A/N: Heeeeeelllllllooooooo guys!!!!! After a thousand of ages of absence I'm back (I mean a couple of weeks)!!!! I'm really sorry for the delay, please forgive me. Well, I want to thank those who keep on reviewing. D.G. Revlis and Animalcrackers... love you guys and thanks for the compliments. Lil, keep on reading too. You know I need you. I want to acknowledge my new reader Azalea (Roadmap rulezz!!!!), keep on reading girl and please.... review every chapter if possible!!!!1 Thanks to all and may you enjoy this one!!!!!

Disclaimer: The characters are not mine but J.K. let me borrow them so let's just have fun! Thanks again J.K. You're the BEST! Nothing is mine except Maya Chan. (",)

Chapter 10

Wishes and Heartaches

"Hey, Gin. You okay?" Harry asked as they continued walking to the library.

"Huh?" Ginny said. "Yeah I-I'm fine. Just thinking about something…" She explained to Harry.

Harry placed one hand around Ginny's shoulder to comfort her. "Don't worry about those girls… They don't know anything. They're just a bunch of no good girls trying to flirt and all. You're not like them so just don't mind them." Harry said in a soft voice.

Ginny was surprised that Harry knew what she was thinking of. Thank goodness he wasn't even bothered by those girls, thought Ginny. "Thanks, Harry." She said as they neared the library.

"That's all right." Harry replied.

"Here's the library." Ginny said, stopping in front of the entrance. "So, where are you going now?" She asked.

"Oh no!" Harry cried. "I forgot that I was supposed to give this report to Professor McGonagall!!!" Harry said, looking at the parchment in his hand.

"I'm sorry you had to go to all that trouble because of me…" Ginny said apologetically.

"That's okay." Harry said, smiling. "I'm sure McGonagall won't mind if I'm a little late." Harry turned his back to leave.

"Harry?"

"Huh?"

"Thanks for your help again. You were always there when I needed you. Thanks."

"You're welcome." And Harry began walking away.

"Ginny!"

Ginny turned her back and saw Maya running towards her. She immediately hugged Ginny and said (after letting go), "Where have you been? I've been looking for you for almost two hours!"

"Sshhhhhhh!!!" Ginny said. "Maya, we're inside the library. Do you want Gryffindor to lose any points?" She said as she went on scanning the Muggle Division Area.

"I was just worried about you." Maya said in a whisper. "So where were you?"

"I was just…. Never mind!" Ginny said, trying to forget all about Malfoy.

"So now you don't want to tell." Maya said, trying to make Ginny say it.

"Yup. I don't want to tell and that's why I'm not telling anything." Ginny smiled.

"By your smile I can see Harry's involved in the story...." Maya teased.

"No," Ginny immediately denied.

Ginny was good at pretending and that was the reason she could easily fool anyone… even her best friend.

"I told you Maya, Harry's already my past." She said those words without any feelings but deep inside, her heart was crumbling slowly.

"Harry and I just met a while ago. He told me you're in here." She said, changing the topic. "So, do you have plans for the Hogsmeade weekend already?" Maya asked.

"Well…. Just the bookstore actually. And a butterbeer and the candy store. I'll just plan it tomorrow with the rest of us, I guess." Ginny answered.

"Okay then. Just tell me when's the meeting." Maya said and went off.

"By the way, " said Maya, getting back to the shelf where Ginny was scanning for books, "we don't have any classes with Professor Binns today. He began to cry again about his dreadful death… you know." She winked at Ginny.

Ginny smiled. "Thanks, Maya. So where are you going?" She asked.

"I'm going to return my cousin's book to him." Maya said, showing the book in her hand.

"You have a cousin at Hogwarts?" Ginny said in disbelief. "How come I didn't meet him yet!" She complained.

"You'll meet him soon…" Maya said, smiling softly.

"What year is he in? Is he also in Gryffindor?" Ginny asked curiously.

"He's in fifth year like Harry and Ron." Maya answered. "And he's in Hufflepuff."

"I see." Ginny said.

"Well got to go now." Maya said. "Bye, Gin."

"Bye, Maya."

Ginny didn't find any interesting book so she headed back to the Gryffindor tower.

Might as well write to my diary now… I'll be busy later with my homeworks, Ginny thought as she turned the corner.

"Hi, Ginny."

"Hello, Harr—" Ginny stopped walking and looked back. She thought it was Harry because of the way his voice sounded and his black hair but it couldn't be him because of his eyes. They were gentle purple while Harry's eyes were green… warm green.

"Who was that then?" She asked herself. The corridor was already empty when she looked back.

Ginny sighed and tapped her head lightly. "Must have imagined it. But it felt so real…."

Finally, she arrived at the tower still thinking about the mysterious guy.

The girl crept slowly to her bed and reached for her purple diary. She opened the lock and took out her quill. Another diary entry was about to start in Ginny Weasley's Diary….

Dear Diary,

Harry was very kind to me this day. He saved me from Malfoy and even escorted me to the library to assure that I'm all right. He is really a true friend.

Best of friends, that's what we are right now. All the girls who have a crush on Harry envy me I guess. Just like that girl… I think her name's Hailey but I really don't know her. Being Harry's best friend is great. Better than being known to Harry as Ron's little sister. But it also has its bitter part… Being Harry's best friend made me closer to his heart. Just one step away from being more than his best friend but I can't make that one last step. Why? Harry had fallen for my best friend instead. Maya Chan has been my best friend since our second year. She's like my sister already that's why I can't get mad at her because Harry likes her and not me.

Those girls who envy me doesn't know anything; they don't know how hard it is. To be close to Harry but not close enough… Sometimes I wish I never became Harry's best friend. Then he won't meet Maya and I can still continue sharing my secrets about Harry with Maya. Now I live a life full of lies. The biggest and painful lie is to Maya—that I don't love Harry anymore. But being Harry's best friend is also great since I feel that he gives importance to me.

Sometimes, I like to get mad at Maya. She keeps on telling me stories about Harry and herself. "Hey, Gin. Guess what? Harry greeted me today and he even carried my books!" "He's so sweet. He kept on offering me some candies." "Gin, Harry smiled at me." "Ginny, look Harry has given me this. Isn't it nice?" Those stories kill me little by little. But I can't blame her… I was the one who told her that I was already over Harry. I was the one who told her to give Harry a chance. She's just giving herself a chance to love again after that tragic moment of breakup with Jeff. She wasn't really the one to blame. I was the one to blame! All of these sufferings were my fault.

But there were stories that made me smile too… Hermione kept on telling me Harry's just confused and afraid of Ron. Ron was always protective on me and Harry didn't want to hurt me so Harry just avoided me. That's what Hermione kept on telling me. There was this instance that I caught Harry looking at me every meal at the Great Hall since I was sitting in front of him. But what if he wasn't looking at me but at Maya who's sitting beside me… I really don't know anymore…

Always, I'll dream of him. Wishing that our friendship will grow and become more than friendship. That wish is very impossible but I like it to come true anyway. Harry and me having fun and having the same moments like Ron and Hermione. Everyday he'll help me with my problems and assure me that he's just there to help. Just like a best friend. I know we're already best friends but it's still very different if you're the one that makes Harry Potter live. You're the one who makes him strong and you're the one who'll stand up with him until the end… That's what I want to be but I guess that's going to be Maya's role soon… I'll just stay as Harry's best friend…forever.

Anyway, a strange thing happened to me today… I met a guy. Not actually met properly but he just said hi. I really don't know him but I thought he was Harry… It's really strange.

I wish I can know him better… Maybe a guy will change things for me. I still can't forget Harry but still I have to find ways to lessen the pain….

Hogsmeade weekend is getting nearer. I can't wait! I'll be buying the Muggle book I told you I saw once last year. I've been saving for it all year!

I'm starving already. Might as well say bye-bye and eat downstairs. Bye!

Ginny

P.S. I'm really confused right now. Harry likes Maya that's obvious but he's not courting her; just keep on being nice to her. Does this mean I have a chance? No, I think not. He's really for Maya….

She closed her diary and placed it back in her drawer. She looked at her reflection on the mirror and headed to the Great Hall.

"Where's Maya?" Ginny asked. "I can't believe she left me!"

She walked faster and faster towards the Gryffindor table, still searching for Maya or Harry.

Immediately, she saw the two sitting with Hermione and Ron on their usual spot.

She walked faster and faster; the noise of the Great Hall was very loud. All the students were chattering continuously. Food was already served in the tables.

"Hi, Ginny."

Ginny turned to see who was it this time. But again, she didn't see anyone at her back. All the Gryffindors were eating and talking but not to her. The Hufflepuff table which was at the right side of the Gryffindor table (A/N: or is it left? In this fanfic the Hufflepuff table is in the corner of the Great Hall.) was also the same. No one was looking at her but she knew someone did call her.

Who was it? Ginny thought. She sat in the Gryffindor table without any clue who it was.

Poor Ginny. Her problem with Harry was enough for her head to crack up but now there was this mysterious guy to deal with too.

Ginny didn't know one thing about Harry. That Harry too was having his own problems… Harry was also confused about his feelings actually. But Harry was sure about one thing—he was willing to give Ginny his life just to protect her.

A/N: Isn't it sweeeettttt????? Anyway that's chapter 10. I'm really sorry it took so long. PLEEEEZZZZZEEE don't get mad. Don't click the close button yet! Not until you finished submitting a review….. Thank you!