~~This will be a Carby. I have decided to continue on with it because so many people sent reviews. Please review to this chapter, too, so that I know if people are still reading this fic. Don't take life for granted. It could all be taken in an instant.

~Lilliana~

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Fear of Being Alone

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After Abby had swallowed six pills, she stuck her finger down her throat and vomited them up.

No, she thought, I'm not ready to die yet.

I still love Carter. Too much to loose him this way.

She cried for ten minutes and thought about her mother, her brother, her boyfriend, and her life.

No I really can't take it. I have to do it.

I'm sorry John. I'm so, so sorry. I messed up my life and now yours is messed up, too. I'm sorry I caused you so much pain.

I have to end it; I have to. Again she dumped the pills onto her palm.

This time she didn't stop to vomit up the pills she had swallowed.

Pretty soon she was passed out on her bathroom floor.

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Carter slipped his keys into the lock. He kicked the bottom of the door twice, turned the knob, and then pushed the door open.

"Abby?"

He walked into the apartment he had been calling home for close to a year. Anywhere that she was could be considered home to him.

He walked past the couch. He gasped when he saw her on the floor in the bathroom.

"Oh my God! Abby!"

He ran over to her limp form slumped on the rug.

"Abby don't do this to me. Please don't do this to me. Abby don't leave me. Abby I love you more then life itself. Abby don't go."