Curt
He lay next to me, asleep. His dark hair had fallen across his face, making him look younger, more innocent. Even when asleep, his beauty was obvious – his skin almost gleamed in the moonlight, a stark contrast against the near black of his hair. I reached across instinctively to brush the hair off his face, and couldn't resist placing a tender kiss to his forehead. I lay back, trying to get my head around what the hell had just happened. I felt like it had been like a dream, something that was hard to recall, as if it were covered by a haze, muffling my memory.
The window was open and a draught had begun to swirl around the room, making me shiver. I curled up as close as I could to him, stroking his shoulder, trying to convince myself that he was still here and wasn't going to leave. I was both blissfully happy, and also irritated for letting this happen again, and so quickly. After Brian had left me alone and shattered in two, I thought my heart had been so hardened against any emotion except pain that I could never even begin to feel this way about anyone ever again. But I had been proved wrong. This man had saved me – not only from a life lonelier than I could begin to imagine, but also from myself, from the frail, bitter skeleton my heart could have become. Despite this, anxiety still lurked in the back of my mind – what if he left me, just like Brian? Could my heart stand the pain of being broken twice? But he wasn't Brian, I thought. No one else could be either both as perfect or as poisonous as Brian, so I hoped that no matter what happened, my heart could be bruised neither as hard nor as devastatingly as before. Besides, this man had an impression of openness and compassion about him that Brian had never had. Something in him told me that he would be more careful with me, and not shatter my soul into countless pieces.
Suddenly the ridiculousness of the situation hit me; this man was my saviour, my rescuer, my angel, and I didn't even know his name. But that could wait till the morning. Smiling to myself, I kissed him again and settled back to sleep.