try and accept this whole gay thing." Lucy said, speaking not only for herself but also for Matt and Ruthy.
"Yeah, me to Simon. I should of picked up on something. You did drop quite a few hints. Sorry. It's good to have you back though." Robbie said, walking into the room.
Simon sat there crying, taking it all in. "Thanks. I love you guys too. I am so sorry. I made such a mess of everything. If I could turn back time... Sorry." Simon wiped his eyes on his sweater.
"It's OK Simon. It's just so good to have you back. The old you. Just one thing, have you spoken to Morris, or Madison for that matter?" Annie said as she wrapped her arms around him again. They were all standing around him now.
"No, I haven't but I am going to. In fact, I think I'll call them now." Simon said as he reached for the phone and walked toward his room. "I need some privacy."
After he shut the door to his room, he started to call Morris. "Hey, uhh, Morris. It's Simon. Simon Camden. Yeah, yeah, I'm back. Yeah, it's true. I'm uhh...gay. Yeah. You've been good? And Madison? Good. Look, theirs something I have got to speak to you about. Can you come over? I'll see you in 20." Simon hung up. He found out that Morris and Madison had broken up a few weeks ago.
20 minutes later
He heard Morris pull up out the front. He ran out to greet him.
"Hey, I'm glad you came." Simon said as Morris jumped out of the car.
"Yeah, me too. I've got to talk to you as well. But you first."
"I don't know quite how to say this. It's been a while since Halo's death. I loved him you know. But, he's gone, and he's not the only person I love. I like you Morris. I like you a lot." Simon said, shutting his eyes.
Morris remained silent for the next few minutes.
"Please say something."
"I like you to Simon. That's what I came over to tell you. I've liked you for a long time." At that moment, Morris reached forward and brought his lips to Simon's.
"Don't stop." Simon whispered in between breaths. "I love you."
"Simon, I am so sorry for the way that I hurt you. I got with Madison because I thought some how it would bring me closer to you and maybe...I was wrong. I understand about that other guy too. Halo? I know it will take a while for you to get fully over him but, I am willing to wait." Morris said, after removing his lips from a long and passionate kiss.
"It doesn't matter now. And Halo? You're right, I did love him. But, part of me didn't. Part of me wanted you the whole time. I want you now. I love you Morris." Simon leant in and kissed his new partner. He turned his head to see Matt at the window staring down. At first he appeared to be glaring, but then Simon saw his expression change. He was smiling. He was happy for Simon. And for the first time in a year, Simon was happy. He felt alive.
His parents accepted him, Morris loved him, and he accepted himself. He remembered the Christina Aguleria song he had heard one time. "Singing my song". He started singing it in his head.
I woke up this morning with a smile on my face
& Nobody's gonna bring me down today
Been feeling like nothings been going my way lately
So I decided right here and now that my outlooks gotta change
That's why I'm gonna
Say goodbye to all the tears I've cried
For every time somebody hurt my pride
Feeling like they won't let me live life
& Take the time to look at what is mine
I see every lesson completely
I thank God for what I got from above
I believe they can take anything from me
But they can't succeed in taking my inner peace
They can say all they wanna say about me
But I'm gonna carry on
Keep on singing my song
I never wanna dwell on my pain again
There's no use in reliving how I hurt back then
Remembering all of the hell I felt when I was running out of faith
Every step I vowed to take was towards a better day
Cos I'm about to
Say goodbye to every single lie
& All the fears I've held too long inside
Every time I felt I could try
All the negativity I had inside
For too long I've been struggling. I couldn't go on
But now I've found I'm feeling strong and moving on
I believe they can take anything from me
But they can't succeed in taking my inner peace
They can say all they wanna say about me
But I'm gonna carry on
I'm gonna keep on singing my song
Whoa, & every time I tried to be what they wanted from me
It never came naturally
So I ended up in misery, wasn't able to see
All the good around me
They wasted so much energy on what they thought of me
Simply just remembering to breathe
I'm human, I ain't able to please
Everyone at the same time, so now I find
My peace of mind living one day at a time
I'm human and I answer to one god
It comes down to one love
Until I get to heave above
I've made the decision
Never to give up
Til the day I die no matter what
I believe that they can do what they wanna.
Say what they wanna say
But I'm gonna keep on
I believe it
That they can take from me
But they can't take my inner peace
"Yeah, that's right. I'm gonna keep on singing my song." Simon said silently to himself as he leaned into kiss Morris again. He was going to keep on singing his song.
AUTHORS NOTE: Thanks again. THis is a long chapter! Anyway, I hope you like the ending. I might do a prologue one month soon. Tell me what you think. And as always, please review! *tear*. YOU ROCK!