Title: Nothing Left of Me...
Author: the weeping willow
Chapter: 5- "You Know I've Been Through Hell"
Rating: PG-13 for implied nudity, sex, female homosexuality (not really noteworthy since this is Willow and Tara, but I'm putting it anyways), violence, etc.
Spoilers: Up until the end of season 6 (and possibly a bit from the beginning of season 7 later...)
Setting: Summer between seasons 6 and 7.
Disclaimer: I do not own Buffy or any related items. Joss Whedon and Mutant Enemy do.
Description: Willow writes letters to her (deceased) girlfriend Tara, to try and overcome her grief; at Gile's suggestion.
Distribution: Not without asking. I'd prefer you link back to this please, or get my permission first.
Contact: queenofthebandgeeks@hotmail.com
Author's Notes: Just another chapter. :)

Nothing Left of Me...

letter five:
June 28, 2002


Tara,

I've been wondering... Have you met this woman named Jenny Calender? She was our computer teacher back in high school, all the way through junior year. She is- was - into the supernatural too. Almost a witch, but not quite. Her term was Techopagan. I've actually met a few of them myself online- they're nice people, really.

Everybody loved her. Giles and Jenny were going out, before... before she died. Angelus killed her. Remember how we talked about Angel turning evil? That was what I meant.

I'm asking because Giles talked to me today, about how he lost Jenny. When he learned what Angel had done, he went and burned down the factory he and Spike and Drusilla had been living in. Almost got killed himself. Love makes you do the wacky, remember? I think Giles was trying to get me to let go. I'm still having that dream. I haven't had a full night's sleep for days. Neither has Giles. He refuses to sleep while I lie awake. So instead he's trying to counsel me.

It was the first time I'd seen him cry. It scared me, because deep down inside he's just as fragile as the rest of us. Just as weak. He's supposed to be the father figure, you know? He's supposed to be strong and brave and smart. When things go wrong, he's supposed to make them all better.

But that's not how the world works. And Giles is the same as me and you. Only he's a guy, and we're girls. And you're dead. But my point is, the walls came crashing down and they can't be rebuilt. We can't be saved from the big bad world. And I hate it.

Willow