Chapter 5: Longing, raging anger and steely determination . . .

It was finally Monday. The Gryffindor 5th years never had a longer weekend. Their unbearable workload was really getting to them and this also meant that Harry, Ron and Hermione had had no time to discuss about Nina.

Breakfast was just finishing (Harry and Nina were eating again). Harry was lost in thought. Was he right by thinking that Nina had the same reason as him to feel a longing, a rage and determination? Suddenly, Dumbledore stood up and the chatter died down.

" I have received news from the Ministry of Magic that they wish to close down Hogwarts as they believe that all of you will be safer at your own houses. However, the truth is that no place is really safe anymore. Voldemort is striking everywhere. I understand full well if any one of you wishes to head back home to your family. But I would encourage all of you to stay here even for the Christmas holidays as Hogwarts is probably the safest place for all of you. I have assured the Ministry of Magic that all of you will be fine here. Do understand that I am not forcing any of you to stay." He paused.

There was just one thought in Harry's mind. Longing, anger, hatred and determination . . .it all came down to Voldemort . . .it was all because of Voldemort. Dumbledore was speaking again.

" I know that many of your families may have suffered or are suffering in the hands Lord Voldemort. But we must be strong. We must stand united. Only then will we be able to overcome him."

As Dumbledore spoke, Harry looked over at Nina. Her reaction proved that his assumption was right. Nina's face was as white as a sheet. Her right hand was gripping her goblet and in her left hand was a squashed breakfast bun. Her knuckles had turned white too. Her hands were shaking. Now he knew why she had looked troubled when he woke clutching his scar in divination. She knew he was dreaming about Voldemort.

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Nina was shaking. She did not care about her breakfast bun, which was now a squashed pulp. She was dimly aware of people getting up and moving off. Why did Dumbledore have to talk about it? Why now? Why did he have to bring back the memories? She felt like crying, but she didn't. She didn't want people to think she was dorkier than the dork they already knew her to be. Suddenly, she felt a cool hand shake her shoulder.

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Harry took Nina's shoulder and shook it. She turned.

" Are you all right Nina?"

"Yea . . . I think I was just a bit carried away."

" It was because of him wasn't it? Tell me Nina. It's Voldemort isn't it?" Harry queried her.

Nina's mouth dropped open. "H . . . how did you know? Well . . . yes it is Lord Voldemort."

Ron flinched and Hermione and Harry looked surprised. " What did I say?" Nina asked them.

" You said you-know-who's name!" Ron looked rather shaken.

"Oh that . . . I don't fear saying his name."

" Anyway Nina, you are going tell us all about it." Harry ordered. " All about what?" Nina looked confused. " The Dark Lord Nina. You are going to tell us what he did to you."

" But . . . I . . . I can't . . ."

"Nina please! How long will you stay like this? Open up a bit! You can trust us! Nina, I know how it is to face Voldemort. You have been trying to tell me this for quite some time but you didn't want to tell it in front if Ron and Hermione did you? Trust people, Nina. Please . . . it will help you to relieve some stress if you told us . . ." Harry chided her.

"All right, I trust you all. But I can't tell you now. Later in the evening, ok?" Nina finally gave in. Just as she was getting up, she smiled, " Thanks, for revealing to me trust and friendship."

What will Nina tell Harry, Ron and Hermione?

Will Nina become more outgoing now?

Find out in future chapters.

R&R. thanx