Chapter: 1
Spoilers: Begins in the last scene from intervention and becomes AU after that.
Rating: R to be on the safe side.
Disclaimer: Everything belongs to Joss, UPN, ME...everyone but me really.
Feedback: Thanks for the reviews. I didn't expect to get any so soon.
It was early in the morning when Buffy decided to get up. She hadn't gotten much sleep the night before, because she had been thinking about what had happened with Spike.
She couldn't believe that a soulless vampire had withstood hours of torture just to keep her sister safe. She wasn't sure how she felt about it. He had been her enemy for four years. It went against everything she believed about vampires.
He had told her he loved her. She hadn't believed him at first. She was too disgusted at the idea that Spike wanted her. And then he had tried to prove it to her by killing Drusilla for her. His sire. The love of his unlife for over a century. She had started to believe him then, even though she hadn't said anything at the time. She had turned him down harshly. She felt kind of bad now, for what she said.
Spike loved her. She believed that now. It wasn't just an obsession, like she had told herself before. What he did for her and Dawn had proven that.
'I can't believe I kissed him,' she thought to herself. She told herself that it was just to say thank you, but it had felt like more. She knew that Dawn had a crush on him, and she was just beginning to see what Dawn saw in him. She was starting to fall for him herself.
"Argh," Buffy yelled suddenly. " I have to stop thinking about Spike."
Just then there was a knock on the door. "Buffy, are you ok?" Dawn called.
Buffy looked up surprised. She hadn't expected Dawn to be up so early. "Yeah," she called back.
Dawn opened the door and peeked inside. "You sure? I heard you yell." She came in and sat on the bed. "You look tired."
"Yeah, I didn't get much sleep," Buffy said.
"Thinking about Spike?" Dawn asked.
"No!" Buffy said a little to quickly and loudly.
"Come on, Buffy. You've never been a good liar."
Buffy sighed. "Yeah, I was thinking about him," she said quietly.
"About what he did?"
"Yeah," Buffy answered. "I still can't believe he did that."
"Come on, you have to know he loves you. I've known for ages. You just have to look at the way he looks at you to see that he's totally in love with you."
"I thought you hated him now," Buffy said.
"Well, he tied you up and Drusilla nearly killed you. But I never really hated him. He's always been so nice to me."
"He's a vampire, Dawn. Vampires aren't nice," Buffy said.
"How can you say that after everything Spike has done," Dawn said getting angry at Buffy's stubbornness. "Why do you always have to see everything in black and white?"
"Spike is a killer, Dawn," Buffy said getting annoyed.
"So was Angel, but that didn't stop you from loving him," Dawn argued back.
"Angel has a soul. He cares about what he did. Spike doesn't. He doesn't have a soul. He's a killer and it doesn't matter if I love him. I can't be with him"
"Love?" Dawn said in surprise.
"What?"
"You said you love him!"
"No I didn't," Buffy said quickly.
"Yes, you did!" Dawn said excitedly. "Have you told him?"
"No! Please Dawn, can we just drop this?"
"Fine! Whatever," Dawn said, giving in. "You want breakfast?"
"Yeah. What are you doing up so early anyways," Buffy asked.
"Well, I heard you yell, and I was up anyway."
"Sorry about that," Buffy said sheepishly.
"Don't worry about it. So, you want breakfast?"
"Sure," Buffy said getting up.
***
Buffy was walking through the cemetery looking for any vampires or demons to kill. It was a slow night and Buffy was getting bored.
She suddenly realized that she was in Spike's graveyard. She had seen him a couple of times since that night. She had asked him if he wanted to patrol with her a few times. They hadn't said anything about what happened, and Buffy preferred it that way for now. She was still really uncomfortable around him, and she was scared of the feelings she had for him.
As she stood in front of the door she wondered of she should knock. Why ignore tradition, she thought , so she pushed the door open and walked in.
The crypt was dark, but Buffy could see Spike sitting in his chair.
'Don't let him get to you,' Buffy thought to herself as she stared at him. 'He isn't even attractive...yes he is! Look at him, why didn't you see it before!'
It looked like he was asleep, but as Buffy watched, he opened his eyes and looked at her.
"Buffy."
"I was just...I wanted to see what you were doing tonight," Buffy said nervously. She didn't know why she was nervous. She had never been nervous with Spike before.
"Nothing," Spike said.
"Okay. You wanna patrol?"
"Sure," Spike answered, getting up.
They walked silently through the cemetery, looking for any signs of evil. Buffy was trying not to think about Spike, but as she glanced sideways at him a few times she couldn't help it. She couldn't believe that she had never really noticed how hot he was.
Spike noticed her staring at him. He stopped walking and stood in front of her. "Have I got something on my face?" he asked, interrupting Buffy's fantasy.
"What?" Buffy asked.
"You were staring at me."
"No I wasn't," Buffy said indignantly.
"Yes, you were."
"Fine, okay, I was."
"Why?"
"I was just-"
Just then a group of vampires ran out of the trees and straight at them.
"Duty calls," Buffy said, as she prepared to fight.
After a few minutes of punching and kicking all but one vampire was dusted. The vampire looked at the pair fearfully, noticing that he was the only one left and he didn't stand a chance. He took off running before they had a chance to stake him.
"Great," Buffy said annoyed. "Just great."
"What's your problem?" Spike asked.
"You, Spike. You're my problem. He was right there. You could have staked him easily."
"Oh, come on, Buffy. It was just one vampire."
"Yeah, one vampire that's probably killing someone right now," Buffy said heatedly.
"You know as well as I do he's probably too scared to do anything, knowing that the Slayer is out tonight," Spike argued back.
Buffy knew that he was probably right. She didn't know why she was making such a big deal out of it.
"Fine. Whatever. Just go home."
"Fine," Spike said angrily. He started to walk off, but turned back around. "You know, I don't know why you act like this," he said walking back up to her. "One minute you want to patrol, the next you want me to go home. Why can't you just make up your mind for one and..."
"Spike, shut it," Buffy said suddenly, interrupting his tirade.
"What?"
"You heard me."
"Fine, you know what. I've had enough. I'm-" Spike started, but he never finished.
Buffy reached up and pressed her lips firmly to his. Spike stood there shocked for a second, but it didn't take him long to return the kiss. Buffy wrapped her arms around Spike's neck and pulled him closer. She let out a moan as Spike pulled her roughly against him.
Buffy pulled back from him as suddenly as if she'd been shocked. She covered her mouth in surprise. She couldn't believe she had kissed him...and enjoyed it. She wasn't supposed to like kissing Spike. He was a vampire.
"I have to go," she said backing away.
"Buffy..." Spike said exasperated.
"Don't! I have to go." She ran off.
Spike stood there, watching her run off. He sighed in irritation. "She's driving me crazy," he said as he walked back to his crypt.
Spoilers: Begins in the last scene from intervention and becomes AU after that.
Rating: R to be on the safe side.
Disclaimer: Everything belongs to Joss, UPN, ME...everyone but me really.
Feedback: Thanks for the reviews. I didn't expect to get any so soon.
It was early in the morning when Buffy decided to get up. She hadn't gotten much sleep the night before, because she had been thinking about what had happened with Spike.
She couldn't believe that a soulless vampire had withstood hours of torture just to keep her sister safe. She wasn't sure how she felt about it. He had been her enemy for four years. It went against everything she believed about vampires.
He had told her he loved her. She hadn't believed him at first. She was too disgusted at the idea that Spike wanted her. And then he had tried to prove it to her by killing Drusilla for her. His sire. The love of his unlife for over a century. She had started to believe him then, even though she hadn't said anything at the time. She had turned him down harshly. She felt kind of bad now, for what she said.
Spike loved her. She believed that now. It wasn't just an obsession, like she had told herself before. What he did for her and Dawn had proven that.
'I can't believe I kissed him,' she thought to herself. She told herself that it was just to say thank you, but it had felt like more. She knew that Dawn had a crush on him, and she was just beginning to see what Dawn saw in him. She was starting to fall for him herself.
"Argh," Buffy yelled suddenly. " I have to stop thinking about Spike."
Just then there was a knock on the door. "Buffy, are you ok?" Dawn called.
Buffy looked up surprised. She hadn't expected Dawn to be up so early. "Yeah," she called back.
Dawn opened the door and peeked inside. "You sure? I heard you yell." She came in and sat on the bed. "You look tired."
"Yeah, I didn't get much sleep," Buffy said.
"Thinking about Spike?" Dawn asked.
"No!" Buffy said a little to quickly and loudly.
"Come on, Buffy. You've never been a good liar."
Buffy sighed. "Yeah, I was thinking about him," she said quietly.
"About what he did?"
"Yeah," Buffy answered. "I still can't believe he did that."
"Come on, you have to know he loves you. I've known for ages. You just have to look at the way he looks at you to see that he's totally in love with you."
"I thought you hated him now," Buffy said.
"Well, he tied you up and Drusilla nearly killed you. But I never really hated him. He's always been so nice to me."
"He's a vampire, Dawn. Vampires aren't nice," Buffy said.
"How can you say that after everything Spike has done," Dawn said getting angry at Buffy's stubbornness. "Why do you always have to see everything in black and white?"
"Spike is a killer, Dawn," Buffy said getting annoyed.
"So was Angel, but that didn't stop you from loving him," Dawn argued back.
"Angel has a soul. He cares about what he did. Spike doesn't. He doesn't have a soul. He's a killer and it doesn't matter if I love him. I can't be with him"
"Love?" Dawn said in surprise.
"What?"
"You said you love him!"
"No I didn't," Buffy said quickly.
"Yes, you did!" Dawn said excitedly. "Have you told him?"
"No! Please Dawn, can we just drop this?"
"Fine! Whatever," Dawn said, giving in. "You want breakfast?"
"Yeah. What are you doing up so early anyways," Buffy asked.
"Well, I heard you yell, and I was up anyway."
"Sorry about that," Buffy said sheepishly.
"Don't worry about it. So, you want breakfast?"
"Sure," Buffy said getting up.
***
Buffy was walking through the cemetery looking for any vampires or demons to kill. It was a slow night and Buffy was getting bored.
She suddenly realized that she was in Spike's graveyard. She had seen him a couple of times since that night. She had asked him if he wanted to patrol with her a few times. They hadn't said anything about what happened, and Buffy preferred it that way for now. She was still really uncomfortable around him, and she was scared of the feelings she had for him.
As she stood in front of the door she wondered of she should knock. Why ignore tradition, she thought , so she pushed the door open and walked in.
The crypt was dark, but Buffy could see Spike sitting in his chair.
'Don't let him get to you,' Buffy thought to herself as she stared at him. 'He isn't even attractive...yes he is! Look at him, why didn't you see it before!'
It looked like he was asleep, but as Buffy watched, he opened his eyes and looked at her.
"Buffy."
"I was just...I wanted to see what you were doing tonight," Buffy said nervously. She didn't know why she was nervous. She had never been nervous with Spike before.
"Nothing," Spike said.
"Okay. You wanna patrol?"
"Sure," Spike answered, getting up.
They walked silently through the cemetery, looking for any signs of evil. Buffy was trying not to think about Spike, but as she glanced sideways at him a few times she couldn't help it. She couldn't believe that she had never really noticed how hot he was.
Spike noticed her staring at him. He stopped walking and stood in front of her. "Have I got something on my face?" he asked, interrupting Buffy's fantasy.
"What?" Buffy asked.
"You were staring at me."
"No I wasn't," Buffy said indignantly.
"Yes, you were."
"Fine, okay, I was."
"Why?"
"I was just-"
Just then a group of vampires ran out of the trees and straight at them.
"Duty calls," Buffy said, as she prepared to fight.
After a few minutes of punching and kicking all but one vampire was dusted. The vampire looked at the pair fearfully, noticing that he was the only one left and he didn't stand a chance. He took off running before they had a chance to stake him.
"Great," Buffy said annoyed. "Just great."
"What's your problem?" Spike asked.
"You, Spike. You're my problem. He was right there. You could have staked him easily."
"Oh, come on, Buffy. It was just one vampire."
"Yeah, one vampire that's probably killing someone right now," Buffy said heatedly.
"You know as well as I do he's probably too scared to do anything, knowing that the Slayer is out tonight," Spike argued back.
Buffy knew that he was probably right. She didn't know why she was making such a big deal out of it.
"Fine. Whatever. Just go home."
"Fine," Spike said angrily. He started to walk off, but turned back around. "You know, I don't know why you act like this," he said walking back up to her. "One minute you want to patrol, the next you want me to go home. Why can't you just make up your mind for one and..."
"Spike, shut it," Buffy said suddenly, interrupting his tirade.
"What?"
"You heard me."
"Fine, you know what. I've had enough. I'm-" Spike started, but he never finished.
Buffy reached up and pressed her lips firmly to his. Spike stood there shocked for a second, but it didn't take him long to return the kiss. Buffy wrapped her arms around Spike's neck and pulled him closer. She let out a moan as Spike pulled her roughly against him.
Buffy pulled back from him as suddenly as if she'd been shocked. She covered her mouth in surprise. She couldn't believe she had kissed him...and enjoyed it. She wasn't supposed to like kissing Spike. He was a vampire.
"I have to go," she said backing away.
"Buffy..." Spike said exasperated.
"Don't! I have to go." She ran off.
Spike stood there, watching her run off. He sighed in irritation. "She's driving me crazy," he said as he walked back to his crypt.