*********Flashback******************************************************
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cuz I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
"Do you HAVE to listen to that depressing music right now Rogue?" Kerri said as she flipped threw her fashion magazines and played with her hair. "Where are Daring and Stokes?" Rogue muttered under her breath. Kerri raised an eyebrow. "Still hurting?"
"Ah don't know what ya'll're talkin bout."
"Come on Rogue, why did you break up with Daring? I mean you obviously still like him." Kerri threw her magazine on the floor. For some reason she liked tormenting Rogue about her love life. Maybe it was because Rogue always got the guys that Kerri liked, maybe it was because Kerri had grown up in Bel-Air and just liked to gossip. Either way Rogue didn't like being left alone with Kerri, incase she suddenly found the courage to attack the brunette.
"Ah just don't like 'im anymore." Rogue wanted the conversation to end there but it didn't.
"Yeah right. It's cause you can't touch him isn't it." Kerri smiled evilly. "He deserves someone who can touch him. That's what you think isn't it?"
"Knock knock." Daring said as he and Stokes walked in, both drenched in what appeared to be sweat. "Just got back from basketball. What are you two up to?"
"Rogue is listening to her super depressing music again." Kerri said as she blew a bubble and chomped on her gum. Daring tried not to make eye contact with Rogue and Stokely quickly changed the subject.
"Anybody seen Adam?"
"Probably studying." Kerri said rolling her eyes, "I'll tell you this, he's the dumbest smart guy I've ever met."
"What's got you in such a bitter mood? Daring said as Stokely went into the bathroom to change.
"She's permanently PMSing tha's what." Rogue said, a little louder than she'd meant to. Kerri looked severely pissed at this comment.
"I'm sorry. We can't all be as perfect as little Miss patient ugly Goth freak show!" Kerri then stomped off upstairs and slammed her door. Daring shook his head.
"I pity the man who gets stuck with her." Rogue got up and grabbed her bags, fully packed and waiting at the door. Daring stood up.
"Where are you going?" Rogue paused at the door.
"Vegas, New York, who knows really." Rogue bent down and grabbed her bags and opened the door, but still paused. "Take care of Stokes for me. Ah'll call sometime, but she won' understand rite now."
"Don't leave." Daring moved forward. "WE need you."
"How can ah be of any use when ah can't even." Rogue stopped and shook her head, "No. Ah gotta go Darin'. Ah just gotta."
"But I love you."
" There'll be othah women Darin'. Othah women who'll giva ya what ah can't. But there'll nevah be anothah for me." Rogue walked out of the door. "Goodbye Darin'." Rogue got into the cab at the curb and never looked back. Not until now. *********************************************************************** Rogue woke up, with no recollection of what had happened. She looked around and found herself in a beautiful bedroom, filled with vanilla flowers and roses. The bed was covered in creamy silk sheets and the four- poster was draped in the same material, rose petals spread all across the sheets and the room. The sun shone brightly threw the windows and Rogue saw a downtown she'd never seen before. She got off the soft bed and realized she was wearing a beautiful red dress. This was so confusing. She remembered being in a cop car in disguise and Kerri coming towards her. but after that. nothing.
"Chere is finally awake." Rogue turned and saw Remy, in his usual trench coat and thief like fashion. He was smiling and walking toward Rogue as though nothing had happened. Remy was about to hug her but she backed away, unsure of what to make of all this.
"Remy.?" was all she managed to say. He smiled.
"Petite don't remember?" Rogue shook her head. "Remy saved her. Ze X-men are all fine and chere is visitin' Remy's home." Rogue frowned. How could she not remember all that? How?
"And Kerri? Adam? Darin' and Stokes? Where are they?"
"All well and staying wit de professor. We are alone, finally." Remy moved closer and Rogue didn't move away this time. She didn't really believe him. After all he was a thief and everything didn't really fit together. Maybe she was just hoping it was true so that she could finally be with him and not worry about anyone else. She'd only ever worried about herself or others around her, never about someone like Remy. She always had to be the big sister, but with him. he was looking out for her.
"But Remy."
"Shhhhh. Chere musn' ruin de moment." Remy brushed back her reddish brown hair and looked deeply into her green eyes. She couldn't move even if she tried. She felt his breath on her face, he was so close, it was unbearable. She too lifted her head so that they're lips were only an inch apart. Closer and closer. And then.
"Ah can't." Rogue closed her eyes and bowed her head so that Remy couldn't see her face. He put his hand on her chin.
"Chere?" Remy said confused. It was the first time he couldn't get the pain to leave but the smallest touch. He didn't have any control over this girl and that frustrated him and made him love her more. They'd say mean things to each other but they'd always come back together. Always.
"Ya'll are lyin' ta me Cajun. Ah know it. It's somethin' about yar eyes, and ah know ya'll are tryin' real hard ta make me not go back. but ah hafta." Rogue threw her head back to look at Remy. "Ah know ya'll don't undastand me. God ah wish ya could but. ah'll ah know is that mah friends are in trouble. and when ah think about it. They're all ah got." She shook her head, "Ah wish ah wasn't a mutant and that ah could just be normal. Ah wish ah didn't have a stupid conscience to hold me back. Ah wish it was just you n me Cajun but. ah can't run from love fo'evah."
"Why are you runnin' from da love dat I have chere?"
"Ah know ah have yar love Cajun. Damned if ah know how ta lose it, but these people. They're mah friends. And ah can't help lovin' em. Ya." Rogue smiled, "Kitty too, an maybe Evan. on a good day. The thang is Cajun, they've invested so much hope and faith in me. Ah can't turn the othah way. Ah have to fight for mah family. or the closest thang that ah have to one." Remy stayed silent. Rogue was sure he was going to either smack her one or try and persuade her but he didn't. He stood there, and just stared at her. Then something in his smoldering red eyes suddenly burnt out.
"If dat's what you hafto do chere." He said in his most grave tone. "Den I guess I must do what I must do too." And before Rogue could inquire what he was going to do. he was off, his coat trailing in the breeze as he opened the balcony door and jumped off the railing and down into the streets below. Rogue chased after him and looked down off the side of the building but too late. He was gone and knowing Remy he was probably already a mile away.
Rogue backed up into the room and shut the doors that led out onto the terrace. The room was suddenly very cold and the doors of the balcony blew open again and a Gail force seemed to blow threw the small apartment. She closed it and this time latched it shut. She bent down to pick up some papers that had blown of the table and found in amongst the documents was a letter. A letter addressed to Rogue.
Rogue opened it hesitantly and out slipped a small piece of notepaper and a tiny band of gold with a heart and the smallest of diamonds in the center. Rogue opened the piece of paper and her heart melted instantly at the handwriting she knew as Remy's.
My Dearest Rogue, If you are reading this right now, then you have probably refused me once again. I wish it could have been another way Rogue, ma chere. You probably already know but I would do anything for you. Die for you if I must. And I would rather know death than know your face without a smile, or without life. Ma petite, as I said. I wish it could have been another way. But I must leave you with these last regrets. That I never told you that I love you. And I do chere. With all my heart. And though I know a thief's love is not always so respectable, you will never escape it. With all my love,
Remy LeBeau And enclosed is a symbol of my love. My heart is always in your hands.
Rogue looked down at the small ring lying on the desk. Regrets? Rogue thought about this. What was that silly Cajun going on about now? And then Rogue gasped at what he must have meant. That crazy Cajun fool was going to try and save the X-men for her. She was sure of it. But why?
Rogue suddenly swaggered from side to side, feeling as though she were about to throw up or be sick. She finally fell onto the bed and felt as though she was going to just die. He loved her so much that he was going to do this? Rogue lay there all night, thinking about him and how she'd condemned him to die. Until she fell asleep.
************************************************************************ Yes I know. this chapter is pretty confusaling. and sweet. and important. because what is going to happen in the next chapter. oh it is too terrible for words. Remy. will.. Die?
Cuz I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
"Do you HAVE to listen to that depressing music right now Rogue?" Kerri said as she flipped threw her fashion magazines and played with her hair. "Where are Daring and Stokes?" Rogue muttered under her breath. Kerri raised an eyebrow. "Still hurting?"
"Ah don't know what ya'll're talkin bout."
"Come on Rogue, why did you break up with Daring? I mean you obviously still like him." Kerri threw her magazine on the floor. For some reason she liked tormenting Rogue about her love life. Maybe it was because Rogue always got the guys that Kerri liked, maybe it was because Kerri had grown up in Bel-Air and just liked to gossip. Either way Rogue didn't like being left alone with Kerri, incase she suddenly found the courage to attack the brunette.
"Ah just don't like 'im anymore." Rogue wanted the conversation to end there but it didn't.
"Yeah right. It's cause you can't touch him isn't it." Kerri smiled evilly. "He deserves someone who can touch him. That's what you think isn't it?"
"Knock knock." Daring said as he and Stokes walked in, both drenched in what appeared to be sweat. "Just got back from basketball. What are you two up to?"
"Rogue is listening to her super depressing music again." Kerri said as she blew a bubble and chomped on her gum. Daring tried not to make eye contact with Rogue and Stokely quickly changed the subject.
"Anybody seen Adam?"
"Probably studying." Kerri said rolling her eyes, "I'll tell you this, he's the dumbest smart guy I've ever met."
"What's got you in such a bitter mood? Daring said as Stokely went into the bathroom to change.
"She's permanently PMSing tha's what." Rogue said, a little louder than she'd meant to. Kerri looked severely pissed at this comment.
"I'm sorry. We can't all be as perfect as little Miss patient ugly Goth freak show!" Kerri then stomped off upstairs and slammed her door. Daring shook his head.
"I pity the man who gets stuck with her." Rogue got up and grabbed her bags, fully packed and waiting at the door. Daring stood up.
"Where are you going?" Rogue paused at the door.
"Vegas, New York, who knows really." Rogue bent down and grabbed her bags and opened the door, but still paused. "Take care of Stokes for me. Ah'll call sometime, but she won' understand rite now."
"Don't leave." Daring moved forward. "WE need you."
"How can ah be of any use when ah can't even." Rogue stopped and shook her head, "No. Ah gotta go Darin'. Ah just gotta."
"But I love you."
" There'll be othah women Darin'. Othah women who'll giva ya what ah can't. But there'll nevah be anothah for me." Rogue walked out of the door. "Goodbye Darin'." Rogue got into the cab at the curb and never looked back. Not until now. *********************************************************************** Rogue woke up, with no recollection of what had happened. She looked around and found herself in a beautiful bedroom, filled with vanilla flowers and roses. The bed was covered in creamy silk sheets and the four- poster was draped in the same material, rose petals spread all across the sheets and the room. The sun shone brightly threw the windows and Rogue saw a downtown she'd never seen before. She got off the soft bed and realized she was wearing a beautiful red dress. This was so confusing. She remembered being in a cop car in disguise and Kerri coming towards her. but after that. nothing.
"Chere is finally awake." Rogue turned and saw Remy, in his usual trench coat and thief like fashion. He was smiling and walking toward Rogue as though nothing had happened. Remy was about to hug her but she backed away, unsure of what to make of all this.
"Remy.?" was all she managed to say. He smiled.
"Petite don't remember?" Rogue shook her head. "Remy saved her. Ze X-men are all fine and chere is visitin' Remy's home." Rogue frowned. How could she not remember all that? How?
"And Kerri? Adam? Darin' and Stokes? Where are they?"
"All well and staying wit de professor. We are alone, finally." Remy moved closer and Rogue didn't move away this time. She didn't really believe him. After all he was a thief and everything didn't really fit together. Maybe she was just hoping it was true so that she could finally be with him and not worry about anyone else. She'd only ever worried about herself or others around her, never about someone like Remy. She always had to be the big sister, but with him. he was looking out for her.
"But Remy."
"Shhhhh. Chere musn' ruin de moment." Remy brushed back her reddish brown hair and looked deeply into her green eyes. She couldn't move even if she tried. She felt his breath on her face, he was so close, it was unbearable. She too lifted her head so that they're lips were only an inch apart. Closer and closer. And then.
"Ah can't." Rogue closed her eyes and bowed her head so that Remy couldn't see her face. He put his hand on her chin.
"Chere?" Remy said confused. It was the first time he couldn't get the pain to leave but the smallest touch. He didn't have any control over this girl and that frustrated him and made him love her more. They'd say mean things to each other but they'd always come back together. Always.
"Ya'll are lyin' ta me Cajun. Ah know it. It's somethin' about yar eyes, and ah know ya'll are tryin' real hard ta make me not go back. but ah hafta." Rogue threw her head back to look at Remy. "Ah know ya'll don't undastand me. God ah wish ya could but. ah'll ah know is that mah friends are in trouble. and when ah think about it. They're all ah got." She shook her head, "Ah wish ah wasn't a mutant and that ah could just be normal. Ah wish ah didn't have a stupid conscience to hold me back. Ah wish it was just you n me Cajun but. ah can't run from love fo'evah."
"Why are you runnin' from da love dat I have chere?"
"Ah know ah have yar love Cajun. Damned if ah know how ta lose it, but these people. They're mah friends. And ah can't help lovin' em. Ya." Rogue smiled, "Kitty too, an maybe Evan. on a good day. The thang is Cajun, they've invested so much hope and faith in me. Ah can't turn the othah way. Ah have to fight for mah family. or the closest thang that ah have to one." Remy stayed silent. Rogue was sure he was going to either smack her one or try and persuade her but he didn't. He stood there, and just stared at her. Then something in his smoldering red eyes suddenly burnt out.
"If dat's what you hafto do chere." He said in his most grave tone. "Den I guess I must do what I must do too." And before Rogue could inquire what he was going to do. he was off, his coat trailing in the breeze as he opened the balcony door and jumped off the railing and down into the streets below. Rogue chased after him and looked down off the side of the building but too late. He was gone and knowing Remy he was probably already a mile away.
Rogue backed up into the room and shut the doors that led out onto the terrace. The room was suddenly very cold and the doors of the balcony blew open again and a Gail force seemed to blow threw the small apartment. She closed it and this time latched it shut. She bent down to pick up some papers that had blown of the table and found in amongst the documents was a letter. A letter addressed to Rogue.
Rogue opened it hesitantly and out slipped a small piece of notepaper and a tiny band of gold with a heart and the smallest of diamonds in the center. Rogue opened the piece of paper and her heart melted instantly at the handwriting she knew as Remy's.
My Dearest Rogue, If you are reading this right now, then you have probably refused me once again. I wish it could have been another way Rogue, ma chere. You probably already know but I would do anything for you. Die for you if I must. And I would rather know death than know your face without a smile, or without life. Ma petite, as I said. I wish it could have been another way. But I must leave you with these last regrets. That I never told you that I love you. And I do chere. With all my heart. And though I know a thief's love is not always so respectable, you will never escape it. With all my love,
Remy LeBeau And enclosed is a symbol of my love. My heart is always in your hands.
Rogue looked down at the small ring lying on the desk. Regrets? Rogue thought about this. What was that silly Cajun going on about now? And then Rogue gasped at what he must have meant. That crazy Cajun fool was going to try and save the X-men for her. She was sure of it. But why?
Rogue suddenly swaggered from side to side, feeling as though she were about to throw up or be sick. She finally fell onto the bed and felt as though she was going to just die. He loved her so much that he was going to do this? Rogue lay there all night, thinking about him and how she'd condemned him to die. Until she fell asleep.
************************************************************************ Yes I know. this chapter is pretty confusaling. and sweet. and important. because what is going to happen in the next chapter. oh it is too terrible for words. Remy. will.. Die?