Fatal Decision
Last Day of Summer:
Tomorrow is the first day of school. Tomorrow morning I'll climb into my shell. And shut everything out. When I was young I use to pick on weaker kids just to prove to myself that I'm stronger and I can handle all those situations. But not anymore. I don't find it fun anymore and most importanly I don't have the energy to do it anymore. I heard others say that everyone has someone that is the holder of the key to their heart. When the person with the right key comes along then your heart will open up and be protected by the holder of the key. I...don't believe it anymore. It's been too long since I've felt that someone that's able to protect my heart. Or maybe there are lots of people trying to help me but it's just me shutting them out.
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School...what will I wear? Isn't that what everyone is thinking about right now? Well I'm not like everyone, but I'm trying to concentrate on what "normal" people would think about. It's too hard... O well at least I tried. With the same hope as each and every other years I's ready to face the changes others are going to throw my way. And most of all dealing with my brother. But to think about it I'm not ready. I'll never be ready and when I can't handle it anymore maybe I'll just go take a nap, to hide in my dreams from the world. A long nap...maybe i'll never wake up again and stay in my wonderous dreams.
To be continued...