CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
"What?" Dawn piped up as Buffy and Spike stared at each other. They ignored her.
Buffy got up and started to pace, this was so messed up. She looked at Spike who was just sat in a chair not saying anything, in fact he hadn't said anything since her little outburst.
Spike was in shock, he could kick himself, when was he going to realize that unless you want a kid you have to use something when you go at it. That was how he'd ended up with Joy, yes he loved her and was glad to have her but she wasn't planned he just never thought about it. He'd never had to, he was a virgin when Dru had changed him and them after Joy was born there was some complications so Nicola couldn't have any more children.
"This is so fucked up, how can I have a baby I'm too old?" Buffy shouted, everyone in the waiting room kept their eyes on her enjoying the drama. She looked at Spike again, still no movement or words and it was really starting to piss her off.
Buffy walked up to Spike stood right in front of him and gave him a short sharp kick to the shin.
"Ow bloody 'ell you stupid bint!" Spike shouted as hugged his leg. Then he caught Buffy's eye he was the anger there but he could also see that and see the fear.
"So you have got something to say for yourself then?" Buffy said her voice cool and dripping with fury.
"Well I'm I don't really understand, I mean how do you know?" Spike asked having never understood that whole female intuition thing. Buffy gave him a death stare.
Why was he being so thick? She knew that the Victorians weren't really open with sex education but she expected more than this from him, he understood only too well how to perform the action why couldn't he grasp the consequences?
"Well I've been sick and with Joy's pregnancy I didn't realize that I'd skipped my period." Buffy said slumping back down into her chair, she watched as Spike's face flamed at the mention of periods. Then she started to cry.
Spike didn't know what to do or what to say. Here he was over a hundred forty years old and he was going to be a father again and the mother was sat crying. This was so bad, shakily he moved his hand to pat her on the back hoping that she wouldn't punch him.
"Oh my god I'm having a baby with Spike!" Buffy said the volume of her voice rising once more.
Spike heard the disgust in her voice and his temper snapped, he should have known that all she wanted him for was a quick fuck.
"So now it's coming out innit? Having a baby isn't the bad thing it's havin' a baby with Spike. Evil soulless Spike! And my name is William for fucks sake!" Now he was shouting.
Dawn watched the drama that was unfolding before her, if it hadn't been so close to home she would have laughed her sister was having a baby, with Spike! But Dawn could see the tension going on between them and she knew that it normally just led to Spike getting beaten up, but hell she wasn't about to step in.
Spike strode away from her he couldn't take it to look in those eyes and see her disgust. Buffy got up and grabbed him by the arm.
"Right so you're just gonna walk away then, good idea Spike I wish I could do that." Buffy said wiping her tears away.
Spike glared at her, "Don't deny it then pet you really are that disgusted at the thought of having something of mine inside of you. I really believed you loved you know."
Buffy's face crumpled up in confusion, she didn't understand what he was talking about or why he was so made.
"Disgusted? What? I do you love you Spike." He looked at her while she spoke he could see it in her eyes that she spoke the truth, he expression softened towards her.
"What you just said about having a baby with ME, it sounded pretty much it was me you had the problem with not the baby." Spike's voice was soft and hurt now, Buffy took hold of his hand because she knew that he was only seconds away from crying.
"No, it's not you honey." Buffy said planting little kisses on his hand.
"Well then you don't want our baby, you can't get rid of my baby Buffy I won't let you." Even though his words were harsh they served as a comfort to Buffy it was good to know that he cared.
"No Spike listen to me it's not that, it's just how screwed up is this situation?" He looked at her as she spoke not sure of what she was talking about.
"What?"
"Well we're not twenty anymore, having a baby in your early forties isn't easy, it's hard."
Spike moved behind her now and wrapped his arms around her waist, he could take care of her and the baby he'd make it so easy for her.
"You're just scared pet cuz Will's wanker of a father walked out on you, I won't do that. Come on how well do you know me I won't leave." Spike cooed softly into her ear.
"But you did Spike, you did leave me." Buffy said finally giving into the urge to sob uncontrollably.
To Spike it felt like someone had stabbed him in the back, god how he regretted ever leaving her. She was right he had left her and it hurt her and no matter what he said how could she ever be sure that he wouldn't leave again. Leave her an old woman with a teenager to take care of.
"Do you trust me?" Spike asked a question that he'd asked before only this time he was hoping for a different answer. He pulled her round to face him.
"Yes." She said in between sobs.
"Well then believe me when I say I'm not leaving and I won't as long as you want me here." Buffy smiled as Spiked pulled her into a hug.
~*~
Dawn hadn't made any attempt to speak to them, they had been stood holding each other for about twenty minutes. The whole waiting room had become totally engrossed in the events that were passing between them even though they got a bit confused at the evil soulless vampire reference.
She wanted to talk to them but she knew that when they were like this it wasn't a good idea, that the situation may just explode at any second. She watched as Spike lifted Buffy's chin so that he could look at her face.
"It's ok sweetheart, I promise that I'll take of you everything will be fine." He said in his smooth English accent that he knew soothed her.
"But Spike its all such a mess." She protested.
"No it's not, could on explain it to me."
"Spike our children are married!"
She watched as Spike made a funny face, "Well pet there's no much that can be done about it now."
Buffy looked at him as if he'd grown another head and then she heard Dawn start to laugh.
"And tell me Dawnie what is so funny?" Buffy said glaring at her younger sister.
Dawn was just about to answer when the door to the labour room swung open.
"We've got a son! We've had a little boy." Will shouted with pure joy that moment he came through the door.
TBC.
"What?" Dawn piped up as Buffy and Spike stared at each other. They ignored her.
Buffy got up and started to pace, this was so messed up. She looked at Spike who was just sat in a chair not saying anything, in fact he hadn't said anything since her little outburst.
Spike was in shock, he could kick himself, when was he going to realize that unless you want a kid you have to use something when you go at it. That was how he'd ended up with Joy, yes he loved her and was glad to have her but she wasn't planned he just never thought about it. He'd never had to, he was a virgin when Dru had changed him and them after Joy was born there was some complications so Nicola couldn't have any more children.
"This is so fucked up, how can I have a baby I'm too old?" Buffy shouted, everyone in the waiting room kept their eyes on her enjoying the drama. She looked at Spike again, still no movement or words and it was really starting to piss her off.
Buffy walked up to Spike stood right in front of him and gave him a short sharp kick to the shin.
"Ow bloody 'ell you stupid bint!" Spike shouted as hugged his leg. Then he caught Buffy's eye he was the anger there but he could also see that and see the fear.
"So you have got something to say for yourself then?" Buffy said her voice cool and dripping with fury.
"Well I'm I don't really understand, I mean how do you know?" Spike asked having never understood that whole female intuition thing. Buffy gave him a death stare.
Why was he being so thick? She knew that the Victorians weren't really open with sex education but she expected more than this from him, he understood only too well how to perform the action why couldn't he grasp the consequences?
"Well I've been sick and with Joy's pregnancy I didn't realize that I'd skipped my period." Buffy said slumping back down into her chair, she watched as Spike's face flamed at the mention of periods. Then she started to cry.
Spike didn't know what to do or what to say. Here he was over a hundred forty years old and he was going to be a father again and the mother was sat crying. This was so bad, shakily he moved his hand to pat her on the back hoping that she wouldn't punch him.
"Oh my god I'm having a baby with Spike!" Buffy said the volume of her voice rising once more.
Spike heard the disgust in her voice and his temper snapped, he should have known that all she wanted him for was a quick fuck.
"So now it's coming out innit? Having a baby isn't the bad thing it's havin' a baby with Spike. Evil soulless Spike! And my name is William for fucks sake!" Now he was shouting.
Dawn watched the drama that was unfolding before her, if it hadn't been so close to home she would have laughed her sister was having a baby, with Spike! But Dawn could see the tension going on between them and she knew that it normally just led to Spike getting beaten up, but hell she wasn't about to step in.
Spike strode away from her he couldn't take it to look in those eyes and see her disgust. Buffy got up and grabbed him by the arm.
"Right so you're just gonna walk away then, good idea Spike I wish I could do that." Buffy said wiping her tears away.
Spike glared at her, "Don't deny it then pet you really are that disgusted at the thought of having something of mine inside of you. I really believed you loved you know."
Buffy's face crumpled up in confusion, she didn't understand what he was talking about or why he was so made.
"Disgusted? What? I do you love you Spike." He looked at her while she spoke he could see it in her eyes that she spoke the truth, he expression softened towards her.
"What you just said about having a baby with ME, it sounded pretty much it was me you had the problem with not the baby." Spike's voice was soft and hurt now, Buffy took hold of his hand because she knew that he was only seconds away from crying.
"No, it's not you honey." Buffy said planting little kisses on his hand.
"Well then you don't want our baby, you can't get rid of my baby Buffy I won't let you." Even though his words were harsh they served as a comfort to Buffy it was good to know that he cared.
"No Spike listen to me it's not that, it's just how screwed up is this situation?" He looked at her as she spoke not sure of what she was talking about.
"What?"
"Well we're not twenty anymore, having a baby in your early forties isn't easy, it's hard."
Spike moved behind her now and wrapped his arms around her waist, he could take care of her and the baby he'd make it so easy for her.
"You're just scared pet cuz Will's wanker of a father walked out on you, I won't do that. Come on how well do you know me I won't leave." Spike cooed softly into her ear.
"But you did Spike, you did leave me." Buffy said finally giving into the urge to sob uncontrollably.
To Spike it felt like someone had stabbed him in the back, god how he regretted ever leaving her. She was right he had left her and it hurt her and no matter what he said how could she ever be sure that he wouldn't leave again. Leave her an old woman with a teenager to take care of.
"Do you trust me?" Spike asked a question that he'd asked before only this time he was hoping for a different answer. He pulled her round to face him.
"Yes." She said in between sobs.
"Well then believe me when I say I'm not leaving and I won't as long as you want me here." Buffy smiled as Spiked pulled her into a hug.
~*~
Dawn hadn't made any attempt to speak to them, they had been stood holding each other for about twenty minutes. The whole waiting room had become totally engrossed in the events that were passing between them even though they got a bit confused at the evil soulless vampire reference.
She wanted to talk to them but she knew that when they were like this it wasn't a good idea, that the situation may just explode at any second. She watched as Spike lifted Buffy's chin so that he could look at her face.
"It's ok sweetheart, I promise that I'll take of you everything will be fine." He said in his smooth English accent that he knew soothed her.
"But Spike its all such a mess." She protested.
"No it's not, could on explain it to me."
"Spike our children are married!"
She watched as Spike made a funny face, "Well pet there's no much that can be done about it now."
Buffy looked at him as if he'd grown another head and then she heard Dawn start to laugh.
"And tell me Dawnie what is so funny?" Buffy said glaring at her younger sister.
Dawn was just about to answer when the door to the labour room swung open.
"We've got a son! We've had a little boy." Will shouted with pure joy that moment he came through the door.
TBC.