AN: Let's see, school is a killer . I don't think that anyone will disagree with me there ^^;;

^^;; okay, I finished complaining ^^;; Yay! Last chapter! I finally finished something ^_^ Hehe, can anyone tell that I'm happy? And one important note. The epilogue will be written by Mingming-chan ^_~ So if you want a happy ending, or just want to have someone to bug about the ending, you can just go look for her ^^;; I don't think that I'll be able to write a happy ending, especially since I'm taking Shakespeare and Tragedy right now in English class ^^;;

Oh, almost forgot ^^;; I've started a yahoo group on sailor moon crossover fan fiction. The address is at http://groups.yahoo.com/group/impossible_loves/ all of my future chapters will be posted there a couple of days before I do it on ff.net. If anyone is interested, please join ^_^, everyone is welcome ^_~

Thanks to everyone who supported me all this way. If weren't for you guys, god knows that this story would've died around chapter 4 or something ^^;;

… is when Usagi is talking.

{…} is when Nakago is talking.

You'll know what I'm talking about when you get to the last part ^^;;

Disclaimer: Don't own anything.

Chapter 16

Warmth. That's what he felt when he gained conscious again. But this warmth was different, it was a comforting feeling, almost like the love of a mother for her unborn child. fighting against himself, he slowly opened his eyes, against the strong temptation to sleep in this warm cradle.

Blanking away sleep blurred images, emotions that he rarely felt crept into his mind and heart. The deserted plane, the burnt down houses, the dead bodies of the Kutou soldiers. For a moment, he could almost see a young boy crying beside his mother's dead body before new soldiers came and took him away. These were the memories that he had guarded deep in his heart. Not even Usa-chan had seen these memories, the destruction of his clan and mother by his own hands. It was one of the few things that he was afraid of, to let her see his ugly past. He knew that she had a large heart and easily forgave everything, but even if she was able to forgive him for his crimes, he wasn't ready to do so himself. Maybe that was why he locked this memory away for so long.

"You can't hid behind that excuse forever Naka-chan." A soft female voice said quietly behind the astonished shogun.

That voice! It was impossible, he hasn't heard that voice so long, but no matter how long he lived, he would never be able to forget that voice. Body shaking, it was as if time flowed backwards, and turned the twenty six years old leader of the Seiryuu seishi back into the time of his painful childhood. Turning around at a snail's pace, as if he wanted to prevent himself from finding out, his eyes fell upon a figure that he has not seen for almost twenty years. "Okaa-san?" Nakago whispered staring into blue eyes that were exactly like his. "But… but..." He reached out timidly behaving like he did as a child, but his hand went right through the pale translucent figure.

A smile appeared on the woman's face. "I am dead Nakago-chan."

"But, why are you here? What is this place? And where is…" a faint blush appeared on his face as the seishi realized that he was asking his mother about his koibito. Even if his okaa-san wasn't technically alive, he still felt a little embarrassed talking about his love with a parent.

"Where is Usa-chan?" A soft chuckle made the shogun blush even harder. "You still haven't changed that much Naka-chan." the blond woman remarked gently, noticing the sudden stiffening in her son's body as the words left her mouth. The blush suddenly disappeared, and the eyes that were warmed by the thought of love hardened as he was reminded the sufferings that he had to go through to get to where he was now. How could she say that he hadn't changed?

"You're wrong. I'm no longer the same as you remember me." Was the cold reply.

A saddened look appeared on the woman's face. "Oh my darling." So great was the need to take him into her arms again, but she knew that it was useless to do so. She was only here on borrowed time. "If you only knew your own heart, you'll see that you are still as innocent as then."

"Innocent?" A rough laugh came from the shogun. It was the last word he would ever use to describe himself with. Why should someone call a murderer, a cold hearted bastard like him innocent? He was the one who was responsible for the death of his mother and for his village since he was barely ten.

Determined eyes looked back at him. Suddenly the man in him disappeared, that expression when she was both angry and hurt was enough to bring him back to his youth again. "Naka-chan… don't you know that to the people who love you, you will never change? No matter what you went through, no matter what bad things you did, don't you think that I would know you well enough to know that you did them only because you were forced to under those circumstances?"

"How can you know what I did all those years to survive?!" the angry accusation escaped him even before he could stop himself. "You left me in this world, and when I thought that I could be happy with Usa-chan, she left me too! Is this how you show your love, by leaving the person you love when he most needed you? I hate you for showing me everything then leaving me with nothing!"

"If you hate us that much, then why did you save Usagi so many times?"

"I never saved her from anything." Came the bitter reply.

"You're wrong. You saved her from loneliness. Don't you remember, when you first met her, she told you she was alone too, that she need someone to doesn't just look at her like a prize. A real friend? And later, didn't your friendship and love helped her live through those years during the Silver Millennium when she knew of her destiny. You were the one who gave her hope and a meaning in life. You always thought that she was the one who saved you, but you did the same to her. And when you felt betrayed, don't you think that she felt betrayed too when she saw you had so little faith in her?"

"I…" the words died in his mouth. Shock and shame showed clearly on his face. He never thought that his lack of faith could hurt Usagi that much. During the whole time since she died, he was too consumed with his own pain to think about anyone else.

"And even though you say that you hate her, it's you who is always saving her. Even this time."

"This is different, she was hurt this time on my stupidity. I had to save her. And her senshi won't leave me alone if I didn't." Nakago finished off lamely.

"IF this time, Usagi wasn't hurt because of you, would you save her?"

"Of course I would!" Nakago cried out without a moment's hesitation.

"Then you still love her no matter what you want to believe." the spirit pointed out with a smile.

Nakago opened his mouth to deny it, but nothing came out. It was impossible to say that he didn't love Usa-chan, especially when strong emotions flooded his senses every time her name was mentioned. "That's none of your business!"

"Nakago! Is this how you speak to your mother?!" the blonde woman declared with a fake horrified look. But she knew that it was just his way of admitting that he still loved the Moon Princess. Noticing with amusement that her son still had enough sense to blush in shame at his rude comment, the ghost decided to save the seishi further embarrassment by answering his previous questions. "You asked earlier where Usagi is." the blond lady began in a serious tone. "Her senshi told you that in order to find her, you would have to go into her dream and convince her to come back with you to fight Chaos. You succeeded in doing this…"

"So why aren't we back in the real world yet?" the young man asked a little impatiently. He wasn't at the least comfortable when things got out of control… especially his control.

"You might not know it yet, but the Moon Princess was sacrificed during the ceremony to summon Suzaku. Her body too damaged to be returned too, unlike yours." here the ghost chose her words carefully, knowing how her son was, it won't take much to make him want to tear a certain Seiryuu miko to pieces. "I know that you are wondering then, why you were made to find her if she can't return to her physical body. But there is an alternative." Here the lady stopped and looked sharply at Nakago.

"Usagi can no longer return to her body, but you can welcome her soul into your own for a brief period, because of your deep bond to each other. This is a technique that has never been tried before because it is very dangerous, but in ancient writings, it was said that if two people are soul mates, it is possible for two souls to share one body.

"But in your case, both you and Usagi have great power, if the two of you chooses to merge, your body may not be able to handle this combined power…"

"What will happen if my body won't be able to hold it?" the shogun asked after a long and tense silence.

"Your heat caused by the friction between your body trying to accommodate yours and Usagi's power will increase the temperature of your body. The fluids inside your body will boil until the cells in your body will burst and your skin will no longer be able to hold in the increase in volume." his mother quickly explained in one breath, wanting to get the disgusting knowledge out as fast as possible, not liking the disturbing image it produced, but it was crucial to let her son know the consequences before he would rush head long into this.

"Is this the only way?"

"It is possible for Cosmos to defeat Chaos even if she is without a body, but the chances of that is very slim, and there may be a possibility that she won't have enough power to create a new body for herself after. It's more risky merging two souls, but at least this way, you know for sure that combined, you will be able to destroy Chaos, and have a chance to start over again." the spirit explained. "But before you decide to let Usagi into your body, I have to warn you. When she merges with you during this short period, she will have access to everything that is you. Your thoughts, feelings, your past… but you sill also be able to see into her."

"So if we want to destroy Chaos, and have a chance, this is the only way to be together?" Nakago asked, voice betraying no emotion at his mother's nod. "Does Usa-chan know about everything you just told me?"

A small secretive smile touched the pale woman's lips. "I guess that you can say she is having the same talk with her mother right now too," the lady winked. "All the troubles that we mothers have to go through for their children's happiness. We don't even get any peace and quiet in death."

Nakago had to smile at the last remark. How true it was, an dhow happy that one little sentence made him feel. Those teasing words were enough to fill in for all those lonely years after her death… "And does she agree with this plan?"

At the slightly timid question from the usually over confident general, the ghost couldn't help herself from laughing. Guess the old Chinese proverb did make sense after all. How true it was, the saying 'Even heroes stumble against a beautiful woman.' Her son was a living example after all. "Don't worry. If Usagi came all this way to be with you, I don't think that she will let this last obstacle prevent her from becoming the wife of my silly son."

"Okaa-san!" Nakago cried out again at being called silly. Again, it was another term aside from 'innocent' that he didn't want to be described as. "If she's okay with this then I see no reason to refuse either," Nakago replied hesitantly. He knew that even with their close bond that allowed them to feel the other's emotions, they couldn't share their memories or thoughts unless they were both in the dream world.

He was rewarded with a gentle and brilliant smile from his mother. There was no doubt about the pride in her eyes as she looked at her son, knowing that even with his jaded childhood, it didn't dim the light within him. Knowing that she didn't have much time left, she held out her hand, and before the shogun's eyes, the necklace that he gave to Usagi as an engagement token appeared. "I'm sure that she will like to have this back Naka-chan."

Reaching out to receive the necklace, he knew that this was the last time he would see her. Closing her eyes, it could've been his imagination as he felt a butterfly touch on his brow, and the words 'I love you' reached him. "I love you too Okaa-san." Nakago whispered to no one as he opened his eyes and the scene around him shifted again to the ruins of the Moon Kingdom.

"Welcome to the Silver Millennium Nakago, a low silvery voice greeted him from behind.

Turning, he was surprised to see a tall woman who looked almost like a carbon copy of his Usa-chan, except for the lavender hair. "Queen Serenity?"

The woman laughed. "I see that my daughter has told you all about me."

The comment made the blond man narrow his eyes in anger and suspicion. So this was the woman who cared more for her kingdom than her own daughter's happiness. The mother who in a sense killed her only child by forcing her to marry Endymion. Why was she here? To prevent him from merging with Usa-chan? But… didn't his okaa-san just say that the Queen was having a similar talk with the bunny?

As if reading his thoughts, a look full of regret and guilt appeared on the Moon Queen's face. "I understand if you hate me Nakago. If I didn't make all those selfish decisions during the Silver Millennium, neon of this would've happened, and Chaos would never have gained so much power."

"I can' say that I like you," the blond man began slowly. "But I don't hate you either. No matter what you did, you are still Usagi's mother, and I feel grateful that you have her a second chance after her death in the Silver Millennium."

"Thank you. I only wanted to the best for her. And I thought that with Endymion, she could be happy…" Serenity said sadly. "Believe me, if only I have the power, I would go back and change everything."

"The past is in the past. There's nothing we can do to change it."

"But the future is still left to be shaped," the Queen smiled confidently. "And you have proven to me that you love for her."

"And how did Endymion ever prove his affections for your daughter to make you agree to his marriage proposal?" the seishi couldn't help the pent up anger he had for this woman. It was true what he told her earlier, he had no hate for her, but he always resented the way she treated her daughter like an object. It reminded him too much of the Kutou Emperor.

"I know that I was wrong. I thought that they were both young, and still had enough time to turn their hate for each other into love. And he was a good match; handsome, rich, powerful. I never suspected…. That he was plotting with the Dark Kingdom for our destruction until it was too late. I know that nothing I do will make up for the past. That is why I want to help the two of you, to show you that I care very much for your happiness, and that I will try my best to protect that happiness that the two of you deserve so much." crystal tears glided down the fair skin as the strong silvery voice shook with emotion.

"Okaa-san, thank you."

A quiet whisper by his side almost made Nakago jump, if it wasn't for the familiar warm hand in his.

In his argument with Queen Serenity, neither of them noticed the subject of their discussion quietly sneaking up until those whispered words.

"Usagi, I'm so sorry…"

Wordlessly, the bunny left Nakago's side and walked towards her mother, taking the spirit into her arms as best as she could while the Queen wept.

Slowly, drop by drop, the tears stopped, and the Moon Goddess composed herself. "I just want you to be happy Usagi. Please remember that." Looking at the shogun over Usagi's shoulders, Serenity gave a wan smile at him, mouthing the words 'take care of her' before fading away, in her place, a brilliant crystal appeared, chasing away the shadows caste about the beautiful wreck that once was the magnificent Moon Kingdom.

The Ginzuishou floated between Nakago and Usagi pulsing. The light because brighter and brighter with each pulse, imitating the heartbeat of a living body, the body that both of them would share…

~*~*~*~

"Soi?" Everyone stared horrified at the monster that bored no resemblance to the female seishi they all knew.

Chaos laughed. "Idiots. Can't you see that she is no longer a human?"

"You bastard! What did you do to her?!" Yui screamed out above the howling wind.

"Do to her?" the dark prince laughed again. "I didn't do anything except to grant her wish. She wanted to rule this universe in exchange of taking out Cosmos and her lover for me. I'm just full filling my part of the deal with, little ex-miko."

"You monster! Give her back!" Yui screamed out with renewed strength.

"Monster? What a cruel thing to say my 'innocent' girl!" Chaos emphasized the 'innocent' work mockingly. "Don't I even get a word of gratitude for saving you from this woman's manipulations?"

He smiled at the blonde girl's confusion. "Oh, but I suppose you were too busy in your revenge against Miaka and your jealousy for Usagi to notice how much Soi really hated you. The only reason that you are still alive today is because of your position as the Seiryuu no Miko. She hated you ever since Nakago saved you and gave you his complete attention. So when Cosmos arrived, she used you to get ride of Usagi, then used Nakago's anger in loosing his lover to get rid of you." Chaos paused to savour the mixed emotions of confusion, betrayal, and realization that was shown so freely on Yui's face as the short haired girl began to shake with this new knowledge. "Do you still want Soi back? Because it's a little too late for that. There is only one person who can return her back to human, and you just made sure that she was with the Gods in heaven for good."

"Don't be so sure of that Endymion."

The dark prince stopped in surprise at being interrupted by a new yet strangely familiar voice that didn't seem to come from a single source, but all around the little group in the forest.

"Who's there?" Taitsukun called out suspiciously. After she saw Usagi's death and Nakago was poisoned, there was no one left in this universe who could fight Chaos since the four Gods had made it clear they wanted nothing to do with the mikos. So who?

The voice sounded so neutral. No emotions, the tone was so plain and smooth that it was impossible to distinguish the if the speaker was male or female.

"Long time no see Chaos." A small hint of mockery tinted the beautiful voice as a small speck of light gathered in the dark night in front of the enemy., growing brighter, forcing everyone to cover their eyes before they would be blinded. "Have you forgotten about me already?"

"How do you expect me to know who you are if you don't keep on hiding coward?" the frustrated Chaos hissed out, trying to protect himself against the light that was so piercing through his powers.

"Coward? Aren't you referring to yourself? All this time, hiding from me and using women to do all of your dirty work! I'm going to send you back for good this time!" the light pulsed spilling the rays as it finally solidified into a body.

"You! You're still alive!" the former Seiryuu no miko breathed out in awe as she and the others stared up at a beautiful figure. It was impossible now to tell who was referring to. Gentle wind combed through the shinny blond hair and icy blue eyes glared at Chaos through long lashed eyelids. The magnificent being that was neither male nor female wearing a golden necklace, floating above them radiated pure power as the light blue Cosmos symbol proudly reflected the light of the ginzoushou that was the source of the brightness.

"No thanks to you," this time the figure said in a slightly deeper tone, an hard glare sent at the short haired girl, that was somewhat softer than it was before.

Harsh laughter brought everyone's attention back to Chaos. "Who are you?! Do you really think that you can defeat me?" the shadows pushed back against the light as the words came out of his mouth. Everything that was covered in that light shrivelled up, its energy being stolen by the lord of the darkness.

"Don't laugh so soon Chaos. You think that you are the only person who has gained more power?" This time, two distinct voices could be heard simultaneously, yet it still maintained the same harmony as the ginzoushou came back to life, throbbing with unleashed energy.

The two forces clashed together thunderously, either loosing or gaining. the residue powers glancing off of each other and burned away everything they touched.

"I'll never let you defeat me!" Chaos screamed out, with renewed energy. To the other figure's surprise, the black armour protecting Endymion's physical body fell down as the flesh melted away until there was nothing in the place of Chaos except of a dense black mass. Malicious laughter could be from the mass as everyone stared frozen with fear. "Let me show you what I can do."

"You're finally showing us your true form now Chaos. Took you long enough to realize that you can't beat us in a human body." The figure made from light said indifferently as it watched the black mass began swell at an increasing rate.

~*~*~*~

Naka-kun.

{Yes Usa-chan?}

Do you love me?

{Of course.}

Then will you let me go?

{What do you mean?}

To destroy Chaos. You have to let me go.

{Can't aren't we strong enough to defeat him with both of our powers?}

I thought so, but he's much stronger than I thought. Do you believe in me Naka-kun?

{OF course, I trust you with my very soul.}

Then let me go. I swear to you that I'll come back to you after I destroy Chaos.

{Is this the only way?}

…

{I love you.}

I know.

~*~*~*~

"I love you Usa-chan."

Down on the group, Taitsukun, Miaka, Yui and their seishi watched in wonder as the light slowly died down in the ginzoushou. A single tear slipped from the blue eyes before the beautiful face contorted in pain. Everyone was stunned as a translucent hand broke away from the body, flowed by the arm, and head, and slowly, from the chest of the figure, Usagi, in the spirit of Cosmos was freed, before her spirit was absorbed into the ginzoushou. Small crakes began to form on the holy jewel, the strong diamond straining against the huge amount of power it just received from trapping the spirit of Cosmos within it.

"I love you…" Nakago whispered again, when finally Usagi's soul left his body and into the Ginzoushou.

"She trapped herself into that useless crystal?!" Chaos asked in amused mockery. "You think that you will be able to destroy me this way?"

"Why don't we try and see," cradling the warm jewel against his chest, Nakago gave his threw a careless smirk at his enemy, before flying into the centre of the black mass.

{If you are going to go, then I'll go with you…}

AN: I don't believe this… I finished!!!!!!! My first story!!!!!! Woohoo!!!!!!! Yeah!!! Even though I consider this maybe as the crappiest chapter in this story, I don't care anymore ^^;; I'm finished!!!!!!!! And if anyone is confused, I apologize right now, email or IM me if you want me to explain anything. Right now all I'm going to say is that the 'being' was actually Usagi and Nakago fused together in his body, and later Usagi went into the crystal so Nakago was left to his own again.