The basic setting is that both Daisuke and Ken are now 16 and they're in high school. Nothing's changed, they're still living in their respective towns of Odaiba and Tamachi.
This fic is the product of a request by a certain someone, who after reading my other fic, "Roommates", wanted a fluff fic to "make both characters happy..." cause Ken still had a bit of unresolved angst at the end. So this is my first fluff fic. (Heh...I guarantee that the angst will come though as I continue the story (like chapter 3 *hehehe*)...so this story gets a rating of PG-13).
The prologue and the first two chapter are special. I intended them to be read separate, but together, so they're double columned to show two points of views on the same page. I may continue to write the whole story in this two person perspective if people want, but people have to tell me. Otherwise, I'm going to write the rest of the fic in normal style. The author's notes are at the bottom, as always. Oh, and I do not own Digimon or any of the characters in it. Suing is not worth the time since I am also broke. Not much else to mention other than that...Enjoy!
Understanding
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Prologue: Two Diaries
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A revelation came to me today. Not about some math problem, but about something equally as puzzling. I always knew that Daisuke was someone special to me, but I never really gave it much thought, until today. It's been five years since we first met in the Digital World, and we've been friends for that long. Hard to believe that so much time has passed and in these five years, I believe I have fallen in love with my best friend. I suppose I should explain how I came to this conclusion.
It was at lunch, when two guys at the next table were talking about their lack of girlfriends. One of them turned to the other and asked how do you know when you're in love. And the other guy said, "Dude, how should I know. I've never had a girlfriend." Needless to say, I found that to be amusing, but at the same time, it was slightly disturbing to me. I suppose males of my age should be thinking about things like girls, but I personally have not. Miyako is about the girl I've ever thought about, and usually it's about how to get away from her constant flirting, now that she's also of that age where she's out for the kill. So I gave it some thought after school. Thinking back on spring break, I realized that I had spent the majority of my time with Daisuke. And the more I thought about it, the more things started to click. That's when I realized that I am without a doubt, in love with Daisuke. Love is a strange thing. Many great writers and thinkers have written about it, and it has been the subject of too many songs throughout the eons. They all seem to say the same thing: the person you love will be someone you worry and care about immensely, and want to be with for the rest of your life. Then, there are all those biological things you feel too, like the quickening of your heart, and other such symptoms, some of which I'm experiencing right now as I'm writing. I wonder if Daisuke could ever feel the same way for me, though. He made it quite clear that he doesn't like guys, and I think, of all the digidestined, he would have the toughest time adjusting if he ever realized the distinct possibility of being gay. Sometimes, I feel like he could possibly like me too, since we've always been very close, but then I remember what he said; how he doesn't think he would ever be able to like a guy like that. I really don't know. I don't think I'm going to tell him how I feel for a very long time. Maybe I should try to warm him up to the idea first, and maybe I'll drop some hints at him. Then again, like I said, he may get scared, and I may end up losing my best friend, and that's the last thing I want. I guess we'll see how it goes. I mean, the school year has only just begun. Maybe I was just hanging around him too much over spring break, and maybe if I don't see him as much, this whole thing will just go away. I can only hope. Ken April 18, 20xx Speaking of love and the arts, I'm not a very creative writer, am I? I think I should write more poetry, and less lab reports and essays. |
You know that funny feeling that you get when you like someone? Well, I had that feeling today for Ken, of all people! I just don't understand it! I mean, I'm straight, damn it! How could this have happened to me? Sure, Ken's my best friend and all, but still, how come I'm feeling like I'm going to die without him? I feel sick. I'm acting like a lovesick puppy right now thinking about Ken. We've known each other for five years, and I've never once thought of him other than as a friend, so why now??
It happened at lunch today. Miyako was going on and on, like she always does at lunch, about Ken and how she was planning all these strategies to finally get him to notice her, but it was weird. I mean, I'm always annoyed at her when she goes on one of these "Ken is soooo cute!" rants, but today, it wasn't that kind of irritation that happens when you've heard something for the 8 bizillionth time. I think it was more of a defensive annoyance...I was thinking something along the lines of how Ken shouldn't be some sort of object...You'd think that after being digidestined for so long that Miyako could at least have learned something about the guy, besides his looks. It's just kind of unsettling...well, anyway, back on topic...so, after lunch, we all went to our afternoon classes, and after that, I came straight home. I just didn't feel like hanging out with everyone after school. That strange feeling never left me, so after I got home, I sat down and tried to take my mind off of things by playing a little bit of Dragon Warrior 11...man, those slimes are so annoying! Why did the programmers put so many random battles in with those stupid things, anyway?...heh...arg...off topic again...gotta stop doing that...maybe I'm trying to avoid the real topic here...Well, needless to say, the game didn't help much, since it just aggravated me some more. I gave up and finally decided to try and figure out what this whole thing was. So there I was, lying on my bed, listening to some music, thinking about Ken. Thinking to myself, "Why did I get defensive about Ken?...I've never been that way before when Miyako was yacking about how cute Ken was." I thought maybe it was because I was against the principle of how she's treating poor Ken, I thought it might have been because she should have other things to talk about other than Ken's looks, like Ken's intelligence, or his kind personality, his soccer playing skills...anything...and then, the more I thought about Ken's qualities, the more I felt like I was admiring him...in that way, like how I was checking out other girls in my grade. Yeah, sure...laugh at how Daisuke, the dummy actually thinks about more than looks...well, I do...people think I'm stupid and shallow, but they don't know how picky I really am when it comes to important things. And then, before I knew it, I was stuck for the rest of the day feeling like this. This has to be a fluke. I must have just been thinking about Ken too much today, that's all. Besides, Ken's not like that. Even if, gods forbid this, I really do genuinely like him, I don't think Ken would like me back. In fact, he'd probably hate me and stop being my friend. The last thing in the world I'd want is to lose him as my friend. So now, I guess I have to go to bed and hope that when I wake up, this was all just a bad dream. I really think that this was just a weird day. I mean, come on, I can't be like that, can I?... Daisuke April 18, 20xx I've got to stop straying off topic. These entries would be so much shorter if I actually kept on topic. |
Notes:
Daisuke, Master of Denial ^_^ (From episode where Daisuke gets the Digimental of Friendship...super denial of his problems...)
Ken, Master of Emotional Problems...
-Dairy entries: Ken's is more or less grammatically correct...Daisuke's on the other hand, leaves something to be desired. I figure that he's not one for structure or grammar, especially when he's trying to get everything out on paper.
-Ken mentions that he had spend most of his spring break with Daisuke. The reason for that is explained below in my notes for chapter 1. It has to do with the Japanese school system.
-Daisuke's mention of Dragon Warrior XI (the rival of Final Fantasy) doesn't exist yet...I'm just guessing that by the time they're in high school, as long as it doesn't take Enix four years to make each sequel like it did with Dragon Warrior VII, it should exist...and those slimes are back ^_^ as constant as chocobos in Final Fantasy...
-Daisuke plays RPGs, but why Dragon Warrior (even though I'm an avid fan of Final Fantasy)? Because in the episode where Jun has an acne on her face, you see Daisuke playing some sort of RPG (which I am almost sure is Dragon Warrior VII now since I've seen what the layout for VII looks like) with a slime as an enemy, along with something else that i'm not sure what it is...