I still rememmber back when it was just us. Before everything changed. A
catgirl with pink hair curled on the ground looking to the sky thinkinking
everything over as the sun poured over her. I remmember, the night before
it happend. I walked down the wooden hallway to your room like I did
everynight and you had already pushed the blackets off your bed, sitting
with your raven hair flowing around your face. Those eyes so full of love
you opend you arms and smiled, "I've been waiting for you Merle where were
you?" I smiled softly and bowwed my head softly, "Sorry Lord Van.....I
couldn't manage to get out for a while." It was always hard sneaking down
that hallway preying someone wouldn't see me, and think the wrong things. I
crawled onto your bed, and you wrapped your arms around me gebntly I loved
your warmth I always felt so content. Sometimes I even purred but I
couldn't help that, I would digg my head in the crevase of your neak,
curling my body over yours slightly. In public you alawys were modest not
wanting me to be seen to much, escpecially in fron tof the knights like
Balgas. But when it was just us you let me jumo onto your back and lick
your face gently, in return you'd kiss my cheecks gently. I rememmbe ryou'd
always say, "Oh Merle you mean so much to me." And I would always reply,
"Oh Lord Van your everything to me." We'de often play like we did when we
were children, playing tag and such It was so much fun, mabey that's why I
act childish I still long for that playful freind I always had. The day you
came back I was so happy I was afraid you would end up like poor Lord
Folken. I jumped into your warm arms, at first you smiled happily and held
me, I licked your cheaks playfully. Then you regained your stature and
realised Balgas and the others were here and gently motioned for me to
stop, though your grip on my weist held tight for a moment longer. I
notised her then. The "Angel" from teh mystic moon who changed everything.
I know everyone says oh Van and Hitomi were meant to be, but that's just
stupid. I know her truth! That stupid slut! She had her own man on the
Mystic moon, I htink his name was Amono, either way her freind took him but
she still longed for him. She thought everynight about how she could steal
him back, and kiss him and be with him again. I remember her little sighes,
for him even though her freind was with him now. Then Allen came, she fell
head over heels for this one. She blushed and stamperd in front of him, and
called out his name. One by one she pushed away the girls who loved him to
make room for herself. Then when she made the only woman leaft marry
someone else, she leaft him. She knew he would never love another after
her, so she leaft him there. Then the bitch turned to Van. "Oh well he's
the only one leaft!" I bet is what she thought, then when she realised that
the war was almost over she knew that she could end it with him that way.
She knew he loved her so she played him for it all, then disapeared intot
he sky knowing he too would never love again. While Lord Van sitts here
waiting she is back home living it up with another three guys in her web of
Love and Lies. Well now I look at Lord Van and that sparkle is gone, the
one that made me warm inside, the one of love and happiness. Now he's just
a blank vessle for life. SO empty and pained, he still waites for her as
though she really loved him. I see the tears he sheds everynight on my
cheeks and the pillow when I wake up. But don't get me wrong I have made
progress, he smiles sometimes now, but only for me. We still stay together
everynight, and I feel his physical warmth,but no love. Now and then I feel
his happiness return and he see's the mystic moon, the banner of sowwor
always reminding him of her. If I could go up there and destroy the whole
damn thing I would. Well either way, he is gaining back his love again, I
get a happy smile and glow from his eyes now and then, but everyday
still..... he still comes to me everyday and askes me one thing. "Have you
seen her Merle, or the strange light, or.....felt anything." I always shack
my head softly and try to confort him but after he receives his answer he
often leaves for an hour or so to sit on Escaflowne. Even I know not to go
in there at times like this. I hear footsteps now and look up to find your
ravishing loving eyes so bright and happy I vcan't beilive it. It must be
some dream as you smile to me almost grinning. "Merle where have you been
I've been looking for you." I blush slightly hidding it best I can as I sti
up and look at him. Then a frown comes to my face as I realise what you
want. "No Lord Van she's not here today no sign...sorry." His face falls to
depression now and he returns his eyes to mine shacking it off a bit.
"I....I wasn't going to ask about that." I gasp slightly as he takes my
hand in his and trys his best to forget my last comment. While I mentally
kick myself. "I am going to Austuria to see Allen and Millerna and
Dryden..... I was wondering if mabey you wanted to come." I smiled and
nodded softly, "Yes Lord Van! I can['t wait to see them all again!" He
grinned slightly, "Merle, just Van." I shook my head at this determinded.
"Howcome is it because your use to it?" He asked slyly almost. I shook my
head softly tossing my bangs around my face, though the rest of my hair was
long to my back, the bags still fell around my face. "It's because I am...
after all just a pessent right lord van." I teased slightly making him look
up at the sky for a moment. "Well what position would you have to be to
just call me Van?" I thought for a moment trying to hide another blush,
"Only the Queen I suppose." "Then you would call me Van?" I laughed
slightly, "Nope, I'm too use to Lord Van." He slightly punched me with a
playful hit to the arm then he helped me up. "Ok then....." I smiled at his
little joke and got a good idea as I stuck my fingure to the sky. "OK then
I better get practising, I wan tyou to carry me to my carrage L- Van." He
smiled and picked me off my feet carring me quickly to the carrage awaiting
us making varies jokes about how her magesty must pay off the cream puffs.
Then he appraoched the carrage and tossed me in like alight bag, I hit my
back gently and sat up. "Hey becarfull I am fragial!" He smirked slightly
and stepped on the side of the carrage. "Oh I thought Cat's always landed
on their feet." "Very funny! I guees I proffed that wrong." He finally sat
next to me closing the door and took my hand again. "Merle you mean so much
to me." "Oh Lord Van, your everything to me." I said sighing as I saw a so
long forgotten spark in his eyes, and a firey warmth of love spewing from
his eyes. "Merle, I love you... thank you for taking care of me and never
giving up hope your the only one I can count on...... I never realised how
much you meant to me till recently, when I realised that your the only one
who didn't abbandone me. I was stupid to just chase after Hitomi, I just
got my heart brocken, but you fixed it. You stayed when I told you to
leave, I was so cold to you. Merle I'm so sorry I really do love you." I
thought he meant simply as a freind which I already knew so I nodded and
leaft my head haning. "Oh Lord Van I love you too, if only you know how
much." I didn't realise I said this outloud but I must have because Van
pulled my face up and slowly peered down to kiss my lips so softly I could
bearly feel them. But the emotion that rushed into my lips from his was to
emence to tell. When you wait for something all your life and finally get
it it's too perfct. That's right I did have him first lot that Bitch
Hitomi, she and I were freinds but when she leaft I knew what she had done
to Lord Van, I could not forgive her for that. They say that love assends
planets well for Lord Van it had, but for her.... she just chased others
now, I bet she didn't even remember his name. Well it didn't matter now, I
had my Lord Van to myself now.... I knew that he loved me as much as I
loved him as he pulled away and put his hand to my face. "Well I guees I
better get practising calling you Van..... huh" I asked softly as he nodded
and bent down for another soft kiss, "That's right Merle-hime." Hitomi was
gone from his heart now, the heart that remained so brocken till now, I
don't remember the rest of the day, or that week even. All I rememmber was
all the love and happiness I felt, the emotions I was so happy to shower
Van with, I was now in power to fully recover his heart and I would do my
best. The love I felt when his hand grabbed mine, the licks I placed on his
face turned to kisses. Now we would be together forever, him, and
myself.... together forever, and not even destony would ever brake that.