A/N: A/N: Wow long time huh? Well I'm back! Thanks to everyone who has
reviewed! How is everyone doing? Hope well. I know I have like a million
stories to get more chapters up on, and I plan on doing it them, but I'm
not sure when. I'm too impulsive to set a date, so sorry all, but I do plan
on finishing them. Hope ya enjoy!
Oh and Dolphy, I forgot to tell you I visited your site, and I absolutely love the whole Jim Hawkins thing you have going. It's awesome, and hysterical! Keep up the good work.
The team looked at Nosedive with a set glance of misapprehension.
"Dive", said WildWing, "What did you say?"
"Look I gave this a lot of thought and this works better for me", replied Nosedive.
"Surgery", repeated WildWing.
"Its not the end of the world", said Nosedive, "I mean look either way I lose, but with this, I don't know, I mean lots of people are blind Wing. So how bad could it be?"
"How bad could it be", cried WildWing, "Did you somehow completely erase the last few months? Nosedive you were blind and you hated it. For the first time in your life you didn't mind be babysat for. Nosedive, you weren't yourself and you were afraid of everything! Why would you want to go back to that?"
"But it took me off guard", answered Nosedive, "Look this is more straightforward. I know what is going to happen, unlike the therapy. I mean its just easier this way."
"Are you crazy", cried WildWing.
"WildWing", said Tanya, "May I have a word with you?"
"What", asked WildWing, "Why?"
"Come here, this is urgent", said Tanya.
The two walked out of the room.
Duke chuckled lightly to himself, "Gotta break balls huh kid?"
Nosedive looked helplessly up at his friend.
"Good for you", said the ex-thief with a wink, he brought the teen into a hug "Don't worry things'll turn out just fine, you'll see."
With that said he walked off leaving for bed. ~Kitchen~
"You said you'd be behind your brother with whatever decision he made", said Tanya strictly.
"Well how I was I supposed to know he'd make the wrong decision?" cried WildWing.
"WildWing", said Tanya, "There is no right or wrong decision, its whatever works best for Nosedive. You have to let him decide, and you did, and now he's decided, don't talk him out of it. If he chooses the wrong decision because of you, he will never forget it, he might forgive you, but never forget it, and you won't either. You have to do what's right here. And honestly I don't think that the surgery is such a bad idea anyway, I mean no therapy, and he's a kid remember Wing. Do you seriously want him in therapy? There are plenty of blind teenagers that are happy. Therapy will not make him happy I'm telling you that right now, do you understand me?"
WildWing nodded. "I guess your right, I'm going to go talk to Dive."
"Good idea", said Tanya, "And WildWing, choose your words carefully, don't say something that you might regret."
"But Tanya", said WildWing, "How could this possibly be right? I know my brother and I think that I should just make the decision for him."
"There are so many problems with that WildWing", responded Tanya, "That I am not even going to waste my time or yours in getting into them."
"No", said WildWing, "Please inform why I am so wrong here to just force my brother to do what I think is right."
"WildWing", said Tanya, "You can't tell your brother what to do! First of all, he is the one who is going to have to live with this choice, not you. And believe it or not he knows himself better than you do. Also you already told him that this decision was his, you can't go back on your word now that you have already said he could do what he wants. And most importantly, WildWing this is not easy, what Nosedive is going to go through is not easy, either way."
"So what are you getting at", asked WildWing.
"I'm getting at is this", replied Tanya, "Nosedive is going to be humiliated through therapy, everyone will feel sorry for him and try to be his best friend and you and I both know right now that he will not like that. He's too proud and he's tried too hard to act like one of everyone else."
"So", asked WildWing.
"So", said Tanya shortly, "He'll need a scapegoat, someone to blame this all on. All of these feelings of humiliation and mortification will have to be dumped on someone and guess what I'll be the first to tell you that you're the first runner up. He will hate you for so many reasons and guess what, no will be able to defend you, not even you. You left both options open for discussion and you said it was his choice, if you choose for him let me predict the future and tell you right now you will not see the light of day with your brother again. He will remember this WildWing."
"Well damn it Tanya", cried WildWing collapsing onto a seat, "This isn't fair!"
"WildWing", said Tanya soothingly, "You and I both know that no matter what I say you don't want to hear it. You want me to tell you that there is some magical pill that will cure Nosedive's problems. Well life isn't that easy, life isn't that smooth, its filled with ups and downs, and so far Nosedive keeps hitting rock bottom, so think of it this way the only place to go is up. You have to let your brother live his life his way. You can't change what's going to happen but you can change your attitude and maybe even his."
"What do you mean his attitude", asked WildWing dryly absorbing the rest of Tanya's knowledge and advice.
"WildWing", said Tanya, "Nosedive has been through very traumatizing situations for anyone but a teenager nonetheless. He has proven to be victorious however here comes another obstacle on the road to bliss and glee. He is overwhelmed with emotions WildWing, traumatized, apprehensive, and angry with himself for how life has treated him. He needs a big brother to be there and help him through this and just tell him that his life sucks."
"Wait what", asked WildWing.
"Tell him that his life sucks and than laugh", said Tanya, "Your brother is the right personality type for that to work. Tell him that he is going through hell, and tell him that you couldn't imagine going through what he is, but in a manly and not a corny way. Maybe get drunk with him, have fun with him, do whatever the hell it is men do, I don't care but make that kid realize that other people appreciate what he is going through and that he has the support that he needs."
WildWing nodded.
"It's just hard you know", said WildWing, "And it's not fair. And he's so young."
"Who me", asked Nosedive standing by the doorway.
WildWing smiled, "Yeah you, hey come here."
"I'll leave you two be", said Tanya, "I have a feeling that the rest of the team is siding with you Wing, and I just have to make sure they understand the whole concept."
"Oh okay Tanya", said WildWing, "And thanks."
Tanya smiled and left.
Nosedive sat there shaking, "So um Wing, whaddya think?"
"I thought you didn't care what I thought", replied WildWing, "And calm down, you're going to have a heart attack at like twenty if you keep this up."
Nosedive managed a weak smile.
"Now there's my brother", said WildWing.
Nosedive's smile escalated, but soon his cheer ran from his face.
"What's the matter Dive", asked WildWing.
"Why don't you want me to do this", asked Nosedive.
"What", said WildWing. "I didn't say that."
"Yeah well it's kind of easy to figure out what you think", said Nosedive, "Wing please just tell me that this has some upsides."
"Nosedive", said WildWing, "Listen to me right now okay? I don't have to reassure your opinions and what you think. You don't need me to tell you what you need."
"Wing", said Nosedive, "I do, I want you to tell me what you think. Wing, I'm scared, and I don't know what to do. Please give me some advice."
WildWing sighed, "Aw Dive I know that this sucks. I mean this really really sucks. Either way you're screwed."
"Um thanks", said Nosedive.
"Just listen. Now Nosedive its times like these define who you are as a person. You already proved to the world that you are more than courageous, and you proved to the world that you can beat all odds. Look Dive, its not over yet, and guess what that's okay. You just last this little part out and you will have some helluva story to tell when we get back home."
"It's not fair", cried Nosedive, "I'm sick of this!"
"Hey it's okay", said WildWing, "Look it's not over yet, that parts true, and yes this is not fun or fair. But you will succeed. And this part is easy."
"EASY", cried Nosedive.
"Yup", replied WildWing, "I think that you can be a very good blind teenager."
"Wait what", said Nosedive, "You're not going to try to convince me otherwise?"
"I don't have to convince you otherwise because I believe that you are doing the right thing", said WildWing, "I'll admit I was concerned about this at first but the more I think about it the more it makes sense, I mean who wants therapy?"
"Right", said Nosedive getting excited, "So you agree with me?"
"Not only do I agree with you baby bro, I am one hundred percent behind you. I got your back kid."
Nosedive grinned, "Thanks." The smile ran from his face, "It's still scary."
"Yup", replied WildWing, "That's life."
"You are being awfully calm about this Wing."
"Yup. I am not concerned, I have faith in you, and believe that you will become a stronger person from these "oh so fun" experiences."
Nosedive smiled, "Okay Wing, I'm glad to hear that. You'll help me right?"
"Wow that was random."
"You will right?"
"Sure of course I'll help you, you don't even have to ask that question Dive."
"I mean I want you to help me help myself."
"Explain."
"Like I want a life, I don't want to be some helpless little kid who can't do anything for himself. I want to be independent."
"And you will be. You just need to give it some time. And I will most definitely help you."
Silence.
And more silence.
"So this is really going to happen?"
"We'll take it one day at a time okay?"
Nosedive nodded.
"Dive, you're doing the best thing you could."
"Oh I know that much, its just this whole situation sucks."
"Yeah it does", said WildWing with a grin.
"Why are you so happy about this!?"
"Because you are going to be just fine, and I don't see this as a worry cause."
"What?"
"Look this is just a tiny rock in the road you know? It's not a big deal."
"Yes it is!"
"Oh?"
"It's a huge deal! I won't be able to see Wing! I won't be able to function! This is the scariest thing I have ever done! This is even scarier than before because I can only blame me! I am so lost, I don't want to be blind, I don't want therapy, I just want this all to stop! The only thing that I can possibly do to end all of this is suicide, and no I'm not suicidal, but it's sad that the only way to deal with my problem that doesn't involve those two options is death itself. WildWing this sucks, and you are sitting there smiling!"
WildWing smiled, finally he got his brother to admit to both WildWing and to himself all of the fears that he had kept in the back of his mind.
WildWing walked over to his brother and took him off guard by hugging him and kissing him lightly on the forehead. Then took him and put his hands on his shoulders.
"You are not giving yourself enough credit", said WildWing, "You're lost and feel screwed, well guess what that's what life is. You're life as of now is great, and that's how its going to continue. You know why? Because I know you, even better than you know yourself. You'll be blind for like an hour and for that hour you will play a whole self-pit game, then you'll get sick of it, compose yourself and move on with life and then look back at all of this and wonder why you ever wasted time worrying over this. You are going to take each day by day, and live each moment as you were just born into a new world. You'll get bored of being so ridden by angst and then you'll start being your normal self again, playing pranks and then using your disability to your advantage and say it couldn't have been you because you're blind. Nosedive you are my brother and I trust my life with you. You have to calm down, relax, and then just go for it, headstrong just like you have been your entire life. Me and the team are right here going to be supporting you, and then you'll see that life is going to be different and so damn interesting. Now you listen to me right now, I know you, and you are going to do just fine."
Nosedive smiled, "Thanks Wing. I guess I needed to hear that."
"Well that's what I'm here for."
"Nice to know." Nosedive drew a deep breath, "So um when do I actually you know go through with this?"
"Anytime I guess."
"How about now?"
"What?"
"You know me Wing, impulsive. And for all of my life being impulsive has had its upsides, so let's just do it and get it over with you know?"
"You sure?"
"Yeah."
"Um okay then, let me go get Tanya and ask her if right now is good." There was a pause, "Dive are you sure? Right now?"
"I'm positive", said Nosedive, "I want to do this, and I don't want to waste anymore time worrying about it. I'll worry when it happens. I'm not waiting anymore for my life to start. I want to do this, right now."
"Well", sighed WildWing, "Why the stars not? I'll go tell Tanya."
~ Thirty Minutes Later~
Nosedive was lying somewhat shaking and very pale on the operating table with WildWing right next to him.
"Okay Nosedive", said Tanya, "The next time you wake up you'll be blind, you understand this yes?"
"Yes", replied Nosedive.
"Alright then honey", said Tanya, "Why don't you give your brother a hug and then WildWing you'll have to leave."
"Would it be okay if he'd stayed", asked Nosedive.
"Well", began Tanya.
"Please", said Nosedive, "Oh please!"
"I'll stay for a bit Dive", said WildWing, "Just until you fall off, okay?"
Nosedive nodded and sat up. WildWing hugged his brother tightly, "Everything is going to be fine Dive."
Nosedive nodded. WildWing grabbed his brother's hand and squeezed it.
Tanya put a mask over Nosedive.
"Now you just relax", said Tanya.
And then everything went black.
Oh and Dolphy, I forgot to tell you I visited your site, and I absolutely love the whole Jim Hawkins thing you have going. It's awesome, and hysterical! Keep up the good work.
The team looked at Nosedive with a set glance of misapprehension.
"Dive", said WildWing, "What did you say?"
"Look I gave this a lot of thought and this works better for me", replied Nosedive.
"Surgery", repeated WildWing.
"Its not the end of the world", said Nosedive, "I mean look either way I lose, but with this, I don't know, I mean lots of people are blind Wing. So how bad could it be?"
"How bad could it be", cried WildWing, "Did you somehow completely erase the last few months? Nosedive you were blind and you hated it. For the first time in your life you didn't mind be babysat for. Nosedive, you weren't yourself and you were afraid of everything! Why would you want to go back to that?"
"But it took me off guard", answered Nosedive, "Look this is more straightforward. I know what is going to happen, unlike the therapy. I mean its just easier this way."
"Are you crazy", cried WildWing.
"WildWing", said Tanya, "May I have a word with you?"
"What", asked WildWing, "Why?"
"Come here, this is urgent", said Tanya.
The two walked out of the room.
Duke chuckled lightly to himself, "Gotta break balls huh kid?"
Nosedive looked helplessly up at his friend.
"Good for you", said the ex-thief with a wink, he brought the teen into a hug "Don't worry things'll turn out just fine, you'll see."
With that said he walked off leaving for bed. ~Kitchen~
"You said you'd be behind your brother with whatever decision he made", said Tanya strictly.
"Well how I was I supposed to know he'd make the wrong decision?" cried WildWing.
"WildWing", said Tanya, "There is no right or wrong decision, its whatever works best for Nosedive. You have to let him decide, and you did, and now he's decided, don't talk him out of it. If he chooses the wrong decision because of you, he will never forget it, he might forgive you, but never forget it, and you won't either. You have to do what's right here. And honestly I don't think that the surgery is such a bad idea anyway, I mean no therapy, and he's a kid remember Wing. Do you seriously want him in therapy? There are plenty of blind teenagers that are happy. Therapy will not make him happy I'm telling you that right now, do you understand me?"
WildWing nodded. "I guess your right, I'm going to go talk to Dive."
"Good idea", said Tanya, "And WildWing, choose your words carefully, don't say something that you might regret."
"But Tanya", said WildWing, "How could this possibly be right? I know my brother and I think that I should just make the decision for him."
"There are so many problems with that WildWing", responded Tanya, "That I am not even going to waste my time or yours in getting into them."
"No", said WildWing, "Please inform why I am so wrong here to just force my brother to do what I think is right."
"WildWing", said Tanya, "You can't tell your brother what to do! First of all, he is the one who is going to have to live with this choice, not you. And believe it or not he knows himself better than you do. Also you already told him that this decision was his, you can't go back on your word now that you have already said he could do what he wants. And most importantly, WildWing this is not easy, what Nosedive is going to go through is not easy, either way."
"So what are you getting at", asked WildWing.
"I'm getting at is this", replied Tanya, "Nosedive is going to be humiliated through therapy, everyone will feel sorry for him and try to be his best friend and you and I both know right now that he will not like that. He's too proud and he's tried too hard to act like one of everyone else."
"So", asked WildWing.
"So", said Tanya shortly, "He'll need a scapegoat, someone to blame this all on. All of these feelings of humiliation and mortification will have to be dumped on someone and guess what I'll be the first to tell you that you're the first runner up. He will hate you for so many reasons and guess what, no will be able to defend you, not even you. You left both options open for discussion and you said it was his choice, if you choose for him let me predict the future and tell you right now you will not see the light of day with your brother again. He will remember this WildWing."
"Well damn it Tanya", cried WildWing collapsing onto a seat, "This isn't fair!"
"WildWing", said Tanya soothingly, "You and I both know that no matter what I say you don't want to hear it. You want me to tell you that there is some magical pill that will cure Nosedive's problems. Well life isn't that easy, life isn't that smooth, its filled with ups and downs, and so far Nosedive keeps hitting rock bottom, so think of it this way the only place to go is up. You have to let your brother live his life his way. You can't change what's going to happen but you can change your attitude and maybe even his."
"What do you mean his attitude", asked WildWing dryly absorbing the rest of Tanya's knowledge and advice.
"WildWing", said Tanya, "Nosedive has been through very traumatizing situations for anyone but a teenager nonetheless. He has proven to be victorious however here comes another obstacle on the road to bliss and glee. He is overwhelmed with emotions WildWing, traumatized, apprehensive, and angry with himself for how life has treated him. He needs a big brother to be there and help him through this and just tell him that his life sucks."
"Wait what", asked WildWing.
"Tell him that his life sucks and than laugh", said Tanya, "Your brother is the right personality type for that to work. Tell him that he is going through hell, and tell him that you couldn't imagine going through what he is, but in a manly and not a corny way. Maybe get drunk with him, have fun with him, do whatever the hell it is men do, I don't care but make that kid realize that other people appreciate what he is going through and that he has the support that he needs."
WildWing nodded.
"It's just hard you know", said WildWing, "And it's not fair. And he's so young."
"Who me", asked Nosedive standing by the doorway.
WildWing smiled, "Yeah you, hey come here."
"I'll leave you two be", said Tanya, "I have a feeling that the rest of the team is siding with you Wing, and I just have to make sure they understand the whole concept."
"Oh okay Tanya", said WildWing, "And thanks."
Tanya smiled and left.
Nosedive sat there shaking, "So um Wing, whaddya think?"
"I thought you didn't care what I thought", replied WildWing, "And calm down, you're going to have a heart attack at like twenty if you keep this up."
Nosedive managed a weak smile.
"Now there's my brother", said WildWing.
Nosedive's smile escalated, but soon his cheer ran from his face.
"What's the matter Dive", asked WildWing.
"Why don't you want me to do this", asked Nosedive.
"What", said WildWing. "I didn't say that."
"Yeah well it's kind of easy to figure out what you think", said Nosedive, "Wing please just tell me that this has some upsides."
"Nosedive", said WildWing, "Listen to me right now okay? I don't have to reassure your opinions and what you think. You don't need me to tell you what you need."
"Wing", said Nosedive, "I do, I want you to tell me what you think. Wing, I'm scared, and I don't know what to do. Please give me some advice."
WildWing sighed, "Aw Dive I know that this sucks. I mean this really really sucks. Either way you're screwed."
"Um thanks", said Nosedive.
"Just listen. Now Nosedive its times like these define who you are as a person. You already proved to the world that you are more than courageous, and you proved to the world that you can beat all odds. Look Dive, its not over yet, and guess what that's okay. You just last this little part out and you will have some helluva story to tell when we get back home."
"It's not fair", cried Nosedive, "I'm sick of this!"
"Hey it's okay", said WildWing, "Look it's not over yet, that parts true, and yes this is not fun or fair. But you will succeed. And this part is easy."
"EASY", cried Nosedive.
"Yup", replied WildWing, "I think that you can be a very good blind teenager."
"Wait what", said Nosedive, "You're not going to try to convince me otherwise?"
"I don't have to convince you otherwise because I believe that you are doing the right thing", said WildWing, "I'll admit I was concerned about this at first but the more I think about it the more it makes sense, I mean who wants therapy?"
"Right", said Nosedive getting excited, "So you agree with me?"
"Not only do I agree with you baby bro, I am one hundred percent behind you. I got your back kid."
Nosedive grinned, "Thanks." The smile ran from his face, "It's still scary."
"Yup", replied WildWing, "That's life."
"You are being awfully calm about this Wing."
"Yup. I am not concerned, I have faith in you, and believe that you will become a stronger person from these "oh so fun" experiences."
Nosedive smiled, "Okay Wing, I'm glad to hear that. You'll help me right?"
"Wow that was random."
"You will right?"
"Sure of course I'll help you, you don't even have to ask that question Dive."
"I mean I want you to help me help myself."
"Explain."
"Like I want a life, I don't want to be some helpless little kid who can't do anything for himself. I want to be independent."
"And you will be. You just need to give it some time. And I will most definitely help you."
Silence.
And more silence.
"So this is really going to happen?"
"We'll take it one day at a time okay?"
Nosedive nodded.
"Dive, you're doing the best thing you could."
"Oh I know that much, its just this whole situation sucks."
"Yeah it does", said WildWing with a grin.
"Why are you so happy about this!?"
"Because you are going to be just fine, and I don't see this as a worry cause."
"What?"
"Look this is just a tiny rock in the road you know? It's not a big deal."
"Yes it is!"
"Oh?"
"It's a huge deal! I won't be able to see Wing! I won't be able to function! This is the scariest thing I have ever done! This is even scarier than before because I can only blame me! I am so lost, I don't want to be blind, I don't want therapy, I just want this all to stop! The only thing that I can possibly do to end all of this is suicide, and no I'm not suicidal, but it's sad that the only way to deal with my problem that doesn't involve those two options is death itself. WildWing this sucks, and you are sitting there smiling!"
WildWing smiled, finally he got his brother to admit to both WildWing and to himself all of the fears that he had kept in the back of his mind.
WildWing walked over to his brother and took him off guard by hugging him and kissing him lightly on the forehead. Then took him and put his hands on his shoulders.
"You are not giving yourself enough credit", said WildWing, "You're lost and feel screwed, well guess what that's what life is. You're life as of now is great, and that's how its going to continue. You know why? Because I know you, even better than you know yourself. You'll be blind for like an hour and for that hour you will play a whole self-pit game, then you'll get sick of it, compose yourself and move on with life and then look back at all of this and wonder why you ever wasted time worrying over this. You are going to take each day by day, and live each moment as you were just born into a new world. You'll get bored of being so ridden by angst and then you'll start being your normal self again, playing pranks and then using your disability to your advantage and say it couldn't have been you because you're blind. Nosedive you are my brother and I trust my life with you. You have to calm down, relax, and then just go for it, headstrong just like you have been your entire life. Me and the team are right here going to be supporting you, and then you'll see that life is going to be different and so damn interesting. Now you listen to me right now, I know you, and you are going to do just fine."
Nosedive smiled, "Thanks Wing. I guess I needed to hear that."
"Well that's what I'm here for."
"Nice to know." Nosedive drew a deep breath, "So um when do I actually you know go through with this?"
"Anytime I guess."
"How about now?"
"What?"
"You know me Wing, impulsive. And for all of my life being impulsive has had its upsides, so let's just do it and get it over with you know?"
"You sure?"
"Yeah."
"Um okay then, let me go get Tanya and ask her if right now is good." There was a pause, "Dive are you sure? Right now?"
"I'm positive", said Nosedive, "I want to do this, and I don't want to waste anymore time worrying about it. I'll worry when it happens. I'm not waiting anymore for my life to start. I want to do this, right now."
"Well", sighed WildWing, "Why the stars not? I'll go tell Tanya."
~ Thirty Minutes Later~
Nosedive was lying somewhat shaking and very pale on the operating table with WildWing right next to him.
"Okay Nosedive", said Tanya, "The next time you wake up you'll be blind, you understand this yes?"
"Yes", replied Nosedive.
"Alright then honey", said Tanya, "Why don't you give your brother a hug and then WildWing you'll have to leave."
"Would it be okay if he'd stayed", asked Nosedive.
"Well", began Tanya.
"Please", said Nosedive, "Oh please!"
"I'll stay for a bit Dive", said WildWing, "Just until you fall off, okay?"
Nosedive nodded and sat up. WildWing hugged his brother tightly, "Everything is going to be fine Dive."
Nosedive nodded. WildWing grabbed his brother's hand and squeezed it.
Tanya put a mask over Nosedive.
"Now you just relax", said Tanya.
And then everything went black.