Chapter Seven
Phil Collins
"You'll Be In My Heart"
Come stop your crying it will be alright
just take my hand, hold it tight
I will protect you from all around you
I will be here, don't you cry
For one so small you seem so strong
My arms will hold you, keep you safe and warm
This bond between us, can't be broken
I will be here, don't you cry
"Chris," Eve spoke his name as her gaze drifted up towards him. It felt like an eternity since she'd opened the door to Juliana's nursery and yet Chris remained motionless just out in the hallway out of reach. He had an oddly pleasant expression on his face as Eve reached out to him concerned, "is everything alright?"
"Listen," he urged his voice no more than a faint whisper as he took her hand in his squeezing it gently, "listen to her."
Eve hesitated momentarily realizing that the things she'd just taken for granted with Juliana were things that Chris was yet to experience. As the soft sounds of Juliana's musical mobile filled the small room, there was a slow, rumbling sound rising above the melody. Eve noted the way Chris' eyes widened at the very sound as Eve couldn't help but smile at this new revelation.
"She tends to take after you when it comes to snoring," Eve explained an air of playfulness in her tone as she laced her fingers with his leading him into the nursery, "though she hasn't become unbearable yet."
"I'm not unbearable," Chris objected warmly as his eyes drifted beyond Eve to the small crib set up across the room. The teddy bear motif set against the pale walls of the room added a warmth that Chris had only imagined for his future as he continued forward not sure what seeing his daughter for the first time would do to him. He glanced back over his shoulder at Eve noting the soothing expression that washed over her features.
"Go on," she urged him on as he turned towards Juliana once again, "she's been waiting for you."
"And I've been waiting for her as well," Chris confessed realizing no other words rang more true in his life as his eyes drifted over the plush confines of the crib to reveal the small dark haired child dreaming away from within. A gasp feel from his lips as he stepped forward bringing his arm over the crib's railing as he found himself overcome by the urge to touch her, to reach out and hold her close to him. His fingers eased in towards her soft, dark tresses before he drew back blinking in the hopes that this wasn't just another dream he'd been having about what life might've been.
"You can touch her," Eve whispered stepping in behind him as she sensed his hesitance, "She won't break."
"She's so beautiful," Chris blurted out overcome by a mixture of emotions as Juliana shifted beneath the tiny teddy bear blanket she'd had covering her.
"She has your smile and your irresistible charm," Eve offered up pressing in against his back as she raised up on her toes looking over his shoulder at their daughter, "she's everything to me, Ramsey. She's what kept me alive all this time."
"I just wish I knew," Chris found himself at a loss as everything that brought them to this point in time together rushed forward, "if I'd realized..."
"Chris, it's the past," Eve tried to coax him into making contact with their daughter as her fingers slipped through his lacing their hands together. Eve slowly lifted his hand up to her lips pressing a feathery light kiss over the palm before she squeezed his hand once more, guiding his palm into the crib bringing it down beside the warmth of Juliana's small form. She felt the tension rushing through his body as she eased his hand over Juliana's silken mane in a smooth, gentle fashion offering him the moment to get to know his daughter like she'd wanted for so very long.
Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes you'll be in my heart
From this day on, now and forever more
You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart always..
Jack Ramsey sank into the seat at the airport holding the letter from Alison in his hands. While he'd wanted nothing more than to discard it when she'd left, he realized that this was the one remaining treasure he'd had from their night together. Bringing the page up to his face, he could still feel her scent lingering over it, her perfume invading his senses as he'd imagined what it would've been like to have awakened with her in his arms. If only she hadn't run away. What in Port Charles could've been so important for her to just leave like that, he questioned inwardly.
"Excuse me Senor," a voice interrupted his thoughts as Jack looked up to find one of the earlier tour guides that had lead him and Chris around the area standing before him, "Senor Ramsey."
"Ramon," Jack offered up forcing a smile, "what are you doing here?"
"I have been doing some work at the airport during the off season," he explained simply, "being a guide only gets you so far."
"I suppose it might," Jack nodded half listening as Alison still remained in his mind.
"It helps me get by," Ramon shrugged, "though I must confess I'm surprised to see you here. I'd have imagined you would've been living it up with that beautiful blonde girlfriend of yours that arrived last night. She'd seemed so eager to reach you when she'd arrived."
"You saw her?" Jack's eyes widened.
"Indeed," Ramon nodded, "she was very eager to find her way to where you and your brother were staying last night which is why I was surprised to see her here this morning."
"She left Ramon," Jack looked away bringing his gaze back to the floor once again, "she went back home."
"Really?" Ramon thought it over, "now that surprises me. When I'd seen her last she'd sounded so determined to get back to you."
"You just said you'd seen her here earlier," Jack reminded him, "Clearly you know why someone is hanging out at an airport."
"Honestly, I'd thought she must've been leaving, but when I talked to her, she'd said she'd changed her mind, that somehow while she'd imagined she was needed back home, she couldn't leave this place. She said something about having to finish something she'd started and then she headed out the doors," Ramon shrugged once more, "which is why I was surprised to see you here. I'd imagined she'd returned back to your pueblo."
"Well I guess we were both wrong," Jack sighed as he rose from the seat, "she left Ramon. She decided staying wasn't in the plans for the future."
"Ah," Ramon eyed him intently, "a man in love but fearing for the future," he shook his head poignantly, "it makes a very unbearable combination."
"I'm not in love," Jack argued half heartedly, "it's not like that."
"No?" Ramon raised a curious brow, "if that was the case, then why are you here?"
"I was asking myself that very question," Jack sighed as he turned towards the doors.
"What you should be asking yourself more so than what you're doing here, is why you're letting her slip away. If you love her, you should be asking yourself why you haven't gone after her yet," Ramon paused watching Jack's response, "maybe that's the real issue bothering you."
Jack thought it over for a moment before he stepped towards the front door of the small airport ready to put this day behind him when he noticed something on the ground before him. Bending down, he realized it was a purse, Alison's purse and he looked around the airport suddenly expecting her to reappear, but he was only met by her memory as the now empty airport seemed to close in around him. He looked down the purse suddenly remembering Ramon's words. Perhaps Alison had never left, he reasoned as he left the airport hoping to find her waiting back at his place. Perhaps she'd felt the bond with him as well in her heart. Perhaps they did have a chance, he reasoned as he rushed out of the airport ready to share everything that he'd kept inside with Alison.
Why can't they understand the way we feel?
They just don't trust, what they can't explain
I know we're different but, deep inside us
We're not that different at all
Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes you'll be in my heart
From this day on, now and forever more
You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart always..
"Oh Eve," Chris felt the murmur rise from deep within him as Juliana's dark eyes opened up towards him. Her face was a vision of pure beauty with her deep, penetrating eyes and her beautifully chubby cheeks. A tiny smile tugged at her lips as Eve released his hand and she moved in beside him leaning against his arm.
"Mama?" Juliana half questioned as a yawn overtook her smile. She began to sit up rubbing on her tired eyes before she extended her arms out towards Eve.
"Hey baby," Eve reached within the crib as Chris remained frozen in the moment watching the two of them.
Juliana mumbled something rather incoherent to Eve as a smile swept over Eve's lips and she pressed a kiss over her daughter's lovely forehead. After a moment Juliana looked over at Chris, her eyes shining bright with curiosity as she seemed to size him up with that one simple look she'd been giving him. Chris couldn't help but smile as her eyes remained so completely fixed on his.
"Hi Juliana," he smiled at her before her face turned away and she buried her eyes behind Eve's long, dark hair suddenly very bashful as he'd addressed her.
"She's a bit shy at first," Eve explained as Juliana started to peek out at Chris from behind the lengthy strands of Eve's hair. Just as she found herself aware of him looking at her, she would vanish behind the safety Eve's brunette tresses provided her. Eve touched Juliana's back in a soothing gesture as she pulled her hair back revealing Juliana to Chris, "Juliana, it's okay. This is your daddy. He's very eager to meet you."
Juliana looked over at Chris as Eve said those words, her eyes filled with curious wonderment as she tipped her head slightly. She said nothing as if awaiting a move from Chris as he looked to Eve for encouragement.
"Say something to her," Eve offered up with a smile, "if you talk long enough, she'll get going too."
"Alright," Chris agreed, his gaze returning to Juliana, "hey Juliana, how are you?"
Juliana said nothing as she looked up at Eve for some kind of sign on how to respond. Eve gave her a soft squeeze before offering up another kiss on the child's tiny forehead before Juliana looked to Chris again.
"Eve, I don't know if this is going too well," Chris slipped his hands into his pockets trying to smooth over the nervous anticipation that was vibrating through his every synapse.
"I think you're doing fine," Eve coaxed him further as she squeezed her daughter closer in her arms, "why don't we just go sit down in the other room and take some time to get reacquainted?"
"That sounds like a great idea," Chris agreed watching Eve step past him as Juliana lay against her soft form. As the two slipped out the doorway, Chris noticed Juliana was now peeking over Eve's shoulder back at Chris, her eyes seeking him out as he followed behind them. He was halfway out the door when Eve called out to him from the other room.
"Chris can you grab Mr. Wiggly?" Eve questioned her voice muffled by the distance between them.
"Mr. Wiggly?" Chris repeated a confused expression on his face as he looked over Juliana's things realizing that she'd had quite a lot considering the predicament she and Eve had wound up in.
"He's a stuffed caterpillar dressed in a martini print pajama set," Eve's voice answered from behind the wall between them, "he should be in Juliana's bed, near the top."
"I'll look," Chris approached the crib once again sure enough finding a bright green stuffed caterpillar dressed in a blue martini print pajama set as Eve had said it would be. He chuckled in mild amusement thinking of how ridiculous the toy looked as he stepped out of the nursery, "Eve, where or where did you pick this thing up?"
"We found it at a market not far from here," Eve explained as Chris stepped into the room finding both girls sitting on the floor in front of the sofa, a blue blanket spread out beneath Juliana as she had toys scattered around her.
"It's a bit obnoxious," Chris admitted with a hint of laughter as she frowned.
"It reminded me of you," Eve teased as Juliana looked up at him expectantly.
Chris stepped in towards her noting the way her little pajamas seemed to add to her beauty giving her that look that many child actors had. She had so much of Eve in her, yet as her eyes looked onto him expectantly, he could see a bit of himself very much alive in Juliana. Her arms stretched out to him as she let out a tiny groan.
"Is this what you want?" Chris bent down holding the toy out to her, "Mr. Wiggly?"
"Mine," she answered taking Mr. Wiggly from his hand and holding it close to her body. She hugged it to her chest protectively as her gaze shifted to the floor away from Chris.
"Come here Ramsey," Eve urged patting the floor beside her as she sensed the apprehension behind Chris' features, "give her a few minutes and she'll warm up."
"She's so grown up Eve," Chris confessed making himself as comfortable as could be on the floor beside Eve, "so much has happened in her life and she has no idea who I am. I'm just a stranger to her, some man you brought home...." he stopped himself the thought lingering as he imagined Eve bringing any other man to her home to see their daughter. He dismissed the thought as he focused on the tiny girl sitting before them.
"She's had to go through a lot to be here in this world, but I feel very blessed to have her. Every day is a miracle in itself," Eve reached for his hand squeezing it supportively, "and I owe that to you."
"Eve, you were the one who was so very strong, who fought to bring her into this world," he touched her cheek gently feeling his heart fill with love for her as her beauty had swept over him more than ever upon learning she'd given birth to his daughter.
"It was your love that kept me going," Eve confessed her voice just above a whisper as she reached out to hold him, "it was the dream of returning to be with you one day that kept me going, kept me fighting to find my way home."
"And now that you've found me," he half questioned, "now that we're together again...."
"I feel like I'm home," Eve interrupted leaning in towards him making her intentions clear as she closed her eyes easing in for a kiss.
"Mama," Juliana interrupted as Eve reopened her eyes to find Juliana seated before her, a smile over her beautiful baby face as she held Mr. Wiggly out towards Eve.
"You want me to hold Mr. Wiggly?" Eve questioned reaching for the toy as Juliana shook her head. She seemed to think it over for a moment before handing the toy to Eve. "Now what are you going to play with baby doll?" Eve questioned looking to her daughter's scattered toys.
"No play," Juliana looked up at Chris for a long, contemplative moment before finally extending her arms out towards him.
"What is it?" Chris questioned a bit unsure as Juliana made a tiny sound at him.
"I think she wants you to hold her," Eve explained as Juliana began to crawl up into Chris' lap silently. Once she'd made herself comfortable on Chris' lap, she reached out to Eve making a move towards Mr. Wiggly. Eve handed over the toy watching as her daughter hugged it seemingly melting against Chris as he wrapped his arms around her silently.
"Thank you," Juliana smiled at Eve before she tipped her head back to look up at Chris with a tiny smile, "thank you dada."
"You're very welcome," Chris answered her realizing that while it had taken a moment his daughter was very aware of who he was. She'd taken her time in letting him know it, but now as she leaned in against him relaxing in his arms, he realized that perhaps it would all turn out for the best after all.
Don't listen to them, what do they know?
We need each other to have to hold
They'll see in time...I know...
When destiny calls you you must be strong (you gotta be strong)
I might not be with you, but you got to hold on
They'll see in time. I know...
We'll show them together cuz
Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes you'll be in my heart
From this day on, now and forever more
You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart always..
You'll be in my heart (you'll be here in my heart)
no matter what they say (I'll be with you)
you'll be here in my heart (I'll be there) always..
always...I'll be with you
I'll be there for you always, always and always
just look over your shoulder
just look over your shoulder
just look over your shoulder
I'll be there always....