I wish I could say I was a good man. I wish I could say that my intentions towards this girl were entirely pure. True, I felt she deserved much more than life had given her. But she had been haunting my impure dreams from the time she was fourteen, and I first noticed that she was becoming a woman.
Yes, I lusted after her. However, I also respected her intelligence, and our relationship as a student and a teacher. So, in the beginning, my only intention was to give her something to distract herself from the unhappiness she would soon experience. Unfortunately, or perhaps fortunately, this is not what it became.
My years as a Death Eater taught me to guard my expressions well. Otherwise, I know she would have guess the truth much earlier. The question that haunted me was what she would think of me. I should have guessed that someone in so much pain would not think to question my motives until much later. . . Until I had already shown her the truth.
Yes, I lusted after her. However, I also respected her intelligence, and our relationship as a student and a teacher. So, in the beginning, my only intention was to give her something to distract herself from the unhappiness she would soon experience. Unfortunately, or perhaps fortunately, this is not what it became.
My years as a Death Eater taught me to guard my expressions well. Otherwise, I know she would have guess the truth much earlier. The question that haunted me was what she would think of me. I should have guessed that someone in so much pain would not think to question my motives until much later. . . Until I had already shown her the truth.