Chapter 9 Alls fair in Love and War
Gwen felt the sun on her face as she woke. She sighed and snuggled into the covers. She had just been ready to fall back asleep when she felt his arm encircle her waist. At first she had snuggled in, but then it came back to her. Her eyes widened. letting out a squeel she jumped out of the bed and quickly threw a bathrobe on. "Gwen?" Severus questioned as he got out of bed and placed his pants on. "We shouldn't have done this" she whispered as she stepped out of the room and into the kitchenette area. She put the coffee pot as well as the tea kettle on the fire. "What are you mumbling about?" Severus said as he strode into the kitchen "This, we shouldn't have done this." Severus raised an eyebrow, "Why ever not. Gwenyver, we are married, you still love me, and I love you." "Do you?" "Do I what?" "Do you still love me?" "What a question I just said I did." "You say you do, yet your actions say different. Why did you never come after me? Why not try to contact me? Why when you saw me in Diagon ally didn't you take me in your arms, instead of being so arrogant?" "Gwen, I didn't know what you wanted in Diagon I was just as shocked to discover you were there as for you seeing me, I didn't even know you were back in London. I love you I've always loved you." Gwen shook her head, "That isn't the point the point is Severus that what happened last night was a momentary weakness on my part and will not happen again." "Now that you have shared my bed Gwen you will find that it is hard to leave it. From now on wife you will sleep in it." Severus moved to stand right in front of her. "I will not." Gwen said with a hurt look on her face "You will not play the victim here do you understand me you will not." Severus shouted, hurt by her look. He had thought she had returned to him finally last night but instead she intended it to be a mistake. "You left me once; you will not have the opportunity again." Severus pulled the tea kettle and coffee from the fire. Gwen glared at Severus. "Would you rather I had stayed and been killed or worse put into Azkaban?" "Neither would have happened." Gwen lifted her sleeve, "This says otherwise." "You think mine does not?" "You cut your deal with Albus long before the shit hit the fan." "Gwen you were included on that deal. Albus knew that you were in attendance but never raised your wand." "But what's worse, doing a deed for your cause, or standing by doing nothing when you know what you are watching is wrong. I say hundreds slaughtered their blood all over me and my robes. I remember coming home and having to change the water several times when I bathed, the water turning bright red." Gwen shivered at the memories that plagued her. "That does not change the fact my dear that from now on you will be sharing my quarters and my bed. I swear that I will not touch you again till you beg for it." "It will be a long wait." "WE shall see my dear." Gwen watched as Severus left the room after he had left she swore underneath her breath. "Son of a bitch. She said as she glared in the direction he had taken. She knew she had lost the battle and that no matter what Albus Dumbledore would do nothing to help her with this one. She quickly ran to the bathroom and ran the water a bath being just what she needed, she had went to the bedroom to grab a set of robes for the day when she saw him. Standing tall, and naked, she hadn't noticed last night the powerful body that was underneath his robes. He was filled out well with large strong arms, his legs defined; he looked as good if not better then he had when they had gotten married. She felt her face heat until he turned around, she saw his back, the blood drained from her face she hadn't noticed the thin white lines all up and down his back. " "Severus?" She whispered as she felt tears well in her eyes. Turning she fled back into the bathroom as the tears started to fall. She got into the tub, as she cried not knowing what to think. He had obviously been hurt a lot in the last 15 years. He had had an unmarred back when they had been together. "Gwen?" The voice came threw the door. Gwen choked and cleared her throat. Rubbing her face with water she called out, "Yes?" "May I come in?" Gwen thought on it for a moment, "It's your bathroom." Severus shook with anger before stepping through. "No my dear it is our bathroom." "Whatever. If you would kindly tell me why you wanted in here?" "I heard you crying and wanted to make sure you were okay." "Perfectly fine, just letting off a few tears about being stuck with you." She said bitterly. "Yes well. I'm off to the hall from breakfast I will see you there." He said more as an order then question. Gwen nodded before placing her head underwater. Severus watched for a second before leaving and heading for the Great Hall. Gwen raised out of the water, "I hate you." She said as she got out of the bath and looked in the mirror, she hated herself and what had transpired the night before yes her body had betrayed her but what hurt more was that so had her heart.
Harry's day had gone from bad to worse, It had started at breakfast when he had seen Gwen looking like she had been ran over and when he had asked her if today they could have tea, she had brushed him off saying that she would be busy. Then to make matters worse Sirius had also declined saying that he had important things to do, but that they could talk later. It was then that he had looked at his schedule and had seen it double potions with Slytherin. "Why do they always have to do that?"
"do what?" Ron asked as he pulled up a seat next to Harry "Place us with Slytherin in potions. It's not bad enough that we have it with Snape but they saddle us with Slytherin on top of it." "Well it's probably just comes down to luck of the draw Snape torturing us just cause he can." "I'm so looking forward to next year when we don't have to take any class that we don't need." "Uh Harry I think you are forgetting something." "What's that Ron?" "We'll as aurors we need potions." "Bloody hell" Harry swore as Hedwig perched down beside him. He grabbed the note and handed her a piece of bacon.
[I]
Mr. Potter,
It is my job to inform you that you and other members of the OOP (order of the Phoenix) are required to take classes to strengthen skills that will required. These classes will take place all but Wednesday evening and weekends. Please inform those you need to. There will be a few select others that the teachers of these classes have selected to benefit." The Classes will start tonight.
Yours truly,
Albus Dumbledore. [/I]
Harry sighed as he read the note once more, "Looks like we are getting extra courses." "Huh?" Harry handed him the letter, "I think Padfoot, Moony, and Dumbledore want us to train more" "When are we going to resume meetings anyway?" "Soon. I need to talk to Padfoot and Professor Dumbledore first." Ron nodded as he Yawned. "I sure wish You-know-know would just disappear." "Me to Ron me too." Harry licked his lips, "Time to get to class" he muttered as he stood. He saw then that Hermione was still there, "I didn't even see you get here." "Woke up late, you were to busy reading you letter anyway. "OH ya by the way about that." "It's okay Harry I heard you guys." "Are you sure that will be wise in your." Hermione shot Harry a look, "I'll be fine." "Your what?" Rom asked as Hermione shot Harry a now you did it look. " Nothing Ron, Harry is just concerned about my work load, since I'm now with this special class I'm getting close to what I was at in third year." Ron nodded not believing the explanation. Harry changed the subject as he saw an opening, "Ron Quidditch Tryouts are at the end of this week. You did set up the Quidditch patch time?" "Yup Madam Hooch was most accommodating" "Good good. Can't lose the cup this year, after us not getting to play the last game, last year. It still smarts not being able to play" "Kind of hard to play when you are in an infirmary getting your spine replaced Harry." "I know Hermione" Harry said looking at her with a look of anger. "Don't talk to me like that Harry. I was just." "Just what reminding me that I almost lost my life last year?" "Harry." "Hermione, I'm sorry, I just don't want to be reminded." Hermione nodded. "Sorry Harry." The group stopped then as they saw Professor Snape enter the hall, "He's here late, and he's usually here by the time we get in." "Perhaps he was making the wolfs ban potion. It is after all that time of month for Lupin." "Maybe he was shagging your aunt. Potter"
Harry stiffened as he heard Malfoy's voice behind him. "Go away Malfoy. We aren't in any mood to deal with you." "say something like that again Malfoy and I will curse you till you have to spend the rest of your life in St.margos." "I'd be nice to me potter I have some information I'm sure you don't want to get out daddy." He whispered the last word before walking off. Harry looked after Malfoy and was about to pull his wand when Gwen walked in looking beautiful but troubled she gave a knowing look and shook her head. Sighing Harry removed his hand and gave her a smile. He watched as she continued on her way. Shaking his head he looked at the time and saw that he had barely enough time to grab his books from his room before heading to class. He took off knowing that if he was late for potions it could mean the death of him.
Gwen shook her head as the vision of Harry getting detention for cursing Malfoy she ran quickly and got to the hall just in time to see him reach for his wand. She shook her head as she started up the row. She waited till he acknowledged her before walking the rest of the way to the staff table. "Sit beside me my dear." Gwen frowned but did as asked. "Severus I really hope that you do not thing that I'm going to continue to take orders from you." "My dear I never expected you to take orders. But I do expect you to act as your station dictates." Gwen pursed her lips but said nothing as she poured herself coffee. "Smile dear it becomes you so." Gwen glared at Severus out of the corner of her eye. "You will find that before we are done you will be the one begging to get out." "We shall see love we shall see." Severus said before getting up. He kissed her on the cheek. "I'll see you later, perhaps at lunch?" This time it was a question. "I'm afraid not. I have to work through lunch" "Make sure you get something sent to you. You're to thin." With that said Severus turned and left. Gwen gave a little smile before pulling her wand, quickly she went to work. When done Severus had a pink sign on his back, it read, "I Love watching ballet, but love performing it more." "All's fair in love and war. Severus you best remember that." She whispered with a smile she put her wand back up her sleeve and left for her first class.
Gwen felt the sun on her face as she woke. She sighed and snuggled into the covers. She had just been ready to fall back asleep when she felt his arm encircle her waist. At first she had snuggled in, but then it came back to her. Her eyes widened. letting out a squeel she jumped out of the bed and quickly threw a bathrobe on. "Gwen?" Severus questioned as he got out of bed and placed his pants on. "We shouldn't have done this" she whispered as she stepped out of the room and into the kitchenette area. She put the coffee pot as well as the tea kettle on the fire. "What are you mumbling about?" Severus said as he strode into the kitchen "This, we shouldn't have done this." Severus raised an eyebrow, "Why ever not. Gwenyver, we are married, you still love me, and I love you." "Do you?" "Do I what?" "Do you still love me?" "What a question I just said I did." "You say you do, yet your actions say different. Why did you never come after me? Why not try to contact me? Why when you saw me in Diagon ally didn't you take me in your arms, instead of being so arrogant?" "Gwen, I didn't know what you wanted in Diagon I was just as shocked to discover you were there as for you seeing me, I didn't even know you were back in London. I love you I've always loved you." Gwen shook her head, "That isn't the point the point is Severus that what happened last night was a momentary weakness on my part and will not happen again." "Now that you have shared my bed Gwen you will find that it is hard to leave it. From now on wife you will sleep in it." Severus moved to stand right in front of her. "I will not." Gwen said with a hurt look on her face "You will not play the victim here do you understand me you will not." Severus shouted, hurt by her look. He had thought she had returned to him finally last night but instead she intended it to be a mistake. "You left me once; you will not have the opportunity again." Severus pulled the tea kettle and coffee from the fire. Gwen glared at Severus. "Would you rather I had stayed and been killed or worse put into Azkaban?" "Neither would have happened." Gwen lifted her sleeve, "This says otherwise." "You think mine does not?" "You cut your deal with Albus long before the shit hit the fan." "Gwen you were included on that deal. Albus knew that you were in attendance but never raised your wand." "But what's worse, doing a deed for your cause, or standing by doing nothing when you know what you are watching is wrong. I say hundreds slaughtered their blood all over me and my robes. I remember coming home and having to change the water several times when I bathed, the water turning bright red." Gwen shivered at the memories that plagued her. "That does not change the fact my dear that from now on you will be sharing my quarters and my bed. I swear that I will not touch you again till you beg for it." "It will be a long wait." "WE shall see my dear." Gwen watched as Severus left the room after he had left she swore underneath her breath. "Son of a bitch. She said as she glared in the direction he had taken. She knew she had lost the battle and that no matter what Albus Dumbledore would do nothing to help her with this one. She quickly ran to the bathroom and ran the water a bath being just what she needed, she had went to the bedroom to grab a set of robes for the day when she saw him. Standing tall, and naked, she hadn't noticed last night the powerful body that was underneath his robes. He was filled out well with large strong arms, his legs defined; he looked as good if not better then he had when they had gotten married. She felt her face heat until he turned around, she saw his back, the blood drained from her face she hadn't noticed the thin white lines all up and down his back. " "Severus?" She whispered as she felt tears well in her eyes. Turning she fled back into the bathroom as the tears started to fall. She got into the tub, as she cried not knowing what to think. He had obviously been hurt a lot in the last 15 years. He had had an unmarred back when they had been together. "Gwen?" The voice came threw the door. Gwen choked and cleared her throat. Rubbing her face with water she called out, "Yes?" "May I come in?" Gwen thought on it for a moment, "It's your bathroom." Severus shook with anger before stepping through. "No my dear it is our bathroom." "Whatever. If you would kindly tell me why you wanted in here?" "I heard you crying and wanted to make sure you were okay." "Perfectly fine, just letting off a few tears about being stuck with you." She said bitterly. "Yes well. I'm off to the hall from breakfast I will see you there." He said more as an order then question. Gwen nodded before placing her head underwater. Severus watched for a second before leaving and heading for the Great Hall. Gwen raised out of the water, "I hate you." She said as she got out of the bath and looked in the mirror, she hated herself and what had transpired the night before yes her body had betrayed her but what hurt more was that so had her heart.
Harry's day had gone from bad to worse, It had started at breakfast when he had seen Gwen looking like she had been ran over and when he had asked her if today they could have tea, she had brushed him off saying that she would be busy. Then to make matters worse Sirius had also declined saying that he had important things to do, but that they could talk later. It was then that he had looked at his schedule and had seen it double potions with Slytherin. "Why do they always have to do that?"
"do what?" Ron asked as he pulled up a seat next to Harry "Place us with Slytherin in potions. It's not bad enough that we have it with Snape but they saddle us with Slytherin on top of it." "Well it's probably just comes down to luck of the draw Snape torturing us just cause he can." "I'm so looking forward to next year when we don't have to take any class that we don't need." "Uh Harry I think you are forgetting something." "What's that Ron?" "We'll as aurors we need potions." "Bloody hell" Harry swore as Hedwig perched down beside him. He grabbed the note and handed her a piece of bacon.
[I]
Mr. Potter,
It is my job to inform you that you and other members of the OOP (order of the Phoenix) are required to take classes to strengthen skills that will required. These classes will take place all but Wednesday evening and weekends. Please inform those you need to. There will be a few select others that the teachers of these classes have selected to benefit." The Classes will start tonight.
Yours truly,
Albus Dumbledore. [/I]
Harry sighed as he read the note once more, "Looks like we are getting extra courses." "Huh?" Harry handed him the letter, "I think Padfoot, Moony, and Dumbledore want us to train more" "When are we going to resume meetings anyway?" "Soon. I need to talk to Padfoot and Professor Dumbledore first." Ron nodded as he Yawned. "I sure wish You-know-know would just disappear." "Me to Ron me too." Harry licked his lips, "Time to get to class" he muttered as he stood. He saw then that Hermione was still there, "I didn't even see you get here." "Woke up late, you were to busy reading you letter anyway. "OH ya by the way about that." "It's okay Harry I heard you guys." "Are you sure that will be wise in your." Hermione shot Harry a look, "I'll be fine." "Your what?" Rom asked as Hermione shot Harry a now you did it look. " Nothing Ron, Harry is just concerned about my work load, since I'm now with this special class I'm getting close to what I was at in third year." Ron nodded not believing the explanation. Harry changed the subject as he saw an opening, "Ron Quidditch Tryouts are at the end of this week. You did set up the Quidditch patch time?" "Yup Madam Hooch was most accommodating" "Good good. Can't lose the cup this year, after us not getting to play the last game, last year. It still smarts not being able to play" "Kind of hard to play when you are in an infirmary getting your spine replaced Harry." "I know Hermione" Harry said looking at her with a look of anger. "Don't talk to me like that Harry. I was just." "Just what reminding me that I almost lost my life last year?" "Harry." "Hermione, I'm sorry, I just don't want to be reminded." Hermione nodded. "Sorry Harry." The group stopped then as they saw Professor Snape enter the hall, "He's here late, and he's usually here by the time we get in." "Perhaps he was making the wolfs ban potion. It is after all that time of month for Lupin." "Maybe he was shagging your aunt. Potter"
Harry stiffened as he heard Malfoy's voice behind him. "Go away Malfoy. We aren't in any mood to deal with you." "say something like that again Malfoy and I will curse you till you have to spend the rest of your life in St.margos." "I'd be nice to me potter I have some information I'm sure you don't want to get out daddy." He whispered the last word before walking off. Harry looked after Malfoy and was about to pull his wand when Gwen walked in looking beautiful but troubled she gave a knowing look and shook her head. Sighing Harry removed his hand and gave her a smile. He watched as she continued on her way. Shaking his head he looked at the time and saw that he had barely enough time to grab his books from his room before heading to class. He took off knowing that if he was late for potions it could mean the death of him.
Gwen shook her head as the vision of Harry getting detention for cursing Malfoy she ran quickly and got to the hall just in time to see him reach for his wand. She shook her head as she started up the row. She waited till he acknowledged her before walking the rest of the way to the staff table. "Sit beside me my dear." Gwen frowned but did as asked. "Severus I really hope that you do not thing that I'm going to continue to take orders from you." "My dear I never expected you to take orders. But I do expect you to act as your station dictates." Gwen pursed her lips but said nothing as she poured herself coffee. "Smile dear it becomes you so." Gwen glared at Severus out of the corner of her eye. "You will find that before we are done you will be the one begging to get out." "We shall see love we shall see." Severus said before getting up. He kissed her on the cheek. "I'll see you later, perhaps at lunch?" This time it was a question. "I'm afraid not. I have to work through lunch" "Make sure you get something sent to you. You're to thin." With that said Severus turned and left. Gwen gave a little smile before pulling her wand, quickly she went to work. When done Severus had a pink sign on his back, it read, "I Love watching ballet, but love performing it more." "All's fair in love and war. Severus you best remember that." She whispered with a smile she put her wand back up her sleeve and left for her first class.