CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
"Well that's just twice the cuteness Buff." Dawn said as Buffy explained to her what had happened at the doctors office.
"Yeah and twice the work." Buffy said huffing around the lounge.
Dawn listened to her sisters words while watching Spike behind her, she saw the falre of anger in his eyes. Dawn knew that Buffy had really done it this time, Spike was about to explode so the only sensible thing would be to get the hell out of the way.
"I've had just about enough of you for god sake Buffy what's your problem!" Spike shouted as Dawn made her way up the stairs as quickly as possible.
"I sorry are you talking to me?" Replied Buffy as she turned to face a very angry looking Spike.
"Yes and you know I am, I'm getting sick to bloody death of your whining."
"It's not like I wanted to be in this situation, but yet again you do something and I have to deal with it." Buffy spat back at him.
"And what's that supposed to mean?" he asked.
"You were the one that left and I had to try and comfort Dawn!" Her tone of voice was now icy and gave away no love. Spike pulled a cigarette out of his pocket and made his way to the front door.
"Leaving gain Spike?"
"No you stupid bint I'm going for a smoke!" Things were getting really heated know and Spike just wanted a few minutes out of the way. He had heard that pregnant woman could get a little irate but this was beyond a joke he couldn't say one word to Buffy without this sort of performance.
Lighting his smoke he inhaled deeply, he could hear Buffy talking in the other room but he left her to it, after all it was probably just more Spike bashing.
"Are you even listening to me?" Buffy shouted observing the distant look on his face.
"Er what did you say pet?" He knew that he was being annoying but hell this is what he had to put up with. Yes he loved the woman always had but this was beyond a joke, she loved him he knew that but she never showed it and her favourite trick was kicking him while he was down.
"Sometimes I hate you!" She had started to scream now in a high shrill pitch, and as much as Spike would have liked to just tell her to sod off he was worried about her.
"Calm down Buffy." He said softly as he came back to join her in the lounge.
"Calm down? That's easy for you to say you're not the one who has to be old and fat and ugly and carrying around not one but two babies!" Now she was on the verge of tears.
Everything could have been right here if only Spike had just listened to the real meaning behind what she had just said. She was scared that she was too old and all she wanted was for someone to tell her that she wasn't and that she was pretty and glowing, but no Spike didn't hear that message.
"I got an idea love when you have the kids I'll take them an' raise 'em without you, you'll never even have to see 'em. Will that make you happy, cuz it's clear that you don't want or love them?" Spike said grabbing is coat and heading out of the door.
He walked out leaving Buffy on the floor sobbing and shouting for him to come back.
~*~
Spike was banging on the door to his daughter home, he just kept banging until she opened it.
"Daddy you ok?" Joy asked noticing that her father looked as if he had been through the wars, which actually was true.
"Buffy." He said though gritted teeth.
Joy didn't need any more information things had been strained since she found out she was pregnant and it was only a matter of time before things came to a head.
"I thought you guys were coming over for dinner?" Joy said hoping that the question would open her father up a little.
Spike took a deep sigh, maybe Buffy was right and they were too old for this because he sure a hell did feel tired out now. "We went to the clinic and every things fine, fine times two in fact."
At first a look of confusion passed across Joy's face then she got it, "Twins?!" she squealed.
Spike nodded his head and smiled, talking about it brought back the image of the two tiny babies on the screen playing together in the safe home Buffy had created for them.
"Buffy's not too happy, I swear I think she doesn't even want them all she talks about is being old and fat and ugly. Why can't she see that she is beautiful and we should be thinking about the kids." He said pouring himself a glass of wine.
Joy almost started to laugh, it was amazing to think that this was the man that had spent his whole life around women and yet still didn't understand them any better for it. He'd been great raising her, he had explained all about girl's stuff and had been with when her periods started yet he couldn't see the meaning in Buffy's outbursts.
It was strange to think that this man had seen everything that had happened in the world over past one hundred an whatever years but couldn't deal with a scared pregnant woman.
"Dad don't you see what she trying to tell you?" Joy asked softly not wanting to offend her father.
Spike gave her a puzzled look, "That she doesn't want my children."
Joy raised an eyebrow, "No she's scared."
"Well aren't we all." He said throwing the wine into the back of his mouth.
"No dad she's convinced herself that she too old to be having children and she thinks it's wrong, that bad things are going to happen to the children because of it. It's because she wants them and loves them that she's like this." Joy explained.
Realization passed across Spike's face, why had he been so blind.
"Oh shit I've really messed this up 'aven't I?" He asked searching Joy's face for answers
"A bit yes, but you can make it right. Go home dad and sort it out."
Spike smiled at Joy it was times like this that he realized what a wonderful daughter he had raised, a woman full of love and empathy. He stood up, kissed her and Matthew and headed for the door.
As soon as she heard the close behind him she picked up the phone and dialled the summers number, "Hi Dawn it's me. Yeah he's on his way."
~*~
When Spike got back to the house on Revello drive he couldn't find it in himself to back in. Buffy had needed him to reassure her and he didn't do it in fact he had totally missed her plea. He sat on the back porch and lit a smoke.
It wasn't long before he heard the back door creak open.
"Your back." Buffy's smooth soft voice said.
"Yeah I am pet, I'm sorry."
"No it's my fault."
Spike turned and took hold of her hands, "No it's not it's mine I wasn't listening to what you were trying to tell me. But I understand know, you're scared, but you shouldn't be you are not too old."
"But Spike I am, think of all the things we can't do."
"Pet think of all the things we can do, all the experience we've got, we're financially secure which we weren't twenty years ago. We have more time on our hand to spend with our children and we have so much love to give."
For the first time in ages Buffy gave a great big genuine smile, with those few words Spike had made every thing right. Put her fears to rest.
"We've messed this up haven't we?" Buffy asked shyly.
"Nah, just working out this kinks now we can enjoy the pregnancy." Spike said with all his wisdom.
"And this family situation isn't going to get any easier. You should write one of your books about this." She said laughing, happy.
"I might just do that Goldilocks." He said fingering her hair which was long and out loose.
"Oh and you could call it 'Spike and his super spunk!'" Buffy said falling into fits of laughter. Things were going to work out ok.
TBC.
"Well that's just twice the cuteness Buff." Dawn said as Buffy explained to her what had happened at the doctors office.
"Yeah and twice the work." Buffy said huffing around the lounge.
Dawn listened to her sisters words while watching Spike behind her, she saw the falre of anger in his eyes. Dawn knew that Buffy had really done it this time, Spike was about to explode so the only sensible thing would be to get the hell out of the way.
"I've had just about enough of you for god sake Buffy what's your problem!" Spike shouted as Dawn made her way up the stairs as quickly as possible.
"I sorry are you talking to me?" Replied Buffy as she turned to face a very angry looking Spike.
"Yes and you know I am, I'm getting sick to bloody death of your whining."
"It's not like I wanted to be in this situation, but yet again you do something and I have to deal with it." Buffy spat back at him.
"And what's that supposed to mean?" he asked.
"You were the one that left and I had to try and comfort Dawn!" Her tone of voice was now icy and gave away no love. Spike pulled a cigarette out of his pocket and made his way to the front door.
"Leaving gain Spike?"
"No you stupid bint I'm going for a smoke!" Things were getting really heated know and Spike just wanted a few minutes out of the way. He had heard that pregnant woman could get a little irate but this was beyond a joke he couldn't say one word to Buffy without this sort of performance.
Lighting his smoke he inhaled deeply, he could hear Buffy talking in the other room but he left her to it, after all it was probably just more Spike bashing.
"Are you even listening to me?" Buffy shouted observing the distant look on his face.
"Er what did you say pet?" He knew that he was being annoying but hell this is what he had to put up with. Yes he loved the woman always had but this was beyond a joke, she loved him he knew that but she never showed it and her favourite trick was kicking him while he was down.
"Sometimes I hate you!" She had started to scream now in a high shrill pitch, and as much as Spike would have liked to just tell her to sod off he was worried about her.
"Calm down Buffy." He said softly as he came back to join her in the lounge.
"Calm down? That's easy for you to say you're not the one who has to be old and fat and ugly and carrying around not one but two babies!" Now she was on the verge of tears.
Everything could have been right here if only Spike had just listened to the real meaning behind what she had just said. She was scared that she was too old and all she wanted was for someone to tell her that she wasn't and that she was pretty and glowing, but no Spike didn't hear that message.
"I got an idea love when you have the kids I'll take them an' raise 'em without you, you'll never even have to see 'em. Will that make you happy, cuz it's clear that you don't want or love them?" Spike said grabbing is coat and heading out of the door.
He walked out leaving Buffy on the floor sobbing and shouting for him to come back.
~*~
Spike was banging on the door to his daughter home, he just kept banging until she opened it.
"Daddy you ok?" Joy asked noticing that her father looked as if he had been through the wars, which actually was true.
"Buffy." He said though gritted teeth.
Joy didn't need any more information things had been strained since she found out she was pregnant and it was only a matter of time before things came to a head.
"I thought you guys were coming over for dinner?" Joy said hoping that the question would open her father up a little.
Spike took a deep sigh, maybe Buffy was right and they were too old for this because he sure a hell did feel tired out now. "We went to the clinic and every things fine, fine times two in fact."
At first a look of confusion passed across Joy's face then she got it, "Twins?!" she squealed.
Spike nodded his head and smiled, talking about it brought back the image of the two tiny babies on the screen playing together in the safe home Buffy had created for them.
"Buffy's not too happy, I swear I think she doesn't even want them all she talks about is being old and fat and ugly. Why can't she see that she is beautiful and we should be thinking about the kids." He said pouring himself a glass of wine.
Joy almost started to laugh, it was amazing to think that this was the man that had spent his whole life around women and yet still didn't understand them any better for it. He'd been great raising her, he had explained all about girl's stuff and had been with when her periods started yet he couldn't see the meaning in Buffy's outbursts.
It was strange to think that this man had seen everything that had happened in the world over past one hundred an whatever years but couldn't deal with a scared pregnant woman.
"Dad don't you see what she trying to tell you?" Joy asked softly not wanting to offend her father.
Spike gave her a puzzled look, "That she doesn't want my children."
Joy raised an eyebrow, "No she's scared."
"Well aren't we all." He said throwing the wine into the back of his mouth.
"No dad she's convinced herself that she too old to be having children and she thinks it's wrong, that bad things are going to happen to the children because of it. It's because she wants them and loves them that she's like this." Joy explained.
Realization passed across Spike's face, why had he been so blind.
"Oh shit I've really messed this up 'aven't I?" He asked searching Joy's face for answers
"A bit yes, but you can make it right. Go home dad and sort it out."
Spike smiled at Joy it was times like this that he realized what a wonderful daughter he had raised, a woman full of love and empathy. He stood up, kissed her and Matthew and headed for the door.
As soon as she heard the close behind him she picked up the phone and dialled the summers number, "Hi Dawn it's me. Yeah he's on his way."
~*~
When Spike got back to the house on Revello drive he couldn't find it in himself to back in. Buffy had needed him to reassure her and he didn't do it in fact he had totally missed her plea. He sat on the back porch and lit a smoke.
It wasn't long before he heard the back door creak open.
"Your back." Buffy's smooth soft voice said.
"Yeah I am pet, I'm sorry."
"No it's my fault."
Spike turned and took hold of her hands, "No it's not it's mine I wasn't listening to what you were trying to tell me. But I understand know, you're scared, but you shouldn't be you are not too old."
"But Spike I am, think of all the things we can't do."
"Pet think of all the things we can do, all the experience we've got, we're financially secure which we weren't twenty years ago. We have more time on our hand to spend with our children and we have so much love to give."
For the first time in ages Buffy gave a great big genuine smile, with those few words Spike had made every thing right. Put her fears to rest.
"We've messed this up haven't we?" Buffy asked shyly.
"Nah, just working out this kinks now we can enjoy the pregnancy." Spike said with all his wisdom.
"And this family situation isn't going to get any easier. You should write one of your books about this." She said laughing, happy.
"I might just do that Goldilocks." He said fingering her hair which was long and out loose.
"Oh and you could call it 'Spike and his super spunk!'" Buffy said falling into fits of laughter. Things were going to work out ok.
TBC.