a/n: hey hey hey! This chapter is called I Dream of You More...and I fink
you get tha piccie of wat its supposed to be boutz...ON TO THE STORY but
first make a few short stops! ^-^;
I OWN NOTHING, NOTHING, NOTHIIINNNGGG AT AALLLLLL!!!!!!! *goes to the tune of that one whitney housten song...lolz*
Cold Heart, Gone Soft?
It was another one of those cold nights. He shivered underneath his blanket.
"Are you okay, darling? Because if you need another blanket I'd be happy to give you mines..." she said to him. Her voice...so sweet, it touched the depths of his heart.
"Oh, no, that's okay I'm only shivering for awhile...I'll be asleep in a minute anyway..." He told her and laid his head on his pillow. A few moments later he found her hugging him...her embrace, so tight, he wanted her to hold him forever. She snuggled into the back of his shirt. His hands slightly overlapped her hands and soon he found her breathing into his shirt.
"Sakura-san..." he started to say.
"Yes?" she said to him embracing him more tightly.
"I...I love you..." he said to her and put her in a position that he was on top of her. She smiled at him and put her hands up to his face.
"I love you, too, darling," she said with a sweet smile on her face and kissed him.
****
He woke up, sat on his bed and started thinking. 'That was one of our last kisses...' he thought. He tried to remember how it tasted...how it felt...how her body felt against his. But he couldn't, those memories were so faint. He wondered why they were coming to him.
Wondered 'Why now? After 3 years...?' He still secretly wished that Sakura were still alive. How he cried after he found out she had died after promising him that he should keep Hitaru. He didn't know why she was asking such a foolish question at that time...but now, now he does. He slipped into his suit and started to walk outside.
He was walking around a bit until he came to the Sakura tree. He remembered how Sakura told him how she got her name. He cut a branch full of the pink little flowers and smelled them. They smelled so...sweet, like Sakura did...
"You wanna know how I got my name?" she asked him.
"Why? It's your business..." he said.
"Well I'm gonna tell you anyway!" she said with a smile on her face. "You see, my mom passed away when I was 3...and well, my father hadn't thought of a name yet. So he was thinking of a few things my mother loved. She loved cooking...but why would he name me meso soup? Or rice balls? Or even Leeks! Haha! So he was walking through a garden and he spotted a Sakura tree. He remembered how much mama loved those! So he took me underneath the tree cut off a little branch full of the flowers and stuck them in my hair. Then he said to me 'Hey little lady! Your name is going to be Sakura! Because your mother loved it when the flowers fell in a swarm of 'pink snow'. And now you know why I am called SAKURA!" She said with another cheerful smile and a hearty laugh.
****
"Sakura...I miss you..." Sesshomaru said himself. He felt it was getting a bit cold and decided to go back inside. When he got to his room, he put the sakura down on his table. Then he climbed back into bed and went to sleep.
It was already morning when he woke up. He got up to sit in his usual spot. As he got up he noticed that there was a strange smell in his room. After a few minutes of searching the room for the smell he found it. It was the branch of sakura he got. He found them scattered over his floor. Not caring about it he just left it there.
He went out to the living room and sat down in his chair. He found Rin sitting on the ground. Surprisingly she looked calm.
"Is something the matter?" He asked her. She only looked up and opened her mouth as if she wanted to say something but couldn't. Suddenly she threw up all over the floor.
"Is something the matter?!" He asked her again. But yet again she only looked at him. Then a look of pain came from her face, she was clutching her stomach like she was in pain. She suddenly fell to the floor still clutching her stomach.
"Rin, tell me, what's wrong with you? Are you sick?" he asked her.
"I-I-don't wanna t-t-tell you..." She said through tears. "It hurts...it hurts..." She whined.
"If you don't tell me then..." He started to say. But then he remembered that this happened to Sakura. It happened to Sakura when he first found out that she was pregnant...with his child. "Tell me, Rin, are you pregnant?"
Rin shot him a look...surprisingly she got up from her spot. "Don't...just don't talk to me...today..." she said and went to her room.
"If...If Rin's pregnant...then that must mean..." He said to himself. "KOUGA!" he yelled and fell to the floor. "She wasn't supposed to get pregnant...that sick bastard...getting a 13 year old girl pregnant..." Sesshomaru said to himself.
****
'Oh my god...now Sesshomaru knows...no, no, no! He wasn't supposed to know!' Rin said covering her head with her hands. She started to cry...she didn't know that much about sexual intercourse...but when Kouga did it...it just felt so...right. She felt as if she was getting back at Sesshomaru for sleeping with Sakura. 'But it felt so...good...I didn't think anything like that would bring me pain...' she thought through her sobs. After awhile she tried to ease her pain by lying down but that didn't really do much. Her back and err...lower area...hurt so much. She didn't know what to do...if only Sakura hadn't died.
****
'Rin...got pregnant by that fucking bastard...that bitch...that bitch...if only he lived I'd kill him again!!!' Sesshomaru thought with disgust. His hands balling into fists every time he thought of Kouga. Picturing Rin sleeping with that bitch made him even madder. He punched a hole in the wall...fantasizing that, that was Kouga's head. He punched another hole and another until he got quite tired of it. He fell to the floor looking at his fist. It was bleeding but he didn't care...he could heal it...if he wanted.
He looked up at his wall. 'Ha! Jaken would be mad with me...seeing that I punched about 10 holes in the wall!' he thought. He felt a tap on his back...turning to see who it was thinking it would be Rin or even Jaken he told them to go away.
"Sorry big brother but I feel like I don't wanna..." A very familiar voice said to him.
"What the hell are you doing in my castle?" Sesshomaru said to him.
"Oh, so I can't even visit my older brother?" he said to him.
"Ask before you come...now what the hell do you want Inu Yasha?"
"Well hehe...you see...uhm...I dunno how to say this but...Kagome well...she..."
"She what? You want me to heal her don't you?"
"Well yeah..."
"Then it's settled..."
"What's settled?"
"Fight...whoever wins gets what they want..."
"And what do you want? In case I lose..."
"Me? I want...no, never mind...where's Kagome?" Sesshomaru said picking up his sword.
"Are you sure about this? I mean...we've never really settled anything without fighting..."
"Hai...I'm more sure than ever...Now where is she? Times running," Sesshomaru said turning his younger brother. Inu Yasha didn't know what to say, nevertheless what to do.
"Where is she?" Sesshomaru said getting impatient.
"She's out back..." Inu Yasha said pointing out the door.
"Why didn't you just bring her in here?"
"I thought you didn't like humans..."
"Yeah well...JUST GO GET HER!!!" Sesshomaru said a bit confused over his brother's question.
"Fine, fine I will!" Inu Yasha said and headed out the door.
****
"Miroku, Shippo, Sango...I don't think I'll last any longer..." Kagome said to her friends.
"W-what are you t-talking about?" Shippo asked her, tears welling up in his eyes.
"Kagome, you know as well as we do, Inu Yasha's gonna win that fight..." Sango said.
"Well...we don't really know..." Miroku said.
"Well if he loses...remember to bury me in a nice spot by the well so I can be as close to my era as possible," Kagome said.
"T-there's n-no need for t-that!" Shippo said, tears pouring out of his eyes.
Miroku got up and motioned Sango over to him.
"She's losing more blood than I thought..." Miroku said to her as they were as far away from Kagome and Shippo as possible.
"I noticed that...if Inu Yasha--" Sango said but cut off when Inu Yasha interrupted.
"If Inu Yasha, WHAT?!?!" Inu Yasha said to them.
"OH! YOU WON!!!" Miroku said a smile starting to spread on his face.
"Not exactly..." Sesshomaru said.
"What do you mea--" Miroku said but Sesshomaru cut him off.
"Never mind that...I already healed Kagome...she's fine now. So I guess you won't be needing me anymore..." Sesshomaru said and headed straight towards his castle.
"Wait a minute there, big bro!" Inu Yasha said grabbing Sesshomaru's shoulder. Sesshomaru stopped and turned around.
"What? I already solved all your damn problems..." He said getting a bit pissed.
"Jeez don't need to be so damn cocky...I just wanted to ask you a question..." Inu Yasha said taking his hand off Sesshomaru's shoulder.
"Well what is it then?"
"Ahh...Why did you agree to save Kagome, when you never really cared much about her?"
"...I-I don't know...L-leave me alone..."
"Hai, you DO know! NOW ANSWER ME!!!"
"ARGH! All right...if you want to know so damn badly...I saved her because I wasn't able to save Rin...and...and...Sakura didn't want me to save her!"
"But-"
"JUST LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE! I ALREADY ANSWERED YOUR DAMN QUESTION! WHAT MORE DO YOU FUCKING WANT!?!?!"
"N-nothing...well...see ya," Inu Yasha said as he turned to pick Kagome up and go.
****
"Yeah...that's...right...Sakura she, she didn't want me to save her..." Sesshomaru said as he got back inside his castle. Another day has passed and gone, another day without Sakura. As he got in his bed getting ready to sleep he suddenly wondered why Sakura didn't want him to save her.
"Sessho-kun...if I die...please, please don't save me..." Sakura said her eyes full of tears. "Take care of Hitaru...and please...keep him...if you don't...then...just...I don't know...i'm not really that good at this stuff..."
"Why, don't you want me to save you?" Sesshomaru asked her while holding her hand.
"Reasons Sesshomaru...reasons..." she said. "I'm so tired...Hitaru's healthy...right?"
"Well Jaken said he was healthy..."
"That's good...haha...Hitaru he-he has your...eyes..." Sakura said and drifted off to sleep.
"My...eyes??" Sesshomaru said a bit confused and walked out the door.
****
a/n: hahaha...finished...a bit longer then the other chapters but well...yea...6 pages is long right?? okay now it's 7...yup! I fink it is long...well imma start with the other chapters now. THAT IS SOO SAD TO A 13 YEAR OLD GIRL!!! I don't know why I did that...but oh well...haha...pretty nasty, ne? and Kouga is how old??? I don't know...well SAYONARA!!! ~~Itsumo, xkawaiixpinayx
I OWN NOTHING, NOTHING, NOTHIIINNNGGG AT AALLLLLL!!!!!!! *goes to the tune of that one whitney housten song...lolz*
Cold Heart, Gone Soft?
It was another one of those cold nights. He shivered underneath his blanket.
"Are you okay, darling? Because if you need another blanket I'd be happy to give you mines..." she said to him. Her voice...so sweet, it touched the depths of his heart.
"Oh, no, that's okay I'm only shivering for awhile...I'll be asleep in a minute anyway..." He told her and laid his head on his pillow. A few moments later he found her hugging him...her embrace, so tight, he wanted her to hold him forever. She snuggled into the back of his shirt. His hands slightly overlapped her hands and soon he found her breathing into his shirt.
"Sakura-san..." he started to say.
"Yes?" she said to him embracing him more tightly.
"I...I love you..." he said to her and put her in a position that he was on top of her. She smiled at him and put her hands up to his face.
"I love you, too, darling," she said with a sweet smile on her face and kissed him.
****
He woke up, sat on his bed and started thinking. 'That was one of our last kisses...' he thought. He tried to remember how it tasted...how it felt...how her body felt against his. But he couldn't, those memories were so faint. He wondered why they were coming to him.
Wondered 'Why now? After 3 years...?' He still secretly wished that Sakura were still alive. How he cried after he found out she had died after promising him that he should keep Hitaru. He didn't know why she was asking such a foolish question at that time...but now, now he does. He slipped into his suit and started to walk outside.
He was walking around a bit until he came to the Sakura tree. He remembered how Sakura told him how she got her name. He cut a branch full of the pink little flowers and smelled them. They smelled so...sweet, like Sakura did...
"You wanna know how I got my name?" she asked him.
"Why? It's your business..." he said.
"Well I'm gonna tell you anyway!" she said with a smile on her face. "You see, my mom passed away when I was 3...and well, my father hadn't thought of a name yet. So he was thinking of a few things my mother loved. She loved cooking...but why would he name me meso soup? Or rice balls? Or even Leeks! Haha! So he was walking through a garden and he spotted a Sakura tree. He remembered how much mama loved those! So he took me underneath the tree cut off a little branch full of the flowers and stuck them in my hair. Then he said to me 'Hey little lady! Your name is going to be Sakura! Because your mother loved it when the flowers fell in a swarm of 'pink snow'. And now you know why I am called SAKURA!" She said with another cheerful smile and a hearty laugh.
****
"Sakura...I miss you..." Sesshomaru said himself. He felt it was getting a bit cold and decided to go back inside. When he got to his room, he put the sakura down on his table. Then he climbed back into bed and went to sleep.
It was already morning when he woke up. He got up to sit in his usual spot. As he got up he noticed that there was a strange smell in his room. After a few minutes of searching the room for the smell he found it. It was the branch of sakura he got. He found them scattered over his floor. Not caring about it he just left it there.
He went out to the living room and sat down in his chair. He found Rin sitting on the ground. Surprisingly she looked calm.
"Is something the matter?" He asked her. She only looked up and opened her mouth as if she wanted to say something but couldn't. Suddenly she threw up all over the floor.
"Is something the matter?!" He asked her again. But yet again she only looked at him. Then a look of pain came from her face, she was clutching her stomach like she was in pain. She suddenly fell to the floor still clutching her stomach.
"Rin, tell me, what's wrong with you? Are you sick?" he asked her.
"I-I-don't wanna t-t-tell you..." She said through tears. "It hurts...it hurts..." She whined.
"If you don't tell me then..." He started to say. But then he remembered that this happened to Sakura. It happened to Sakura when he first found out that she was pregnant...with his child. "Tell me, Rin, are you pregnant?"
Rin shot him a look...surprisingly she got up from her spot. "Don't...just don't talk to me...today..." she said and went to her room.
"If...If Rin's pregnant...then that must mean..." He said to himself. "KOUGA!" he yelled and fell to the floor. "She wasn't supposed to get pregnant...that sick bastard...getting a 13 year old girl pregnant..." Sesshomaru said to himself.
****
'Oh my god...now Sesshomaru knows...no, no, no! He wasn't supposed to know!' Rin said covering her head with her hands. She started to cry...she didn't know that much about sexual intercourse...but when Kouga did it...it just felt so...right. She felt as if she was getting back at Sesshomaru for sleeping with Sakura. 'But it felt so...good...I didn't think anything like that would bring me pain...' she thought through her sobs. After awhile she tried to ease her pain by lying down but that didn't really do much. Her back and err...lower area...hurt so much. She didn't know what to do...if only Sakura hadn't died.
****
'Rin...got pregnant by that fucking bastard...that bitch...that bitch...if only he lived I'd kill him again!!!' Sesshomaru thought with disgust. His hands balling into fists every time he thought of Kouga. Picturing Rin sleeping with that bitch made him even madder. He punched a hole in the wall...fantasizing that, that was Kouga's head. He punched another hole and another until he got quite tired of it. He fell to the floor looking at his fist. It was bleeding but he didn't care...he could heal it...if he wanted.
He looked up at his wall. 'Ha! Jaken would be mad with me...seeing that I punched about 10 holes in the wall!' he thought. He felt a tap on his back...turning to see who it was thinking it would be Rin or even Jaken he told them to go away.
"Sorry big brother but I feel like I don't wanna..." A very familiar voice said to him.
"What the hell are you doing in my castle?" Sesshomaru said to him.
"Oh, so I can't even visit my older brother?" he said to him.
"Ask before you come...now what the hell do you want Inu Yasha?"
"Well hehe...you see...uhm...I dunno how to say this but...Kagome well...she..."
"She what? You want me to heal her don't you?"
"Well yeah..."
"Then it's settled..."
"What's settled?"
"Fight...whoever wins gets what they want..."
"And what do you want? In case I lose..."
"Me? I want...no, never mind...where's Kagome?" Sesshomaru said picking up his sword.
"Are you sure about this? I mean...we've never really settled anything without fighting..."
"Hai...I'm more sure than ever...Now where is she? Times running," Sesshomaru said turning his younger brother. Inu Yasha didn't know what to say, nevertheless what to do.
"Where is she?" Sesshomaru said getting impatient.
"She's out back..." Inu Yasha said pointing out the door.
"Why didn't you just bring her in here?"
"I thought you didn't like humans..."
"Yeah well...JUST GO GET HER!!!" Sesshomaru said a bit confused over his brother's question.
"Fine, fine I will!" Inu Yasha said and headed out the door.
****
"Miroku, Shippo, Sango...I don't think I'll last any longer..." Kagome said to her friends.
"W-what are you t-talking about?" Shippo asked her, tears welling up in his eyes.
"Kagome, you know as well as we do, Inu Yasha's gonna win that fight..." Sango said.
"Well...we don't really know..." Miroku said.
"Well if he loses...remember to bury me in a nice spot by the well so I can be as close to my era as possible," Kagome said.
"T-there's n-no need for t-that!" Shippo said, tears pouring out of his eyes.
Miroku got up and motioned Sango over to him.
"She's losing more blood than I thought..." Miroku said to her as they were as far away from Kagome and Shippo as possible.
"I noticed that...if Inu Yasha--" Sango said but cut off when Inu Yasha interrupted.
"If Inu Yasha, WHAT?!?!" Inu Yasha said to them.
"OH! YOU WON!!!" Miroku said a smile starting to spread on his face.
"Not exactly..." Sesshomaru said.
"What do you mea--" Miroku said but Sesshomaru cut him off.
"Never mind that...I already healed Kagome...she's fine now. So I guess you won't be needing me anymore..." Sesshomaru said and headed straight towards his castle.
"Wait a minute there, big bro!" Inu Yasha said grabbing Sesshomaru's shoulder. Sesshomaru stopped and turned around.
"What? I already solved all your damn problems..." He said getting a bit pissed.
"Jeez don't need to be so damn cocky...I just wanted to ask you a question..." Inu Yasha said taking his hand off Sesshomaru's shoulder.
"Well what is it then?"
"Ahh...Why did you agree to save Kagome, when you never really cared much about her?"
"...I-I don't know...L-leave me alone..."
"Hai, you DO know! NOW ANSWER ME!!!"
"ARGH! All right...if you want to know so damn badly...I saved her because I wasn't able to save Rin...and...and...Sakura didn't want me to save her!"
"But-"
"JUST LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE! I ALREADY ANSWERED YOUR DAMN QUESTION! WHAT MORE DO YOU FUCKING WANT!?!?!"
"N-nothing...well...see ya," Inu Yasha said as he turned to pick Kagome up and go.
****
"Yeah...that's...right...Sakura she, she didn't want me to save her..." Sesshomaru said as he got back inside his castle. Another day has passed and gone, another day without Sakura. As he got in his bed getting ready to sleep he suddenly wondered why Sakura didn't want him to save her.
"Sessho-kun...if I die...please, please don't save me..." Sakura said her eyes full of tears. "Take care of Hitaru...and please...keep him...if you don't...then...just...I don't know...i'm not really that good at this stuff..."
"Why, don't you want me to save you?" Sesshomaru asked her while holding her hand.
"Reasons Sesshomaru...reasons..." she said. "I'm so tired...Hitaru's healthy...right?"
"Well Jaken said he was healthy..."
"That's good...haha...Hitaru he-he has your...eyes..." Sakura said and drifted off to sleep.
"My...eyes??" Sesshomaru said a bit confused and walked out the door.
****
a/n: hahaha...finished...a bit longer then the other chapters but well...yea...6 pages is long right?? okay now it's 7...yup! I fink it is long...well imma start with the other chapters now. THAT IS SOO SAD TO A 13 YEAR OLD GIRL!!! I don't know why I did that...but oh well...haha...pretty nasty, ne? and Kouga is how old??? I don't know...well SAYONARA!!! ~~Itsumo, xkawaiixpinayx