When they approached the funeral home driveway, Harry felt a sudden
lurch of dread in his stomach. He didn't think he could face Sirius' dead,
cold body in that dark, chestnut coffin. He didn't think he could watch
him being lowered six feet below . . . he was terrified.
"You know . . . many people will be there that will want to talk to
you and condole with you. I suggest you be courteous and polite as many
famous witches and wizards are in that home right now," Mundungus said.
Harry didn't appreciate being ordered around by this man that he had met
barely four hours ago. But, being polite, he just nodded in return,
acknowledging his statement.
It felt extremely good to get out of the hot and stuffy car and into
the breezy August afternoon. It felt quite nice, but there was a distinct
chill in the air . . . or maybe it was just his dread speaking for him.
They finally entered the funeral home and Harry couldn't believe how
packed it was. There must have been at least 400 wizards and witches
there. Harry wasn't sure if the 400 were there because they were glad to
see him go . . . and he didn't really want to find out.
Harry heard a voice behind him and turned around. It was Dumbledore.
He had been talking to a young witch of around Harry's age whom was very
nice-looking indeed. She smiled at Harry and Dumbledore before leaving.
"How are you, Harry? I want to apologize for not staying with you
that day at your relative's house. But I hope you can understand that the
outside world's demands are very high as of right now and I had other
business that I was obligated to tend to," Dumbledore said.
"Yes, of course Professor, of course I understand . . . I've been
making it through all right. It hadn't really hit me until I was just
riding in the car with Mr. Fletcher. Dumbledore . . . where is he? I
would like to see him."
"He's in the room right through there . . ." Dumbledore pointed with
a steady finger through the masses of people crowded around the room.
Harry nodded at Dumbledore and trudged his way through the sea of
witches and wizards. He finally caught a glimpse of what looked like
bunches of flowers and candles. He looked downwards, not wanting to see
him, yet feeling it his duty to do so. Sirius deserved at least that much
respect.
As he came to an opening, he saw it. He neared it, dreading what lay
before him.
And there was Sirius Alan Black, godfather to Harry, best friend of
his parent's, ex-convicted murderer, lying in a casket, pale as a ghost.
He lay motionless with hands at both sides, looking dashing in his navy
blue suit, which lay upon him carelessly. It was very hard to see his
usually lively godfather in this state. He'd never imagined him to be
dead.
Harry put a hand into the casket and touched him. Harry drew back
quickly . . . he was cold as ice. He wrapped his hand around Sirius' and
sat there for quite a long time. It wasn't until someone came up and
tapped him on the shoulder that he was aware that the actual funeral was
starting.
"Sirius Alan Black," the priest started, "though a wrong impression
came across to many of us when convicted of a false felony, was truly an
inspirational and great man. He touched many of our lives in some way or
another and managed to create a spot in his heart for each and everyone of
us. He caused many to laugh during his years at school and was a very
admirable person indeed, even in childhood . . ."
As the priest went on, Harry zoned out. He wanted to be anywhere
else but there right then. He looked straight ahead and blocked out the
priest's words. Seeing Sirius in that setting was just too . . .
disturbing. After all, he'd never been through a fu -- . . .
Harry's thoughts were interrupted when another marched its way right
in. He had been through a funeral. Dumbledore once told him that some of
his parent's ashes had been collected after Voldemort attacked them in
Godric's Hollow, the night that they died. Harry had asked where they
were, as he thought that he deserved to have them, but Dumbledore hadn't
revealed the answer, for "security reasons."
Harry hadn't thought of his parent's funeral in a very long time.
He'd never considered the fact that they must've had some kind of service
for them. What would be his reaction today if another kind of memorial
service was held?
As this event was causing many dark and depressing thoughts, Harry
thought it time for a break.
It was then that he realized it appeared that Harry was the 'guest of
honor' in a way. It seemed as if he was the only 'family' Sirius had ever
had, and he was sitting in front of the funeral party, in a separate chair
from everyone else. Harry hadn't even noticed the people that kept coming
up to him and saying, "I'm sorry, dear . . ."
The funeral continued and Harry remained in his state of fogginess.
And before he knew it, it was time for the last good-bye before they locked
the casket.
Harry was the first in line and walked towards the coffin. There was
Sirius again, cold as ice, lying there like a lifeless vegetable.
Harry had tried so hard to prevent the tears that had been building
up inside him, but the longer he looked at the dead Sirius, the more the
gale of hurt wanted to escape.
He couldn't control it anymore and let out a desperate cry of
anguish. He collapsed onto the person next to him and cried, and cried,
and cried . . .
The next few hours were just a blur. It seemed as if he was delirious as
he had no idea where he was or whom he was sitting next to. He heard
voices around him that he did not recognize . . . he saw flashing lights.
"Stop moving me around," Harry tried to mumble.
A voice spoke as if speaking into a tape recorder, "His words are
incomprehensible and he seems to be deliriously confused . . . his limbs
are limp and his speech is jumbled . . . what do you suggest? Okay . . .
just grief? Just sleep? Pills? Okay, I'll have Tom go and get them . .
."
And that was all he remembered.
Harry must've woken, as sunlight was suddenly pouring into his eyes. But then the light was shaded and he could finally open his eyes. "Are you okay?" The voice was music to his ears . . . so angelic it sounded as if it should've been in the heavens, and not here on earth. The oily tones of this female's voice made him at ease at once. "Yes," Harry replied, closing his eyes again so he could correct his vision. Soon, he opened them again and was looking into the eyes of the most beautiful girl he'd ever seen. "My name is Annabelle . . . I believe you're a Mr. Harry Potter?" "Yeah . . ." This girl didn't seem to be British either, she surely had an American accent. "You've been sleeping for two days straight . . . I've been watching over you . . . we never knew when you'd wake." "Who is we?" Harry wondered briefly for a minute, then realized that it had come out in the form of a question. "We, as in the British Society for American Orphanized Children, or BSAOC for short," this girl named Annabelle said. "Oh, I see . . ." Harry felt the urge to launch into his story of orphanism, in order to relate with her, but figured she already knew and decided he shouldn't waste his already feeble energy.
Harry must've woken, as sunlight was suddenly pouring into his eyes. But then the light was shaded and he could finally open his eyes. "Are you okay?" The voice was music to his ears . . . so angelic it sounded as if it should've been in the heavens, and not here on earth. The oily tones of this female's voice made him at ease at once. "Yes," Harry replied, closing his eyes again so he could correct his vision. Soon, he opened them again and was looking into the eyes of the most beautiful girl he'd ever seen. "My name is Annabelle . . . I believe you're a Mr. Harry Potter?" "Yeah . . ." This girl didn't seem to be British either, she surely had an American accent. "You've been sleeping for two days straight . . . I've been watching over you . . . we never knew when you'd wake." "Who is we?" Harry wondered briefly for a minute, then realized that it had come out in the form of a question. "We, as in the British Society for American Orphanized Children, or BSAOC for short," this girl named Annabelle said. "Oh, I see . . ." Harry felt the urge to launch into his story of orphanism, in order to relate with her, but figured she already knew and decided he shouldn't waste his already feeble energy.
