Chapter 11 Quidditch trials and secrets revealed
The week passed quickly and already it was the weekend. Harry and Ron had had to put off Quidditch trials due to poor weather on Friday, but today was the day. Today they would find their new chasers and beaters. Harry hoped that today he would find a winning team. He sat down to breakfast with a genuine smile for the first time in a week. He was finally over the shock of Hermione's announcement and he felt good about the decisions they had come up with since then.
Hermione on the other had had been wracked with morning sickness and was cursing ever hearing the name Harry Potter. She had tried every magical and muggle remedy but nothing seemed to cure the nausea and listlessness that she felt on a reoccurring basis. Already she would be happy when this baby was out.
Ron had plodded along; knowing something was wrong but not daring to ask for fear that the ever emotional Hermione would kill him or worse, or that Harry would quit talking to him altogether. He was concerned but knew that he would just have to wait. He had seen them together in the past, he remembered seeing them at his place, and Hermione's hair mussed up, her under things in her pockets, both with guilty faces. They were his friends though and they had never betrayed his friendship. They didn't even know how he felt about Hermione. Ron pulled himself out of his thoughts as he looked around the table, Hermione had just gotten there, having been late to breakfast for the last month, Harry was eating enough to rival Ron and smiling.
"Hey mate, hurry up, got to get to the pitch in about 20 minutes." He said pausing from filling his own mouth.
Harry stopped his fork halfway to his mouth, "Geeze, why'd you book it for so early?"
"Didn't have a choice, Ravenclaw has the pitch booked from one on."
Harry nodded, the weather had ruined the chance for them to be choosy, "Well let's get going then." he said taking one last bite before waving goodbye to Hermione and heading towards the common room to grab his Quidditch gear.
Ron lingered for a moment, "Hermione?"
"Yes Ron?"
"Well I was wondering, if well.., "
"Wondering what Ron?" Hermione looked up from her book.
"If there was something going on with you and Harry, I mean Malfoy has been hinting that there is something going on...and the looks you give Harry when he isn't looking and all that." He stumbled through it not looking at her.
Hermione sighed, "Ron can we talk about it later? I don't think now is a good time."
Ron looked up at Hermione and saw the anxiety on her face. "Ya sure how about later after the trials and such then?"
Hermione nodded, "Meet me in the common Room and we'll go somewhere private to talk then."
Ron nodded. "Talk to you later Hermione." He said before rushing off to grab his gear.
Harry wondered on to the pitch and looked at the housemates who had gathered.
"Harry this is going to take forever at least half the house has to be here." Ron said coming up behind him.
Harry nodded, you call out all those who want to beaters, and I'll start looking at chasers."
The two separated calling forth the people who had sighed up for one or the other, the ones that had signed up for both tried out with the beaters first.
The try outs went smoothly the first hour or so, but then trouble showed up in the form of Draco Malfoy who had decided that it was time to open his big mouth. "Hey potter shouldn't you be learning to fold nappies? Or is it weasels?" He shouted it loud enough for everyone to hear. The pitch became silent but Harry went into a dive, stopping just inches from Draco's head, "Malfoy if you know what is good for you, you will leave immediately."
Draco looked into Harry's face and turned whiter then he already was. Draco backed off as he said it almost stumbling in his haste, before turning around and running fallowed closely behind by Crabbe and Goyle.
Ron went white as he heard the words Draco said, flying over to Harry he looked at his face and saw the truth, "Harry?" He asked already knowing the awnser.
"Not now Ron," Harry looked at his friend and saw the pain on his face, "We'll talk about it later. We need to finish this."
Ron nodded and went back to the beaters. "All right listen up; Malfoy is nothing but a Git that doesn't know how to make a joke."
"What did he mean Ron? Did Harry knock someone up?" Natalie Macdonald a third year asked.
"No no, nothing of the kind just Malfoy's sick humor." Ron said covering for his friends knowing without a doubt that Harry had in fact knocked someone up, his best friend at that. "Come on let's get back to it. No sense letting Malfoy ruin the tryouts.
They got back into the routine if not a little more subdued and soon they had found their players,
Harry had chosen,
Ginny Weasley, Michelle Vuong, and Amanda Spinet, Alicia's younger sister to be Chasers. The beaters that were chosen were Dean Tomas and Seamus Finnigan.
Harry smiled and looked at the team members in front of him. "Congratulations, I know with this team we will be unstoppable. Our Practice times will be Wednesdays, and Fridays and Sundays. Our first practice will be tomorrow." He watched as everyone filed off the pitch and back into the castle. He let out a sigh with the team picked he could now talk to Ron.
Ron had controlled his anger through out the tryouts, flew towards Harry. "When in the bloody hell were you going to tell me?" He shouted
"Ron., what Malfoy.Said..."
"Don't deny it, and lie to me again."
"I wasn't going to and when did I ever lie to you?"
"You mean you don't remember telling me you didn't have feelings for Hermione?"
Harry was about to reply, but he was the Ravenclaws starting to file on to the pitch. "Can we take this elsewhere?"
Ron nodded, having no interest in fighting with Harry in front of people of other house.
Gwen had been on watch all week for retaliation for her prank on Severus. Surprisingly when she had seen him at dinner that night he had been cool and calm, saying that it was not appropriate for her to do that, as it diminished the respect the students had for him. She asked if he would let her go because if not it was just the beginning. He had simply shook his head and said that he would see her that evening. She had gone to his bed again that night and every night since then.
She wasn't happy or proud of it, but he held a power over her, that only one other had held. She opened her eyes as she remembered it all. Feeling the prickling behind her eyes, she got out of bed quickly and running to the washroom getting there before the tears came. It had been a long night and she was still feeling the effects of it. She and Sirius had tried to sit down and work out the problems and come to some sort of understanding, but all they had done was fight. They had fought about everything from things she had done in school, all the way to the present. Strangely they had never gotten to Sirius's sins. He seemed to make sure to keep it all on her faults, he had been mean and cruel to her before but this was getting ridicules, would he never forgive her? She felt the tears fall, She had never meant to come back here especially when she had found out that he had escaped Azkaban but when Dumbledore had owled her and told her that both Harry and Draco had needed her she knew she had too. It was only right and so now here she was, stuck in the same chambers with a man she loved and loved her back but couldn't live with, and in the same castle with a man she could live with but who didn't love her. She looked in the mirror and for the first time truly saw herself, "must your life always be a constant drama?" She asked herself as she washed the tears and redness from her face. She looked at the time and saw that she had little under an hour before she was to meet Harry. Quickly she pushed all her thoughts aside and started getting ready.
"You okay?"
"I'm fine thank you, just needed a longer then usual."
Severus knew she was lying, but knew he wouldn't get the truth out of her. "Well if you are ready we can get lunch and still have time to prepare Remus's potion."
"I highly doubt that you need me for that and besides I have tea with Harry today."
"Oh, well in that case I'll see you tonight."
"No Severus you will not. I need space I need time, this is too soon. I admit I never should have been in your bed at all not yet, maybe never again."
"Gwen."
"No Sev, I've made up my mind, Please respect my decision this once. You've proven that you still love me and care for me. I would be happy to spend sometime with you, but please give me space."
Severus backed off. He knew she was serious and, he could respect that. "Fine. I will have your things moved to another set of chambers."
"Thank you Severus."
Gwen left then and headed towards Sirius's chambers where Harry and she had agreed they would have tea until he was more comfortable. She had been just about to knock on the door when it opened,
"Good your here, you deal with this," Sirius said looking particularly irked and frazzled, before pulling her inside and pushing her into the sitting room. There seated and scowling were Ron, Hermione and Harry. Looking more closely she saw Ron with a slightly bruised chin and Harry looked to have a black eye appearing...
"What's going on here?"
"HE, she, they, Malfoy, pregnant, slept together, stupid git" all three talked at once causing Gwen to frown.
"Okay one at a time, Harry you start."
"Malfoy came on to the pitch today, he knows about Hermione and me somehow. Ron here heard as well as half of Gryffindor house. I managed to shut down Malfoy but I think that he'll start up again."
"Okay, Ron?"
"They're going to have a BABY! They didn't tell me they were together, and He slept with the woman I love." Ron shouted.
Hermione sat up her eyes wide, "You what!"
Ron turned bright red, "I love you, just like I love him, you guys are my best friends and you didn't even tell me." He said back tracking. "I asked you several times what was wrong or going on and you didn't say a word, you betrayed me."
Hermione stood up, "we didn't betray you Ron, Honest, we just at first didn't see any sense in saying anything, and then we didn't know how to tell you. Besides Harry and I decided that we aren't a couple." Tears rolled down Hermione's cheeks, "He doesn't love me like that. We are best friends, Harry and I just blurred the line for a time. I figured it out a long time ago that Harry and I weren't and aren't meant to be together. We just gave each other what we needed at the time."
The room was silent as the room absorbed the revelations that had been brought to light.
Gwen looked at Hermione with knowing and held her arms open. Hermione went into them as she shook as the tears racked her body.
Harry was shocked; he hadn't told Hermione that he didn't love her that way. He was trying to figure out how she knew, he had done his part this week asking about her welfare and being supportive. He looked at Ron who had his mouth open as though he was ready to catch flies; the room was quiet except for Hermione's sobs. But it was to be short lived.
"YOU STUPID GIT, WHY WEREN'T YOU GUYS MORE CAREFUL? " Ron shouted as he looked at Harry not sure what else to say.
"Honestly mate we didn't think about it. We were together 3 times this summer, and the first time was an accident." Harry said calmly not wanting to upset Ron anymore then he was.
Ron frowned and seemed to think on something before speaking again, "Do you love her? Cause she seems to think you don't."
"I never said he didn't love me Ron. He just doesn't love me that way." Hermione said having gained control of herself. "He loves me like a friend, a close friend but a friend."
"How do you know that Mione? Did he tell you that after he knocked you up to get out of taking care of you?"
"Ron, I've always known that. I always knew that if anything ever happened, it was stolen, that it wouldn't be forever, and he tried to be honorable. You can't expect his to do any less. He tried I turned him down. We don't love each other the way you should to get married."
Ron was upset and hurt, he couldn't believe what he had heard and saw. He sat down into one of the overstuffed chairs that were there. Totally defeated he just stared at Hermione. "I can't believe it, I just don't believe it."
"Ron?"
"Hermione you both are my best friends, but he knew how I felt about you and he still took what you offered."
"Ron I'm sorry." Harry whispered feeling worse by the minute, he then looked at Hermione and with a look of defeat spoke again, "See Hermione I told you, it's like I'm on a huge rubber band, when ever I'm happy, something bad happens, I was happy, I met a new family member, I was made prefect, everything was going well then BAM, Your pageant, my best mate hates me, and I'm miserable once more."
"Harry I don't hate you" Ron said coming out of his stupor.
"How can you say that? You were shooting daggers at me, you punched me, and I think that if you could have got away with it you'd have killed me."
"Angry yes, pissed to the point of wanting to beat the shit out of you totally, Hate you never."
"No more violence please, I've had to tear you apart once, next time I'll just hex you both." Sirius said breaking his silence as he remembered having to pull them apart in the hallways on his way here. "You three I think have a lot to talk about why don't you go do so. Peaceful mind you I don't want to hear anymore about you hitting each other. You guys were friends, and now is not the time to lose that. Harry, I'm sure tea with Gwen and I can wait till next week." He said looking at Gwen who still had a comforting arm around Hermione.
Gwen nodded, "Talk it out guys. Get it worked out, you are too good of friends to have this incident split you apart. Ron I know you are hurting and that you are angry and you have every right. Harry, Hermione you made a mistake, you hurt your best friend, think on how you would feel in his place, and what you would need to make things right. Now is not the time to be fighting, now is the time to heal the wounds you have inflicted and work to gain the trust and love you have for each other. Harry, you and Hermione as well have much to heal. It takes a lot from a friendship when a mistake of this magnitude happens. You both need to discuss the ramifications and consequences this will have on your friendship."
The three teenagers nodded still not quite meeting each others eyes, they left Sirius rooms and headed for the only place they knew they could talk in privet, the meeting room that had been set aside last year for the Order of Phoenix.
Sirius waited till they were all out of the room and the door closed before he turned to Gwen. "Poor kids." He sat down on the couch and shook his head in disbelief. "Why didn't anyone warn me that it was going to be this hard?"
"Because most of the time it isn't" Gwen said "I think I will go then, since tea was canceled." Gwen turned to leave and was half way to the door...
"I know how he feels, love someone forever, think you have a chance and then have it yanked from you."
"Sirius."
"Don't bother with it Gwen, You know as well as I that what we had was real"
Gwen sighed and instead of leaving turned and sat down. "I never said that it wasn't Sirius, You know I loved you. What we had was wonderful and exciting, but I was married, you knew that it was to keep you safe. I had to make him think that I was recruiting you. You were getting to close. Will you never forgive me for going back to Severus?"
Sirius shook his head, "Gwen, I forgave you for that a long time ago. I have no time to hate someone over something like that, What I don't forgive is you going to Voldemort in the first place, marring the slimy Git, and then when things got bad and James and Lilly died you ran off. Left everything, including your nephew. "
Gwen blinked back tears, "SOD off Sirius you don't know what I've been through, don't you think that I cried thinking about Harry that he was left with Lilly's twit of a sister, That Severus was left picking up the pieces, which you were in Azkaban? Don't you think I would have loved to come back? "
"Then why didn't you?"
"Because if I had my life would have been forfeit and Harry would have been hurt."
"Then why come back now?"
"Because Albus kept me informed, He knew where I was and he wrote me last year and said to make arrangements to come back. He said that both Harry and the order needed my help."
"Why not earlier? Like before Harry almost got killed last year?"
"Albus said not to come till the summer. He said that it would be better to wait so that Harry and I could get to know one another over the summer. He wasn't even sure that I'd be needed and that if by summer ever thing was finished then I could just be an Aunt to Harry, just be his family. "
Sirius just stared at Gwen as she talked, she was still so beautiful, he still loved her, but didn't dare let the feelings surface. He had been hurt once by her, he wasn't sure he wanted to chance it again, not with her still married to Severus. "So what have you been doing the last 16 years?"
"What I told Harry was the truth. I sang in Germany and got my teaching and music degrees."
"What about the troubles that went on there, you have anything to do with that?"
"Well. I did do a few things. But only to keep myself alive." Sirius nodded, "what you do?"
"Contacted local deatheaters, told them what I knew, and then when possible disposed of them. I never have and never will kill a good witch or wizard but that doesn't mean that I haven't killed."
Sirius understood, but was spectacle, "anyway I can verify that?"
"Not with out putting me in danger. I guess now is a good time to tell you that I'm undercover Sirius, I am supposedly here to lure Harry to Voldemort, and to give legitimacy to Severus, that's one of the reasons I haven't pushed for divorce."
"What!! You're still working for that monster? How could you Gwenyver. How could you stand to go to those meeting, Severus has made his reports I know what goes on there."
"I know Siri, but I have too. Anything to help Harry win. I'd give my life up for him."
Sirius nodded; somehow he understood what she was saying. But he had another axe to grind and so spoke his mind, "Divorce the slimy git, and tell him to keep his hands off of you." Sirius said angry that he cared and angry that she allowed it.
"Sirius don't start, Please, Severus just wants me back and you can't blame him for that. I am after all his wife. I can't divorce him right now anyway, if I did one of us or both of us could end up dead, he gave me legitimacy when I needed it and now I'm doing the same for him. I don't think I could ever live with him again, he's changed and so have I but I still love him, like I still love you. "
Sirius glared at Gwen, "Don't say that Gwen, He took advantage of you when you were young, he doesn't deserve you. You're a Potter for Merlin's sake." "Siri."
"You deserve better, better then him, better then me." Sirius stood up, "You may have been a death eater Gwen but you keep saying you didn't do anything, and I've talked to Dumbledore, he's told me that what you say is true. I know I should have believed you but after so many years and then everything that's happened, well it's hard to trust." He paused I've had time to think about it and I'm sorry, I said all kinds of things the last month and you've defended your self and it's only now that I've realized you were right. I know I don't deserve it but I want you to forgive me." He looked at Gwen "Please forgive me, and if what you say is true, that although you love him but you aren't sure you can live with him and that you love me, maybe we can have a second chance?" Gwen was shocked, "You said you didn't love me anymore, that you hated me, how can you want to give this, us a second chance?"
"I'm crazy; I'm setting myself up to be hurt but."
"But if you don't take the chance then how can you say you lived right?"
"Exactly."
Gwen stood up "I've never stopped loving you, and I'm not sure what the future holds, but I'm willing to think on it."
"While you think on it will you spend the evening with me?"
"Siri?"
Sirius gathered Gwen in his arms. "You have no idea the torture I've been through having you in my house, not daring to take you in my arms, thinking you were not the person I fell in love with and hating you because of your doing what you had to. Spend the evening with me; let me make love to you."
Gwen shook with desire, that's one thing they had always had right, "You don't know how much I suffered thinking you didn't love me anymore that you didn't care." She whispered before pulling him down to meet her lips.
Sirius moaned as he picked her up not breaking the kiss, carrying her into the bedroom he closed the door with a kick.
Gently he laid her on the Burgundy bed spread, "You always did look good in my bed." He said with a smirk as he took off his robes.
"Did I now, I seem to recall we didn't often make it to the bed."
Sirius laughed as he got on the bed, "No we didn't but we have time for that later, first things first I plan to make you forget his name," Taking her in his arms he pulled her on top of him, Kissing her lips he slowly started to raise her robes. "Why Ms potter, what is this, nothing but panties and a bra under your robes, how shocking." He said taking in the site of Gwen in a set of black French lace panties and a bra to match
Gwen giggled, "Had to make it easy in case a situation arose. Now shut up and kiss me."
The two kissed for what seemed to be hours as they touched each other becoming familiar with the changes to their bodies from years of hardship and pain.
Sirius whispered appreciation for the woman who was now stripped of her robes and only in a black thong. "My love you are as beautiful now as you were the first time we did this."
Gwen blushed, as she traced a finger from Sirius chest to his harded manhood. "your not so bad yourself." She pushed Sirius back as she took hold of him, slowly she crawled till she was within distance, slowly she took a tentative taste.
Sirius gasped as he felt her lick him, moaning he whispered her name as she took him into her mouth. She worked him for several moments, driving his arousal to almost it's peak. Unable to take it anymore he pulled her up, kissing her, he tasted himself. "It's been awhile for me so forgive my clumsyness." He whispered before pulling her on top of him, slowly he entered her, gapsing she clamped down. "You've never been clumsy," she gasped out as she felt him take a nipple in his mouth.
Sirus felt her move as she tested the waters of what was new but old. Unable to take her teasing anymore he rolled them so that he was on top. Slowly he started to thrust in and out. Bringing her and himself to the brink, he pulled out as he kissed his way down her body, stopping at her arousal, teasing he licked and kissed, slowly he moved his way up until he was at her breasts he licked her nipples and brought them to pointed peaks. "your so beautiful" he whispered as he brought himself up to kiss her. He kissed her softly before deepening the kiss, Positioning himself he slowly entered her again. He paused as he entered her fully, "I've missed you, I can't tell you how much. Through it all, the pain, the hurt,the feelings of betrayl I've loved you through it all."
"Siri, don't not now, make love to me now." Gwen pleaded accenting it by tightening her muscles,
Sirius groaned as he started to move within her, he moved slowly as he felt himself slowly losing control, he watched her face as she gasped at every thrust, "Sirius" she whispered indicating her need for him. Sirius picked up his pace as he felt the urgency in her body and in her voice. Thrusting hard and deep he felt his need reaching its peak, reaching down he teased her until she started to shudder, pushing her over the edge, he followed suit losing himself in the moment. Shouting out he reached climax as she dug her nails into his back. Slowly Sirius thrusted a few more times before lowering his weight on to her and kissing her lips. Their lust saited, they fell asleep still holding one another.
The week passed quickly and already it was the weekend. Harry and Ron had had to put off Quidditch trials due to poor weather on Friday, but today was the day. Today they would find their new chasers and beaters. Harry hoped that today he would find a winning team. He sat down to breakfast with a genuine smile for the first time in a week. He was finally over the shock of Hermione's announcement and he felt good about the decisions they had come up with since then.
Hermione on the other had had been wracked with morning sickness and was cursing ever hearing the name Harry Potter. She had tried every magical and muggle remedy but nothing seemed to cure the nausea and listlessness that she felt on a reoccurring basis. Already she would be happy when this baby was out.
Ron had plodded along; knowing something was wrong but not daring to ask for fear that the ever emotional Hermione would kill him or worse, or that Harry would quit talking to him altogether. He was concerned but knew that he would just have to wait. He had seen them together in the past, he remembered seeing them at his place, and Hermione's hair mussed up, her under things in her pockets, both with guilty faces. They were his friends though and they had never betrayed his friendship. They didn't even know how he felt about Hermione. Ron pulled himself out of his thoughts as he looked around the table, Hermione had just gotten there, having been late to breakfast for the last month, Harry was eating enough to rival Ron and smiling.
"Hey mate, hurry up, got to get to the pitch in about 20 minutes." He said pausing from filling his own mouth.
Harry stopped his fork halfway to his mouth, "Geeze, why'd you book it for so early?"
"Didn't have a choice, Ravenclaw has the pitch booked from one on."
Harry nodded, the weather had ruined the chance for them to be choosy, "Well let's get going then." he said taking one last bite before waving goodbye to Hermione and heading towards the common room to grab his Quidditch gear.
Ron lingered for a moment, "Hermione?"
"Yes Ron?"
"Well I was wondering, if well.., "
"Wondering what Ron?" Hermione looked up from her book.
"If there was something going on with you and Harry, I mean Malfoy has been hinting that there is something going on...and the looks you give Harry when he isn't looking and all that." He stumbled through it not looking at her.
Hermione sighed, "Ron can we talk about it later? I don't think now is a good time."
Ron looked up at Hermione and saw the anxiety on her face. "Ya sure how about later after the trials and such then?"
Hermione nodded, "Meet me in the common Room and we'll go somewhere private to talk then."
Ron nodded. "Talk to you later Hermione." He said before rushing off to grab his gear.
Harry wondered on to the pitch and looked at the housemates who had gathered.
"Harry this is going to take forever at least half the house has to be here." Ron said coming up behind him.
Harry nodded, you call out all those who want to beaters, and I'll start looking at chasers."
The two separated calling forth the people who had sighed up for one or the other, the ones that had signed up for both tried out with the beaters first.
The try outs went smoothly the first hour or so, but then trouble showed up in the form of Draco Malfoy who had decided that it was time to open his big mouth. "Hey potter shouldn't you be learning to fold nappies? Or is it weasels?" He shouted it loud enough for everyone to hear. The pitch became silent but Harry went into a dive, stopping just inches from Draco's head, "Malfoy if you know what is good for you, you will leave immediately."
Draco looked into Harry's face and turned whiter then he already was. Draco backed off as he said it almost stumbling in his haste, before turning around and running fallowed closely behind by Crabbe and Goyle.
Ron went white as he heard the words Draco said, flying over to Harry he looked at his face and saw the truth, "Harry?" He asked already knowing the awnser.
"Not now Ron," Harry looked at his friend and saw the pain on his face, "We'll talk about it later. We need to finish this."
Ron nodded and went back to the beaters. "All right listen up; Malfoy is nothing but a Git that doesn't know how to make a joke."
"What did he mean Ron? Did Harry knock someone up?" Natalie Macdonald a third year asked.
"No no, nothing of the kind just Malfoy's sick humor." Ron said covering for his friends knowing without a doubt that Harry had in fact knocked someone up, his best friend at that. "Come on let's get back to it. No sense letting Malfoy ruin the tryouts.
They got back into the routine if not a little more subdued and soon they had found their players,
Harry had chosen,
Ginny Weasley, Michelle Vuong, and Amanda Spinet, Alicia's younger sister to be Chasers. The beaters that were chosen were Dean Tomas and Seamus Finnigan.
Harry smiled and looked at the team members in front of him. "Congratulations, I know with this team we will be unstoppable. Our Practice times will be Wednesdays, and Fridays and Sundays. Our first practice will be tomorrow." He watched as everyone filed off the pitch and back into the castle. He let out a sigh with the team picked he could now talk to Ron.
Ron had controlled his anger through out the tryouts, flew towards Harry. "When in the bloody hell were you going to tell me?" He shouted
"Ron., what Malfoy.Said..."
"Don't deny it, and lie to me again."
"I wasn't going to and when did I ever lie to you?"
"You mean you don't remember telling me you didn't have feelings for Hermione?"
Harry was about to reply, but he was the Ravenclaws starting to file on to the pitch. "Can we take this elsewhere?"
Ron nodded, having no interest in fighting with Harry in front of people of other house.
Gwen had been on watch all week for retaliation for her prank on Severus. Surprisingly when she had seen him at dinner that night he had been cool and calm, saying that it was not appropriate for her to do that, as it diminished the respect the students had for him. She asked if he would let her go because if not it was just the beginning. He had simply shook his head and said that he would see her that evening. She had gone to his bed again that night and every night since then.
She wasn't happy or proud of it, but he held a power over her, that only one other had held. She opened her eyes as she remembered it all. Feeling the prickling behind her eyes, she got out of bed quickly and running to the washroom getting there before the tears came. It had been a long night and she was still feeling the effects of it. She and Sirius had tried to sit down and work out the problems and come to some sort of understanding, but all they had done was fight. They had fought about everything from things she had done in school, all the way to the present. Strangely they had never gotten to Sirius's sins. He seemed to make sure to keep it all on her faults, he had been mean and cruel to her before but this was getting ridicules, would he never forgive her? She felt the tears fall, She had never meant to come back here especially when she had found out that he had escaped Azkaban but when Dumbledore had owled her and told her that both Harry and Draco had needed her she knew she had too. It was only right and so now here she was, stuck in the same chambers with a man she loved and loved her back but couldn't live with, and in the same castle with a man she could live with but who didn't love her. She looked in the mirror and for the first time truly saw herself, "must your life always be a constant drama?" She asked herself as she washed the tears and redness from her face. She looked at the time and saw that she had little under an hour before she was to meet Harry. Quickly she pushed all her thoughts aside and started getting ready.
"You okay?"
"I'm fine thank you, just needed a longer then usual."
Severus knew she was lying, but knew he wouldn't get the truth out of her. "Well if you are ready we can get lunch and still have time to prepare Remus's potion."
"I highly doubt that you need me for that and besides I have tea with Harry today."
"Oh, well in that case I'll see you tonight."
"No Severus you will not. I need space I need time, this is too soon. I admit I never should have been in your bed at all not yet, maybe never again."
"Gwen."
"No Sev, I've made up my mind, Please respect my decision this once. You've proven that you still love me and care for me. I would be happy to spend sometime with you, but please give me space."
Severus backed off. He knew she was serious and, he could respect that. "Fine. I will have your things moved to another set of chambers."
"Thank you Severus."
Gwen left then and headed towards Sirius's chambers where Harry and she had agreed they would have tea until he was more comfortable. She had been just about to knock on the door when it opened,
"Good your here, you deal with this," Sirius said looking particularly irked and frazzled, before pulling her inside and pushing her into the sitting room. There seated and scowling were Ron, Hermione and Harry. Looking more closely she saw Ron with a slightly bruised chin and Harry looked to have a black eye appearing...
"What's going on here?"
"HE, she, they, Malfoy, pregnant, slept together, stupid git" all three talked at once causing Gwen to frown.
"Okay one at a time, Harry you start."
"Malfoy came on to the pitch today, he knows about Hermione and me somehow. Ron here heard as well as half of Gryffindor house. I managed to shut down Malfoy but I think that he'll start up again."
"Okay, Ron?"
"They're going to have a BABY! They didn't tell me they were together, and He slept with the woman I love." Ron shouted.
Hermione sat up her eyes wide, "You what!"
Ron turned bright red, "I love you, just like I love him, you guys are my best friends and you didn't even tell me." He said back tracking. "I asked you several times what was wrong or going on and you didn't say a word, you betrayed me."
Hermione stood up, "we didn't betray you Ron, Honest, we just at first didn't see any sense in saying anything, and then we didn't know how to tell you. Besides Harry and I decided that we aren't a couple." Tears rolled down Hermione's cheeks, "He doesn't love me like that. We are best friends, Harry and I just blurred the line for a time. I figured it out a long time ago that Harry and I weren't and aren't meant to be together. We just gave each other what we needed at the time."
The room was silent as the room absorbed the revelations that had been brought to light.
Gwen looked at Hermione with knowing and held her arms open. Hermione went into them as she shook as the tears racked her body.
Harry was shocked; he hadn't told Hermione that he didn't love her that way. He was trying to figure out how she knew, he had done his part this week asking about her welfare and being supportive. He looked at Ron who had his mouth open as though he was ready to catch flies; the room was quiet except for Hermione's sobs. But it was to be short lived.
"YOU STUPID GIT, WHY WEREN'T YOU GUYS MORE CAREFUL? " Ron shouted as he looked at Harry not sure what else to say.
"Honestly mate we didn't think about it. We were together 3 times this summer, and the first time was an accident." Harry said calmly not wanting to upset Ron anymore then he was.
Ron frowned and seemed to think on something before speaking again, "Do you love her? Cause she seems to think you don't."
"I never said he didn't love me Ron. He just doesn't love me that way." Hermione said having gained control of herself. "He loves me like a friend, a close friend but a friend."
"How do you know that Mione? Did he tell you that after he knocked you up to get out of taking care of you?"
"Ron, I've always known that. I always knew that if anything ever happened, it was stolen, that it wouldn't be forever, and he tried to be honorable. You can't expect his to do any less. He tried I turned him down. We don't love each other the way you should to get married."
Ron was upset and hurt, he couldn't believe what he had heard and saw. He sat down into one of the overstuffed chairs that were there. Totally defeated he just stared at Hermione. "I can't believe it, I just don't believe it."
"Ron?"
"Hermione you both are my best friends, but he knew how I felt about you and he still took what you offered."
"Ron I'm sorry." Harry whispered feeling worse by the minute, he then looked at Hermione and with a look of defeat spoke again, "See Hermione I told you, it's like I'm on a huge rubber band, when ever I'm happy, something bad happens, I was happy, I met a new family member, I was made prefect, everything was going well then BAM, Your pageant, my best mate hates me, and I'm miserable once more."
"Harry I don't hate you" Ron said coming out of his stupor.
"How can you say that? You were shooting daggers at me, you punched me, and I think that if you could have got away with it you'd have killed me."
"Angry yes, pissed to the point of wanting to beat the shit out of you totally, Hate you never."
"No more violence please, I've had to tear you apart once, next time I'll just hex you both." Sirius said breaking his silence as he remembered having to pull them apart in the hallways on his way here. "You three I think have a lot to talk about why don't you go do so. Peaceful mind you I don't want to hear anymore about you hitting each other. You guys were friends, and now is not the time to lose that. Harry, I'm sure tea with Gwen and I can wait till next week." He said looking at Gwen who still had a comforting arm around Hermione.
Gwen nodded, "Talk it out guys. Get it worked out, you are too good of friends to have this incident split you apart. Ron I know you are hurting and that you are angry and you have every right. Harry, Hermione you made a mistake, you hurt your best friend, think on how you would feel in his place, and what you would need to make things right. Now is not the time to be fighting, now is the time to heal the wounds you have inflicted and work to gain the trust and love you have for each other. Harry, you and Hermione as well have much to heal. It takes a lot from a friendship when a mistake of this magnitude happens. You both need to discuss the ramifications and consequences this will have on your friendship."
The three teenagers nodded still not quite meeting each others eyes, they left Sirius rooms and headed for the only place they knew they could talk in privet, the meeting room that had been set aside last year for the Order of Phoenix.
Sirius waited till they were all out of the room and the door closed before he turned to Gwen. "Poor kids." He sat down on the couch and shook his head in disbelief. "Why didn't anyone warn me that it was going to be this hard?"
"Because most of the time it isn't" Gwen said "I think I will go then, since tea was canceled." Gwen turned to leave and was half way to the door...
"I know how he feels, love someone forever, think you have a chance and then have it yanked from you."
"Sirius."
"Don't bother with it Gwen, You know as well as I that what we had was real"
Gwen sighed and instead of leaving turned and sat down. "I never said that it wasn't Sirius, You know I loved you. What we had was wonderful and exciting, but I was married, you knew that it was to keep you safe. I had to make him think that I was recruiting you. You were getting to close. Will you never forgive me for going back to Severus?"
Sirius shook his head, "Gwen, I forgave you for that a long time ago. I have no time to hate someone over something like that, What I don't forgive is you going to Voldemort in the first place, marring the slimy Git, and then when things got bad and James and Lilly died you ran off. Left everything, including your nephew. "
Gwen blinked back tears, "SOD off Sirius you don't know what I've been through, don't you think that I cried thinking about Harry that he was left with Lilly's twit of a sister, That Severus was left picking up the pieces, which you were in Azkaban? Don't you think I would have loved to come back? "
"Then why didn't you?"
"Because if I had my life would have been forfeit and Harry would have been hurt."
"Then why come back now?"
"Because Albus kept me informed, He knew where I was and he wrote me last year and said to make arrangements to come back. He said that both Harry and the order needed my help."
"Why not earlier? Like before Harry almost got killed last year?"
"Albus said not to come till the summer. He said that it would be better to wait so that Harry and I could get to know one another over the summer. He wasn't even sure that I'd be needed and that if by summer ever thing was finished then I could just be an Aunt to Harry, just be his family. "
Sirius just stared at Gwen as she talked, she was still so beautiful, he still loved her, but didn't dare let the feelings surface. He had been hurt once by her, he wasn't sure he wanted to chance it again, not with her still married to Severus. "So what have you been doing the last 16 years?"
"What I told Harry was the truth. I sang in Germany and got my teaching and music degrees."
"What about the troubles that went on there, you have anything to do with that?"
"Well. I did do a few things. But only to keep myself alive." Sirius nodded, "what you do?"
"Contacted local deatheaters, told them what I knew, and then when possible disposed of them. I never have and never will kill a good witch or wizard but that doesn't mean that I haven't killed."
Sirius understood, but was spectacle, "anyway I can verify that?"
"Not with out putting me in danger. I guess now is a good time to tell you that I'm undercover Sirius, I am supposedly here to lure Harry to Voldemort, and to give legitimacy to Severus, that's one of the reasons I haven't pushed for divorce."
"What!! You're still working for that monster? How could you Gwenyver. How could you stand to go to those meeting, Severus has made his reports I know what goes on there."
"I know Siri, but I have too. Anything to help Harry win. I'd give my life up for him."
Sirius nodded; somehow he understood what she was saying. But he had another axe to grind and so spoke his mind, "Divorce the slimy git, and tell him to keep his hands off of you." Sirius said angry that he cared and angry that she allowed it.
"Sirius don't start, Please, Severus just wants me back and you can't blame him for that. I am after all his wife. I can't divorce him right now anyway, if I did one of us or both of us could end up dead, he gave me legitimacy when I needed it and now I'm doing the same for him. I don't think I could ever live with him again, he's changed and so have I but I still love him, like I still love you. "
Sirius glared at Gwen, "Don't say that Gwen, He took advantage of you when you were young, he doesn't deserve you. You're a Potter for Merlin's sake." "Siri."
"You deserve better, better then him, better then me." Sirius stood up, "You may have been a death eater Gwen but you keep saying you didn't do anything, and I've talked to Dumbledore, he's told me that what you say is true. I know I should have believed you but after so many years and then everything that's happened, well it's hard to trust." He paused I've had time to think about it and I'm sorry, I said all kinds of things the last month and you've defended your self and it's only now that I've realized you were right. I know I don't deserve it but I want you to forgive me." He looked at Gwen "Please forgive me, and if what you say is true, that although you love him but you aren't sure you can live with him and that you love me, maybe we can have a second chance?" Gwen was shocked, "You said you didn't love me anymore, that you hated me, how can you want to give this, us a second chance?"
"I'm crazy; I'm setting myself up to be hurt but."
"But if you don't take the chance then how can you say you lived right?"
"Exactly."
Gwen stood up "I've never stopped loving you, and I'm not sure what the future holds, but I'm willing to think on it."
"While you think on it will you spend the evening with me?"
"Siri?"
Sirius gathered Gwen in his arms. "You have no idea the torture I've been through having you in my house, not daring to take you in my arms, thinking you were not the person I fell in love with and hating you because of your doing what you had to. Spend the evening with me; let me make love to you."
Gwen shook with desire, that's one thing they had always had right, "You don't know how much I suffered thinking you didn't love me anymore that you didn't care." She whispered before pulling him down to meet her lips.
Sirius moaned as he picked her up not breaking the kiss, carrying her into the bedroom he closed the door with a kick.
Gently he laid her on the Burgundy bed spread, "You always did look good in my bed." He said with a smirk as he took off his robes.
"Did I now, I seem to recall we didn't often make it to the bed."
Sirius laughed as he got on the bed, "No we didn't but we have time for that later, first things first I plan to make you forget his name," Taking her in his arms he pulled her on top of him, Kissing her lips he slowly started to raise her robes. "Why Ms potter, what is this, nothing but panties and a bra under your robes, how shocking." He said taking in the site of Gwen in a set of black French lace panties and a bra to match
Gwen giggled, "Had to make it easy in case a situation arose. Now shut up and kiss me."
The two kissed for what seemed to be hours as they touched each other becoming familiar with the changes to their bodies from years of hardship and pain.
Sirius whispered appreciation for the woman who was now stripped of her robes and only in a black thong. "My love you are as beautiful now as you were the first time we did this."
Gwen blushed, as she traced a finger from Sirius chest to his harded manhood. "your not so bad yourself." She pushed Sirius back as she took hold of him, slowly she crawled till she was within distance, slowly she took a tentative taste.
Sirius gasped as he felt her lick him, moaning he whispered her name as she took him into her mouth. She worked him for several moments, driving his arousal to almost it's peak. Unable to take it anymore he pulled her up, kissing her, he tasted himself. "It's been awhile for me so forgive my clumsyness." He whispered before pulling her on top of him, slowly he entered her, gapsing she clamped down. "You've never been clumsy," she gasped out as she felt him take a nipple in his mouth.
Sirus felt her move as she tested the waters of what was new but old. Unable to take her teasing anymore he rolled them so that he was on top. Slowly he started to thrust in and out. Bringing her and himself to the brink, he pulled out as he kissed his way down her body, stopping at her arousal, teasing he licked and kissed, slowly he moved his way up until he was at her breasts he licked her nipples and brought them to pointed peaks. "your so beautiful" he whispered as he brought himself up to kiss her. He kissed her softly before deepening the kiss, Positioning himself he slowly entered her again. He paused as he entered her fully, "I've missed you, I can't tell you how much. Through it all, the pain, the hurt,the feelings of betrayl I've loved you through it all."
"Siri, don't not now, make love to me now." Gwen pleaded accenting it by tightening her muscles,
Sirius groaned as he started to move within her, he moved slowly as he felt himself slowly losing control, he watched her face as she gasped at every thrust, "Sirius" she whispered indicating her need for him. Sirius picked up his pace as he felt the urgency in her body and in her voice. Thrusting hard and deep he felt his need reaching its peak, reaching down he teased her until she started to shudder, pushing her over the edge, he followed suit losing himself in the moment. Shouting out he reached climax as she dug her nails into his back. Slowly Sirius thrusted a few more times before lowering his weight on to her and kissing her lips. Their lust saited, they fell asleep still holding one another.