Title: Only Human
Author: Amaroqwolf82
Synopsis: Jeff closest friend remembers him, and wonder is he really gone.
(Features Jeff Hardy, Matt hardy, The Hurricane, Chris Jericho, and Shannon
Moore. (Discusses suicide and violence to a Character.)
Rating R for Violence and discussion of suicide.
Authors Notes: Again, thank you to those answering my questions about
depression and all. I've been depressed but I haven't been on medication
for it in years. So I had to find out what the latest shit it. And as
always ** Indicate Thoughts!
Authors Dedications: To Quricket, my Friend from home. And to Barbara
always know who you are, and as always, to my three B's!
*I've been watching him now for closing in on three weeks. He's been quite loosing weight. It's not good for him to be like this. Our boss and his family begged me to watch him to make sure he didn't try to follow his brother into that darkness that had claimed him so long ago. He's my best friend and I worry about what he might try to do to himself. So, I won't leave his side and I'll continue to keep an eye on him. Sometimes I catch him up in his brother's room looking at things. He'll turn and look at me and say with hope in his eyes. "He isn't dead can feel it." That scares me. It scares me so much to know that he continues thinking just because they never found the body that he isn't dead. No one even He couldn't have survived that fall. After all he is only human*
Shannon Moore looked up from where he was writing in the notebook to see Matt standing there looking at him with an odd look on his face. "Hey," he said.
Matt smiled slightly. "Jeff used to do that." He said.
Shannon looked confused. "Used to do what?" He asked.
"Write in notebooks." Matt responded smiling fondly as he thought of his younger brother.
Shannon nodded remembering that the younger Hardy had always been writing. He wasn't like your typical wrestler. He couldn't even bring himself to speak about Jeff just yet he could still see the hurt in his friends face when he mentioned Jeff by name.
"You want something to eat Matt?" Shannon asked hoping to get his friend to eat.
Matt looked at Shannon silently for a minute he must have seen the hope on his face or something because he nodded his ascension.
Shannon smiled and stood up and started making some sandwiches.
** Its been so cold here this last week or so, he's secluded himself upstairs in his room. I guess that's okay; at least he's eating now. I've taken to going for short walks in the afternoon while he's sleeping. It's just been a reprieve to get away from those emotions whirling around the house. Depression was the major one. I'm usually a happy person, I miss Jeff hell, I honestly can't believe Jeff did that, but I don't cling to memories of dead people. Its just not who I am. **
Shannon was walking silently about the property; he found his feet on a path that led up into the woods behind the house and to a ravine. He knew were he was and it bugged him a little. He stepped out of the trees into the small clearing where the deck sat and froze. There standing at the railing was a man. He couldn't see much because the Man was wearing a hooded shit.
"Hello?" Shannon said nervously.
The man seemed to Stiffen and then he slowly turned around. Shannon squinted he still couldn't see the mans face. "Who are you?" He asked.
The man looked around he seemed almost nervous. He then slowly pushed back the hood on his sweatshirt revealing his face. Shannon stared in shock his mouth hanging open. His mouth opened and shut rapidly like a fish out of water.
"J-- J Jeff?" He finally stammered out.
Jeff smiled nervously. "Hi Shannon."
"Are you a ghost?" Shannon blurted out ready to run if the specter he was seeing was indeed a ghost.
"No," Jeff shook his head. "I'm very much alive, a little cold but Alive."
"What, happened?" Shannon said.
" I went wandering thought about some stuff." Jeff said silently looking down at his feet.
Shannon blinked. "You you've been alive all this time?" He stammered.
Jeff nodded. "Yeah, how's Matt?" He asked.
Shannon didn't know weather to Hug Jeff or to punch him. "He's been horrible sense you, well sense you pretended to die!" He nearly screamed.
Jeff bit his lip nervously and sighed softly. "I'm sorry," He whispered looking down. " I didn't mean to hurt anyone."
"WELL YOU DID!" Shannon snapped stepping towards Jeff he still sure what he was gonna do. And by the way Jeff was looking it didn't look like the younger Hardy was gonna stop him. Shannon hugged him tightly. "I can't believe it! Its like to good to be true!"
Jeff smiled and hugged Shannon back gently. "Yeah, I planned this after that first attempt, I knew I needed to get away and clear my head of all this stuff."
Shannon nodded in understanding. "Come on lets get you down to the house, Matt will be ecstatic to see you!"
Jeff didn't resist the tugging on his wrist he just followed Shannon down to the house. He knew Matt would be pissed, but he was hoping the happiness at him still being alive would make that a little less.
Shannon dragged Jeff into the house and told him to sit down then vanished upstairs. Several silent minutes passed and then Matt appeared in the doorway his eyes were wide in shock. "I knew you weren't dead!" He said softly.
Jeff smiled nervously. "Yeah, I uh just needed some time to myself that you guys wouldn't give me." He whispered softly. "Ya think Vince will give me my job back?"
Matt laughed and walked over and hugged his brother. "Even if he don't it don't matter your back!" He said hugging him tightly. "You're alive and not dead!"
The end.
A/N: I suck can't even give an unhappy ending I just can't do it. Maybe someday, eventually. But I can't yet. Dose this fic suck or what now? (Sighs)
And too my Reviewers:
Jade and Lexi: Thanks you make me feel so great, I'm glad that my fic moved you to the point of tears. Yay, I mean I don't condone all this but I've just been in a weird mood lately.
Babs: YAY another crier.(giggles) I'm glad you liked it.
Cari: I'm posting your thanks Personally, Thanks Cari you make me feel so great saying you liked this fic. And the Review was awesome. It made me feel like I could go on writing. I guess my Serious Fics have gotten better. YAY!
LOL: Here's chapter three didn't even plan for a chapter two. And who Said Jeff was dead.
*I've been watching him now for closing in on three weeks. He's been quite loosing weight. It's not good for him to be like this. Our boss and his family begged me to watch him to make sure he didn't try to follow his brother into that darkness that had claimed him so long ago. He's my best friend and I worry about what he might try to do to himself. So, I won't leave his side and I'll continue to keep an eye on him. Sometimes I catch him up in his brother's room looking at things. He'll turn and look at me and say with hope in his eyes. "He isn't dead can feel it." That scares me. It scares me so much to know that he continues thinking just because they never found the body that he isn't dead. No one even He couldn't have survived that fall. After all he is only human*
Shannon Moore looked up from where he was writing in the notebook to see Matt standing there looking at him with an odd look on his face. "Hey," he said.
Matt smiled slightly. "Jeff used to do that." He said.
Shannon looked confused. "Used to do what?" He asked.
"Write in notebooks." Matt responded smiling fondly as he thought of his younger brother.
Shannon nodded remembering that the younger Hardy had always been writing. He wasn't like your typical wrestler. He couldn't even bring himself to speak about Jeff just yet he could still see the hurt in his friends face when he mentioned Jeff by name.
"You want something to eat Matt?" Shannon asked hoping to get his friend to eat.
Matt looked at Shannon silently for a minute he must have seen the hope on his face or something because he nodded his ascension.
Shannon smiled and stood up and started making some sandwiches.
** Its been so cold here this last week or so, he's secluded himself upstairs in his room. I guess that's okay; at least he's eating now. I've taken to going for short walks in the afternoon while he's sleeping. It's just been a reprieve to get away from those emotions whirling around the house. Depression was the major one. I'm usually a happy person, I miss Jeff hell, I honestly can't believe Jeff did that, but I don't cling to memories of dead people. Its just not who I am. **
Shannon was walking silently about the property; he found his feet on a path that led up into the woods behind the house and to a ravine. He knew were he was and it bugged him a little. He stepped out of the trees into the small clearing where the deck sat and froze. There standing at the railing was a man. He couldn't see much because the Man was wearing a hooded shit.
"Hello?" Shannon said nervously.
The man seemed to Stiffen and then he slowly turned around. Shannon squinted he still couldn't see the mans face. "Who are you?" He asked.
The man looked around he seemed almost nervous. He then slowly pushed back the hood on his sweatshirt revealing his face. Shannon stared in shock his mouth hanging open. His mouth opened and shut rapidly like a fish out of water.
"J-- J Jeff?" He finally stammered out.
Jeff smiled nervously. "Hi Shannon."
"Are you a ghost?" Shannon blurted out ready to run if the specter he was seeing was indeed a ghost.
"No," Jeff shook his head. "I'm very much alive, a little cold but Alive."
"What, happened?" Shannon said.
" I went wandering thought about some stuff." Jeff said silently looking down at his feet.
Shannon blinked. "You you've been alive all this time?" He stammered.
Jeff nodded. "Yeah, how's Matt?" He asked.
Shannon didn't know weather to Hug Jeff or to punch him. "He's been horrible sense you, well sense you pretended to die!" He nearly screamed.
Jeff bit his lip nervously and sighed softly. "I'm sorry," He whispered looking down. " I didn't mean to hurt anyone."
"WELL YOU DID!" Shannon snapped stepping towards Jeff he still sure what he was gonna do. And by the way Jeff was looking it didn't look like the younger Hardy was gonna stop him. Shannon hugged him tightly. "I can't believe it! Its like to good to be true!"
Jeff smiled and hugged Shannon back gently. "Yeah, I planned this after that first attempt, I knew I needed to get away and clear my head of all this stuff."
Shannon nodded in understanding. "Come on lets get you down to the house, Matt will be ecstatic to see you!"
Jeff didn't resist the tugging on his wrist he just followed Shannon down to the house. He knew Matt would be pissed, but he was hoping the happiness at him still being alive would make that a little less.
Shannon dragged Jeff into the house and told him to sit down then vanished upstairs. Several silent minutes passed and then Matt appeared in the doorway his eyes were wide in shock. "I knew you weren't dead!" He said softly.
Jeff smiled nervously. "Yeah, I uh just needed some time to myself that you guys wouldn't give me." He whispered softly. "Ya think Vince will give me my job back?"
Matt laughed and walked over and hugged his brother. "Even if he don't it don't matter your back!" He said hugging him tightly. "You're alive and not dead!"
The end.
A/N: I suck can't even give an unhappy ending I just can't do it. Maybe someday, eventually. But I can't yet. Dose this fic suck or what now? (Sighs)
And too my Reviewers:
Jade and Lexi: Thanks you make me feel so great, I'm glad that my fic moved you to the point of tears. Yay, I mean I don't condone all this but I've just been in a weird mood lately.
Babs: YAY another crier.(giggles) I'm glad you liked it.
Cari: I'm posting your thanks Personally, Thanks Cari you make me feel so great saying you liked this fic. And the Review was awesome. It made me feel like I could go on writing. I guess my Serious Fics have gotten better. YAY!
LOL: Here's chapter three didn't even plan for a chapter two. And who Said Jeff was dead.