Disclaimer: *sighs and shakes her head* Look, I don't own it , okay?!?!
I'll NEVER own it! EVER! In my whole life, I can only dream of owning FF7.
*turns away and sobs*
Author's Notes: *continues to sob* No one loves me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *whines, moans, and rants* Where was everyone? Was the last chapter that bad, that I got ZERO reviews for it?? You people are cruel! It's making me update less and less. *sighs* If you'd all just review I wouldn't feel so darn lazy, and I'd write quicker!! Review! REVIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean, you guys can all do it, right? If you see one of my chapters got no reviews, don't you think 'Aww, gee. She's really pathetic. She's always whining and moaning about this. It's so annoying. I wish she'd stop.' Well, here's your chance to make it stop!!!!! Put two and two together, people! Sheesh, you'd think I was dealing with amateurs, instead of the highly qualified fanfiction readers you guys all are! *looks around to see if anyone caught her obvious attempt at sucking up for reviews* ... *sweatdrops as several readers shake their heads and walk away* WAIT!! Don't leave without even reading it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Enjoy!! ^_^
(This AN was written on Friday, when I still had no reviews. Does it really take two to three days after I publish a chapter to get any reviews? If you guys want I can start a mini-mailing list like Sorcerer Aeris suggested, and I'll send out an e-mail when I update. If you want to be included in this, just e-mail me and let me know!! Check my author's page for my e-mail address and random ranting. Thanks a lot!)
Chapter 32:
An Hour or Two Each Day
He was acting strange. Well, stranger than normal. He was always acting a little bit strange, after all.
Sometimes, when she was talking with him, he would suddenly stop speaking. It was almost as if he was listening to someone else speak. The first time it had happened she had shrugged it off, but when it continued she felt uneasy. Was he just being weird? Or was he really listening to something that no one else could hear? When he told her that he understood about hearing voices no one else could, she thought he was just being comforting. Was there something more to it that she had not even realized?
She sighed, and watched him. There was a barrier around him. There was something there that made it almost impossible for her to get close to him. It was hard understanding his thoughts, and his actions, when that barrier kept getting in the way. And it hurt. It hurt a lot, knowing that he still didn't trust her enough to take down the barrier. When would he finally trust her?
"Aeris."
The sound of her name jolted her out of her own thoughts. She looked at Sephiroth, surprised that he had started a conversation. It wasn't often that he would willingly talk to her, and she was eager for every opportunity that she got.
"Yeah?"
Sephiroth continued staring straight ahead, and she couldn't help but wonder why. "Tomorrow is the first day of training."
Aeris lowered her eyes to the ground. "Yeah..."
"I won't be around much anymore."
"I know."
"Zack and I will only be in school for an hour or two each day."
Aeris nodded. She knew all of this, and was trying not to think about it. Why would he bring it up?
"If you..." Sephiroth stopped, unsure of how to continue. He knew what he wanted to say, but it was hard. "If you ever need any help, I might not be around."
Aeris blinked. "Huh?"
He kept his gaze centered on the air in front of him. "What I mean is, it might be better for you to start finding someone else to talk to in class. Besides me and Zack."
"I have Lily, and-"
"That's... not what I meant."
She looked over at him, and stared at him. "Well, what did you mean?"
Sephiroth sighed. "You can't always talk to Lily about problems in your life. So much of it is too hard for her to grasp. Try to find someone else who will understand."
"But, won't you still be around?"
"Yes."
"Then, can't I just talk to you?"
"I won't always be there. It's not fair for you to wait until I see you to talk to someone. You need to find someone else who understands what you're going through."
"But-"
Sephiroth looked up at her, and she saw with no little surprise the anger in his eyes. "But what? But you can't make any new friends? You can and you know it. But you don't feel comfortable talking to other people? You felt comfortable talking to me, and I'm probably the least-comforting person in the world. But you feel bad about not talking to me? I lived without people to talk to for a while, and it's not like we'll never speak again. But you're scared that this new person will think you're a freak? No one would ever think that about you, Aeris. But you don't want to talk to anyone else? Well, everyone has to do things they don't like doing in life."
Aeris placed her hand on his shoulder. He stopped, and his gaze softened.
"Seph."
"Yes?"
"That's not what I was going to say."
He waited for her to continue, and after a minute, she did.
"I was going to say, but you're the only one who understands."
"Aeris-"
She got up abruptly, and opened the door. Facing the doorway, she replied, "I know you think I'm a weak little girl. I know that. I know I'm not as strong as you are, or as smart. But, don't stop our friendship before it even begins. Don't do that. It'll hurt too much."
Was that the way she really felt? Both of them wondered the same thing. If he left her alone, would she be hurt, or would she move on?
He walked up to her, stopping beside her. "I'm not stopping anything." Then, he walked past her and out the door, closing it swiftly behind him.
P.S.- Kyris, your story looks really interesting, I only read the beginning though. I will finish it and review when I get a chance. Also, you're right. I doubt this story will end within another fifty plus chapters. And, I must finish it, even if I update only once a week, although I'd like to update once a day. But, hey, real life must be taken care of sooner or later, ne??
SSFH, heeheehee... don't hate me. I really will get around to finishing your GW story!! Just, not anytime soon... *cries as huge Gundam looms in front of her, weapons out and pointed down at AT* AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please don't kill me!!!!!
Author's Notes: *continues to sob* No one loves me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *whines, moans, and rants* Where was everyone? Was the last chapter that bad, that I got ZERO reviews for it?? You people are cruel! It's making me update less and less. *sighs* If you'd all just review I wouldn't feel so darn lazy, and I'd write quicker!! Review! REVIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean, you guys can all do it, right? If you see one of my chapters got no reviews, don't you think 'Aww, gee. She's really pathetic. She's always whining and moaning about this. It's so annoying. I wish she'd stop.' Well, here's your chance to make it stop!!!!! Put two and two together, people! Sheesh, you'd think I was dealing with amateurs, instead of the highly qualified fanfiction readers you guys all are! *looks around to see if anyone caught her obvious attempt at sucking up for reviews* ... *sweatdrops as several readers shake their heads and walk away* WAIT!! Don't leave without even reading it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Enjoy!! ^_^
(This AN was written on Friday, when I still had no reviews. Does it really take two to three days after I publish a chapter to get any reviews? If you guys want I can start a mini-mailing list like Sorcerer Aeris suggested, and I'll send out an e-mail when I update. If you want to be included in this, just e-mail me and let me know!! Check my author's page for my e-mail address and random ranting. Thanks a lot!)
Chapter 32:
An Hour or Two Each Day
He was acting strange. Well, stranger than normal. He was always acting a little bit strange, after all.
Sometimes, when she was talking with him, he would suddenly stop speaking. It was almost as if he was listening to someone else speak. The first time it had happened she had shrugged it off, but when it continued she felt uneasy. Was he just being weird? Or was he really listening to something that no one else could hear? When he told her that he understood about hearing voices no one else could, she thought he was just being comforting. Was there something more to it that she had not even realized?
She sighed, and watched him. There was a barrier around him. There was something there that made it almost impossible for her to get close to him. It was hard understanding his thoughts, and his actions, when that barrier kept getting in the way. And it hurt. It hurt a lot, knowing that he still didn't trust her enough to take down the barrier. When would he finally trust her?
"Aeris."
The sound of her name jolted her out of her own thoughts. She looked at Sephiroth, surprised that he had started a conversation. It wasn't often that he would willingly talk to her, and she was eager for every opportunity that she got.
"Yeah?"
Sephiroth continued staring straight ahead, and she couldn't help but wonder why. "Tomorrow is the first day of training."
Aeris lowered her eyes to the ground. "Yeah..."
"I won't be around much anymore."
"I know."
"Zack and I will only be in school for an hour or two each day."
Aeris nodded. She knew all of this, and was trying not to think about it. Why would he bring it up?
"If you..." Sephiroth stopped, unsure of how to continue. He knew what he wanted to say, but it was hard. "If you ever need any help, I might not be around."
Aeris blinked. "Huh?"
He kept his gaze centered on the air in front of him. "What I mean is, it might be better for you to start finding someone else to talk to in class. Besides me and Zack."
"I have Lily, and-"
"That's... not what I meant."
She looked over at him, and stared at him. "Well, what did you mean?"
Sephiroth sighed. "You can't always talk to Lily about problems in your life. So much of it is too hard for her to grasp. Try to find someone else who will understand."
"But, won't you still be around?"
"Yes."
"Then, can't I just talk to you?"
"I won't always be there. It's not fair for you to wait until I see you to talk to someone. You need to find someone else who understands what you're going through."
"But-"
Sephiroth looked up at her, and she saw with no little surprise the anger in his eyes. "But what? But you can't make any new friends? You can and you know it. But you don't feel comfortable talking to other people? You felt comfortable talking to me, and I'm probably the least-comforting person in the world. But you feel bad about not talking to me? I lived without people to talk to for a while, and it's not like we'll never speak again. But you're scared that this new person will think you're a freak? No one would ever think that about you, Aeris. But you don't want to talk to anyone else? Well, everyone has to do things they don't like doing in life."
Aeris placed her hand on his shoulder. He stopped, and his gaze softened.
"Seph."
"Yes?"
"That's not what I was going to say."
He waited for her to continue, and after a minute, she did.
"I was going to say, but you're the only one who understands."
"Aeris-"
She got up abruptly, and opened the door. Facing the doorway, she replied, "I know you think I'm a weak little girl. I know that. I know I'm not as strong as you are, or as smart. But, don't stop our friendship before it even begins. Don't do that. It'll hurt too much."
Was that the way she really felt? Both of them wondered the same thing. If he left her alone, would she be hurt, or would she move on?
He walked up to her, stopping beside her. "I'm not stopping anything." Then, he walked past her and out the door, closing it swiftly behind him.
P.S.- Kyris, your story looks really interesting, I only read the beginning though. I will finish it and review when I get a chance. Also, you're right. I doubt this story will end within another fifty plus chapters. And, I must finish it, even if I update only once a week, although I'd like to update once a day. But, hey, real life must be taken care of sooner or later, ne??
SSFH, heeheehee... don't hate me. I really will get around to finishing your GW story!! Just, not anytime soon... *cries as huge Gundam looms in front of her, weapons out and pointed down at AT* AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please don't kill me!!!!!