Hi! I'm back! This is the sequel/epilogue of the story. I decided not to make a sequel, because it takes a lot more time, and I don't have a lot of time! So I wrote as much as I could, and I tried to put romantic scenes in, but there aren't really a lot. You guys probably won't like it, but at least something good happens…
Small crossovers with Escaflowne and Gundam Wing! For Escaflowne, it's just Van and Hitomi, but for the Gundam Wing, it's the whole gang. They have a really, really tiny part, like 2 paragraphs, I guess. Sorry to those who wished to have Eriol and Madison together!! I'm sorry… I'm not that big a fan of them both. But I got Syaoran and Sakura here, so I think that's good! Right? Just read for yourself! Don't forget to REVIEW!!!!
I dedicate this to Mini Sweety…
Last part:
I wrote a small note on the back of the door. 'Syaoran and Sakura – friends for eternity'.
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The next day I got dressed up to class without thinking of Syaoran. Ok maybe I did think of him, but I didn't get upset over it. Everyone was there when I got in. They all stared at me as if I was a ghost or something. Mr. Wei slowly walked over to me.
"You all right there, Sakura?" He asked.
I nodded and showed a smile. "Mm-hmm." I turned to everyone. "Guys, stop staring at me like I'm some kind of freak! I'm ok!" They looked shocked at first, but continued with their homework. "I'm really okay, Mr. Wei. Don't worry about me." I assured him.
He slowly nodded. "Well, if you say so." He gave me a smile. "Please take a seat, Ms. Avalon."
'Thanks Mr. Wei.' I thought.
I put my binders on the desk. Julian glanced at me and flashed me a reassuring grin. I waved at him and looked back to the teacher's lecture. Sometimes my eyes would just linger on the desk beside me. I knew I should have just ripped my sight off of it, but the emptiness dawned over my heart and mind. I didn't know why I did it, but I reached to touch the desk, as if comforting myself that he'd always be there. "Syaoran." I whispered. I then turned my attention back to Mr. Wei.
After class, Julian caught up with me when I was heading to my Block B class. "Hey Sakura. Wait up!" He called on me. I turned around just in time to see him walk towards me.
"Hi Julian. What's up?" We turned to walk to our classes.
"You didn't have to go to class today, you know. All your teachers understand what you're going through right now."
"I'm okay. Honestly. Besides, if I keep classes off my schedule, I'll probably just soak myself in boredom. There's nothing I can do but to get on with my life, Julian."
He nodded. "I know. I'm just worried about you."
"Julian…"
"Yeah?"
"I…I know how you feel about me." I mumbled. "You practically told me."
He laughed. "That's all right. A lot of people know how I feel about you."
"That's just the thing. I'm…I'm not close with anyone in this place, except for you and Syaoran. You're the only other person I can talk to. Will you come over tonight? I need to talk to someone about everything I've been feeling. I can't just sort it out by myself. Please…Julian?"
He smiled warmly. "Anything for you, Avalon."
At first I almost regretted my decision, but shook the doubt off. "Thank you so much." I was after all, grateful.
"You're welcome." He dropped me off to my class and left to his.
In my free block, I went back to my dorm, took a little nap, but later turned on the computer. I started writing an email to Syaoran. I didn't stop for a while. After quarter passed, I stopped and read it over.
"Dear Syaoran, I really do miss you. I don't know how to express my feelings in a way that you'll understand them. It's hard to keep all this in. It kills me and pains my heart to know that I won't be ever seeing you for a really long time. Julian promised to come over tonight and we could talk about this situation…I'm the one who invited him over, so don't get all protect-y on me. You understand that I don't have a friend in this school. Ok maybe I do, but a friend who I can really trust and say all these things out. Syaoran, please keep in contact with me! I don't know what to do in this place!! Somehow I get upset and I just suddenly start crying. I'm sorry. I know I promised not to do this and just get on with it, but it's so damn hard…
"How's your family going? Did your parents stay together like they said they would if you moved there? How about college? You make any friends? Girlfriend? Tell me Syaoran. I desperately need to know how you're doing…
"AND WHAT THE HELL?!?!?!?! WHY DID YOU JUST TELL ME YOU LOVED ME THE SECOND YOU HAD TO LEAVE ME?!?!?!?!?!? THAT WAS THE DUMBEST THING YOU COULD HAVE DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IF ONLY YOU DIDN'T LOVE ME THIS WAY SYAORAN!!! IT JUST MAKES EVERYTHING HARD!! You got to tell me how you felt! What about me?? You deserve to know how I feel about you, but how can I do it when you're not here?? When I can't tell you straight to your face!!
"I have to go now. Class in 15 minutes. Please e-mail me back and don't ever forget me, Li. Love always, Sakura"
I pressed the SEND button and headed to class. No one was in there, but the teacher, Mrs. Gomez. She was a really young teacher, but very smart. She just got pregnant, so she had a fairly large stomach. She smiled at me when I came in. "Hi, Sakura."
"Hi Mrs. Gomez." I smiled back. "How's the baby?" I walked over and patted the tummy.
"She's doing fine. How are you feeling?"
"I'll be ok. Someday." I said. "It's just hard to deal with all this…but it'll be all right."
"That's understandable. You really don't have to come to class today. I'm aware of the situation you're in right now, so if you want to just stay in your dorm, it's okay with me."
"Every one of my teachers said that to me today. That's really weird. But I don't want to sulk all day. I want to learn and use my brain. My heart's getting awfully tired."
After I finished all my classes, I went to the school cafeteria downstairs, bought a few things, and went back to my dorm. It was about 30 minutes past 8pm so I didn't have a choice but to wait for Julian to come. Five minutes later, someone knocked on the door. I stood up, walked over, and opened it.
"Hey." He smiled.
I gave a small smile. "Hi. Come in." I moved aside with the door and let him in.
"Thanks." He took a seat on my bed. "So Sakura…what do you want to talk to me about?"
"Everything." I sighed. "Everything's just so messed up right now. I really need help."
"I'm here. Whatever you need, I'll do it."
So the whole night, I was able to open up to Julian about all of the emotions I felt. He was a really good listener and that's what I appreciated so much. I knew that he was doing all this for a chance that maybe I'd fall in love with him, but when I talked about my problems, I didn't see him as I saw Syaoran. I could talk to Syaoran about everything and I'd look at him as if, 'he really does understand me, how would it be like to live with him the rest of my life? Would he still understand me throughout everything we'd go through together?' kind of feeling. But when I looked at Julian, I only see friendship and that's it.
I thought for sure Syaoran emailed me back, but when I checked my inbox, there was nothing new. I waited for about a month, but I still didn't get a reply. I'd always think, you know maybe he's really busy, or he just didn't get it. But in the depths of my heart, I really knew the reason he didn't write back. "I want to keep trying, but it seems so impossible to keep a friendship alive for God knows how long! Never worked for me." Those were his words. Tears were brought to my eyes just thinking of our past conversation about this.
My heart was breaking into a million pieces and there was absolutely no way it would go back the way it was. When Syaoran walked through those gates, I not only lost a friend, a love, but a piece of my heart as well. I cried without stopping and was amazed to find that for nearly 2 hours I shed tears. My eyes were sore and bulgy red, so I decided to just forget everything and go to sleep.
The rest of my college years were pretty much the same. Occasionally I'd cry myself to sleep and just think of Syaoran, but sometimes I'd actually forget everything, and shut off my mind out of all the problems surrounding me. It was hard, yes, but I made it, and I was really proud of myself for accomplishing something I had no confidence I could do.
My last year, Julian and I were going to graduate. I didn't feel like going to the assembly and going up to go get my diploma, but it was a necessity to attend. My parents and friends from back home came. My friends graduated a month earlier.
I wore a pretty aqua blue dress with a lot of green-blue shades. On top I wore my black robe and hat. I gave a small wave to my friends and family, and walked to the seats where everyone was. Everything whirred by me so fast I could hardly think straight. When the principal gave out his speech, I thought back to my first year up to my third year when Syaoran left, and how my life suddenly changed. I wasn't dependent anymore and I relied more on myself to figure things out than others.
Suddenly I heard my name being called out. I shook out of my small trance and stood up. I plastered on a smile and walked carefully up the stage to receive my diploma. The principal shook my head and gave me a smile. I smiled back, but before I could return to my seat, I flashed my family/friends a peace sign and a huge smile on my face.
After it all, we had a huge celebration. Each of the members who graduated had their families attending, so the population of the people there was huge. Madison, Meilin, Tori, and both my parents gave me small gifts for accomplishing 5 years of college! I was so happy and overwhelmed by everything that I almost didn't think of Syaoran, but in the end I did. I wondered how he graduated, if he ever thought about me, if he had a celebration just like this, and if his family was complete again.
I started packing my things from my dorm and Madison helped me out. She and I started talking about everything. "Wow Sakura, this is so wonderful!! Guess what?? I have it all on tape! You looked so cute when you gave the peace sign and a smile!"
I started laughing. "I wasn't thinking of doing it, but I noticed the camera was right in front of me! Everyone just gave ordinary smiles and a little wave, so I decided to spice it up a bit."
"Nice spicing it up!" Madison laughed with me. "Doesn't this feel wonderful?? To have finished school?? And never go back ever, ever again!?"
"I understand what you're feeling, Maddy, but sometimes I wish it didn't have to end."
Madison gave me a sympathetic smile. "I know."
They brought me back to Seattle with them. For a while I didn't have much to do. I knew I had to start looking for a job, but I felt out of place in Seattle. I no longer felt at home because the past 5 years I spent in Connecticut. One day I just went up to my family and friends and told them that I made a decision.
"Guys…I'm going to go to Vancouver. It's only a 2-hour drive from here to there. It's just that I don't feel comfortable here anymore…everything's so different. I don't want to find a job here. I'm sorry about this, but I feel that this is what I want." I glanced at every one of their faces. My friends were slightly shocked but gave me smiles. My parents were surprised most of all. Tori just started laughing.
"Aw, squirt, why are you even asking us?? You're, how old?"
"Shut up, Tori!!" I said crossly playfully. "I just want you guys to okay it."
"It's fine with us, Sakura. Besides, it's only a 2-hour drive, right? It's a lot better than Connecticut, which is like…" Meilin started. "Well farther away than Vancouver!"
"That's true." Madison answered.
"Well? Mom? Dad?" I asked anxiously.
Mom gave me a slightly sad look. "I know that we haven't seen each other in such a while, so this decision of yours is making me even sadder than before, but I respect it. You're an adult now, Sakura, and you have a lot of responsibilities ahead of you. I say okay."
"Thank you mom." I hugged her tightly. "…Well…dad?"
He grinned. "Baby, whatever you want is all right with me. I just want you to make sure to be careful, don't give in too much, and you know what else I have to tell you."
I nodded my head happily. "Thank you daddy!!!" I hugged him also.
The following month, I drove to Vancouver. My father already booked an apartment for me, so all I had to do was go there. After two hours of looking for it, I finally found a really high building about 20 floors up. It was absolutely crazy. The building was made of glass and bricks, so that made it a little safer. It was beautiful with balconies shaped like the ends of a pentagon. The space was amazing. I had a lot of space and to think the room was a one-bedroom!
I finally settled in and got my things set up. The mattresses I had to buy and the furniture I had to buy, but my parents gave me the money needed. I really had no idea where the malls were, so I was lost. I sat on the carpet and stared at the wall. It was a really weird thing to do, but I did it. I finally got bored and went outside.
"Hi. Are you new?" Someone called to me. I looked up at the voice and saw a woman who was as tall as me, with honey-brown hair that reached up to her neck. She had emerald eyes like mine. She was very pretty indeed.
"Um…yeah." I mumbled. "I'm Sakura Avalon." I offered her my hand.
She grinned and shook it. "I'm Hitomi Kanzaki. I live right across from you! This is so cool!! Yay!
I finally get a neighbour that I can actually talk to."
I smiled. "Hitomi, doesn't that mean mystic eyes in…in Japanese?"
"Mm-hmm. And yours mean cherry blossoms right?"
"That's right."
"Pretty name." We both said at the same time. We started giggling.
She brought me in her apartment. It looked a lot like mine, but the place had two bedrooms. The kitchen was huge and the living room was very clean and tidy. "Do you have a room-mate?"
"Yes." She smiled. "He's my boyfriend now. Don't worry. We don't do anything…sick."
I blushed. "I didn't think of that."
"Oh." She blushed and laughed. "He's not here right now. He had to go buy some things."
"Mm."
"Would you like something to drink?"
"What do you have?" I asked.
"Water, coke, sprite, juice, milk…"
"Sprite would be good thanks."
"Sprite it is." She took two sodas out of the fridge and brought it with her to the living room where I was stationed.
She sat across from me. "So Sakura. Where are you from?"
"Mm…I'm from Seattle actually. I just came earlier this morning and my dad already booked this place for me to live in, but to be honest, I have nothing in there. I don't have any mattresses or furniture! I don't even know where to go!!" I told her. "You think you can help me out?"
"Of course!! Why didn't you just say so?? I'll show you around town!! This'll be so cool! You'll be my new best friend, since my old best friend turned out to be my boyfriend, so…" We both laughed.
"Thanks Hitomi. I appreciate it a lot."
"You're welcome!" She had a cheerful attitude around her that made me feel very welcome. "You know what? You can come here whenever you want. We always leave the door unlocked."
"Really?"
"Yep. I know you're nice and shy, but you don't have to be! Be yourself when you're around me, because I be myself when I'm around people!"
"Ah ok." I smiled again.
The door opened and revealed a tall muscular guy. He was really good-looking. He had ebony black hair and amazing red-brown eyes. He wore sports pants with a long-sleeve shirt. He smiled at me. "Hi."
I smiled back. "Hello." I stood up, feeling shy all of a sudden. I didn't feel any attractiveness to him though…so that was kind of weird.
"Hey Hitomi." He put the groceries down on the counter and walked over to her.
She narrowed her eyes at him and walked to me, hiding behind. "I'm still mad at you."
"What??" He started whining, which looked and sounded really funny. "Why????"
"Because! You didn't apologize to me!"
"I said sorry A MILLION TIMES ALREADY!!! Hitomi come on!!!!"
"No! I need to talk to her a sec, anyways."
"Fine." Van raised his head up and stuck up his nose. "I'm Van Fanel, by the way. What's your name?"
"Sakura Avalon." I said. "I'm guessing you're the boyfriend."
"Yeah. Aren't I hot?"
"Totally!" I teased. Hitomi started laughing, while Van gave a dramatic grin.
"Hitomi, come on." He walked over to her.
"Van…no."
"Hitomi…" He looked sad for a moment.
Hitomi suddenly ran up to him and kissed him on the lips. They shared a short kiss, but a sweet one too. "You got it. Now go." Hitomi pointed to the rooms.
"I'm going." Van beamed. "Nice meeting you, Sakura! Thanks for the kiss, 'Tomi."
"You're welcome." Hitomi said.
Hitomi and I went back to the living room. "Listen, I'm just going to go and get changed, and then I'll show you around town. You have a car?"
"Mm-hmm."
"Ok good. I don't know how to drive!" Hitomi giggled.
"W-what?? Why??" I asked, very surprised.
She fidgeted. "Um…cause I…I kind of failed a lot of times…" She mumbled. "And…Van said not to try anymore…cause he'll drive for me." In the end of her weird explanation, she turned pink.
I was taken aback. Hitomi looked very responsible, but as it turns out, she depended on Van a lot. I hesitated, but I asked her. "Hitomi…"
"Yeah?"
"I don't know you all that well, so I really don't know how to ask this in a nice way, but um…why do you depend on Van a lot? Are you so sure that you'll end up together?" I thought she was surely going to get mad at me, but she just laughed.
"I know that I depend on Van a lot, because…well…he lets me depend on him. He doesn't want me to be independent. Van and I…we're going to get married…he proposed to me about a few months ago, so I know I'll spend the rest of my life with him. I know it's really weird and all, but ever since I met him, I knew he's the one for me." I nodded, finally understanding.
She went to go change. After about 15 minutes later, she came out with Van behind her. "Where you guys going?" Van asked.
"Mall." Hitomi answered shortly. "When I get home, you better be here."
"I'm not going anywhere!" He promised.
She grunted. "Fine. Sakura, come on." She waved me over and I walked towards the door.
"Nice meeting you, Sakura." Van grinned.
"You too Van." I waved and we left.
We got to the mall and the place wasn't as full as I thought it'd be. "This is Richmond Centre Mall. It's fairly large, but there aren't really a lot of people here on weekdays." Hitomi explained. "Do you want to get something to eat…?"
"No, I just want to start looking for some furniture." I was surprised that I didn't feel very tired after driving from Seattle.
"All right." Hitomi smiled. "Follow me."
I stared at all the stores in the mall. There were a few sports stores, some popular stores too, like the Bay, and the food courts. She brought me to Sears and I looked around for a nice-looking bed, a computer, a mirror, and a drawer for the rest of my clothes. Hitomi went to the Entertainment section, so I didn't really see her. In the end I ordered a single-bed with comforters that had similar designs from my UCONN ones. I got a phone, a small drawer, two couches, computer with the necessary equipment, a 20-inch TV, and a mirror. With the TV, I included just a DVD.
"Wow, that is a lot of things." Hitomi inspected.
I flushed. "I know…my parents gave me the money. Don't go thinking I'm rich or anything. I do plan to find a job soon."
"Oh no, no! I didn't think you were rich. I was just looking over." Hitomi explained. "So, you don't have a place to sleep in tonight?"
I shook my head sadly. "It'll be fine."
"No, you can stay with us tonight." Hitomi grinned. "You can have my room. I'll share with Van."
"No really you don't have to Hitomi. You've been too nice to me! I don't deserve any of this."
She waved me off. "Stop it! You're making me blush." Hitomi teased. "I welcome you to Vancouver. You're a friend of mine now, so you can stay with us. Besides, it doesn't matter! No matter what you say…you'll still have to sleep in our place."
"W-wha?"
"Yep." Hitomi sighed dramatically. "You'll just have to."
"I don't understand."
"You'll never be able to get any sleep tonight if you don't sleep over." Her voice sounded mischievous.
My eyes enlarged. "Ohh!"
"Yes, there you go."
I started laughing. "Well, Hitomi, thank you." I gave her a proper Japanese bow, even though I was born in USA.
She bowed back. "Come on, let's go." She grabbed my hand and we walked to the parking lot.
When we got to the apartment, I went with her to their apartment. We got in and Van was there, cooking something that smelled delicious, wearing a dark red apron. He turned around just in time to see us walk in.
"Hi ladies." He waved.
"Hi." I smiled.
Hitomi grinned and ran to him. "Why are you cooking dinner for me?"
"Because…" Van grinned down at her and slowly wrapped his free arm around her waist, trapping her.
"Van, thank you." She smiled. He leaned down on her and kissed her softly.
Tears started building in my eyes. I walked to the bathroom after excusing myself. I sat on the toilet and looked at the towel facing me. Somehow Syaoran's face formed on it and I couldn't help but start to cry. I went to the sink, washed my hands, and then stare at my reflection in the mirror. My eyes quickly turned red and swollen.
"Syaoran…" I mumbled. "I miss you so much…" I washed my face quickly. 'I can't let them know I've been crying.' I thought. When I came out of the bathroom, Hitomi was there, looking upset with arms crossed. "H-Hitomi."
"You were crying." She said accusingly.
"I wasn't!" I bit my bottom lip.
"Sakura…"
"What??" I moved sideways and went to the living room.
"Sakura, why are you crying?? You have to tell me!"
"I wasn't crying, Hitomi!"
"What's going on here?" Van asked. He glanced at me, at Hitomi, and then at me. "Sakura, why are you crying??"
"I wasn't crying." I said silently this time. "Can I go back now? I think I'll just stay in my apartment tonight. It's ok."
"No you can't, Sakura!!" Hitomi protested.
"Yeah, Sakura. Stay." Van asked me.
A small sob came out. "You guys have been too nice. I-I…I just need to get out of here."
"Sakura--!!" Hitomi protested again, with more force, but Van pulled her back.
"Go ahead, Sakura. You're always welcome here." Van smiled warmly.
I thanked him silently. "Bye."
When I got to my room, I just started crying. I couldn't stop it and I knew it would take me a long time until I'd get over it and be all right again. I collapsed on the soft carpet and leaned my back against a wall. I buried my head on my knees and cried. A poem I remembered learning in English came into my mind.
~*~
At night
At night I lay and think of you hoping my wishes and dreams come true
At night I wonder can this be the end is this all that's left
At night I wish we could go to the way things were
At night I lay and cry about the things that happened and how it all ended
At night I lay and think of us, I mean you and I
At night I realize there's no more us
At night I dream of us together again
At night I wish for us to be together again
But in the morning I realize it was all
At night
~*~
How a poem could relate to me scared me so much. I understood these words. Those were what I felt in my heart. I ended up just cradling myself to sleep, dreaming of Syaoran.
I was in the middle of a good dream when someone shook me. I didn't bother opening my eyes, hoping it was going to go away, but yells came with the shaking. "Sakura, wake up…" That was all I could muster up. I finally opened my eyes and looked at the two people talking and shaking me at the same time.
"Ugh, stop…" I mumbled. They moved a little away from me. "What's going on?"
"Your stuff…it's coming."
"Oh." I put my arms up and they helped me to my feet. "How long was I sleeping?"
"Pretty long." Hitomi answered. "Its 12 noon now."
"Wow…" I muttered.
"Yeah. Maybe you should get changed and take a bath." Van inquired.
I looked at him lazily. "Fine."
They put all the furniture in when they arrived. At the end, the living room didn't look so empty now, what with the couches and TV w/ DVD. I finally had a bed to sleep in that night! The computer was also in my room and the phone too. My apartment looked like a home, really. Hitomi and Van were sitting in the living room already flipping the channels.
"Say, don't you guys have a TV too?" I asked sarcastically.
"Yeah, but it doesn't work, right 'Tomi?" Van asked, nudging at Hitomi, pretending that I didn't notice it.
"Right. Don't mind us Sakura. We won't take long." They said, without turning around to face me. Those two were really a match made in heaven.
For a whole year, it was just like that. Hitomi and Van were still as close as ever, but still didn't get a wedding date yet. I didn't think they were even trying to find one. Hitomi and I got closer and closer than ever, more so like the time when Syaoran and I were super close, but this was between two girls, so big difference. Hitomi found me a job in her department, where I worked as a computer programmer as she worked as a computer analyst.
She and I came at different times in the morning, but we ate lunch together and went home together. It was 10am when I left my apartment. I walked to the building, which was about 2 blocks away, so not much. The building was huge with about 30 floors up. Crazy!
"Hi." Some people waved at me and greeted as I passed by them. I smiled back and occasionally waving back. When I got to our floor, which was the 28th, Hitomi was sitting there, looking at her computer looking confused.
"Hi Hitomi." I waved. Her face stared at mine and she broke into a grin.
"Hey Sakura!! You're here!"
I sat on the cubicle next to hers. "How long you been here?" I asked.
"Hour."
"Oh ok."
We went out to lunch, did the same things, and finally left home. When we got to the apartment, it seemed awfully quiet in Hitomi's home, where it was so loud everyday because of Van's music. Hitomi looked at me. "Maybe he's sleeping." Hitomi thought.
"I don't know. Why would he sleep in the middle of the day?" I asked her.
"You're right. I'm going in to see what's going on!" Hitomi declared. She walked in the apartment, me behind her, and the place was empty. "Van?" No answer. "Van??" No answer again. "VAN?!?!?" Hitomi yelled.
"AGH! Here I am!!" Van came out of the room, wearing nothing but pants. His hair was wet, and I guessed he just took a bath. "What's wrong??"
"Oh nothing!" Hitomi chirped. "I was just looking for you."
"Uh…" He lookd really confused. "Ok. Hey Sakura."
"Hey Van." I gave a little wave.
"Guess what?" He asked us both.
"What?" Hitomi and I answered unison.
"We got this new guy at work. Yeah, he's really weird."
"New guy? What do you mean new guy?" Hitomi asked curiously.
"I dunno." He shrugged his shoulders. "A new guy. I haven't seen him, but my buddies said he's weird. I'll see him tonight though. I'll tell you all about him. Hey Sakura, maybe I can set you up with him." Van grinned.
I gave him a disugsted look. "No thanks Van. Date him yourself if you want. I don't think Hitomi minds." I joked back.
Van just laughed. Hitomi grinned. "Yeah I don't, Van."
"I'll think about it, ladies."
The night was fun and merry, but the time came for me to go back to my apartment. "I'll talk to you tomorrow, ok?" I told Hitomi.
"Yeah, ok." She smiled. "Bye Sakura."
"Bye!"
I left and went to my own. The room was not as cozy as theirs, but it was ok. I dealt with it for 1 year, might as well deal with it for another few more. I went to my bed and laid down, staring out the window. The sky was dark blue with purple shimmering stars. A slight drizzle spread on top of the buildings.
I sighed. "Lord…if anything…please give me someone to love. Someone to cherish…" I shed a small tear, and went to sleep.
Everything was just like that for another few months. One day after work I went home with Hitomi. We went in their apartment first and Van seemed to be talking to someone. "I don't think we should bother them." I said to Hitomi.
"Who cares?" She waved it off.
"Mm…" I mumbled. I followed her to the living room.
Van started to notice us and smiled brightly. "Hi guys." He stood up. "I want you to meet someone. This is the new guy from our work." I stared at his chestnut brown hair. My heart beat as fast and loud as it could. 'I-It can't be.'
"Guys, this is Syaoran Li. He got transferred from Philadelphia."
"Oh my god…" My whole body shook like a leaf. I slowly reached up to my lips and hid it under my hand. "It can't be…"
He stood up and turned around to look at us. His eyes widened at the sight of me. I already knew my eyes were wet with tears. "S-Syaoran…" I mumbled.
"Hi, I'm Hitomi." I heard her say.
Syaoran didn't say anything, but kept staring at me. I let out a sob. "E-e-excuse m-me." I muttered and ran to the bathroom.
"Sakura-!" I heard him.
In the bathroom I started crying a lot. All the heartaches I held in my heart came out at that moment and surrounded me. Syaoran came back. I knew that was all I waited for for 4 long years, but when I saw him…I felt so…so weird. I felt no connection between us like…3 years of friendship just came out the window and was forgotten. His eyes didn't hold that love and comfort it always did and I guess that's what pained me so much.
"Sakura, come out right now!" I heard Hitomi yell.
"Just give me a second!!" I yelled back. She got quiet.
"Come out Sakura." His deep voice rung a deep quiver in my heart.
I didn't listen. I stayed in there for God knows how long. I sat on the floor, rested my back on the wall, and faced the mirror. "Why did I waste so much tears on him…? He doesn't even love me anymore. He doesn't remember our friendship. Why did he even bother coming back…?? Did he just like hurting me? Was I that innocent in college? How could I have fallen for a bastard like him???" I asked myself, drowning in tears. I knew all those answers. He was worth it. He was worth the tears…he was worth the pain…he was my whole life.
When I finally thought I could hide no longer, I came out. I opened the door slowly and met red chestnut eyes right in front of me. His physical features changed. He looked more mature and a lot more handsome, no doubt.
"You changed." He said.
"Why are you here?"
"I was transferred."
"Why are you here?" I asked again.
"I was transferred."
"Let me try again. Why the hell are you here?"
He looked surprised at me. "I was looking for you."
That left me stunned. "W-what is this? Is this some kind of joke?!"
"Why would this be some lameass joke??"
"You tell me! No communication for 3 goddamn years and you look for me now?!?! What the hell is this, Syaoran?!?!?"
"Look, it wasn't my fault that I didn't talk to you, dammit!!" His eyes were blazing.
I growled in frustration and happiness all mixed together and walked back to my apartment with him on my heels. When we got there, he shrank on the couch and made a loud groan. "God, I wasn't expecting this."
My tears blurred my sight. "Why didn't you write back?? Why didn't you even bother to call or send a letter?? AND WHY THE HELL DID YOU TELL ME YOU LOVED ME THE DAY YOU GOT ON THAT FREAKIN PLANE???" I used my arm to wipe away the tears, but I kept my head down.
"I-I tried to write back, Sakura." He stood up and walked over to me. He lifted up my head and stared longingly into my eyes. "Believe me, I tried. I got your email and I read it. But I couldn't write back to you. Every time I would stare at the computer and just type about everything I wanted to tell you, but when I had the chance to send it…I didn't. I threw it all away."
"Why??" I whimpered quietly.
"I don't know." Was his answer. "I'm so sorry, babe…" He wiped away my tears.
"Syaoran…" I sobbed onto his chest.
"I told you I loved you, because…I thought I'd never see you ever again." He licked his lips. "I thought I could just leave it hanging…" His eyes shook a little. "I know it was a stupid selfish thing to do. I know how much I hurt you when I did it. The truth is Sakura, I do love you with all my heart. I never ever stopped. I always wondered what the result would be if I told you I loved you the day I got in that plane. I never really found the answer."
"Syaoran…" I said silently. "If you told me before, my answer would have been 'Aishiteru Syaoran'."
There was silence in the room. Then I noticed something. His eyes sparkled with silvery water. "If I told you before…" He muttered.
I looked away. "My answer to you now is…" I hesitated.
He was crying vaguely.
"Kimi o ai shiteru, Syaoran. My soul mate."
The sparkles in his tears flowed freely down his soft cheeks. "Oh Sakura…" He crushed me in a bear hug and wouldn't let go of me. "Oh Sakura, I love you with my whole heart. Goddamn, its crazy."
I let out a little giggle. "Syaoran, I missed you a lot."
"I missed you like crazy, babe!! I thought I'd really kill myself…" He pulled away and wrapped his arms around my waist tightly but gently. "Avalon…"
"Yeah, Li?"
"Can I kiss you?" His eyes were still wet with tears. It was a melting sight.
"Do you have to ask?"
His lips found mine and he slowly but softly tasted my lips. My eyes were closed, but the feeling was so wonderful as if fireworks were bursting in our hearts. He kissed me more passionately though, than ever before as if he was saving me from great danger.
I had no idea what happened with Van and Hitomi, but I decided not to think about them anymore. The day was going on well even though I dropped a few tears. Syaoran and I got to talking that night about the really important stuff and trying to catch up to what was going on with each other. We were both in the living room.
"How was Philadelphia?" I asked him.
"When I got there, my parents helped me out. It was easy getting in the college. My education got lowered down a little, but I didn't mind. My parents actually stayed together and ended up falling in love over again. They thanked me for coming and staying. I was really angry and upset about everything. Of course I met some friends. I made some new friends, this gang, called 'GW'. Yeah, they're cool. The one I really got close to was Heero. He's a nice guy. Quiet, but nice."
"Yeah?" I was so curious about his stories.
He nodded. "There's this girl who likes him a lot. Heero's in love with her. Doesn't want to show it, but he does. Her name's Relena or something. She's cute, but you're cuter. No offense to her or anything." He blushed. I blushed back. "The day I left, he told me to stay strong."
"Why?"
"Because I was weak and I couldn't take care of myself."
"Syaoran…"
"I know."
"So tell me more."
"Huh. Well let's see. My sisters promised to take care of my parents till they get to college, so I was free finally. I found a job in Philly as Computer Engineer. I don't know why but a couple months ago, they were laying off people. They gave me a choice whether to lay me off or send me to Canada."
"Uh-huh."
"I talked to your parents before I came here. I was hoping to see you in Seattle, but they said you moved here. I asked my boss again about thte choice thing with the job and chose to go to Canada. They gave me a vacant job here, and so then I met Van Fanel. Cool guy."
I nodded. "How do you like Canada so far, Syaoran?"
"It's great. Van showed me around town a couple days ago. I'm glad he brought me to his house."
"Yeah." I smiled. "Or we wouldn't have met…"
"I know." He teased. "So Sakura. Tell me what you've been up to."
"Last two years of college was hard. Really hard. Julian helped me through it all. And I graduated…and I'd think about you…I went back to Seattle…and think about you…and cry over you…lots and lots of stuff."
"Geez, Sakura, I'm really sorry." He buried his hands on his air. "I'm so sorry." He apologized again.
I hurried over to him and hugged him tightly. "It's ok, Syaoran. It's all in the past, right?"
"Yeah I know. But three years is a long time. God…" He couldn't stop apologizing. "I feel so damn guilty."
I couldn't do anything to help him with that. "Syaoran…"
"Yeah?"
"Do…do you promise never to leave my side anymore?" I raised my eyes to meet his ambers.
He smiled warmly through his eyes. "I promise, Sakura."
I jumped at him and kept my head buried in the nape of his neck. "You don't know how happy I am! I love you Syaoran." I mumbled.
I felt him caressing my hair. "I love you babe." He answered back. "I know how happy you are. Believe me."
I looked at him and he looked back." I missed you just as much as you missed me, you know that?" He put his hands on my cheeks and pulled me closer slowly. "I feel as if I'm in heaven and you're my angel."
I sobbed quietly and smiled. "I feel the same way."
He caught my lips in his and kissed them tenderly. He was just amazing…
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Two years later…
Author's narration
A little girl walked next door without anyone watching her. She opened the door and saw Syaoran sitting on the couch reading a newspaper. "Hi Uncle Syaoran." She grinned.
He looked up and grinned back at her. "Hi Maya, what are you doing here?"
"Mama said I could come visit!" She lied playfully.
"Really now?" Syaoran inquired. "Come here, kid."
Maya ran to him and Syaoran held her in his arms. "Where's Auntie Sakura?"
"She's over there. Trying to get Conner to sleep."
"Can I see them?"
"Yeah. Let's go." Syaoran grinned.
Sakura glanced out by the door and saw Syaoran and Maya coming. "Hi guys." Conner glanced up and saw Maya. "Hi Maya." He slightly blushed.
"Hi Conner!" She grinned and jumped down. She ran to his bedside. "Why are you trying to sleep?"
"Cause I'm sick." He muttered. "Where's Uncle Van and Auntie Hitomi?"
"Somewhere…" Maya mumbled. "Um!"
"Somewhere, Maya??" Syaoran asked curiously.
"No, no, they're at home." She giggled nervously.
Sakura pushed Syaoran out of the bedroom and they went to the living room together. Syaoran held Sakura's waist and kept her close to him. "Oh Syaoran…" She mumbled. "This is like a dream come true, you know…"
"Yeah I know." He grinned. "I never thought I'd have settled down with you…after everything that's happened to us. And we got a great kid."
Sakura giggled. "I love you Syaoran. I promise to love you forever."
"And I promise you." He replied affectionately. "Sakura…" He whispered in her ear.
"Yes, Syaoran?"
"Let's give Conner a sister." He murmured.
Sakura blushed while laughing, and nodded. "Lead the way, Li."
"Love you babe."
Sakura smiled happily. 'Thank you God…for giving me someone to love and cherish for eternity…and thank you for bringing him back to me.'
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Note: Someone called 'Miss P' made the poem 'All Night'. I got it in a poem site place. All right! I've done it!! So how do you guys like it?? Please review! I hoped I pleased some of you. This was my first time, so if you don't like the ending, I am really so sorry…^-^ *crying*
Anyway, I'm going to make another story…if I can, all right? Bye!!
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