Chapter 1: Determination
"Morning de..dear", he rolled over? "Where is she? Honey? Kana?" He got up and walked out of the room to find her. He found her looking out on the window grabbing her chest.
"There you are. Did you sleep last night?"
"I couldn't. I couldn't help but look at the snow. This is probably the last time before spring comes in."
"You're right." He held her from behind and noticed that she still has her hand on her chest. "Are you okay, honey? Are you in pain?"
"I'm fine, just a little tired. I'll be fine. You better hurry and get ready. I'll go make breakfast and your lunch for today."
"Alright, but are you sure you're okay?" He turned her around and looked in her eyes. Kana looked away for a moment but looked at him again with gentle eyes to assure her husband that she was fine.
"I'm fine, dear, really I am." Kana hugged him and he hugged her back. He let go of her and walked back into the master bedroom to get ready. Kana looked at the snow one last time before she headed off to the kitchen to prepare her husband's meal.
As she prepared his meal, she couldn't help but wonder what the dream was all about. But the harder she thought about it, the more pain it brought to her chest as if it was resisting her from trying to solve the riddle to her distraught. Her husband soon came into the kitchen ready for work and sat down ready for Kana's lovely morning breakfast.
"Kana, do you know what day it is?" Kana's husband slyly asked as he ate his breakfast.
"Huh?" Kana replied as if spaced out from.
"How cold. You don't know what today is. I'm hurt." He frowned.
Kana looks at the calendar next to the kitchen door. March 14. It's White Day. It was the day he asked Kana to marry him. It's been one year since they got married. "I'm sorry! How could I not have noticed?"
"It's okay. Hehe, it seems like you have a lot on your mind. Do you want to talk about it?"
"I don't know. I'm fine, really, but I just can't help but feel that there is something that I can't figure out. The more I think about it, the more it brings me into confusion. It's frustrating me.
"What is it that's frustrating you?"
"It's Ha-…" Kana stopped. She couldn't say anymore.
"Ha?"
"Hairstyles. I just can't seem to remember the hairstyle that I had a couple of years ago."
"Oh when you were interning with that family doctor? Maybe you should ask him? But don't you have any pictures of yourself during that time."
"I don't know. I'll check on that today."
"Well, if you don't have any, just go ask the doctor. I'm sure he'll be able to recognize you."
"Yeah…maybe I will."
"Well, anyways, I'll come back early from work today since it's our special day." He got up and gave her a kiss on the cheek before he left for work.
"Kana, don't get to worked up this hairstyle. If you can't remember, then just let it go. Why do you want to remember it anyways?"
"I don't know. Curiosity perhaps?" Kana tried to make it sound like she was serious about the issue.
"For a hairstyle, 3 years ago? Oh well, I'll see you tonight. See you."
"See you." Kana waved back and began cleaning up the table as she silently thought about her dilemma. After she finished cleaning the dishes she decided to go into her bedroom to look in her photo album. As she pulled it out and took a look at it on her bed, she smiled at the happy events that occurred in her life thus far. She continued flipping through the pictures until it occurs to her, there were no pictures of her 3 years ago. As if nothing was recorded about her life when she interned under Hatori. She dug through her box of memories further and looked through her old journals. There was no record of that year as well. Her heart raced even faster. She held on to her heart even more. She looked out the window. The snow was coming down harder. She walked towards the window and leaned her head against the wall as she stared out the window.
"It seems like the snow doesn't want me to know. Why? What don't you want me to find out?" She turned around and headed towards the closet.
"I'm going to find answers about this dream, even if it means I have to open wounded hearts of the past….I'm sorry my husband." She dressed and left her home wondering if unlocking her unknown past would change her life forever.
To be continued…
End note: there we go again! Another chapter finished! It seems like as each chapter is being written I already have in mind what the next chapter will be about. Stay tuned as Kana begins her journey to the past. Will she get her answers or will she forget about it and return home to her hubby? We'll find out soon. ^_^